slp at 5 plus n woke up at 7 plus... n back to slp at 8 plus... slp all the way until a while ago... suppose to met someone but both of us overslept... :) so change into another dae lol... sentosa on thurs wit my clique... finally throughout the whole holi i didnt manage to see them... coz i was bz tuition... sian... now muz enjoy before sch starts if not dies.... haha... off i go to do my stuff... shall update later...

too many things had happen n i juz have a talk wit tracy.... i guess i am too sensitive in certain ways... shall not be so sensitive anymore... hehe... coz i will be a happi gal...

sad n heartbroken

recently things havent been gg realli well for mi.... especially certain stuff... onli certain ppl noe wat i am gg through... thx you buddies for ur encouragement.... realli thx a lot for ur support too...

i have been thinking am i too persistant over certain things but i dun wish to give up so easily..... i realli dun... tt y i am hanging on... coz i am not a person who gives up easily.... realli... when i wan to do the things i will persist till the end... especially relationship...

i dun seems strong when it comes to relationship...this special person told mi if he left mi i wont even feel sad or wat at all.... i can tell u tt if u left mi i will break down n cry coz of u ... coz u meant so much to mi... n i realli dun wan to lose u... it hearts my heart so much.... u didnt noe it at all... he sae he sense tt i juz feel lonely n need a companion... but the fact is i realli LOVE him a lot n a lot.... i didnt show it doesnt mean i dun love.... i love him deep down from my heart.... those ppl who noes mi well noe how much i love him.... how much i care for him... u r the first guy tt i will wake up in the middle of the nite... coz i dreamt tt i had lose u.... do u noe how scared am i when i dreamt tt i will lose u... do u noe the fear in my heart.... do u noe i realli dun wan to give u up easily.... i also wan u not to give up so easily.... i realli hope... watever i do... i juz wan u to be happi onli... i juz wan to see u happi again.. tt all... i am not asking much from u... as long as u r happi... i will be happi... so i choose to gave u up... to let u gain back everything n be happi... let u do wat u wan.....

haiz..... have a talk wit candy juz now.... feel more better le... candy stay strong ok... i will give u my support till the end... anything can find mi.... i noe u r gg through a hard time now... no matter wat happen i will lend u my listening ears whenever u need... feel free to tell mi...

i am so tired...

so tired now... yest after tuition went to meet candy... meet her at amk hub ard 8pm... she reach there n waited for mi... sorry to make her wait... then went mos burger to eat n after tt went to buy a present for my cousin... end up i bought some things too.. then after tt went to party world at yishun to sing... we sang until 1 plus n left.... she headed hm while i headed to meet fer.... reach hm ard 5am in the morning... then nvr slp... i onli slept for 3 hrs onli... tt y now i am so tired.. now gg to slp le... tired... yawn...

sundae was a venting dae... went out to eat n then party world wit candy.... we sang from 11 plus to 2 plus near 3am.... reach hm at 3am... heng before it started to rain i had reach hm.... sang until throat pain... now throat hurts... it realli hurts...

recently a lot of things have been through my mind.... i realli thx my friends for tolerating wit my temper... i admit i am not a very gd temper person when it comes to certain stuff.... n i am realli happi tt u guys n gals tolerate n understand..... thx a lot.... especially to koh tracy alex candy fer n yan... i noe these few daes i realli lose control ... thx for ur understanding... thx for not flaring up n letting mi vent out everything... thx a lot.....

these few daes i realli learn a lot from my friends... n saw through a lot of things.... thx for telling n letting mi seen through so many stuff....

i wan to meet up wit my clique marie janice pearlene eddy n darren..... havent been able to meet up wit them... haiz... coz i am bz cant meet them... miss out a few i guess...
i wan to meet wit alex loke... my buddy... dunnoe how many weeks le... ever since u accompany tt dae...
i wan to meet wit jocelin for shopping... have been telling n not yet done...
i wan to meet liyan.... havent been seeing her for weeks too... dun even remember when is the last time...
i wan to meet tiffany.... last met was 2 weeks ago.... before mooncake festival.... wan to meet her.... got so much stuff to talk.... n go out to have fun....
i wan to meet up wit kat n ade soon.... last meet up was during ade birthdae... so much stuff to listen n hear from ade n kat...
i wan to meet up wit crystal too... havent seen her since dun noe how many mths... haiz...
i wan to meet up wit our peeps... so long nvr see u guys le... shall find one dae to meet....
last one i wan to meet is fiona... finally is her holi le... can meet her next week le.... yea... so happi n looking forwards.... got a lot to talk... hehe... as usual my kaki... my many yrs of best friends... havent been seeing her....
is there anymore i have miss out... not sure.... tt is all i can remember...

i have been meeting fer n tracy... sat meeting tracy.... next tues wit koh for a drink or club... still not sure.... tml wit candy.... next wed is my student.... n one of the fri wit tracy n koh.... our drinking session... :) n many more....

i find these holi meaningful coz i have see through a lot of things n learn a lot of things... noe who r the ones who care.. noe how to maintain a friendship... noe who r realli gd to mi... who will nvr leave mi.... who can tolerate mi... who is realli my friends....

have a talk wit koh juz now.... realli a gd talk.... she told mi a lot of stuff too... i noe i shldnt be so bad temper.... if i didnt even care or wat... i wont even waste my time to sae so much.... had a talk wit my mum abt this issue too... she gave mi her opinion n advise too.... still confused wat to do.... is partly due to my character too... my bad temper n implusive temper.... shall stop here... go n slp le...

i felt so bad to fer.... went out wit fer juz now to catch the show mirrors coz i wan to watch... then suppose to watch another show now... but i have to go hm coz some things crop out.... so sorry to throw him to watch alone..... i am so sorry.... feel so bad as i wan to accompany him realli...

haiz... y always like this one.... i dun understand.... nowadaes it is driving mi nuts.... i hate myself.... keep losing control of myself.... dun noe y..... too many things have happen n it is straining mi out.... i feel so tired..... especially tuition n friendship... certain friendship make mi feel so exhausted... i realli value friendship a lot...

i am so angry

todae so much things happen... n i am so piss off... shall not sae it out.... meet alexa todae..... n had a chat wit koh n tracy n alexa..... n finally candy.... thx candy for letting mi to vent out everything.... sry is too much le.... haha...

i pass all my modules....

i am so happi... i pass all my modules.... although the grades r not gd but at least pass.... hehe.... thx god.... i was so scared coz when i am having the pprs.... my mind suddenly black out.... for all my pprs.... anyway i wan to thx my classmates for their help n encouragement..... realli thx a lot to u all... without u all i wouldnt have so much confidence.... thx a lot especially my clique marie janice pearlene eddy n darren.... n not forgetting alex loke who studies wit mi.... haha... n my repeat module classmate who taught mi the last min... thx a lot to u all...

todae went to meet tiff... haha... as usual lots of jokes n crap.... talk a lot... feel better after talking to her... let everything out again... as usual sick n not feeling well too.... n my dear sis tiff slim down a lot... she realli chio n got figure now... she is also sick too... then both of us crap la.... ya i saw her bf le... haha... not bad we play candles in the end n i scald my hand coz i am careless.... then she keep telling mi to be careful....

where is my nana.... i miss her... have to wait until end of sept then can see her... sad.... haiz.... nana i miss u lots.... my sis for so many yrs....

n jocelin when r we meeting for our shopping trip.... haha...

next week shopping wit tracy.... haha...

n liyan...haiz so many ppl to meet.... when can meet finish...

i am so sick now

i am feeling so sick now.... wit a fever... yest was running nose n all this.... muz drink more water woa...

yest suppose to meet candy for gym end up i overslept... too tired le.... then tuition.... was down wit flu while i was teaching..... then wan to meet fer after my tuition but end up he cancel so call candy n see if she wan to meet up but she nvr pick up.... so went hm take medicine n rest... was feeling very weak wit the running nosen headache.... then after taking medicine plan to head n fer call... so i went out to meet him n we went to catch the movie babylon.... i dun like the ending.... headed hm n rest after tt.... candy call while i was on the way to meet fer.... so didnt met her in the end... i noe she will see this post.... u r always late..... the juz now went to meet victor before he went ns next mon... had a dinner n headed hm... haha.... nth much...

many things have happen... wan to noe ask mi ba... sms wit liyan yest nite.... i told her some stuff.... haha... i am bad in some ways... hehe...

sat slack at hm... sun went out for steamboat wit lots of ppl... they celebrated liyan birthdae.... not bad quite fun... talk a lot wit liyan too.... mon as usual teach tuition.... then yest went to buy mooncakes for my students wit alex... we took neoprint too... quite fun n to teach tuition again... meet fer after tt...
todae nth much... tuition again.... more time towards tuition.... mean lesser time for friends le... more money... hehe.... haiz... feel so pain for my students.... even their grades r gd but the emotional they went through is not easy to get over... they need time.... i hope tt they will recover soon....

suppose to meet marie they all for movie but end up things cope up.... haiz... sad.... shall find one dae to meet them....

recently too much things have happen.... things arent gg well for mi also... haiz... i will be fine one... coz i am a strong gal... :)

time is not enough

i need more time... time is not enough... not enough time to do things... not enough to finish my stuff..... 24hrs not enough for mi.... haiz...

i like this song... found it in yongxin blog... the song is so nice n meaningful.... this song is like my character... realli like a lot... it shows the gal stubborness towards relationship.....

yest went out wit fer at nite.... coz both of us wake up late as the previous nite we chat until morning... then todae went to celebrate ade birthdae wit kat... it was always fun as there r so much laughter n jokes.... i simply love them to max....


yest cant slp as some things happen again.... many thoughts have been passing through my mind.... now is the same.... cant slp... too much thoughts... i dun noe how... seriously.... shld i hang on or give up.... can anyone tell mi.... i have hurt ppl again... haiz... am i rite to persist till the end... i begin to doubt.... realli....

HHAPPY BIRTHDAE TO LIYAN

HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO LIYAN.....
WISH U ALL UR DREAMS N WISHES COME TRUE...

start from fri ba... went back sch for teacher dae wit yan n headed to meet fer after tt... accompany him to interview but end up he nvr bring his stuff so he has to go the next dae.... we went to starbucks for coffee n headed to catch a movie... the show is so funny tt we could not stop laughing... it is a nice show call wall e.... then headed hm to change to club wit koh n yi wen n lai n their friend.... koh friend is so funny.... his name is benjamin... haha... reach hm in the morning n sleep for awhile n headed for tuition.... after tt went hm n slp until the next dae... meet candy on sun n headed hm after a while as we were tired... then chat wit fer from nite to morning.... then mon nth much.... tues went to bring my student jia xuan out for a while n then meet wee for a coffee n headed hm after tt... after tt it sucks all the way till todae.... todae went for tuition... suppose to meet alex but cancel in the end due to the rain... tml shld be meeting fer again.. i guess.... fri still dun noe... hehe... most probably will be out everydae..

i am glad tt i have wonderful friends ard...

i am glad tt i have wonderful friends ard... thx tracy n alex for tolerating wit my bad temper once again... sry... i didnt mean to flare up... but lost control... sry guys n gals... the best part in life is to noe u all....

tracy who is there to help mi give mi advise always... although i am a lousy friend to her... after so much things happen she still forgive mi n treat mi so gd.... i am glad to have her in my life...

alex who is always there to listen to mi n let mi vent out.... he also change mi into a new person.... he bring out the brand new mi... he always help mi n give mi ideas... who cheer mi up n brighten my dae....

fernandes who is always there for mi... always ask mi calm down... gives mi advise.... who nvr fails to cheer mi up when i am down... who nvr leave mi alone after so long of friendship...

I HATE U FOR INTEFERRING WIT MY LIFE

I HATE U FOR INTEFERRING WIT MY LIFE.... I REALLI HATE U.... I MEAN IT... U THE CAUSE OF EVERYTHING.... U ALWAYS TURN MY LIFE UPSIDE DOWN... I MEAN IF U R SO FREE RITE.... GO DO THIS TO OTHERS SEE WAT WILL U GET.... DUN BLAME MI FOR CURSE N SWEAR.... WHO ASK U TO DO IT..... U R JUZ A BITCH.... PLEASE STOP INTEFERRING WIT MY LIFE N STOP DOING THINGS TT WILL MAKE MI PISS OFF.... I AM WHO I AM... I WONT CHANGE.... I NOT THE TYPE WHO WILL FOLLOW AS U WISH..... JUZ GET OFF....

behind everything lies the truth....

TRUTH REALLI HURTS.... everything behind lies the truth.... haiz....

i am getting tired of everything... how... can anyone teach mi... so much things happen recently n i cant take it anymore...