TIRED

i am so tired.... realli very tired.... so many things to digest.... i dun noe wat to do... very fan n confused now.... now i hope mi or my dear dun collapse at this time.... although we r tired... we will go through this together as we promise...... we will overcome it.... we r strong.... we will be strong.... i realli gg to collapse but i still hang on until everything is over....




todae went shopping wit fiona... we didnt realli shop as both of us r trouble..... juz randomly walk ard.... too tired also... both of us r tired due to our own problems..... too fan until we went to arcade to vent out our troubles.... even we vent out we r juz onli a bit better.... we r realli emo n troubled....

i hate ppl who has no manners....

i am so angry now.... i hate ppl who has no manners.... i realli hate... be it adults or children... especially those parents who DONT TEACH their children..... some parents have the time to idle n slp why not spend the time to teach...... the most at least muz have the basic manner... if they dont have then plz stay away from mi.... if not u will definitely get it from mi.... trust mi i realli hate ppl who no manner....

HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO ANTHONY N HUI QING

todae is my darling cousin birthdae celebration.... we celebrate todae.... then my dear came after work... meet him at the mrt.... quite fun n alot of things happen... thx him for making the effort to come down after his work.... he made balloon for the kids n myself too.... thx him....



todae is my classmate anthony birthdae n my friend hui qing birthdae.... wish them all their dreams n wishes come true....

nightmare

a nightmare is a nightmare.... there will be times tt u wake up.... for mi even though the nightmare i had waken up but i nvr realli get over it.... i am trying my best to get over.... so bother to ask mi i wont sae it out.... i believe everyone has its secrets n the nightmare i am having is my secret.... i am realli trying my best to get over even though it is hard...i had to overcome it.... no matter how tough i will get over even it needs a lot of times..... as long as i dun get over i will be trap... i dun wan to be trap.... realli dun wan.... a fact is a fact n it cant be change so we have to face it... realli have to face it.... running away wont solve the problem..... facing n overcome it then it will be solved....

i am so easily emo these few daes... dun noe y... last nite made my dear worried n he nearly went crazy... dun noe y suddenly dun feel like ans his call.... then he kept calling n i juz threw my phone to aside... dun ask mi y.... even i noe the reason very well... but i didnt sae it out.... last nite chat wit him a lot but still didnt tell him the main reason.... he can sense it but he has no choice to accept my explaination.... as u noe mi well if i dun wan to sae i wont sae no matter wat method u used... i noe he is realli worried.... i noe i shldnt ignore him i shld tell him wat happen.... but i noe i need to think.... i need to sort out my messy mind first... i dun wan to be in the mess....

last nite went to celebrate anthony birthdae.... got anthony mi michelle junjie yingying n nya oo.... it was quite fun wit them... talk a lot... we went to eat steamboat.... then we went to play bowling after tt.... it was quite late le so we went home.... reach home ard 12 plus... cab home from yishun... since it is quite late le.... then my dear wait for mi until he felt asleep... haiz....



juz now went to meet my ex colleagues for lunch at jp... then after tt went home... as usual chat a lot... got to noe a lot of news.... haha... laugh a lot... crap a lot... quite fun la... gg to go le...

i pass my results.... but it is very bad.... due to my lazyness plus playfulness.... i pass so badly n thanks god tt i pass my cp..... realli thanks god.... next sem muz study le...

everyone is so emo

dun noe wat happen recently... a lot of my close friends seem to be so emo.... a lot of them r facing problems especially bgr... i also dun noe how to help... i can onli help by listening to them... haiz... then dun noe wat happen to my dear also.... realli wan to help him but i dun noe how.... feeling so helpless.... i hate the feeling of feeling helpless... dear i am sorry tt i cant help u in anything but i will give up my support.... no matter wat happens i will be there for u.... feeling so worried for him... can anyone tell mi how... I JUZ HOPE TT EVERYONE ARD MI WILL BE HAPPI....

presents from him for every mth n it is still continuing......

all the presents from 1st mth to now the 3rd mth n is still continue.....



all the presents for 3rd mth.....

3rd mth present.... puzzle done by my dear....

soft toy by him.....

2nd mth winne the pooh by him.....

1st mth present from him.... a pair of rings wit our names on each ....

todae is a bz dae for mi... also very tiring... todae went to work again... was so tiring... then went to meet candy... shop for a while then went to eat mos n head back home.... then rest for a while... go n meet dear for a while then went to meet my darling fiona.... crap n chat a lot wit her.... n i finally see her liao... after so long..... noe wat she is gg through now... mi support u till the end... jia you n stay happi..... then juz now chatted wit my dear for a while n he slp le... gg to slp soon... tired liao.... gg to post my pic....

I AM GETTER FATTER...

i am putting on weight.... too much of late nite supper n chips n ice cream n chocolate is seducing mi... cant control... so muz learn to control.... if not later become fatter n fatter... my dear also sae i put on a LOT of weight le.... haiz.... this show muz exercise more... dun be lazy le.... holi even worse slp n eat.... ok...

happy 3rd mth

todae is the 3rd mth.... he bought mi a soft toy n do mi a puzzle... thanks a lot for ur effort.... i realli appreciate.... now i noe tt our minds think alike.... this one is secret... haha.... tt all ba for now...

todae went out wit crystal to shop.... shop for a while... then noe wat happen to her..... feel very heart pain n sad for her.... i noe wat she is gg through... i noe she is having a hard time.... hope tt she can get over soon.... hope tt she will be fine..... hope tt she will be strong.... she is strong i believe.... chat a lot wit her....

tml was a tiring dae for mi... went to work then went to tuition then went to work again... it was so rush n tiring.... haizz.... reach home ard 9 plus.... haiz.... so many things happen recently..... so sick n tired of it... y cant have a break n let mi rest..... i realli need rest n a lot of PEACE..... i am thinking how to cope..... realli.... although i have a shoulder but i dun wan to add on burden to him.... he will be more tired n exhausted.... there r times to rely n times not to rely.... been thinking these few nights as i cant slp.... tt y slp until late afternoon..... haiz...... gg to slp le todae have a tiring dae.....

to my dear...
i am so sorry tt i am given u so many problems... juz to tell u.... u did nth wrong is juz all the fault lie is mi.... it is my fault.... i dun wan to give u so many problems but i seems to add on.... i dun noe wat is happening to mi... i realli dun noe.... sorry to u... beside sorry is also sorry.... is juz tt i am not a gd gf la.... i am realli a bad gf....








my pressure is getting bigger n bigger..... n i dun seems to be coping wit it..... my limit is gg to be up.... i am in the stage of breaking down wit all this stuff..... starting to get tired n sick of it.... wat can i do.... dun even noe now.... losing my temper often n recently.... cant control my temper well.... shows tt my limit is realli up..... breaking down so often.....then started to think am i a failure..... or shld i sae i am always a failure...... my smiles is starting to disappear... mood gets so bad easily...

LOVE

love is not rational.... if it is then it is not love.... love will make a person lose all the emotions.... loving a person will give him watever u have..... u wont wan him to pay u back unless he loves u.... loving a person will wan to see him being happi..... loving a person need not the person to love u back if he dont.... loving a person will make u give up watever u have juz in order to see the person happi... u juz wan to see the person happi n u will be contented.... juz by staying quietly by his side is enough for u.... when he need u, u r there for him..... when he is down, u cheer him up.... when he is sad u make him happi......

HAIZ.... RELATIONSHIP R SO FRAGILE.....

HAIZ.... JUZ REALISE TT RELATIONSHIP R SO FRAGILE.... juz got a shocking news.... dun noe wat to sae either... juz feel so sad n emo... things r not getting rite again... maybe it is time to reflect on myself.... wat had i done this time again... i admit tt i am not getting rite wit words again.... WHAT IS WRONG WIT MI.... Y I KEEP SAYING N DOING THE WRONG THINGS...
AM I REALLI A FAILURE... SO TIRED N SICK OF HEARING A LOT OF THINGS... HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.............. NOW IS SAD N EMO AGAIN.....

todae went to watch ratatouille wit my dear.... but my dear got sore eyes..... all along his eyes is in pain... hope tt he is fine... my dear coz dun wan to broke his promise tt y he tahan all the way... it is hard on u... juz to make mi happi.... thx a lot... i am realli happi.... but heart pain coz his eyes is pain... seeing him suffer although he sae no juz not to make mi worry... now make my dear sad again.... realli sorry.... i didnt mean it... i noe u r sad.... realli sad.... dear plz dun get angry.... plz dun misunderstand.... juz to let u noe.... IN MY HEART THERE IS ONLI U.... I CANT PUT OTHER GUYS IN.... NO MATTER WAT THEY DO.... I WILL NOT BE TOUCHED BY THEM.... ONLI U HAVE TOUCHED MI....I JUZ WAN TO TELL U I HAVE GIVEN U MY WHOLE HEART.... U R THE ONE FOR MI.... I REALLY LOVE U A LOTS... DEEP FROM MY HEART.... tt all la.....







after movie went home... on the way home saw my ex nss.... saw wee yuan on the train... then while walking back to interchange saw my pri friend.... dun noe he remember mi ma... then saw kevin when talking bus... so we chat on the bus.... talk abt recently how is us doing...

I AM SO PISS OFF.... I DUN NOE WHICH IDOIT GIVE MY OLD NO TO A UNKNOWN GUY.... TT GUY IS A PLAYBOY.... ASK HIM GO N DIE... HE WAN TO CHEAT GALS GO FAR AWAY... I WILL LET U NOE HOW TO DIE.... I HATE GUYS WHO CHEAT N PLAY GALS... GALS R NOT MEANT TO BE PLAY.....

todae finally get to see my dear... he accompany mi to go n buy my cousin birthdae cake at causeway... then headed home... got a lot of misunderstanding between us.... it pays a high price for it.... my heart break n shattered... now is amending it... he is amending it.... i treat it as a obstacle.... after this will be better... which relationship dun have obstacle.... wont be smooth always... due to my character unless i calm down or else i wont listen or talk to the person....




todae is my cousin birthdae...... my aunt cook a lot of food for us.... it was nice.... my aunt also spend quite a lot... one of my cousins requst my dear to hug him when he left.... kenna shock... this show he is popular among the kids...

erm suppose to meet my dear todae but he cant make it.. nvr... shall go n find him.... then these few daes my net siao... so todae chinyong n candy came my hse.... then after tt went out wit candy.... candy was feeling realli down... try to console her but didnt manage la.... then hope she will be better...



thurs my student give mi my first present.... so sweet of her.... it is for teacher dae....

fri went back to sch for teacher dae.... meet liyan for breakfast at mac.... then we went to meet kimbert.... chat wit potato mdn ho mdm how mrs goh n mdn xue..... then got hi to a few teachers as they were bz... then went to meet shirley... she wait for mi for 2 hrs... realli sorry... didnt mange to do her stuff....

yest went to escape wit shirley.. she got free tickets.... was very fun.... both of us play until siao... then after tt went to cut my hair... tt all... wit shirley got a lot of fun.... thx to her....






I MISS MY DEAR DEAR... HAVENT SEEN HIM FOR 12 DAES LE.... REALLI MISS HIM A LOT.... HAIZ.....