BORED

this week i am reallli bored.... i realise tt when i work the time realli pass very fast... now i am not working then realise tt time pass very slow... spend most of my time slacking n slp at home this week.... i noe i am a pig.... i am also getting fat as i am puting on weight... muz go n do exercise.... but i am also resting... suppose to go gym for this whole week but i didnt although i am off.... nth much.... then yest went to bugis to give my time sheet to my agent n then went to fiona hse.... i am happi for her.... she enter to her course tt she desire... so good luck n continue to jia you for ur studies.... i will be there to support u... then didnt went for the chalet tt may organise... sry.... but i am realli tired to go.... then to jianying also.... didnt help u in the end.... coz i didnt went for ur job....




now talk abt friendship.... friendship need to be maintain... friends shld be forgiving towards one another.... friends shld help one another n also be there for one another... friends shld also be tolerance n tell others when they r wrong... help one another to walk out to the correct path... tt is real friends....


now abt love..... in a relationship they muz learn to treasure one another.... indivdiual muz also hav their own space n freedom... they muz also learn how to endure each other weak points as no one is perfect in this world.... n also don lie n cheat ur partner... muz be faithful...




tt all for todae... a few more daes to 2007.... gg to count down wit my friends.... n my new yr wish is sercet.... shall update again... I AM BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDD........

this year i feel tt my christmas is very bored... haiz... on christmas eve we went clark quay... we went tcc n eat.... then candy ex collagues very gd give us extra 2 slice of cakes but we could not finish coz we were full le.... then we went to a japenese pub to drink.... then after a while we were tired so we go home n slp... not coz we r drunk is we r realli very bored... the bar was not bad... then went safra but it was all book so we went home... then slack from yest n todae.... tt all ba... mi n candy gg pub on new year eve anyone wan to go wit us....

ya... had a chat wit jerome todae... then suddenly remember yest went out for lunch wit julia sharon jingxian at jurong point.... then we wait for 45 min for a cab... the cab queue is darm long.... so i reach office at 2pm... we left office at 11.45pm... then miss the bus so had to wait for 15 min.... then when we reach we saw meifang ah chua regina n helen... we very naughty call the cab driver to horn so tt they can see us... coz they tok a bus back n were earlier then us... we were fighting to see who reach first... then all of us reach ard the same time.... then ah chua keeping making fun of us saeing us very rich... coz 4 of us take cab n bus the price is ard the same ma... then all of us were laughing all the way back walking to the office.... ya... many ppl tease n joke wit mi... so fun... they realli make mi laugh...

finally... i got a week break.... gg to rest... a lot of things good things happen recently.... i am realli so happi.... yest went out wit my colleagues to k box... so reach home late at ard 12 plus... lucky got pppl to send mi home... thx to mei fang bf... then todae overslept... nearly miss my company bus.... or else i am late for work... it was realli fun... had a great time.... everyone was so high.... sing n sing... todae throat was not feeling well due to yest.... wed was not feeling well too coz caught a cold... then work was fine but bz for mi.... but had a lot great time working wit them... now thinking how to spend my week off.... now i still noe ppl from my company.... my company is ealli big got a lot of staff.. muz noe the ppl that i need pass them things.... sometime still give ppl the blur look coz i don noe them.... some funny things happen a few daes.... if u wan to noe ask mi... i wont sae it here... helen n regina sae the same something todae when ah chua sae something.......erm... this shall be a secret between us... tt all i remember.... here is a photo of us at k box last nite.... the rest mei fang delete away le...

mi julia regina henry

erm this week nth much ba... as usual bz wit my work.... then also slag a lot... then also tired... plan to meet shu ting to support her todae but i was not feeling well so didnt went.... but anyways wish her do well... then tml gg to meet my colleagues to go out... don noe i will be able to meet may they all to celebrate christmas ot not.... todae slag n rest ba.... ya yest i won a present from my company.... it is a watch... that was juz pour luck.... the alphbat juz happen to stick under the chair i am seating... then yest celebrate christmas in advance... yest was fun... n ya nearly forgot... last week razif saw mi but i didnt saw him until he sae hi to mi.... then i sae hi n smile back.... can see that he change a lot... then also saw daniel last week... was surprised tt he still remember mi... so sae hi n left coz i think i was in rush..... shall catch up wit them soon...


finally get over him le... now i am very happy wit my life n my smile is back.... n lol my company got a lot of romance n rumours.... haha... hope tt i will experience once also coz don have before so don noe how it is like.... haha.... a lot of the ppl in my company r either married ot attached....

buz

have been very busy wit work lately... my workload is a lot.... trying my very hard to finish... i havent finish my doing the data n they need it by next week... i havent even finsh half coz tt is realli a lot... i juz receive like 1 or 2 hrs before i knock off so spend ard 2 daes n a bit more to do..... if cant finish then see how they sae lol.... this week is starting not to get easy as i learn more things which mean my workload will be more.... so after i knock off each dae i am very tired.... so lazy to blog.... gg to spend my weekend resting.... if not how to deal wit more challenges coming next week.... tt all ba... blog ltr... gg to slp le.... very tired.....

my indigestion is back... i am suffering from serious indigestion.... i keep feeling bloated n cant eat.... haiz... i also don noe how.... always sae wan to see doc but in the end nvr...


n ya rayner give mi a testi wishing mi happi birthdae n wish mi in msn... he too bz liao forgot my birthdae.... so forgive him... haha... then alan also wish mi but he still owe mi a testi.... he sae will give mi de...

fri nite went to meet kat n we went out... we walk from bugis to suntec... then we chat a lot... she keep consoling mi n tap my shoulders.... so i told her i will be strong de... then she sae i grow up le... i told her i been through so many things le... so learn a lot le ma n also muz stay stronger... if not i will break down easily... n ya.. i got a bit piss off by candy while i was smsing her... so when i got a bit irritated i stop smsing her or else it gonna affect my mood when i am working.... tt all for fri ba... gg to trim n dye my hair soon...then then last nite anu wish mi in msn happi birthdae too... don noe she will wish mi coz classmate for 5 yrs she nvr wish mi... then todae got a testi from alex wishing mi belated happi birthdae... coz i thought u forgot my birthdae... thx... i was so tired so from last nite slp till todae afternoon then went back slp again.... ya i wan to go clubbing n pubbinbg.... who wan to go... ask mi along.... working was fine wit mi coz it was fun... my colleagues n supervisior always joke especially my supervisior... there are a lot of laughter but there are serious time too.... got to noe a lot of ppl from my work.... my work place is big... still not realli very familiar wit the place.... onli familair wit the things n place on the floor i work... the rest still a bit blur...work load is getting more n more each dae... n i get to learn more new stuff... n ya i am getting fat coz i keep on eating n eating.... so muz do more exercise..... shall go gym when i am free.... then shall start doing some exercise at home... good news n bad news.... christmas tt week my department off.... tt mean from christmas till new year i will be very free..... haha.... but i got no income tt week coz i didnt work.... haiz... n ya... i wont be online so frequently but weekends i will definitely online... nowadaes i slp very early as i need to wake up very early.... my cousin told mi she miss my grandma.... i also miss her very much.... told her don think too much coz she had pass away... juz put her in my heart will do....




ya shall talk abt friendship todae..... coz got tok wit kat a bit.... i have got lots of friends... but i am glad tt i got a few nery gd buddies n best friends who accompany mi through my bad times in my life n share my happi times wit mi.... they r ade crystal kat n fiona... realli thxs a lot to them i don noe how to sae it out but they understand how much i appreciate for wat they did...then got a few gd friends... they r alex rayner fabian jerome candy jolyn shuting... then the rest r ok type....




then a bit abt relationship....
love required both parties to give n take.... no pt onli one party give.... n if u the one party who give... don expect the other party for anything...

my birthdae

todae is my 18th birthdae.... i don feel happi at all... until the moment i were wit ade n crystal..... ade always make mi smile n laugh.... don noe y... celebrate wit ade n crystal tonite.... we went to eat.... ade n crystal spend a lot... then now ade broke le... we went bugis to eat steamboat n it was exp... n ya crystal brought mi a necklace... then i bought a jacket coz my work place is very cold.... n poor thing lol... i got work todae n it is my birthdae... the first person who send mi wishes is kat.... thx kat yan ling lai candy angeline eugene toh may shirley crystal wei woon mei fang (my work place de) hui qing ade yin yin fiona n my colleagues.... thx for ur wishes... thx for ur sms or testi or wish mi personally... realli thx...then still got 2 person from friendster wish mi but i don noe them... anyways thx to them too... i realli appreciate... still waiting for tt special person to wish mi... till now he didnt.... i guess he don remember ba.... yar todae my colleague mei fang treat mi kfc coz is my birthdae... coz i didnt went out for lunch so call her to buy for mi... so i spend the 1 hr slp in the office... thx...


mi n crystal.... best friends for 4 yrs.....

mi n ade.... best friend for 5 yrs....

mi n ade... this one crystal took it wit out ade realising it...

this was yest celebration wit my family.... i celebrate wit them last nite...... didnt realli feel so happy... don ask mi y i don noe...

angel n mi

jolin mi n angel

my cake

first birthdae present

this is the first present i receive for my birthdae.... it is from my little cousin... she made it for mi.... i am so touched as i didnt expected it.... i like it alot.... she draw the card all by herself....

isnt she cute....

havent been blogging for some time... mon was my last ppr.... after my last ppr.... so went home n rest for a while.... then went to have my 2 interviews before meeting ade.... then on the way crystal call n join us... then i went for the job interview n i got one of the jobs immediately.... n ya sorry to ade for waiting for mi for more then 3 hrs... i am realli sorry... n crystal also wait for mi for sometime too... sorry... then went to meet them at chinatown so we decided to eat there.... after eating we went home... 3 of us were tired... then discuss abt my birthdae plan.. this one shall not sae... then tues morning while i was slp fiona sms mi to go out... so we meet up n went vivo city... it is very big n gots lots of things to shop... then saw mdm tan there n chat wit her for a while... then fiona cousins meet up wit us as they were there so we went for dinner tog... dinner was at pepper lunch at taka coz fiona wan to try how is the food like as she works there.... she havent eat before at her workplace... then wake up early n went to work.... then i realise tt it is not the job tt i wan... it is outdoor sales so i quit immediately n rush for another interview.... actually plan to give up tt job but in the end i still go for it... coz i am havent got a job so went to try my luck lor.... then thurs morning a guy call mi n ask mi to go for a job interview... so i went n got the job immediately.... i was wondering who is tt guy... so i call up n ask... so it was marcus friend.... funny lol... went for the job interview without knowing who recommend mi.... n i onli realised after my interview... then todae went bugis to settle some stuff.... after settling my stuff ... i went to suntec to see my friends... then chat a bit wit them.... n my 2 boss had gone separate ways le... they each set up their own shop... n ya i saw tt cute guy again... he is working todae... actually was trying my luck.... coz havent gone there to see them for a long time... then i feel tired so i went home.... n ya mon 26/11 i am starting work.... i am working as a admin assist in one of the shipping factories... i am feeling so tired... havent been able to get enough slp.... gg to slp soon.... next week is my birthdae... still planning how to celebrate.... haha... gg to turn 18 soon.... had been feeling very down recently....but now i am ok le... i had see n take things stridly le... noe when it is time to let go muz let go... no pt forcing... it will make all of us miserable n suffer tog... don worry abt mi anymore... i noe how to take care of myself le... n i will... thx ade crystal kat fiona candy marcus n a few more for ur concern... i am fine... thx for all ur support especially kat ade crystal fiona n candy.... thx ade n crystal n fiona for accompanying mi... thxs... i realli appreciate.... tt all ba....

my hearts scatter... my heart breaks... i lose hopes... i don noe wat is hope... my life now onli have emptiness now.... sad........... depress........

i am feeling down again.... i feel like giving everything up.... i don wan anything.... ithere r so many times i wan to give up everything n juz disappear n all of u cant find mi.... i have many unhappy memories then happy... tt y i don even when was th last time i was happi... it been a long time since i felt happi.... i wan to give up coz i already lost all the hope in my life.... there r so many time i ask myself wat i realli wan... y i live for... my ans is i don noe wat to do... realli don noe....

todae is my grandma 1 yr anniveray... so fast it been a yr since she pass away... but i am not gg coz my mum don wan mi to go... so next time go ba.... actually till now i don noe where her ashes is put coz i had nvr been to tt place before... i shld realli go one dae to pray to her when i am free... or else i will feel tt i am a realli bad granddaughter...i realli miss her a lot.... she is one of the best person who dote mi a lot n treat mi very nice.... she cares a lot for mi... whenever i need help she will be there to help mi as much as she could... she taught mi a lot of things....n i will nvr forget... but i had let her down coz i didnt do well for my studies.... till she die she still told mi to study n do well....


y i keep bumping into u recently where i go... n i have no courage to sae hi to u... we r juz like strangers... when i start to forget u or already forget u... u will appear.... maybe fate is making fun of mi ba.... u r the onli guy who knew mi the best n noe wat i am thinking... coz u r the one who walk into my heart.... i also walk into ur heart n noe a lot of things abt u.... still remember tt when i am feeling down or have probelms u r there for mi.... n when ur encouragements r there i will do extremely well for my papers.... till now no other guys could realli understand mi even they did also a bit onli... u brought mi a lot of happiness too.... now i wan to put u down n onli remember those wonderful memories onli.... tt is one of the happiest time in my life.... i realli spend abt 2 yts to slowly forget u... n now i am still doing it... but onli once a while will think of u... as long as u don appear... this is already the best for mi le....


do nth much recently expect studying at home... fri went to toa payoh to meet marcus... havent went there for a long time... like a yr le ba... after my grandma pass away i stopped gg there... then saw him in the train... then i went to shop in ntuc while waiting for marcus as he is late.... then saw my cousin n chat wit her for a while... went to meet marcus n we went to eat... after tt stay in the library for sometime as both of us r reading books.... i realli enjoy reading... i will onli read it in the library ba coz i will find it trouble to borrow a book n stay at home to read... so i think i will be gg to the library more often to read books... this will at least improve a bit on my el.... then tml meeting candy to go out... oh ya... i realised tt after my exams i will feel extremely tired n need a lot of slp to recover back my energy.... n i don noe wat happen... y i become like this also... tt all le... nth much to blog also.... gg to meet my friends soon.... n 17 more daes to my 18th birthdae......


I MISS MY GRANDMA..... I LOVE U TOO GRANDMA.... EVEN U R NOT WIT MI ANYMORE BUT U WILL STAY IN MY HEART FOREVER..... I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER U.... I BELIEVE UR JING SHEN IS ALWAYS WIT MI FOREVER....

happi 17th birthdae to yi lok

happi 17th birthdae to yi lok... my dance junior in sec sch.... i still remember i was the one who got u in... n it was a great time we spend together.... wish u all ur wishes come true n continue to do well....

haiz... i don noe wat happen recently.... somethings seem to be gg rite but some seems gg wrong.... i don noe wat happen when i start doing my exams my mind will suddenly went blank... shall not sae anymore since it is over.... hope tt i will do wll ba... at least clear my main pprs le...
i don noe wat wrong wit mi... after my ppr i will feel very exhausted n tired.... maybe using too much energy n thinking le ba.... after my exam i will straight headed home n slp... coz i realli cant take it anymore...

a lot things happen recently..... so i got a lot things unsettle n clear but i will start solvint until my exams is over... if not i might get distracted... i hope tt it can wait till after my exams... tt all ba.... tonite my little cousin is staying in my hse... finally she can... she had been nagging it for a few weeks le... tt all ba... shall gg to slp soon...

tml is the starting of my paper.... haiz.... stress... tml will be having chem.... then wed will be english n physics.... shall carry on studying le....

i realised a lot of things.... i am feeling so confuesed.... i don noe wat to do.... haiz.... wan to noe ask mi....

now here blogging.... 5 more daes to O level.... i am getting more n more stress everydae pass as it drew nearer.... now start staying out late to study n chiong....


n 28 more daes to birthdae too..... haha.... my birthdae is coming.... my wish is to do well n spend tt nite wit my friends.... i wonder how many ppl will celebrate n remember my birthdae...... hmmmm.......


i realise a lot of things.... after i let go a lot of good things came n happen to mi... haha..... this one shall not write here.... i am realli happy le.... getting back to the usual mi....


tt all...... i am STRESSSSSSS....... BACK TO MUGGING......

not feeling well

these few daes keep on not feeling well... don noe y... havent see a doc.... juz last thur nite suddenly had an headache.... then fri to sun nite suddenly had chest pain.... then juz now stomach not feeling well... then eat ice-cream n realised tt i realli cant take too sweet stuff... nearly vomit out but in the end didnt... then an hr ago feel hungrt so ate a bit of supper wit my parents... n now my stomach not well again... don noe y like this... shld go n see a doc but drag till now havent seen.... sry tt i lied to candy n may u all tt i had seen a doc but i didnt coz i don wan u all to worry.... recently these few mths keep having this problems chest pain n headaches n stomach not feeling well... n all this always happen too sudden..... maybe after o will go for a check up ba....

i had been thinking a lot todae n last nite.... realised a lot too... start from last nite ba.... finally got the ans for my qns.... n i noe wat to do le.... no point hanging on.... i waited for so long le... for more then a yr.... hmmm.... hope tt we can still continue to be friends.... tt all i wish... if u noe tt u n tt person u love wont be together then it is best to let him go n find his happiness... remember tt candy told mi tt the person u love is happi u will also feel happi for him.... although it is hard to let go.... but no matter wat muz still let it go.... maybe he didnt even noe tt i do miss him... n now my feeling for him also started to fade... n starting to get tired too.. shall no sae anymore...... crystal sae i will find my right n guy who is great.... coz deep in my heart i realli hope to have a person who will realli care n dote mi n most importantly love mi... so i will wait for my mr right to appear...






remember tt jerome sae on phone tt in life there r very little true friends coz friends come n go.... agree to a certain extent... he also sae tt even best friends we will still be bz for our own stuff n after a certain period the feelings wont be like we used to be... this is coz we r difting apart for tt period of time.... this one is also very true.... ya this let mi think of how to maintain friendship n not make the feeling fade.... gd qns... shall think more abt it... when i come up wit an ans then shall write it here...

i cant slp tonite again.... my mind is full of him again.... keeping having him on my mnd especially when i am alone.... i will start thinking abt him... i realli need to sort out or else i wont be able to concertrate fully on my studies.... think i will sort out soon ba.... yest slp at 6 in the morning woke up at 7 n went back slp woke uo again in 11 plus then went back slp till 1 plus then wake up... till now still not slp coz i cant slp.... suppose to study at this time but cant concetrate.... but got do a bit of study... starting to chiong for my studies le..... gg to mug for a while more then go to slp......




so fast it been a year since my grandma pass away.... time realli flies.... still can remember how my grandma use to dote mi.... she realli dote mi a lot.... she also like to call mi baby baby... i also don noe y..... she save some gd food or the food i like for mi n ask my mum to bing home for mi whenever my mum visit her...... but i fail to visit her regulary.... i am a real failure.... i realli regret a lot for not spending more time wit her but now wat is the use of regretting when she is gone..... she died of cancer.... after fighting it for abt 1 yr or more..... till now i didnt forgot tt few time tt my grandma nearly didnt make it... but she is strong... n somemore she is from china..... but i had nvr seen my china relatives before..... i heard tt my grandma n grandpa came all the way from china n settle down here.... got heard a bit of stories from my mum abt my grandparents.... ALTHOUGH THE PAIN OF LOSING THE LOVE ONE WILL SLOWLY GET OVER BUT THE PAIN IS NVR TO BE FORGOTTEN... it is like a hole in my heart tt will nvr be mend.... i do agree to wat alex sae live life to the fullest coz u will nvr noe when u will die..... by the way MY GRANDMA IS THE BEST N STRONG ONE TT I HAD EVER SEEN.... I MISSED U GRANDMA.... I REALLI MISS U A LOT....

i need more space....

finally finish clearing up the things in my room.... i don noe y it seems to be nvr ending.... juz clear up lot of stuff.... haiz... after throwing up a lot of things.... it seems to be full again.... don noe y.... my mum mention getting mi another waredrop coz too much clothes le.... aready got 2 of mine le n one more sharing wit my parents de.... my mum sae put in my room but i got no more space le.... juz move my com to my room... ya... i will be getting a new mattress soon coz my parents sae spoil le so they r buying mi a new one.... n my mum is making mi another pillow.... so gd....

haiz.. nth much this few dae.... manage to catch up wit esther a bit todae..... tell her wat she need to noe.... then had been chatting wit jerome also... last nite chat wit her till ard 3 ba... then chat wit suvit till 4 plus in the morning.... tt all....








abt luv.....
when it is time to let go....
should let go...
no poing clinging on...
coz u will suffer in the end.....
not ur one is not ur one.....
then we shld move on.....

these few daes down wit running nose.... then now feel better... ya bought ben n jerry ice cream home todae.... then bought ferror also.... then chat wit fabian candy n may last nite.... n also jerome few dae ago... ok la... starting to study le... n the sci pra sucks..... i didnt do well... so paper muz do well le..... tt all... o is coming.... muz jia you le....

didnt manage to slp well last nite.... slp at onli ard 6 in te morning... last nite was realli feeling feeling down... so i cant control my tears n i cry.... i totally break down... i cant take it anymore... the more stronger i seems to be the weaker i am... i am a person who is easily affect by some emotion..... those who noe mi well noe wat happen... don wan to sae much..... maybe life is so bad for mi.... ppl wit bad situations tend to have more blessing things things in their life.... tt is wat i saw...




i don wan to be like this anymore... i wan back my happiness n cheerful face.... i wan to be back to be wat i use to be n not like this... i don wan to be affect n get emo easily.... all along i juz wan to lead a simple life be a simple person.... IS TT SO HARD FOR MI TO FUFILL...u tell mi who don wan to be love n have care... no one.... wveryone wish to have this..... but this tend not to happen to mi.... to mi beside my mum n dad... my closest kin is my best friends not my family.... I WAN BACK THE OLD HAPPY MIIIII......
I WAN IT BACKKKK...

todae was fun.... went for bbq as may ask mi to go along... it was meant for poli students la...but still got a few one not poli de... then noe more friends... as shirley n juliana bring their friend along... then noe other cell grp friends also... had a great time... n lot of fun too... when juliana bring one of her friend to bustop n shirley they all go... n may went to wait there to open the door.... then lanlan n eugene went to help out in bbq... a guy call kelvin came to tok to mi n intro mi his cell friends.... then they ask mi to play games.... it was fun n lot of laughter... malu coz they i was blur lol.... it was realli fun playing wit u guys... thx a lot.... remember a few of their names like joshua andrew jeff n many more... if we have a chance shall noe u more guys more.... n exchange msn add wit joshua n kelvin... shall noe more n get their next time... then left at abt 9... then wait for half an hr for tt bus tt does not operate on sat... it online operate on sun... cute rite... then change lol... take bus to suntec n take train home... as i was too tired so took cab home from yishun mrt... ya... was drinking coke while updating now..... eat a bit during the bbq... coz went home still need to eat.... so reach home n rest a while then eat... there was a feast todae... it was cook by my aunt n the money was sponse by my uncle... it was nice... now very full....




yest was so sry to candy coz i accidentally spill the drink onto her bag n mine also kenna... poor thing... then she sae i was distracted tt y... ya i admit tt... haiz....actually wan to study turn up no due to my carelessness..... then to shop for a key chain n a handphone one... n bought it... find it cute....




tt all gg to rest le... had a fun nite out.... n ya sorry tt i was late todae... sorry to keep u waiting especially eugene wait for mi for ard half an hr....

happi birthdae to chin yong

happi birthdae to u.... juz now it from friendster... so bad rite... coz u don wan to sae... haiz.... anyway juz happi birthdae to u...

i am keep having itchness at my back coz of the dust... my block is upgrading the lift n it happen to be near my doorstep n facing one of the room... i haev sensitive skin... cannot blame... once my skin have contact wit dust i will have itchness or worse have rashes all over.... the mi sensitive nose is back.... haiz... maybe i shld go n see a doc.... shall see how ba...

couldnt forget

since i saw him on last fri..... till now i couldnt forget tt disappointing face tt he gave..... sorry tt i am not able recongize u... i don mean it.... coz we havent seen each other for a long time like 2 yrs plus gg to 3 yr le.... n we lost contact after my n.... i was so surprised tt u could still remember mi.... until i recall back then i realised tt it is u.... i feel so bad..... but seeing u living happily n had some true friends beside u i am also feeling happy for u too.... i hope tt u have changed better instead of..... shall not sae too much here... hope tt ur true friends r able to change u.... till now i still believe u will change one dae.... coz i noe u n i believe u... thx for letting mi to noe u so well even we don realli noe each other for very long.... thx for teaching mi to noe a lot of things too... n thx for all the things u do... i realli appreciate.... time have pass n change everythings le.... like u sae past is past le....






LUV......
be dare to sae i love u coz if u don try u will nvr noe the ans....
if reject also don be disppointed n try again....
if u love someone show let n her noe....
not onli by saeing.....
prove to her wit action....
sae is no use de....
then lastly U WILL NOE THE ANS TILL THE END....
COZ THINGS MIGHT CHANGE THE LAST MIN OR UNEXPECTED THINGS WILL HAPPEN....
shall elaborate more the next time....

happi birthdae to jerome

happi 17th birthdae... wish u do well for ur studies... acheive wat u wan.... then wish u have a lasting relationship... n a lot of eternal friendship.... all the best la....

todae went out wit crystal... she call mi n ask mi out... by the way was feeling moody.... so go out walk walk.... hope tt will feel better.... ya was a bit better after toking to her..... then ask ade to go but she don wan..... she tok to mi abt some problems.... n mi too... ya... she gave mi tarot reading todae... all the ans was not bad..... actually i believe in tarot reading coz i find it very true to mi.... ask some qns.... one abt relationship.... love one gave mi a gd ans but also had some things tt need to be solve..... haha... shld notsae much... the other abt family.... tt all ba...

CAN I DISAPPEAR OR RUN AWAY

WHYYYYY..... HOW I WISH I COULD DISAPPEAR OR RUN AWAY... I DON WAN TO STAY IN THIS SITUATION ANYMORE.... I DON WAN TO STAY IN THIS ROOF ANYMORE.... YYYYYY U ALL LIKE TO COMPARE N COMPARE...... I HATE IT.... I REALLI HATE IT.... WHY U ALL SO BIASED...... WHYYYYYYYY..... WHY............ SOMETIME I REALLI WAN TO MOVE OUT..... I CANT STAND STAND IT ANYMORE..... Y U ALL ONLI THINK TT EXPRESS N JC N UNI IS THE BEST.... WHY..........WHY U ALL ONLI THINK OF URSELF..... TT Y SOMETIME REALLI WAN TO ABANDON ALL THE THINGS HERE N GO TO A PLACE TT U ALL CANT FIND MI..... THEN SETTLE THERE PEACEFULLY.....

HEART......


a lantern tt my cousin n his friend found.....
3 colours....
the colour i think not bad....
MI N MI COUSIN......

y my little cousin so shy..... HAHA....

yest slp onli for abt 6 hrs.... so tired... then last nite went downstairs to play candles wit my cousins... then have a causal chat wit them.... we r like kds but it was so fun.... then one of his friend came back from church n we call him to join us.... then my mum brought my little cousin down n a while ltr his dad came.... then went home ard 12.... while they continue plying n my little cousin was waiting for her mum as she went wedding dinner.... yest the hse was so quiet.... feel weird weird de.... then slp at 3 in the morning n wake up at 1 then went back to slp ard 3 plus.... then now juz woke up... like a pig rite... slp n slp.... skip service todae.... yest took lot of photos... shall upload ltr...

todae is mooncake festival.... nth much ba.... went out in the afternoon to meet liyan as we wan to catch a movie ba.... but in the end didnt catch the show we wan....watch another one instead.... plan to watch haunted apartment but don have so watch robinhood.... not bad as it was quite funny.... cheer up my dae as i was feeling down these feeling dae.... then shop ard orchard.... i keep quiet todae although i do tok la... then went bugis to buy some stuff n we went home as we r tired... especailly nowadaes i couldnt slp.... slp late n early in the morning got the renovation all this n lift upgrading.... tt y wakle up in afternoon... but yest onli slp for 4 hrs... couldnt slp... many reasons behind.... so many things happen recently.... i still cant organise.... need to calm down.... I AM PHYSICALLY N EMOTIONALLY TIRED BUT I STILL CANT SLP..... I AM REALLI FEELING DOWN.... HAIZ.....





abt luv.....
fate n destiny is one of the impt source if we r able to be tog or not.....
another 1 is courage.....
shld elaborate more next time.....

happi birthdae jianying

happi birthdae to jianying..... although don noe u for quite long but u r a cheerful person.... u have smile in ur face all the time...

I CANT CALM DOWN

i am feeling so bu an.... i cant calm down.... i realli cant... my mood is affected totally.... i don noe how to calm myself down...

todae went out studying wit candy .... meet ard 6 plus... but then reach the place ard 7 le..then study till 8 plus... she manage to finish half of her report while i manage to finsh 3/4 of my compo.... we study in the mac at suntec... then she went to buy dinner for her sis... then went to meet her sis at mrt... we took some photo while waiting...then meet her sis on the train as she pass her dinner... then we took it till yishun as her sis alight at orchard coz she need to collect her mooncake....






this week gg to be bz... coz gg to meet up wit friendz... then O ALSO COMING SOON..... N I AM FEELING VERY STRESS... as u all heard mi grumpling tt my pimples r all coming out.... MUZ JIA YOU.....

these few daes at home studying n slacking a bit n watch vcds... at least i manage to find fabian these few nties n chat wit him... it is always so pleasant n nice chatting wit him... he will bring laughter n fun in.... he also give mi advise too... ya... i also noe who he had a crush on as i was always wondering who is gg to be tt gal... he told mi last nite... haha... then also chat wit jerome for abt 2 to 3 nites... then was out todae.... went to meet alex in the morning n pass him the birthdae present... then after tt meet candy.... coz i promise to accompany her for the job interview todae... so meet her after her lessons... the place is a bit wu lu... it is at lavender so we meet at the mrt station there... then went into the company n see ard.. then i had a feeling it is gg to be an outdoor sales job n candy sae it might be on health products.... so when she went in for the interview the person ask mi if i was interested to join this company... i ask wat it is abt... then when candy came out she sae we go outside then tok... so she sae it is simliar to outdoor sales n also abt selling of health products... we were rite... candy is still thinking whether to take up this job or not... as she need to give an ans tml... then we went to eat at nearby kopitiam... as both of us were hungry... we share a claypot rice but couldnt finish... then went home after eating as both of us r tired... we can chat a lot coz from the time we see each other we keep on chatting till we separate... we depart at yishun as usual... then reach home abt 3 plus n go bath... after tt fall alp immediately in my bed n woke up at 7 plus... i am gg to be like a pig soon... keep on slp n slp... n the show gong is so nice... it is gg to be show on channel u soon... i will watch it again coz i realli like ths show very much n especially the songs too... tt all for todae... ya we have taken some pic tog...

mi n candy

candy acting cute (HEHE)

but her smile is so sweet

mi

happi birthdae to alex

todae is one of my close friend birthdae... alex... so wish him happi birthdae... noe each other for abt 1 yr plus le... he is a very gd friend... always lend mi his listening ear... give mi advise n many more.... cant remember le... wish him all the best n gd luck... n all his wish will come true.... tt all...

todae rayner accompany mi go walk walk as i was feeling down n stress.... i am feeling so stress tt my pimples r coming out....haiz... my face need to take more effort to take care.... then todae went bugis... saw a person i don realli like.... then the shop didnt open when we went but after tt i went it is open... n the shop assitant told mi she lost the key tt y todae so late then open... bought my shower foam.. tt is not a bad wan.... then on the way saw rayner friend who is studying beside his class who happen to be my classmate last time... so qiao... haha... then walk ard bugis... n soon we find it very boring so sit down n chat.... then he sae i got a lot of things kept to myself... tt is true... but somethings i don wan to sae it out.... sometime don feel like sae.... onli my best friend n my sis noe mi the best... candy is my best friend n fiona is my friend n sis... then the rest here noe a bit there noe a bit la... like ade n crystal n kat is my close friend... then my buddy is rayner n jerome.... they also noe a lot... tt all ba.... todae was feeling happi....

these few daes wat i had been doing... was chionging my vcds as my aunt need it asap... finally finish watching the korean drama GONG... it is a very nice show... then thurs meet rayner n accompany him to find job n end up went shopping instead... finally watch finish the disc yest... tt y i didnt reply or reply very slow when i am online.... coz i was bz watching the show.... then yest went out to buy phone... then juz now went to meet eugene they all... they r so gd coz they come yishun to find mi n accompany mi n eat together... haha... thx to marcus eugene toh eugene chen ming yang elaine julina n tong seng.... thx for coming after ur service from expo to yishun n cheering mi up.... the rest thx for calling n sending mi sms.... todae also exchange some no. wit them... coz i still don have all their no. haha... euegene chen sae i am starting to becoming more like them... although i am always on n off de... haha.... tt all ba...then these few weeks also think where i wan to go n study... my mum ask mi abt my future n i noe where i will be gg le... i had make up my mind.... then also think a lot... abt all the stuff n i noe all had got an ans n it had clear my mind le.....

bought new phone

finally bought a new phone yest.... my aunt n my cousin n my uncle accompany mi to go n buy.... realli thx.... then i change my no also... after a few daes of considering n thinking... i choose the phone i wan n the line.... i was so happi as my mum sponse mi.... thx mum... i like my phone.... i bought back nokia coz i still nokia the best.... tt all ba...

my handphone spoil

todae my phone spoil again so i decided to get a new one tml... my mum agree to buy for mi... if over the bugdet then i will put in some money lol...haiz... so sorry to ppl who cant contact mi todae...

todae so tired

went out in the morning to meet my friend.... then in the afternoon went to meet candy n her sis carely n her friend melissa n jason.... we shop ard bugis juction n bought a tshirt for my friend birthdae... hope tt the size is rite.... then went bugis stret... n bought a bikini todae n a shower foam... n dinner at teenage cafe... then went to cini to shop... after tt went to singapore shopping centre to play pool.... then went home at 9 plus...n reach home at 10 plus.... now online feeling so tired....

happi birthdae to adrian

happi 19th birthdae to my friend adrian... wish him all his wishes come true....

so tired

todae went to celebrate ade belated birthdae wit her n crystal.... i thought i was late n when i wait till ard 10am then i call ade hse n she was still slp... then i ask her wat time u noe now... then she sae oh ya... then a while ltr she reach.. then we went to escape todae as crystal wan to go... it was not too fun coz it is not so exciting... we felt bored... so play for a while then went to eat... we eat cavena then went toa poyah as ade mum wan her to go n collect something.... then we went ade hse n slack for a while... both of us went her hse to borrow some disc... then we went home... i am feeling so tired now.... n ya... ade birthdae i bought her a bag n i also made her a card wit kat help in decorating... mi kat n crystal write some wishes there.. ... tt all... gg to watch some dvd before i slp... gg to rest le...

todae went to finona hse n slack for a while.... then we go cut hair.... n we wont go tt shop again to cut coz the person don get the hairstyle we wan to have... so we were not realli satified n it is so ex lol.... then went to shop ard before i went home .... todae i saw annie on the way to fiona hse.... she became so pretty le n still remember mi.... i was surprise to see her.... haha... tt all ba.... i am very stress as the dae near to exam.... haiz... these 2 pic r taken after i cut my hair.... actually onli trim but my frin cut short la....

cant sleep

these few nites... didnt manage to slp.... don noe y cant slp although i am emotion tired... like this carry on how... i don noe... i am feeling so tired.... lord plz help mi..... haiz.... gg to cry if i still cant slp... juz now chat wit candy n we realised tt y our love life is so bad.... don noe y... we seems to have a hard life in relationship..... we always love those we shouldnt n wouldnt be together de... we noe it is impossible but we still love.... haiz.... don noe y like this don wan to think le la..... all we wan is juz a simple relationship is tt so hard....yyyyyyyyyy.......don understand.......

happi 18 birthdae to adeline

happi birthdae to my buddy adeline... turning 18 now... she is a best friend of mine... sometime go out out wit her she will bring laughter... or slack at her hse... we use to slack together... n play manjiong... haha... she is always the biggest winner... she is clever at playing tt.... of course she understand mi very well also.... she is a great pal didnt forget my birthdae.... she celebrate wit mi last yr.... when i am down she will be there for mi too... thx very much... it is my blessing noeing u....

happi 18 birthdae to liyan n anu

happi 18 birthdae to my dear freind liyan n my friend anuseya.... so fast gg to 6 yr liao.. we have noe each other for 5 yrs as classmate.... n now this yr we went on our separate ways.... best wishes to u all.... tml shall be my best friend n buddy nirthdae.... she is adeline....

todae was a tired n happi dae....

last nite didnt manage to slp... so slp ard 4am then wake up at 7:30am but went back to slp until 8am... then rush out of my hse at 8 plus... go for service todae.... thx marcus for fetching mi todae n eugene for giving mi a morning call but i didnt pick up coz i was bathing... then after service went to bugis n finally bought ade present... bought ade a bag... then after some shoppping at bugis shirley julina n katerine went home... then eugene n marcus they all went off... left mi may elaine n eugene to shop... n may was deciding whether wan to buy tt bag or not.... then shop until 7plus ba... then went home coz i was too tired... left may elaine n eugene to shop... don noe in the end may bought or not... they r 2 eugene all together... so don be confuse... took bus home n slp all the way... reach home asrd 9 le... gg to rest soon as out the whole dae n was feeling very tired now.....

happi belated birthdae to fabian

happi belated birthdae to my friend FABIAN.....wish u good luck in ur studies n hope tt u can find ur true love soon.... wish u do well in all aspects of ur life n have a smooth journey all the way......

todae went to gym wit candy n her sis kelly.. halfway through her sis face turn white n vomit.... then she went to rest while mi n candy continue... todae did a few but not very long coz candy don wan her sis to sit there as she is bored... went back to nss yest.. saw a few teachers.... not bad la... potato is having problems wit his back... then mrs chong sae i have slim down but i didnt.... then chat wit mrs ho for a while.... then noe a guy from our sch ... funny lol coz after sch mi n yan went to candy hse then after tt we r gg to singapore shopping centre to collect my stuff... then when we were on the bus on the way to northpoint saw the guy agin... so qiao... then yan tease to go get no. from him.. then i went to ask him for no. n sae candy wan.. we sabao candy... juz for fun de... candy got sms him la... but i don really noe wat they tok abt coz i don really wan to noe him... mi very naughty rite... then candy sae he act cool.. i don really tok to mi... then we went to taka n after tt candy left n mi n yan went to eat... yan sae my recommentations not bad also chat wit her a bit... then we went home.... n sorry to jessie tt i didnt turn up for ur birthdae at chalet yest.. n yan give mi a miss call at ard 5 plus asking mi whether wan to go but tt time i was slp.... so sorry didnt pick up ur call... then my aunt birthdae yest also... another aunt bought her a cake.... so we eat la.... so many birthdae coming... haiz gg to be broke.... gg to slp le....

feeling down

actually these few weeks havent been feeling happy at all... i don realli feel happy at all... i juz faking in front of u ppl.... till last nite i nearly broke down... i chat wit candy n fabian.... mostly wit fabian... he sae i am strong coz i can hide my feelings so well... i also admit tt i hide it very well... onli when i am alone i will reveal it out.... then todae went out wit fabian n candy.... i was feeling a bit better todae... sorry candy i was late again.... then after we went taka n ltr she left coz got something so left mi n fabian gg to study.... then while we were studying talk abit la.. i left early coz i wan to go home.... then left him alone... he sae thx mi for accompanying him... but it shld be mi instead coz he accompany mi n cheer up my mood... on the way home.. the train broke down for ard half an hr... then reach home ard 6 plus n rest... then watch tv... then on the phone wit may a while ago... then may sae wan to see my smiling face n cheerful look again n told mi to be strong n i will... JUZ GREAT THANKS TO CANDY N FABIAN N MAY... N THANKS RAYNER TOO... U NOE Y.... tt all for todae ba... gg to slp as i am tired le...

everyone feeling so down

while i was juz waking up fiona call mi... n sae got important thing to tell mi.... she ask mi to accompany her... she was feeling so down.... so went over to her hse n chat wit her for a while then ltr went out to walk walk... she was so sad.... haiz.... then we went suntec... on the way saw angela n chat for a while..... then reach home ard 9pm... then watch tv for awhile.. then went to chat wit candy on phone for a few hrs... till now chatting online.... haiz... we were toking abt relationship problems.... we both agree tt relationship is the hardest to pass through... haiz... y is everyone so sad... muz stay happy.... i have to learn to let go although it is very hard... candy sae muz try or we will nvr noe the ans... so now i feeling very confused.... haizzzz..... wish everyone happy n smile....

went out in morning to meet candy... coz she accompany mi ma... but i still late... sorry to make u wait...then on the way noe tt chengguan wont be free... n after some chatting we decide to go without him... so plan as usual..then after tt she left early coz she got something on.... after my things done...then i went home... reach home ard 4pm... then rest ard... went to party world ard 5 plus wit candy, liyan, jason.... then sing till 9 plus.. n we went home separately coz we got our things on... then liyan n mi walk home to0gether... party world not nice one... we somehow regret gg ... at least we enjoy ourselves... we also get a bit high... tt all.. todae is a triring dae....


mi yan candy

mi n yan

mi.....

ltr gg party world wit yan candy n cg.... todae oral was ok la... but a bit sucks... then saw mun ting... she got the exam same sch as mi... then got another one who is co de.... tt all... gg to chat wit fabian le.... shall update more ltr...

juz now went to fiona hse to slack as i am bored staying at home..... stay there chatting wit her... these few dae slack a bit study a bit... juz clear a lot of things in my hse.... my mum is nagging tt i got too much clothes so clear away a lot... still got a lot... need to buy some more drawers to put my clothes... now i starting to clear all the stuff at home tt i don use or don wan... but my room got no more space liao... haiz....

misses

after a few nites of thinkings.... i knew i had to let go coz i am tired le.... i don wan to force myself to give myself anymore excuse.... i have decided to let go of him... coz i noe it is impossible... juz now a chat wit fabian he ask mi how come i always attract the wrong type of guys... my ans is don noe... maybe is fate ba.... i knew i always fall for the wrong person but now decided to make it juz memories in my mind.... not onli fabian sae.. adrain slo sae it... fiona always have no comment coz she knew how i felt always so she always respect n support my decision... thx for being such a great sis.... as for now... i will be calming down on my emotions n tt all.... i will still be the same mi... bring smile n laughter to ppl....




another person i miss dearly is my grandfather juz now saw the photo posted on my cousin blog.... realise time realli pass fast but some things will still in my mind n heart as i knew i wont forget.... n my grandma too....




DEARLY MISS BY MI ON MY MIND N HEART

now cant slp..... ltr gg to do some deep thinking then go to slp.... juz now on phone wit fabian till ard 1am coz don wan to disturb him.. tml he still got sch... haiz.... but we chatted for ard an hrs plus.... he always so nice can ans mi a lot of qns so paitently.... thx to him... got to noe him a bit more.... not bad... these few dae have a bit of mood swings... haiz... don think too much liao... gg to slp...

now blogging where eating my fruit..... todae went out wit my cousin to celebrate her birthdae... bought her a perlini necklace... first we went suntec then went bugis... she bought a shirt n a skirt n 2 watches... mi i bought 2 skirts n gg to change tml coz too tight.... i also bought a bag coz my bag spoil during i was shopping... haiz... coz i juz use it twice.... nvr la... tml gg to change my size of skirts...then we take neoprints... after tt went home....

todae went out wit rayner... juz went shopping ard .... then we had our dinner at ajisah... so glad to see him coz havent seen him for a long time since i bz working...then after tt went home n slack... now juz finish my supper gg to drink my soup liao... here r some of our photo... taken by him...




rayner n mi

it is us again...

shopping

todae went bugis to shop wit fiona... before tt went to get my pay... todae bought a few things...
1) 3 black skirts....
2) a pair of white heels ( black does not look gd on mi...)
3) 2 bags...
- 1 small n 1 medium
then went to eat ajisah....then shop ard again n went home...

todae went to bugis wit kat onli... sad lol juz the 2 of us... ade last min sae she not gg coz she got something on... we went to search for bags... but still not found... then mi n kat each bought a watch... i also bought 2 cd... then reach home ard 8 plus.. kat went to meet another person as she got appointment so i went home n slack... then juz now went to met jerome to get my pay... ltr gg to meet fiona... then thurs will be jianying n fri rayner... so long didnt see them liao...

ltr gg to meet ade n kat liao... we r gg bugis...so long didnt see them... it onli a few mths.. n everyone birtdae is coming... so ltr then update la...

these 2 dae think a lot... then saw some of my friends blog... somehow it make sense.... haiz... i agree tt friendship need time trust n requires a lot of effort to maintain... n true friend wont be bother wit money matter n tt will be a true friend.. then relationship also the same... most of our friends juz come n pass n become part of our memories... n these memories will make us sometime think of n remain in our mind... the most important is nemories is juz part of it... is how we spent it together.... the things i noe the most important in our life regardless of wat it is friendship or wat is TRUST... EVEN THE TRUTH HURT BUT IF WE NOE THE TRUTH IS BETTER THEN LIES... COZ WE WILL RECEIVE A GREATER HURT INSTEAD...

juz finish chatting it him... kinda getting closer n noe a bit more about him.... gg to slp liao... tired.... tml is gg to be a tiring dae...

these 2 dae chat wit fabian my new friend... find out tt we have some things in common... he tell mi a lot of things tt i don noe... thx to him i understand n learn a lot of things... thx for telling mi n teaching mi... then also chat wit adrian... i realise a lot of things ...also went taka these few dae..

todae still feeling sick but still decided to go shopping... realli sick le...my voice totally changed... haiz... muz take care... todae went taka to return card but too late le as they close le... then shop ard there... went taka then go far east n bought some things there... then went centrepoint to buy some skin products n try out... coz working didnt take care of my skin so now muz take care...tt all still feeling tired...as i am still sick...

overall of wat i did these 2 weeks... it is gonna to be a long entry.. juz to update wat i do.. bz working these 2 week coz as a full time promoter... nth much but tired... realised tt taka got a lot of mature n handsome looking guys... then got to noe a few ppl in taka... find them very nice... got a few no from them... haha... got to noe the guy name tt i find not bad one... haha... find him cute... then enjoy my time working there but tired due to the long hrs... then yes reach home ard one plus gg to 2am... so late n tired... coz pack good till ard 12 plus then finish... then mi n jerome went to swesen to eat while the rest head back to factory to put the goods back to warehouse... then he treat mi... thanks... then ard 1 plus le... we head home... he send mi home... so nice of him... thanks for sending mi home... tt all...




todae till 7 plus my dad ask mi something n i wake up after tt went back to slp... till 11 plus my aunt wake mi up ask mi something again... then after tt went to eat n slack till 1 plus went back to slp till 5 plus then wake up coz my dad brought mi dinner... thx... then i realised tt i was not feeling well todae coz i caught a cold last nite... keep sneezing n feeling giddy the whole nite.. then tok on phone wit fiona n she noe tt i am sick due t0 my voice totally change so she ask mi to rest... n i feel asleep after toking to her... ard 10 plus jerome call but i didnt ans n ltr my mum told mi n i call him back... he wan to collect his stuff but it is late le n i am also not feeling well so not meeting him.. sorry... then slp till 11 plus n start using com till now... gg to slp le coz i reallli not feeling well n i am feeling giddy n sneezing now....

last dae liao

todae last dae work at ego liao... finally can have a gd rest... gg to slp liao....

2 more dae

2 more dae to work end... haha... can rest liao... can go shopping... can meet up wit friend... can do a lot of things...

hurt

todae my hand was hurt n till now apply the cream still feeling pain... haiz... hurt myself during working... hate this coz i was so not careful...

why...

why... why has it become like this... i don wan... i am feeling confuse now... wat shld i do... i also don noe.... i think i am falling into the same trap again...i have been trying to control my feeling for him coz i don wan to let him noe.... i think the best solution now is to keep quiet n control my feeling... coz i don wan to end up hurting ppl....

confuse

i don noe y these few daes feeling so confuse ... don ask mi y... i don noe... is there something wrong wit mi or wat... i guess i roughly noe y.... i hope is my senses telling mi wrong... i had the feeling tt i fall for him liao n i noe it is impossible for us... i hope tt this will not be the case coz i still don noe how i feel.... i believe in fate... if we r meant to be together we will be together... if not no matter how i wish we still wont be together... saw a few not bad looking guys working at taka... haha.... sorry to u if i throw my temper at u todae... i didnt mean it...


getting moody nowadae coz very tired during working... lack of slp will let mi throw my temper somehow...5 more dae to go n it will be over.... i got panda eyes liao... my ankle is having rashes... maybe gg to see doc ba.... tired liao... off to slp le...

todae sabrina they all came to have dinner wit mi.. so many ppl got may, eugene toh n eugene chen, shirley n many more... so happy to see them... n tok a lot wit them after tt all accompany mi back to work n half walk wit mi till work place onli half staying in the centre waiting for the rest.. thx guys i realli enjoy... those feedback i got who saw jerome sae he is handsome.. ok... working wit him at taka till next week... he always bully mi ask mi to do a lot of things... his mouth very sweet lol can persuade a lot of ppl to buy but still the sales not gd as not many ppl buying... working wit him make mi feel tired as need to do a lot things...


i realise i cannot work in the same place for too long coz i will started to get bored n less engentic to do... i cannot stay in the same place for too long la... this is the logic... blog another time.. gg to slp liao.. very tired...


gg to meet up wit rayner soon.. havent seen him for a few mth seems like very long time.. after working gg to spend mi time wit mi friend liao...

todae was so screw up.... meet a few unreasonable customers... n taka was darm strict lol.. this cannot tt cannot... nvr still got another week to go onli... haiz... so tired working there n need to do a lot of things... todae was thinking of asking rayner out n todae he tag mi board.. so qiao... coz we realli havent seen each other for a few weeks ba... kinda wan to meet up wit my friends.. not onli rayner... i feel tt i have neglected my friends due to working nvr after next week i shall meet up wit them.... n go out wit all of them... a few at a time or one by one ba... my working still ok... but i somehow don like to work at taka... coz of the pay... n sorry these few dae i am tired so if i didnt reply ur sms or ur phone... please forgive mi.. i realli tired.... i will compensate u all... i will meet up wit u all soon... or u can find mi at taka basement 2 de food there.. it is at the end lol... i working there till next week sun... then i will meet up wit all my friends... hope to see u all soon... anything juz call or sms mi... more birthdae r coming.... n o level is also coming le... off to sleep liao...

so tired

start on my new job yest... nth la... but i too blur liao... haiz... tt all.. nth much... wont be updating lately ba till my job end this mth...

todae was my last dae... then nth much lol... then saw the guy.. he is so handsome....ok... like his smile... those who saw him before noe y i like him...i realli wan to be friend wit him but YOU YUAN WU FEN... my grandma sae i getting fat le... i muz start to lose weight n exercise more....haha...

todae was great

after working went for service... n it was great n i enjoy it... onli mi , shirley n may.... thanks shirley for waiting for mi even i was late.... then after service saw fiona n her friends... haha.. don noe tt one of her friend was in the same pri n sec wit mi... now then noe it.. after service went to find angela.. chat wit her for a while... havent seen for for a long time... tml gg to train nanother person n is my last dae of weok... then i change job le... tt guy i didnt saw him todae... reach home at 10 plus... todae was a great dae n i enjoy it...

shld be working till todae but i extend till sundae coz they cant find help... n tml n sun got 2 trainees... each per dae... mi n my friend quit on the same time then our boss thought we sae together... haha... no la... tt mac cafe guy onli rest on wed... the rest of this week till fri saw him everytime.. haah... but no chance... till sun if still no chance then forget it le ba... then todae fiona came to find mi but i went home le... coz tired ma so went home.. then while working chat wit eugene toh.. he give mi a lot of advise.. second time can noe him so well n gd.... then at nite chat wit another eugene coz feel like chatting wit him... he is a great pal of mine... he kinda of understand mi n noe mi.. haha.. maybe like we sae can become close friend... we sae give each other a yr starting from 23 of june 2006... hope tt e can do it... wed went to sent her off... haha.. she was so gd wait for mi... thanks sabina n sorry tt i was late... these few dae was kinda tired ... ya my uncle bought durians for us on tues n i love eating it... my dad was also so gd bought us cans of bird nest... i love eating durains n haven eaten for a long time le.. now de durains r the best... now gg to slp le.. already 12 plus le...

shld be working till todae but i extend till sundae coz they cant find help... n tml n sun got 2 trainees... each per dae... mi n my friend quit on the same time then our boss thought we sae together... haha... no la... tt mac cafe guy onli rest on wed... the rest of this week till fri saw him everytime.. haah... but no chance... till sun if still no chance then forget it le ba... then todae fiona came to find mi but i went home le... coz tired ma so went home.. then while working chat wit eugene toh.. he give mi a lot of advise.. second time can noe him so well n gd.... then at nite chat wit another eugene coz feel like chatting wit him... he is a great pal of mine... he kinda of understand mi n noe mi.. haha.. maybe like we sae can become close friend... we sae give each other a yr starting from 23 of june 2006... hope tt e can do it... wed went to sent her off... haha.. she was so gd wait for mi... thanks sabina n sorry tt i was late... these few dae was kinda tired ... ya my uncle bought durians for us on tues n i love eating it... my dad was also so gd bought us cans of bird nest... i love eating durains n haven eaten for a long time le.. now de durains r the best... now gg to slp le.. already 12 plus le...

yes got my pay... ok la... but yes work whole so was feeling tired todae... todae don wan to work full la.. i will be too tired de.....todae sabrina came to find mi... not bad la... chat wit mi... then ask her wat time she leave tml... tml i gg to send her off... she is leaving or taiwan tml... wish her a gd n nice trip... hope tt she will learn as much as she could.... ya... then these two dae i saw tt guy... he work early but got no chance coz he didnt came out... haiz... i will wait till this fri... if still no chance then i will forget it ba... i realli wan to be friend wit him... have to give up n admit tt we wont have the chance... i working till this fri... sat rest.. then sun i will start working till end of this mth for full dae... gg to be tired so need to rest la... after tt not working le... i will be studying at home till o level end... todae went to buy 3 hairbands n 2 pair of ears studs... spend ard 16... coz i lost all my hairbands... don noe where i put it... i got 4 or 5 but now onli left one... so need to buy... then i accidentally throw all my ear studs away... coz i put it in a box n the box is spoil so nvr check whether got things inside or not then throw away... n now then realise... haiz... i throw ard 10 pair of ear studs.. all very nice de n i like it lol... now gg to buy more again... i got a lot of ear rings n all r dangling wan... i realise tt i am very careless... haiz.. off to slp le... tml still need to wake up to send sabrina off...

todae was fun... got service n prayer meeting.... realli enjoy it.. during prayer meeting saw mao shen, jia yong n joshua... they were surprise to see mi... haha... after went to tampines then stay at coffee bean n chat... after tt went home to meet my parents n have dinner... sabrina n shuting r gg to left for mission trip this week for taiwan... god will bless them n give them power... god bless you.... yesterdae work whole dae still didnt see tt guy.. haiz.. no fate.... gg to watch tv n slp soon le.. i am tired... yesterdae reach home ard 12 plus n slp at1am... todae wake up at 7.45am to got for church todae... so muz rest as the past few dae slp at 2am... need to rest....

finally get to see tt guy le... haiz... but i was gg home... no chance or fate... todae sales was ok... jerome left for malaysia on sundae n will be back on sundae... hope he enjoy himself n have fun...nth much.. these few dae onli slp at 2am.. don noe y so late... feel so tired this few dae....gg to slp soon.. ltr got work n it i whole dae...

todae was a great dae... sabrina came to find mi... she came n brought mi a pack of biscuits for mi... so nice of her... then after work went to find shu ting as she sae wan to see mi.. then went shopping n after tt went to eat n went home... nth much... the guy off todae... haiz...

MOOD SWING

these few dae like this... i don noe y... sometime happy... sometime sad... n the worse of all my double character is out again... i realli don wan to show it to anyone.... my the other character is out means nth gd will happen... i realli try my best not to show it... but in the end still fail... due to my mood swings... i muz realli control my mood well la... i muz control... if i lose control... something bad n wat i cant expect will happen... or the thing i fear the most will happen... i don wan n don wish... if i had scare anyone of u... then here i sae sorry... i don mean to... if i throw my temper at anyone... i am also sry.. i didnt mean..juz tt my mood realli sucks...

i realli need someone to confide to.... someone who can calm mi down... emotionally n my heart.... i am faking smile in front of mi nowadae... n i am realli tired of faking... i juz wan to be truthful to myself... i realli don wan to keep on pretending i am fine when i am not.... i don noe y i feel so hurt n tired suddenly... i don noe y i feel like running away from all this... perhaps i need a break ba... i need to go to a place where i can rest n no one can find mi...

gg to quit my job next mon... don realli like this job...




lol when i finally wan to pluck up my courage.. he is always off lol... fate... haiz...




i think a lot this few dae... i guess i still blur... i still don noe wat i wan... i hate myself this way... i realli don wan to be like this... i guess i will noe it soon ba... haha... fiona tok to mi n i still the same... nvr... slowly ba...

WAT IS LOVE

TODAE STILL GOT NO COURAGE TO ASK THE GUY FOR HIS NO... MISS SO MANY CHANCE LE... I DON NOE WAT HAPPEN LA...




till todae i realise tt i am afraid to go into relationship..... i have the fear n no confident... don noe y feeling like this.... i hate myself this way... i realli wan to love someone but i am afraid to get hurt....

todae was a great dae as the sales was gd... even fiona also realise tt the mac cafe guy also stare at mi sometime.. haha.. didnt manage to get his no.. coz thur n fri he off... sat i on mc... sun bz working... maybe go to fate ba... let fate decide... happy birthdae to eugene.... haha..

realli sick

these few daes down wit a heavy flu n fever... drag till juz now then went to see doctor... then rfeel very terrible.. now a bit better after taking medicine.. wan to go slp n rest le... tml off coz doc give mi mc... need to rest these few daes... need to get better... muz get well soon...

todae is sick

todae is sick again wit fever n sore throat n cough.... drink a lot of water todae.... now gg to slp... as tired ma... think le... tml go ask the guy at mac for no to be friends.... haha... don think too much... juz find him cute n onli wan to be friend wit him... he seem to be a nice guy ba.... haha.. be friend wit him le then noe how he is like lol... tt all.. off to slp...

I MISS ESTHER N AUNTIE CAT.... I AM DARM BORED WORKING ALONE.... NO ONE TO CHAT WIT ESPESIALLY ESTHER LEFT... IT WAS GREAT NOE HER... WE HAD A LOT OF FUN N GREAT TIME EVEN IT IS ONLI A FEW WEEKS... THANKS FOR GIVING MI SO MANY SUCH WONDERFUL MEMORIES... I WILL REMEMBER DE... i hope she will do well in shatec n her life will be great.... it is a new beginning for her... wish her all the best n a new gd start.. to mi work start to get boring without a company...




these few dae chat wit eugene find out tt he is a nice guy... he had a lot of thinking n very mature sometime also playful... he always make mi laugh.. he can cheer up my dae.... he is also gd at counselling ppl too... i can sense tt he wan to understand mi n trying to... but i don wan... coz my heart don wish to open yet ( ONLI HAPPEN ON GUYS )... don ask mi y coz i also don noe.... he sae if i have any qns can find him.... he will try his best to teach mi... he will also try to help mi... thanks lot....




havent get to chat to jerome for a few daes... he is leaving for malaysia soon for his holi... wish u enjoy...




i am happi these few daes... my daes r so gd n great.... todae sabrina came to find mi... glad u help mi to pass a bit of my time thx... she sae if i need help in poa n find her she is willing to teach mi... thx...




i am so happi n satisfied wit my life now... my life is filled wit colours... staying single is great.... i wont go into relatioship until i am confident.... i wan to stay single for the time being.... so sorry guys if i reject u... i am gd at anything but when it come to a relatioship i am a failure... i noe how to sae n tell others to do but i cant do it for mi... at my workplace mac there is a guy who is not bad looking working there.... haha... juz feel onli... don anyhow think... for mi now... i wan to focus on my studies onli... i juz wan to widen my social of friends by noe more friends....

sorry to those who i nearly throw my temper

last sundae was great... i went for service then after tt saw shuting n a few la... so happy to see them.. after tt went suntec to ply games... it was fun but tired.... i realli entoy... n ltr when i went working i start to throw my temper.... SORRY TO U ALL HOPE U ALL WILL FORGIVE MI... i didnt mean it but i still control... so onli throw a bit la... nearly lost control of my temper... don sae anymore la...

todae till sat i working full shift... was so tired.. poor mi... onli rest dae is sundae... my boss told mi to work on sun but i too tired le.. cant take it... sundae i gg to shiopping n rest... n i finish stock taking todae... haha.. i redo...


always not every friend will be lasting but they give mi great memories.... i do believe in forever friend.... todae fiona sae something tt i don wish to hear... she noe i am running away la...


TO GUYS WHO REALLI TRY UR BEST N WAN TO UNDERSTAND MI DE... I AM SORRY TT I DON WAN TO LET U ALL UNDERSTAND... SORRY.... ALTHOUGH I UNDERSTAND U ALL MORE.... I AM SORRY...

haha... todae so happy noe more friends.... went for church todae... then the service was so fun n i enjoy it...

gg to be lonely

esther n auntie cat is gg to work till this sun n they r not gg to be here anymore..... haiz.... SAD SAD SAD... i am gg to be alone.. nobody to tok to mi... slack wit mi... actually i wan to noe more abt esther then fate make fun lol... don let mi be close to her n noe this friend.... haiz.... i realli wan to be friend wit her n noe her more.... i am so lonely... so lonely...

lonely n shopping again

todae was so lonely coz esther was not working so feel very bored... n juz one dae n i cant stand it... don noe wat happen when she leave at this mth... haiz... i realli like this friend a lot from my heart as i like her comapny wit mi.... i like toking to this friend n noe more abt her... i wan to be best friend wit her.... hope tt there is chance... we r similar in some ways n characters tt y we can tok a lot from heart to heart... so happy to noe this friend...




then went shopping again... bought 2 pair of shoes... like it very much... one of the pair don have the colour i wan so choose another colour...



i am so sleepy as juz now slp at 8pm till 11pm then wake up... both of my fingers on my hand had a cut.. don noe when cut de... todae sales was not bad for mi...


off to slp as tired le...

shopping

went to get myself a pair of heels tt i have been eyeing.... n bought it le n also bought a pair for my cousin... then went to give my dad a treat... he was so happy... n bought ice-cream for desserts... todae still don have enough slp still feel very tired.. off to slp le...

happy belated father dae... ltr gg give my dad a treat but before tt i gg to get myself a pair of heels n slippers... realli very tired work 5 daes full time.... didnt have a rest lol.... have to chiong for sales... so very tired.. meet a lot of weird customers n ppl... haha... heard tt i am not stupid 3 has a show at suntec... heard from my friend de... haha.. gg to be out soon i think... nowadaes starting to get close to esther le.... noe her better n lots too... we r chatty at times n when we r free... we also help each other to buy food if either one is bz or don feel like gg.... also discuss abt the food at the foodcourt n fastfood near to out store... haha... now getting close to her as we walk to mrt together if i working nite shift lol... starting to think after this month we won get to see each other so often will somehow miss her ba... i now can understand how she is like... we r like close friend or sisters.... hope we have more chance.... guess ltr have to ade along if possible.... or go alone....

have been working from 12 to 10 from wed to sat... tml also.. i am feeling so tired... i need a rest to recharge... haha tml gg to get my overtime pay le.. can treat my parents go eat to celebrate father dae coz i cant tml.. i am working... so pay them back on mon... nowadae getting close to esther... become chatty as tok to her alot.. either i find her or she find mi... we can get close.. haha... noe a new friend.. so great n happy... i am realli happy wit my life noe...

so tired... yesterdae my boss call mi in the morning to work whole dae but i reject coz my skin is having problems the nite before.. so todae another one call... although i don feel like gg but i still agree in the end...coz i noe they r bz wit the other store... todae till fri i working full dae... gg to be tired coz sun is definitely full dae de then follow by mon off dae.... so tired... off to slp le.. tml still need to wake up to work....

went out wit kat n ade todae... nth lol juz usual meeting up n shop n tok lol... not bad lol todae stll ok la... ade nvr fail to entertain us.... she is forever so nice n cute... first we went tampines n shop ard then went to eat n went to causeway... then ade went for her thing n mi n kat went yishun n kat went np while i head home... chat up a lot wit them... they juz make my dae very happy...



these few daes havent been toking to him wonder how is he... it has become a habit ba i think... have the sense tt he is avoiding mi.... but don wan to think too much coz he wan if he will find mi de...



these few dae have been thinking abt him after i saw him at suntec..... we realli wan to be friends but we noe we cant... we have try for a few times le but we fail in the end... we try to control our feelings but he still fail in the end... so now we r like strangers... this shld be the best way ba... at least we wont be so miserable.... this time we realli put all the things to an end le... hope tt he is happy... hope he is doing well... THANKS FOR ALL THE THINGS U DID FOR MI.. I REALLI APPRECIATE... NOW IT IS TIME TO REALLI END IT LE... I HAVE MADE UP MY MIND LE.... i noe tt u wont be reading coz we have lost contact le... but i juz wan to write out how i feel... tt all.. is is so simple...



i may be strong at times but it comes to handling relationship n friendship i am very weak.... i will get hurt in the end..
i will lost all my emotions...
i will lost my rational...
i will lost my control...
tt is coz i realli treasure them a lot....
i have learn different type of friends to treat differently...for those who don deserve i wont care for them n give it a darm to them... i noe this is a bit selfish but this is the way to protect myself from getting hurt.... for those who deserve to be treat gd i will use my heart to treat u n care for u... i will prove to u tt u worth it... coz u all treat mi very gd also n i shld also show my sincerity to u to prove tt u worth it...

these few dae keep toking to esther... let both of us to get to noe each other much... haha tues i forgot to bring my key todae is her... funny lol... she told mi some things abt her n let mi get to noe her better.... haiz... did stock taking todae manage to finish as it is a lot of stuff lol.... haiz.. tml meeting kat n ade to go out since mi n ade didnt see kat for a long time... ya... look forward tml... off to slp le...

then next week i am working nite shift... n fri n sun is full dae.... is gg to be tired i think.. see how ba...

LACK OF SLEEP....

todae was so tired coz this few daes wake up early n slp late.... todae got to noe a friend more ... her name is esther hope tt i didnt spell wrongly... chat wit her for abt an hr after i knock off... noe more abt her.... she is onli 1 yr younger n she already plan for her future.. she noe wat her future will be like as she had already choosen her path... she made mi very impress by the way she talk... she is gg to shatec in july... she noe wat she wan in her life n acheive it... her toking n thinking are very mature... she is a nice gal... she is also very cheerful n happy go lucky.... wish her all the best for her future n succeed soon.. so tired tis few daes so off to slp after finishing burning disc for my aunt......

wat shld i do

i don noe wat happen after i toking to lai... i will get depress... i noe she is always using mi... n i always believe tt she will change till now i have given up hope on her... coz i am tired of this friendship... i don wan to get hurt anymore... i noe i am selfish this way but i am afraid to get hurt.... sorry i have given up on u... I NOE LONG AGO SHE IS USING MI BUT I DON WAN TO FACE THE REALITY... I JUZ DON WAN TO FACE IT.... WHEN IT COME TO FRIENDSHIP I AM ALSO AFRAID TO FACE THE REALITY EVEN I NOE IT.... I WILL HURT TILL VERY DEEP... BUT LUCKILY I GOT A LOT OF GOOD N GREAT FRIENDS ARD MI... THANKS FOR THERE FOR MI... I REALLY APPRECIATE IT....

NEED A BREAK

todae was so tired.... todae working saw a person... saw my first stead.... feeling so confuses now... he still the same... never lack of gals... he is always so popular wit gals... ltr after work went to meet rayner for a while to pass him the book he wan... then went home... nth much...

WHY WE ARE LIKE THIS....
WHY FATE MAKE US NOE EACH OTHER....
WHY WE SOMETIME TIME SO CLOSE....
WHY WE LIKE STRANGERS AGAIN...
WHY U DO THIS TO MI...
WHY CANT JUZ REMAIN AS ONLY FRIENDS....
WHYYYYYYY?????????
HAIZ>>>>

SO TIRED N HAPPY N SLEEPY

todae work up at 9 n slp at 3 in the morning... haiz so tired n todae do stock taking from opening til 9pm so tired of countong... manage to finish but onli finish putting price tag for 1/8 of the products... tml still muz continue but i gg another place to help out as tml opening dae... sms alex n tok to candy on the way home... tok to fiona on the way to work... noe wat shld i do le... thx for giving mi the advise... TODAE SALES WAS GD AS MY BOSS IS HAPPY WIT MI... off to slp le...

todae was feeling down again coz i ps lai.... SORRY I DIDNT MEAN IT... guess she is angry wit mi ba... so this made my mood feeling down... i promise if i have the time surely go out wit u de... then keep thinking wat r friends for.... if friends cant be a bit more tolerance n forgiving... wat is the point of being friends... haiz... then fiona cheer up up n my dae is juz great... went working todae wit my boss after mon i will be alone.... coz she gonli guiding mi ma...