nth much pretty... test on wed n todae we had our presentation.... met tracy yest after my test n we went to shop... we bought a pair of heels each.... shld post pic instead of words as tracy sae they r no pic... this r the pic tt i wore todae for my presentation..... the rest r taken sometime ago....

nth much ba.... wed went for movie wit kim kai... we went to watch body 19 as he has 2 free tickets n i happen to be free... then watch together.... thurs had autocat test n i didnt do well for my section side as i cant do.... so i focus on other parst... then meet alexa at nite to study... ya i did manage to study.... then todae went for training then after tt eat wit shenwu kimkai yue hua n the other guy dun noe wat name.... then after tt long bang shen wu car home as he near at admiratly.... quite near to yishun.... training was tough but gd... i manage to learn a lot this week...




a lot of things happens... n i am not sure of wat is gg on at times.... i think i screw up my life again... it is in a mess.... there r so many problems everywhere to be solved... n i juz ignoring it... coz i dun noe how to solve.... or i am tired of everything liao..... i dun noe either.....

went to find ade on fri.... then saw him but i feel very calm n no feeling..... we act like strangers... since this is the case n decision u made.... i respect u.... so we will be strangers in future.... then sat n sun slack at home.... nth much.... todae went to meet weiboon ade friend... he teach mi la... thx a lot... he also treat mi dinner so i treat him drink back... then we chat until 8 n went home.... nice chatting wit him... he is a nice guy... he listen to my grumble... haha... but i bad la keep grumbling... he is patient.... thx a lot my friend...


my life had been pretty gd i guess.... without u i feel more relax.... i feel more happier.... i love my life now... studying working family n friends..... n i need to thx my classmates for the help n support they given during tt period of time.... especially marie janice pearlene eddy darren dee... thx for staying by my side.... thx... n not forgetting my family besties n buddies n friends n bosses.... i have get over le... n starting my new life now... i am leading a brand new life... i love my life.... thx for making my life complete.... i loved all of u....

i wont turn back

i wont turn back anymore.... i had enough of ur lies... u tell mi the lies n then a few daes ltr it is being exposed.... wat the hell r u playing... u wan to play plz leave mi out of it... plz.. it is not fun at all... i realli had enough of it... i wont tolerate anymore... coz i wont believe u anymore... now u realli piss mi off... i am not tired of all this n i had given up... totally given up n disappointed... tt is all wat i can sae now...

I AM SORRY

i am realli sorry for not doing my part well... i am realli sorry... i noe u all might be angry or disappoint wit mi... n i am realli sry... i realli dun noe wat to sae expect apologise... realli sry guys to make u all disappointed again....

some songs tt describe how i feel....

here r some songs tt describe how i feel...

Cry on my shoulder

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do




平常心

街道静的刺耳
夜被路灯染色
趁感伤醒来前
先上车不会不舍
承认我是弱者
不敢再对爱假设
我真的累得不想再拉扯

我寻找的平静
是我将来看电影
带着一颗平常心
不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛
我需要的平静
是敢回头看曾经
那些为爱患得患失的情景
我选择忘记

我不懂得取舍
才让心痛堆着
找得到前些年
的快乐只是偶尔
回忆是个诱饵
是来叫我回去的
要伤能愈合
我非走不可




我不想忘记你 by Claire

我在向前走 却像在退后
我在用想念 狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会追梦
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄
我努力想起你 笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你 再学会放弃
我不想忘记你 就算可以 我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你 哭也没关系
用祝福和感激 勇敢失去你
爱你 这个决定
虽然艰辛 我不说 对不起
一个人不懂 什么是拥有
俩个人不懂 怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会追梦
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄
我努力想起你 笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你 再学会放弃
我不想忘记你 就算可以 我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你 哭也没关系
用祝福和感激 勇敢失去你
爱你 这个决定
虽然艰辛 我不说 对不起



没有你的每一天

回家的路总是很远 花哨的恨可怜
一个人的晚餐 都是孤单的滋味

看见身边重复上演 属于我们的画面
选择逃避的眼 怎么还是会流泪

爱着你的每一天 你就是我的世界
那时候还以为 我 就爱这一遍
没有你的每一天 快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了 还能用什么感觉

我舍不得睁开眼睛 害怕身边没有你
也许在梦境里 是我们最近的距离

想念你温热的手心 冷风里把我握紧
当冬天又来临 这温度该怎么延续

谢谢你曾经爱过我 给我最美的经过
但生命最爱被剥夺 未来的路该怎么走

爱着你的每一天 你就是我的世界
那时候还以为 我 就爱这一遍
没有你的每一天 快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了 还能用什么感觉





never let you go

The rain just never seems to bring the joy I feel the same
Everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart can't seem to learn to part
The hold you left your mark
All that I dreamed of now it seem so stark

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath
A part of me was dyin
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
And you know I'd never let you go

The way you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything of that day
I can't believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance
To share the sunset
Our one last romance

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath
A part of me was dying
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
And you know I'd never let you go

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
And you know I'd never let you go




分開以後

想喊你　卻沒敢開口
最後只有　留著淚看你走
我想問我　是否只願意就這樣放手
既然無法挽留　只好接受

從今以後　你要寂寞多久
誰能給予你　我這般的溫柔
也許是多慮了　你離開我會過得更快樂
可對於軟弱的我　回憶就足夠

分開以後　每當想到你　就會低下頭
緊握的手　不知過了多久
我相信你　也會有一樣的辛酸難受
都曾經深愛過誰　有誰能捨得

在離開你之後　想快樂也只是一種強求
一個人　怎麼過都是愁
懂得擁有　卻未必能讓你為我停留
最後只剩遺憾　拉住我不放手

OH~~~~YA~~~~~

分開以後　每當想到你　就會低下頭
緊握的手　不知過了多久
我相信你　也會有一樣的辛酸難受
都曾經深愛過誰　有真的捨得

在離開你之後　想快樂也只是一種強求
一個人　怎麼過都是愁
懂得擁有　卻未必能讓你為我停留
最後只剩遺憾　拉住我不放手




最愛還是你

没开口的话 怎样才能懂
我好想把画面倒带回头
你留在我心里 熟悉的表情
每个温暖纯白的回忆 穿越了距离
拥挤的人潮 没有人知道
我偷偷想你 嘴角就会笑
不要说对不起 也不要问原因
就让世界不停的向前 别忘记从前
最爱还是你 这是我的决定(没有人能代替)
像宇宙相对的星 互相吸引 慢慢就会靠近
还是要爱你 时间会证明 我爱你的勇气(没有人能代替)
牵著你的手 才知道是永久
拥挤的人潮 没有人知道
我偷偷想你 嘴角就会笑
不要说对不起 也不要问原因
就让世界不停的向前 别忘记从前

最爱还是你 这是我的决定(没有人能代替)
像宇宙相对的星 互相吸引 慢慢就会靠近
还是要爱你 时间会证明 我爱你的勇气(没有人能代替)
牵著你的手 才知道是永久

这一次我放弃了所有 只为能再与你相遇
最爱还是你 这是我的决定(没有人能代替)
像宇宙相对的星 互相吸引 慢慢就会靠近
还是要爱你 时间会证明 我爱你的勇气(没有人能代替)
牵著你的手 才知道是永久 一辈子不放手

at last i have done finish my report.... but my report sucks.... words getting lesser n lesser... dun even noe wat i am doing... hope tt i can pass this modcule... i fail 4 modcule for my common test... i onli pass materials tec n got a C... then autocat maufacturing tech engineering mechanics n math i got a fail.... haiz... sob sob... muz buck up le... then left wit the presentation n lab report for my sem project...


last wed went shopping wit shirley n i realli shop... i bought a lot of clothes home... spend ard 100 plus... i still havent found my desire heels yet so i shall go n slowly find.... i admit i am very fussy when i come to selection of heels.... then mon went to meet lai wit tracey.... chat wit her for some time... erm... shall not sae wat it is about... yest i skip the first lesson coz of my giddyness.... then yest spend the whole nite finish my report... n i finish in the morning 5.30am then went to spend for 2 hrs n late for sch todae... todae plan to work but i am extremely tired then fell asleep....




i dun noe whether u will be reading this blog or not coz i changed my blog link again.... actually i dun wan u to read but now to mi it does not matter anymore.... then sun nite u call mi n we chatted for a while.... U TOLD MI THAT U WAN MI TO BELIEVE THAT U N HER R NOT TOGETHER BUT THE WAY U DO THINGS IS SO DIFFERENT FROM THE WAY U SAE.... 你说的和你做不一样... then how u wan mi to believe u... i realli dun noe... not tt i dun wan to trust u but u DISAPPOINTED mi again n again... so how u wan mi to believe u.... if u wan mi to believe u then prove it to mi through ur action.... action speak louder then words....


i juz wan to tell u something... my health is not getting better in fact it is gettting worse so i hope tt u dun come n affect mi anymore... i realli dun wan to be affected by u anymore.... coz of u my giddyness got worse.... coz of u my chest pain got worse.... coz of u my health condition worsen instead of becoming better..... if u realli wan to be friend... then be friends onli no need to explain to mi so much n care whether i have bf or not... whether i am attached or not... u jolly well noe the reason y.... friends is friends plz dun go over tt line... my health suffer a lot n became worsen during tt period of time when we went into cooling period n the broke up period.... watever u sae r juz empty promises.... u have hurt mi deep enough so plz stop it.... plz dun hurt mi anymore... u can ask candy or fiona abt my health condition if u dun believe.... they r the ones who realli noe how worse my health condition is.... till now it is still the same so plz dun worsen my condition anymore.... if not i will end up in hospital sooner or later...


i noe my health is gg worse n worse each dae coz i nvr take gd care of myself.... i nvr rest properly eat properly.... i wan to rest but i cant coz of the workload.... yest morning i skip sch is coz of my giddyness.... i nearly faint when i woke up n started to walk.... my pain n giddyness is back everydae n almost everydae will happen once... at least once... i hope tt my health can be better instead of worse....




i wan to thanks kim kai for listening to my problems... i realli thanks him a lot even though we dun noe each other very long... he is willing to lend mi his ears to listen... sorry to make u listen to my grumble n all this... but i realli appreaciate tt u r willing to listen to mi.... i am realli grateful to u.... n thanks u for being my friend..... i hope tt our friendship will lasts....

at last the photo r here....





us again my best buddy wit mi

mi on town during christma

pa dinner at vivo....

yest i join a cca n tt is takwando.... it was the first lesson... n i make a lot new friends... all r so friendly... the training was realli scary but it was also fun.... they do a lot of stretching n running.... after the training i was so tired coz very long nvr like this le.... i muz go n train n build up my stamina.... it realli require a lot of stamina... i very long nvr run le....





n i join takwando is not coz of him... is coz it was my interest... before i knew him i already had the interest but i am lazy... n now i have the time also...





i had already move on... i am also leading my own life now... n now i am used of not having u by my side anymore... i had learn to be independent.... i had been enjoying my life..... i admit tt i still loved u but my love for u have started to fade as the time pass..... eventually i will forget my love for u n wat will be left is the wonderful memories tt we had....