some things r running through my mind again... haiz... i think of u again... but i noe clearly tt i shld give up.... if else i will be hurt deeper... i dun wan to get hurt n into trouble coz of u... so i choose to protect myself before i realli got very deep hurt...

i have a funny n close buddy...
i have noe him for abt 4 yrs plus le... he is a gd friend... realli indeed one... although he is a player.... but he noes clearly wat he is doing n he doesnt hurt innocent ppl.... he is a player but he onli play wit gals who r player... if a gal is not player he will not play wit her coz he doesnt wan to hurt the gal... but he doesnt get close to them either coz he doesnt wanna to hurt them... so they r juz normal friends la... to mi he is a very important friend... coz we r best friend... he share wit mi his stuff n i share wit him my stuff.. but most of the time i am a listener... we enjoy each other company as we always juz find a place to sit down n start to chat... he always tell mi a lot of stuff... wat he do n how he think... in all the aspects which realli make mi understand him... we do heart to heart talk... tt y we r best friend.... we trust each other n have very gd n mutual understanding... we understand each other very well n noe how each other thinks... i do noe a lot of private stuff abt him... coz he realli open up to mi... he realli trust mi a lot n tt y he tell... we call n sms each other frequently to update abt each other progress... he tell mi 1 thing tt is he is always there for mi n he nvr left mi at all... so whenever i am down or wat juz tell him n he will be there to listen... juz like wat i always do... we have accompany each other through the dark period of each other life... tt y our friendship foundation is strong n we r maintaining it so it is gg stronger as the days go... there r times tt he is realli tired n he still talk or sms to mi until he cant take it..... i realli appreciate this friendship... it is not easy for us to maintain such a strong foundation friendship when he is a player... n he is very protective towards mi... he will try his best to protect mi from getting hurt but end up each time i am hurt all over n make him worried for mi... sorry my friend... i wont make u very worried for mi again... i will be learn to protect myself well coz i got u to be there for mi... thx for lending mi ur shoulders to lean on... thx for being such a wonderful friend... (:

i have been studying wit alex loke on tuesday n wednesday.. later gg to study again wit him... studying have been productive n i am seriously concentrating... tt is gd but math made mi mad coz i dun understand a lot of things... a lot of qns got jam halfway... i need help...

lots of thoughts are running through my mind yest... but now i am fine already.. got a harsh scolding from alex loke... he is rite... i shld wake up le... then cheryl also sae the same thing... nana sae tt long ago... yes... n i have woken up le...
i already lost this game long ago... n i shld end long ago too... u r juz playing mi.... u r a player... so wat i am ur gf... u dun love mi... u r juz using mi... wat i wan is ur love but it will nvr happen... coz u wont love mi... no matter wat u sae is not gonna change the fact... if u realli love mi... u will prove it to mi but u didnt... i did love u... n i realli love u... it is a fact... but u choose to play it instead of treasuring it... so juz leave mi alone... i will be happier without u...

nth much for mon n tues as i slack at hm... wed went to study wit alex loke n meet nana too... but end up talking session... it was fun.. after tt aj call mi n ask mi to meet him up to chat... when he call mi he is at my hse downstairs le... so went down to chat.. then thurs meet alex loke to help him do his report n to our surprise aj join us... then aj piss mi off... then fri alex loke accompany mi to cheryl son birthdae... thx for accompany... i enjoy myself... then sat went to meet cheryl for a while... sun nth much as is father day n my great grandpa death anni... so having a gathering n manjiong session wit my family... n a mini celebration of father day..

early in the morning at 9 plus my classmate call n ask mi... then end up i too lazy n tired so went back to slp until 12 plus when alex loke call mi... then chatted until 3 plus n went to my ah ma to eat n teach my cousin since i am waiting for alex to wake up...after tt i went back to rest...
suppose to meet alex but he overslept so cancel in the end... we had some conflicts... i dunnoe wat is wrong wit both of us... we seems to have conflicts often.. i have been thinking since juz now... wat is wrong n i cant figure out.... i am SORRY for giving u attitude... i dun mean to... it is time for mi to do reflections again....

later gg to study wit alex loke.... realli study n buck up... is another bz week again... fully pack of things again...

to zy... seriously no pt asking mi whether i got bf or not... coz i whether i got or not... u dun stand a chance at all... i meant wat i sae.... i told u striaght le we r impossible meant we r not... no pt waiting for mi.... coz u r not wat..

nth much this week ba.... mon went out wti alex n tiff after sch for a catch up.. then tues went out wit alex for a gd chat either... then wed went to meet cheryl to study... n thurs cheryl went to my sch to find mi... n after tt wenxing cheryl bf came to find out.... after tt went to do my hands... then fri i went hm to slp after my class... then sat went to meet cheryl to walk walk for a while.... as usual we chat a lot... then todae slp the whole dae coz i was so tired.... not enough slp for the past few daes... then at nite went for a dinner wit my dad as to celebrate father day... juz chatted wit alex not long ago...
supper this few daes wit my dad... thurs nite went for supper wit my dad... fri nite my dad brought supper back... n sat nite went for supper wit my dad again.. tonite my dad brought supper back again... oh no... getting fat in this way...
dad thx for showering mi wit lots of love n care.... whenever i am sick... thx for calling hm to see tt whether i got see doc... sometimes my dad would ask my aunt to bring mi go see doc coz he is worried... thx for buying all the food tt i want to eat everytime n buy my fav food for mi... thx for pampering mi so much... thx for sharing wit mi ur stuff... no matter wat happen i will be there for u... happy father day to u...

i wan to meet fiona.... seriously i need to have a gd catch up wit u... sorry for being so bz...
liyan i wanna meet u up also... for a gd chat...
candy i need to meet u up also.. sorry for being so bz...
tracy i need to meet u up also...

i hate to be taken be taken for granted n make use of... dun ever think tt when u r making use of mi i dun noe... not i dunnoe is i dun wan to sae... i will tolerate it instead... then when it hit my limit i will explod tt all...

ya... nth much ba.. except from thurs onwards.... thurs meet up wit alex loke n we skip math class coz we were counselling aj... he was feeling emo... n he got a lot of doubts n qns... so help him to analysis... we chatted n rot at grassroot club until 9pm... then fri meet during the break n talk for 3 hrs n the same thing.. then i got a bit piss off as i keep on scolding him stupid... then at nite he sae wanna meet mi at my hse downstairs... so meet him for a while n chat... nearly halfway through i wan to throw him alone n go hm coz he keep trying his luck... he wan to see whether he can bump into her as she live next blk to mi.... then sat met him again coz he ask mi out... haha... this time wit alex loke again... he thought he onli meeting mi... who noes i ask alex loke again.. then his face change immediately when he saw him... he also talk very little words... then we decided to headed to pub... this time alex loke told him off in a very harsh words n tone... n i gave him a big scolding coz i realli angry le.... he is too persistant... then he become more emo after both of us take turns to talk to him... then something funny happen... after tt i shoot him again.. so from sat nite until now he is avoiding mi... haiz.. we told u off is for ur own gd... do u think we realli like to told u off meh... coz u cant wake up... as a friend we feel heartpain to see u like this... we wan u to stand up... so we told u off... anyway now i push the job back to alex loke since he is avoiding mi...

then fri went out wit cheryl to bugis for a while to walk walk n chat..

todae ppt sucks meh...

tml is a better dae...

a happening dae

todae is a happening dae...
in lab todae suddenly the lec sae got lab test... haiz.. he nvr give us time to prepare... sae test mean test... haiz.. do half of it as i onli noe half...

then went to meet cheryl at bugis for a while... sorry gal... didnt meant it... next time we gg meet for a long time n long gals talk... then after tt rush to meet fer... accompany fer as i chat wit him... he sms mi suddenly juz now while i was on my way meeting cheryl... he sae he need someone to accompany as he is feeling emo n down.. so went to meet him... then went for a drink instead... he drank quite a lot... then we sang some songs together like 你最珍贵, 窗外, 侯鸟.. then he sang 开不了口 while i sang 爱我的资格.... we can sing songs together coz we got the chemistry.... i realised we got gd chemistry... then he talk a lot of things la...

i noe u realli need mi now during this period of time... i can promise u tt i will nvr leave u alone.. instead i will accompany u to walk through this period of hard times... i will be there for u always.... like u r always there for mi...