todae is new year eve.. 2008 is coming to the end in juz another few hrs time.... 2008 is a fruity year for mi... get to noe a lot of gd friends.... n not onli tt i have learn alot of stuff.... been through a lot of ups n downs which make mi stronger... it also make my thinking mature a lot.... although this yr there r more ups n down but it also let mi noe tt who r those realli true to mi... who r my true friends... who r the friends tt will stay wit mi.... who r the ones tt i can share things wit... n i realli feel very blessed coz i got my buddies, brothers, sisters n friends who r always there for mi....

my new year resolution for 2009 is
- to be happi always
- to get gd results
- to go into the specialisation i wan
- to be able to graduate by 2010
- to be able to find n be wit the special someone (ps i guess i had found him)
- more time for my friends
- not to be late anymore
- to reach sch on time
- no more skipping of lessons
- earn more money
- save more money in the bank
- more shopping trips = more clothes
- have enough sleep
- everyone ard mi to be happi

lastly i wish everyone a happy new year...

珍惜身旁的每一个人

i saw this from vincent blog... n i find it very true so i cope it from him... it realli teaches n tells us how to deal wit relationship n how it works...

珍惜身旁的每一个人

誰可以當男朋友，誰只能當普通朋友。

普通朋友：半夜會找妳上MSN聊天到很晚。
男朋友：半夜看妳還在MSN上會趕你下線(當然妳可以柪個幾分鐘。
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普通朋友：他會找你出去玩,叫妳放棄報告或翹課。
男朋友：他會催妳快寫作業,或者想要跟你討論功課。
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普通朋友：在你生病時，會講好話關心妳。
男朋友：在你生病時，他會關心到你很煩，而且逼你去看醫生。
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普通朋友：他會盡量說好話來討好妳，妳會覺得他很棒。
男朋友：他所說的話，都是關心妳的！但通常像是在命令妳，妳會覺得他幹麻這麼做。
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普通朋友：他什麼事情都會配合著你，只要你高興。
男朋友：他會幫你辨別是非，但你會覺得他管太多。
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普通朋友：他會說他要給你最大的幸福。
男朋友：他只能給你保證，妳跟他在一起，他是最快樂的。
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普通朋友：他會幫你買消夜，送宵夜，載你上下課。
男朋友：他會幫你買宵夜，不過他會提醒你，吃什麼比較健康。他會載你上下課，
不過要他有順路，因為他不能為你而翹課。因為他翹課，他成績便會不好，
成績不好不會有好工作。那你們將來日子怎麼會好過，他會想的很遠。
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普通朋友：他只有想到現在。
男朋友：他已經預見將來，該怎麼自我努力，好給你幸福。


★我要把幸福裝滿.連同我......一起送給你..

愛上个人..........如此的甜蜜卻又讓人受傷害
放棄个人..........如此的難過卻又讓人心碎

珍惜身旁的每个人,不要等到失去了，

才瞭解到遺憾.和後悔是如此的痛苦....................

~因為愛你.所以放手還你自由~
~因為愛你.所以不再讓你困擾~
~因為愛你.所以寧願自己難過~
~因為愛你.所以我逼自己離開~


如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?
如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?
是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?
是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?
在此祝福全天下所以的有情人~都能夠忠誠眷屬~~



珍惜友誼　
在繽紛的塵宇中　　　
你我相識　　　　
不管是一次偶然的相逢　　
或是成為永遠的知已　　　
我都一樣珍惜　


最真摯的愛情不需要承諾
注定緣份的情人不需要約定
只要真心真意的對待眼前的你‧‧‧‧
只願陪伴著你直到你不他‧‧‧‧‧

SIAN sian sian... sch is starting soon in one more dae... bz life again... :(

here r some of the photos of the christmas n yest... christmas itself there r too much photos so i upload onli a few... the rest r at my facebook n friendster... :)

mi wit the moneky..

us...

the birthdae girl... :)

wit regina... my pri sch mate..

juz came back not long ago from cheryl 21st birthdae celebration... it is so great to see her once again after so many yrs... ya i also saw regina n have a bit of chat wit her too... she changes a lot... it is so great to see them once again...

i have been slacking at hm most of the time.. this yr christmas eve nvr go out.... then on christmas tt dae i went out in the early morning.. went out to meet bernand for breakfast ard 8 plus... then after tt headed to meet henry they all... i didnt noe tt they were gg on hiking... n the blur mi wear heels.... fainted... but i MANAGED TO WALK FROM MOUNT FABAR TO HOT PARK... hehe.. :p ya.. pic will be upload when i get from them.... as usual there r lots of craps n jokes... then after tt we went to eat n i headed hm while the rest went for bowling... coz i am very tired... n slp until todae...

juz now went to meet zhiming for a while at my hse downstairs...n we have a chat... i enjoy chatting wit him but i always LOST to him when it comes to bickering... i muz win him one dae in bickering... i dun believe tt i will always lost although he has his funny n weird reasons... during the chat i tend to understand him more... he is not as wat we seems... tt is wat i always feel n after each time i chat wit him i tend to be more assure... i guess i realli understand him well but i still dun realli noe how he thinks.... he do let mi understand him but he is afraid at the same time..

todae i am so surprise tt fernandes sms mi... as usual crap a lot... end up he explains to mi certain things... n he sae tt he noe how i think but i dun mean tt way... he miss understood mi... n it ended up to be a funny joke.. then he sae i realli understand him very well.... he is always there for mi when i am feeling down... same for mi to him... we can talk alot from our present to the past.... we enjoy each other company coz we r best friends... :)

suppose to meet ming xuan yest but end up not feeling well in the morning so cancel it... shall meet her next week... then todae suppose to meet victor but time management is wrong... haiz...

one week have pass n i have not done any of the reports yet.. :(

todae i saw someone i knew but nvr talk to the person coz we already broke off friendship... n i heard tt she is doing very well n tt is enough le... y i choose to broke off is coz i dun wan to be hurt by her le.... i have been hurt by her a lot of times... from the way she sae things n she hurt mi again n again.... far too much... a lot of my friends advise mi to stay away from her coz she always make use mi but i choose to ignore until the dae she told mi certain things... she may not realise it n i nvr intend to sae it.... i can onli sae is coz of our thinking is far too different plus my harsh temper...
remember nana sae when i choose to break up the friendship i shld nvr look back again which i did... i nvr look back but occassionally still got heard news from her.... nvr it is all in the past le... since she is doing so well n happi now can le...

relationship r very fragile be it love or friends...

these few daes have been thinking abt some stuff... seriously i had been thinking..... i dun understand y... seriously i dun understand....
y cant u give mi the basic respect....
y cant u understand wat i sae... i realli hate repeating again n again....
y u muz make mi think n recall wat i dun wan to think n recall....
y cant u let mi off.....
i had so many y in my mind...

nth much these few daes ba.... yest went to meet meifang henry n xiao qiang for dinner at causeway.... it was a great catch up as we talk a lot... share a lot too... took some photos....

todae meet up wit my nana for a dinner at northpoint... n end up i shop n buy a lot.... i bought bras n a shopping bag n a small pouch... :P spend ard 270 plus todae....

i am so happi todae coz finally i get to meet him le... at last after so many times of he cant make it... ya meet him for dinner n after tt walk walk ard northpoint for a while... as usual during dinner we talk a lot n get to each other more... then after tt he go back to work again while i headed hm... n finally i get to pass him the small gift n card tt i got for him le... he send mi a sweet sms to thx mi... n by the way i have fulfil 2 of the promises i gave him.... :P

this whole week is nth much.... coz i was at hm slp n slacking most of the times other then tuition... nvr went out... even todae i slept until 12 plus n went for lunch n after tt back to slp until juz now i wake up n online for a while before he call n i went to meet song leng...

finally meet up wit song leng for a catch up... so long nvr see him le... we did talk a lot... from ey to sch n to a lot a lot of stuff.... thx for listening to mi also... it was so nice to talk to him... shall meet up wit him n liyan soon n the 3 of us to talk n talk more... haha..

another thing tt cheer mi up is he call mi to apologise... he apologise tt he is always bz n he cant meet mi up... i told him it is ok... i understand... :p juz now suppose to meet him for dinner but then end up nvr... coz he got work... then he told mi if dinner cannot he will try to make it for a drink... end up i told him to go hm rest instead of rushing here n there... coz he is rushing out juz to meet mi which i dun wan... so i told him to change to another dae... :)

juz now have a talk wit siwei n cheryl online.. we conference.. we talk a lot... 3 of us have a great talk too... then we miss the pri sch daes n we start to talk abt our life... we sae as we grow olders things start to change n get complicated... but when we talk abt the past... it was realli great fond memories... shall blog more tml... off to slp le...

finally exams r all over... n the break is here... haiz... i guess tt i am not gg to do well... juz hope tt i wont score badly.... nvr realli study... dunnoe y like this... nvr it is over liao...

there is so much things to settle.... haiz... slowly ba... one by one... it is not a lot i guess.... :p

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b-hzT1zBRjs&feature=related... this video is so funny... juz watch it... candy recommended one... :)

2 more pprs down... left one more to go.... off the 2 weeks break i come... i had plan wat to do for the 2 weeks breaks le... :P

i miss my striaght hair.... haiz...

i am dead tired now... juz finish packing my room... it is having a new look... look more cleaner n neater now... haha.. next one is my living room liao... n next time muz put gloves coz there r so many cuts in my hand now.. :( n now i am having a serious running nose coz of the dust...

thx jianying for the belated birthdae wishes...

3 pprs down... left 3 more n yup 2 weeks break here i come... :p

i am so happi tt u call mi juz now... but u disappointed mi again too... tt time u sae u r free n end up u also didnt make it... tonite also... u sae u will try ur best to drop by juz to meet mi for a while n yet u didnt turn up... haiz.. :(
u sae tt i keep pushing u away but i didnt... u told mi not to push u away... i gave u my word tt i will nvr push u away... it is a promise i gave u... :P

thx sally fione n my mentor for wishing mi happy belated birthdae... although it is very belated but still thx you for ur wishes... :)

nth much todae as i slept the whole dae... becoming more like a pig liao... also mugging for my exam...

tues is having my presentation... hope tt it will goes well... suppose to present on wed but blur terrance send the lec the email without the presentation slides.. he is so cute n funny...then thurs suppose to present but tt lec cannot make it so change to yest n i got test until 10.30 n 11 got lab test so postpone to next tues...

haiz so tired... all the 3 pprs todae r gone... 2 written one themo n mechanics 2... ug lab also cannot finish... i guess i am overstress le tt y todae black out n cant do...

wed when i reach hm i slept until morning 1 plus n wake up n do some stuff for a while n back to slp... then yest nite i stay in sch to study until 8 plus n went hm... after i reach hm n i ate my dinner i slept until morning n go for my test... this shows tt i am realli too tired le.. tt y reach hm bathe le then slp...

avoiding is wat i can think of now.... in order to concentrate on my exams on fri.. coz i dun wan to be distracted... i guess he noe tt i am avoiding him... he noes the reason too but he dun wan to face it up.... seriously i dun wish to talk too much now when it is test period n i shall settle everything once n for all after my common test... i noe how to solve it but if i solve it now it will affect the common test results which i dun wan... so keeping quiet n avoiding now is wat i wan... :( juz now went hm wit terrence n we did some catch up... he agree wit mi also... leave everything until after common test... he did give mi his opinion also.... anyway wan to thx him for the tips on themo... if not die liao...

i am super happi todae... coz i met up wit my buddy adeline goh.... so long nvr see her liao... last met up was during her birthdae wit meifang... ya... we have a great catch up todae... we talk a lot... from sch to work n everything... she pour out to mi n i pour out to her... ya... todae she gave mi a belated birthdae treat.... thx a lot bestie... actually she wan to meet mi on sun but i already promise to meet nana... tt y i met her todae.... next meet up is manjiong session liao... gg to meet her soon during my 2 week break... :)

then todae went back to do ug... it sucks coz i dunnoe how to do... haiz... tml need to stay back n do...then zhiyong pass mi my birthdae present.. it is the thoughts tt count.... coz he dunnoe wat to buy as i dun lack of anything... :p

ya todae until thurs i wont be teaching tuition... coz jia xuan is in malaysia... so i am off...

i need to finish my lab report by fri... haiz... havent start doing... sian...

wish mi gd luck... tml having presentation...

this year birthdae is full or surprise n there r some disappointment...

omg... i screw up my lab test... haiz... do wrongly... actually i noe but not enough time to change...

thx you so much to my friends...
till todae i still receive my belated birthdae blessing...
thx jocelyn chye, jaslyn, fred, tracy, chris, charlie, ronnie kong, shu ting, alex, khy for keep on wishing mi in sch n aseri.... n the special someone... :p thx you... although is belated but still muz thx u...

this r the pic of todae.... out wit nana... thx nana for spending the dae wit mi... thx a lot gal... love u lots...



this r the rest of the photos taken on tt dae...

thx anthony, yu heng, candy, meifang, bernard, henry, clara, alex, ming xuan, zhi yong, christina yong, pearlene, marie, joyce, khy, alan, may fang, yi fang, siwei, victor, kristable, xiao fu, alexa, kingley, tidus, raymond, jocelyn, liyan, si xian, marcus, laura, terence, sunny, irene how, irene tay, vincent, xiao qiang, neo, alan wan adeline, janice, koh n fiona...

thx you everyone for ur wishes... sorry if i had miss anyone out...

todae i had a great time wit nana.... thx you for spending my birthdae wit mi... todae we went to dome to eat n after tt we went to borders to eat cakes n ice-cream... shall upload the photos when i got from her... she gave mi a blusher for my birthdae... thx you sis so much... love u lots...

this yr birthdae is realli great....thx you everyone for ur wishes once again... n thx for the presents n those who spend the birthdae wit mi... thx a lot...

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO YU HENG...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEI WOON....
she was born in the same year n dae as mi... so qiao rite.. :)

WISH U ALL ALL UR DREAMS N WISHES COME TRUE...

shall blog abit about my birthdae since i am free now... :p

start from yest... i got my birthdae present from alex n it is a guess wallet... thx a lot... then after tt went to dreamers cafe for my birthdae celebrations wit meifang her hubby neo irene how vincent sunny henry n xiao qiang... it was realli great... n is the most wonderful one tt i have ever had in my 20 yrs of life.. coz the live band sing the birthdae song to mi... n not once but TWICE... the first time is for mi n another birthdae gal... then after tt the second time is by another life band coz the r 2 sessions... one is upper session n the other one is lower session... then when the lower session singers r singing the birthdae cake is being brought out.... thanks a lot for making it so memoriable for mi... i am realli very touch... n meifang brought mi a perfume... i love them to the max...

this is mi making my birthdae wish...

sunny, neo, meifang, irene, mi, vincent, xiao qiang n henry
then todae went to meet victor for a catch up n he realli surprise mi wit a birthdae gift... he bought for mi a box of famous amos cookies n a card wit a happi birthdae written on it... thx a lot buddy... then at nite went to celebrate wit my family as my dad is giving a treat n i got ang paos... this shows y i can blog now.. :)

ya... yest when at the dreamers cafe.... something happen tt is very touching... a guy propose to his gf... the gf was so touch until her tears drop... the guy sing the song 最浪漫的事 n tt is very romantic... plus dreamers cafe is a very romantic place also... this is the couple...

thx anthony for being the first one to wish mi happy birthdae... thx a lot... there r more to come to update as i havent finish my celebrations... :)

n ya... thx irene tay for wishing mi in advance.....

i am so happi todae.... first is terrance give mi my birthdae treat todae at pepper lunch... he is a man of his word... coz he sae todae he will be treating mi n he mean it... i thought he sae sae onli... coz i dun realli noe him well... i juz onli noe him this sem through themo lab as he is my grp members n so qiao we grp together for sem pro... hehe... he is a great help.... ya... it was fun chatting wit him todae... talk a lot n become gd friends... he brighten up my dae....

second is my students.... jia xuan told mi she will give mi a surprise n indeed it is.... she painted a birthdae card for mi... n his bro jia soon do a smiling face for mi.... his bro told mi tt he hope to see mi smiling n stay happi forever like the smiling face he did for mi... i am realli touch for the cards... afterall it is the thoughts tt counts..

then fri meeting meifang they all for my birthdae celebrations... sat nite meeting victor n maybe the special someone after tt provided he is free.... sun wit nana... more to come ba.. shall update after everything is over...

ya.... after tuition went to meet liyan for dinner.... then we headed to collect the stuff from f... n when f talk to liyan he is in a nice tone but when he talk to mi... he vent all his anger on mi.... wtf... liyan was so shock.... it is not my fault.... i already told him..... it is btw the 2 of them n plz dun drag mi in... since he give mi attitude n i give him back too... i juz walk off... headed hm after tt....

was looking through the posts of this year... realise tt i have change a lot... especially recently.... becoming better... less emo n happier mi... become more independent..... temper controlling als better... i like the present way i am now.... feel contented n blessful again... :)

at the same time i also realise tt this year i have met a lot of different ppl in my life which let mi noe a lot too.. learn from their experience... becoming more n more mature.... some had already lost contact while other still have.... still learning from their experience too...

i also have been through a lot this year but i have overcome it le.... all by myself n wit the support of my friends.... thx for being there for mi always...thx a lot to them... thx for tolerating my temper n listening to mi always... i will be there for u guys no matter wat happens...

姓　　名：梁桂娟
出生日期：西元1988年11月30日 (農曆77年10月22日)
靈　　數：40

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　　你是一個有自信和快樂的人，不管遇到什麼事情都不會想太多，凡事都覺得不要緊，不會想到不好的一面。因為一直不想要做什麼，也沒有打算做什麼，沒有任何計劃，人生好像一直拖延著，完全不在乎有沒有確定自己一生的目標跟方向，也因此你的運勢會被往後遲延，大器晚成。　　你的個性上並沒有勇猛的魄力和與惡劣環境對抗的耐力，因此你人生的順利與否，完全看環境是如何安排，如果大環境很好，工作生活就會很順利，小環境好就是靠家庭栽培，如果環境條件一直不好，命運就起伏大一點，發展也會受到限制，但是對你而言，根本不用擔心什麼，什麼事隨興就好了，反正沒有關係，這樣就好，過的快樂最好。　　如果找到自己想做的事情，有了目標以後，就能夠突破這個命運的限制，運勢會好起來，強盛起來，你會朝著目標專心一意的前進，不會再去接觸其他的事物，並捨棄平常各種迷惘與煩惱，表現出勇往直前的性格。　　善有善報，惡有惡報，這是命運的自然法則，對你而言，是個最好的建言，請時時注意這一點，多做有益於人類或社會的事，在下一個時間到來之時，你也會得到很好的回報。　　你的生命目標是首先建立起一個穩定的生活和穩定的家庭，然後加強你的領導力，帶動越來越廣的周圍力量，聚集越來越多的人脈，慢慢拓展成一個自己的勢力範圍，最後完成自己的事業王國。　　你的個性特徵是很有自己的想法，也可能是你很早熟，在很年輕時就知道什麼事情該怎麼做，如何去加強自己的能力，落實自己的執行力，也知道要務實才能一步步經營穩固的未來，因此你在工作場合裡面，非常有能力。　　你的優點是可以自我訓練，在年輕時就會努力學習專業的才藝、技能，知道往後可以靠著這些專業的技能謀生，甚至創出一個事業，同時你擁有管理的能力，是個知道如何發號司令的領導人才。　　你的缺點是對任何事都不會很在意，或特別去關心別人，有時會太固執自我，太過辛勞也不曉得做些適當的娛樂放鬆自己。　　你的人生運勢是老是被自己限制住，在圈圈裡打轉出不來，孤獨時追求熱閙，熱閙時又想追求孤獨，比如明明不是很想跟朋友去唱歌，卻會想很久，被思考限制住，沒有辦法當機立斷做決定，勉強答應後，卻一直覺得心裡不滿足，不自在。提醒你心中存在著太多不同的價值觀，這是形成你的思緒混亂和分裂的原因。 　　你的天賦潛能是語言的表達，因此除了當領導者或在固定的環境工作以外，成為企業經營的主管或學校、補習班的老師會更適合，因為學問這種知性的領域，有太多可以開拓的空間，透過你的如珠妙語來做知識方面的傳遞，可以好好發揮你的潛能喔！

i am so tired.... i slept from last nite till afternoon n went for lunch n back to slp... i noe i am a pig.... was darm tired.... thanks terrance yest for helping wit the report... n 229 also... saw him in the the canteen n terrance jio him.... after tt he did us a great favour... hehe... then themo lab i flare up.... due to someone mouth... my face change when jin huang sae wrong things... i had already explain le... n i am too tired to explain also....

todae skip class coz of my giddyness n headache.... all thx to my gum... was bleeding the whole nite till now... tml go back to dental coz the bleeding like stop for a while n it came back again... i feel giddy easily coz i am a person who has low blood pressure.... thx terrance for covering for mi todae.. thx a lot... finally u came but i am sick... hehe... i am bless coz i have gd teamates wit mi working... they r willing to help mi out at times...

although i dun have a bf now but i do have a person i love.. i am waiting for him now... he sae he is not ready yet so i shld wait patiently for him...

overall i am still a very blessful gal as i have my 2 sisters, best friends classmates n friends n teamates.... :) i am happi n contented wit wat i have now... we need to learn to be contented wit wat we have nw n learn to treasure which i am doing now...

i am happi coz i meet up wit nana again... girls talk for long hrs... hehe... she is the best... she noes mi very well n craps n jokes again... ask her for some advise... she gave mi her opinion...

i feel so blissful to have so many friends ard mi... n i found some true friends.... thx nana for listening to mi n trying ur best to be there for mi... thx tracy also... gal take care of urself.... n henry kor.. thx for listening to mi... yup... thx for the planning to do wat on my birthdae... thx henry n meifang for the effort.. :)

I AM A BLESSED GAL...

yest was my cousin wedding... i went to help out in the morning.. something screw mi up in the morning... which make mi piss off... after tt went hm n rest for a while then head to alex hse for make up n hair... thx alex for making mi look so great in the nite... got a lot of compliments at nite... thx a lot... enjoy the nite coz my table was full of jokes n laughter... :) photos r uploaded in my friendster.... i am lazy to load here...

my legs r so tired now... juz now after class went to meet up wit my cousin yi fang... went out wit her to shop for cousin wedding clothes n shoes.... but end up she didnt buy.... i was the one who realli shop coz i bought 2 dresses n a perfume... i bought 2 dresses for my cousin wedding... actually i dun intend to buy but cant control..

i miss my nana... haiz... she is on a study trip to kl... she will be back on fri...

nana is the first true friend tt i have met since sec sch.... n till now she is my true friend sisters n best friend... she noes mi very well.... a lot of things i dun need to sae out she already noe wat i am thinking... isnt she great.. she is great n she is kept in my heart always... loves her lots... (:

as usual i was late.... reach sch at 10.50am... guess wat the class end at 11am... i juz go for e learning for 5min... juz go there to sign attendance nia.. somemore i drop my phone on the cab n thx god i realise it early n chase after the cab n got back my phone.. if not sure die one... then after tt was ok ba.... then dinner time i saw tidus... n he recongise mi... juz sae hi nia.. haha... juz now went for supper before coming hm.. :)

life is so bz n tight...

something funny happen during the themo lec... coz mr chai n his friend gave their shock face to alex coz of wat i did during the lec... it is so funny when i heard it.. haha...
mr chai told alex tt he is as smart as mi if he study but todae i gave him another shock... haha... i guess he will wan to win mi ba... he wan then let him lol.... i wont care so much either... :)

u disappointed mi this time... i dun expect much from u... i juz wan u to fulfil the promise u gave her... is it so hard.... i rememeber i did told u if u cant do it plz dun... u insist tt u can do it... then now wat u do... u make her waited for u for more then 3 hrs n in the end u didnt turn up... do u noe how disappointed she was... do u noe how heart broken i am when i saw her like this... till the last min she was hoping u would come or call... but end up u didnt.... i dunnoe wat to sae...

thx alex n tiffany n candy for trying to cheer up during dinner juz now.. thx a lot...

i am so happi todae coz i finally meet up wit my nana... so happi.. we have a gd chat todae n a enjoyable shopping trip... n a gd high tea too.... it is so much to be wit her... i love her lots... the last met up was like so many mths ago... we went to shop at cityhall n after tt we went to have a drink n cakes at tcc in novena n back to shop after relaxing at tcc.... shop at novena n headed off to meet my mum to go my cousin hse after tt...

to fiona.... thx for being my best friend cum sister all these yrs... i realli treasure the friendship we have till now n it is still gg on... u r the first true friend tt i have met n had.... thx for all the things u have done for mi... thx for being my true friend... love u lots... cya soon...

wed as usual ba... the sem pro lec nag n nag onli... better le... haha... guess who i grp wit for my sem pro... is terrance my themo lab mates... hehe... as usual thurs skip mechanics lec n marketing... marketing muz go liao coz skip 2 lessons in a row... mechanics is the worse lec is guess coz until now i onli attend 1 out of 4 lec... now muz keep telling myslef not to skip class... if not sure gg to suffer for this sem... haiz...
thurs i meet alexa after tuition for a while to talk... then todae i went shopping for tiff present during my break wit alex... then after class went to buy heels for my cousin wedding one n also for myself la... coz the previous one wear le always pain one... :( so a new pair of heels not bad la... coz we look for a lot of shops... as usual todae themo lab is very fun... terrance is the one who keep asking qns until we do correctly... then i am the one who is doing the recording for reading... then also a lot of jokes n laughter... terrance ask mi again... y i always laugh.. laughing is better then sad ba.. :) anyway my themo lab mates r very fun too... they do cheer up my daes.... i like doing lab wit them... it is so fun too...

ltr gg to meet my nana le... so long nvr meet her... finally at last...

anyway... somethings happen last nite... tt made mi realise n noe more things.. :)

i cant slp so i am here blogging... i guess i slp too much from yest to todae... a total of 12 hrs... i noe i am a pig coz i can slp.... i slept so much is due to sun nite coz i was rushing a report till 3 plus in the morning n mon got sch from morning 10 to nite 10pm... tt y i slept so long coz i was so exhausted..... sch sucks.... coz keep rushing out sch stuff.... it is draining mi out.... ever since sch start i dun have a proper slp every nite... coz almost everydae i slp onli for 4 to 5 hrs..... except on mon nite coz tues no sch so can slp longer.... this explains y when the sem starts i skip so much class.... coz was rushing out sch stuff... lack of slp therefore i skip class or i am late.... most of the time i am late... this is killing mi.... so i shall not skip class anymore if not i am gg to die this sem... if late the lec sure scream again.. this sem lec all dun allow late one... dun understand y either... they r also very strict wit us... watever we hand up it muz be up to their standard or else need to redo until they r satisfied.... therefore this kill mi coz i need to do a lot of thinking n more.... haiz... shall go n force myself to slp coz ltr lesson start at 10am...

i am losing myself again.... i hate the way of mi now... i realli hate... todae went out to celebrate tiff birthdae n i ended up looking so sad n fan... i am so sorry gal... it suppose to be a happi occasion....

have a talk wit candy alex loke zhiming n cheryl... thx for consoling mi so much... candy sae le i shldnt take everything at one go i shld slow down n take a break.... alex sae have to be strong.... zhiming sae if dun wan to face then run away lol then after run away then face lol.... he console mi a lot.... n HE SAE I NVR TREAT HIM GOOD.... he also share a lot wit mi... cheryl share a lot wit mi too....

i wan to take things slowly but i cant coz if i noe i dun face it it will be more complicated n big. n i also wish to face everything together but as i face a lot of things r added on... making it so heavy for mi... making mi so tired... i dunnoe... i am tired le... realli tired of all this....

too many things had happen these few daes n it is draining mi out... be it emotionally r physically.... too many things to be done n i have not done yet... coz i dun have the mood... i need my tut n lab report to be done tml so tt i can hand up on mon coz i need to hand up on mon... then sem pro need to hand up by tml 2359... sian.. not even a single one is done n notes from alex havent hand up... sian.... tml is a rushing dae... tired n stress...

i finally noe who i love le... n i realli love him... deep in my heart.... i juz sms him n i had hurt him again... i dun meant to... i feel so bad n guilty tt i keep disappointing u... i dun wan... do u noe i hate myself for keep disappointing u... u dun... i realli care abt how u feel how u react coz u meant so much to mi... i hate myself now... u reply mi n tell mi to do watever tt i will be happi... i juz wan to tell u wit u by my side i will be happi.. u r wat i wan for... nth else matter..
u dun noe wat happen to mi n wat i had went through... i wan to tell u but u r bz at times n i dun wan to disturb u so i choose not to sae... i noe u r waiting for mi to tell... n too many things had happen too... i dun wan to pressure u... i wan u to be happi...

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAE TO TIFFANY

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAE TO TIFFANY

finally 18 le... can go pub n club le... haha...

nth much this few daes ba... was very tired as i was sick this few daes... down wit a bad cough... sch n tuition is wat i do these few daes... after tuition went hm.. yest finally can wake up for the the morning lec.. haha.... todae skip 2 class again... 1 ug lab n 1 mechanics tutorial coz i cant wake up... haiz... jane ah jane... muz go sch le... NO MORE SKIPPING CLASS LE.. hehe... todae themo lab was darm fun... full of jokes n laughter again... haha... make mi laugh n laugh like siao again... hehe... yu heng n alex r so funny during lab... n one more lab partner terence also... last lab lesson he ask mi y i keep laughing.... i sae dunnoe coz this is my nature... :) themo lab is getting funny n funny.. i am enjoying sch... although sch is getting stresser n stresser each dae... in lec i got my clique eddy janice marie pearlene n darren n the rest of my classmates... whenever i was down angry or wat my clique r always there for mi... they always cheer mi up n brighten my daes wit jokes n laughter... i simply love them... n lab n tut got darren n other wit mi... they also bring in jokes n laughter.. themo got alex n yu heng n my 2 other grp members...

too many things to be done every week... it seems like nvr ending... sian... jia you jane.... u can do it...

my birthdae is coming... hehe...

冲动

很感激 这城市拥挤的交通

让你我 还能多相处几分钟

人潮中 怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手

一刻不放松 不放松

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动

不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞

你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动

抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住 想要吻你的冲动

不确定我的执着 能让你感动

我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落

关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

我的心 是被你设定的闹钟

提醒我 想你的时间不够用

为什么 平淡的事情现在忽然生动

是你改变我 你改变我

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动

不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞

你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动

抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住 想要吻你的冲动

不确定我的执着 能让你感动

我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落

关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

你是情人还是朋友

还没勇气想得太多

你的世界如此辽阔

我会在哪个角落

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动

不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞

你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动

抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住 想要吻你的冲动

不确定我的执着 能让你感动

我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落

关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

darm piss n angry

i am darm piss and angry... if u like to sabo ppl n use it as a joke... jokes is jokes but onli until a certain extend n not on the net or web.... trust mi... it is nvr gd to play wit mi especially on internet stuff... i will make sure i make u pay back for wat u did.... i mean wat i sae... wan to noe wat happen come n ask mi...

I AM FEELING SO SICK NOW... was down wit a cough from last week until now... feel darm pain on the throat...

the kuku lec sms mi tt i didnt hand up my work when it is the stupid sch server down so i call him... he told mi to wait for his call as he was checking it out.. then send out in the end la...

love n fate loves to play mi out... when i had told myself not to fall into the trap anymore i seems to fall into it again... haiz... both f n z treat mi very gd... i noe f need mi a lot.... i can tell from the converstation wit him.... i noe he is regret tt he is not persistant enough n i do... both guys love mi deeply... both of them need mi... i noe when i feel down both of them will be there for mi.... both of them r willing to walk int my world... especailly z... i noe he is bz but he still make all the efforts... both nvr fail to make mi laugh n brighten my daes... both of them r afraid of getting hurt tt y they r taking the step slowly... i noe n understand... juz let fate decide ba... who i will choose... let time tell mi... :)

from sat until todae nth much happen... was at hm slacking n eating the whole dae... except for yest went to my neighbour wedding... this is the first time i saw the process of a malay wedding.. in the past i usually eat wit my dad n left after tt... but yest i witness the whole process... it was a new experience for mi...

yest suppose to hand in my sem pro mindmap but sch email cannot log in... haha.. thx god now still cannot coz i havent done yet... have no idea how to write.. die...

then the other thing is i still dun noe how to use live journal... who can help mi... still figuring... haiz..

juz now saw the 8pm show at channel 8 n my tears nearly drop... it was so touching... learn a lot from the show too... i realise how blessful i am.... we shld try to help others as we could...

wat a bad start todae.... it sucks... i bring the wrong book to sch... ended up have to go n borrow books... thx my classmates tt they got the class todae if not i die... thx to dee for lending mi if not i will have to buy a new book.... ask a lot n all try to help mi.. thx a lot...

nth much happen ba... mon nite class... tues tuition... wed tuition n headed hm... suppose to meet candy but she is sick so cancel... then yest nite class also... todae also tuition... i am so tired... but todae so much jokes tt made mi laugh n laugh...

i have grow fatter... first is leo sae then my student also sae... then i ask my ah ma... my ah ma also sae i grow fatter liao... my mum also.. sob sob... muz slim down before my cousin wedding... :)

wat i expected had happen... the sem pro lec flar up n give us a big scolding... he is very angry... he even sae wat rubbish work we give.... he change the deadline to sundae 2359 coz he feel tt he need more time to go through our work... i hate him but at the same time i feel tt it is very challenging to mi... coz i will use my brain to think n give him wat he wans... for mi either i do or i dun do... when i do i will do until very nice n meet all the expectations n requirement... this is mi... i do i will do my best to the max limit if not dun do... do halfway equal dun do... this is mi.. :) tired...

i hate wed class on sem project... it sucks... seriously it turns mi off on the first lesson.... n i need to endure it for another 14 weeks.... omg... life is gg to be like hell... this tell mi straight from the first lesson... haiz.... hate also no use... this sem seems tough coz got a lot of things to be done n hand up every week... reports n tutorials... this sem lec all strict too... sian...

i juz told my student abt the promise.... i told her wat is the situation now coz she keep asking so i had no choice n i cant hide anymore... she is understanding... she dun wan mi to be diffult so she keep on sae it is ok but i noe deep in her heart she is not... she wans tt person who promise her to fulfil... before i ask tt person i myself in feeling very confused whether i shld ask or not so in the end i did ask tt person n tt person sae he will fulfil.... hope so he will ba... coz i dun realli trust him.... i dun wan to see her diappointed... so i will make sure the promise is fulfil even though i noe i am gg to be in a diffcult position... i juz wan to make her happi tt all... i hope she can cheer up n be strong....

todae skip elp n 2 lec at once.... coz i was so tired tt i cant woke up.... then kenna sae by the tut for not gg to the elp...

as i sae recently i am gg to face all the ans tt i had long ago.... i am facing it now n a lot of unexpected things happen too at the same time.... i am still facing it... even though i noe i may not be strong enough but i had friends ard mi giving mi support... i realise one things i easily got all the ans i wan without ppl sae.... my heart n brain juz tell mi.... sometimes i juz expose ppl but not everyone onli certain ppl... some friends juz told mi tt i am smart but i need to act blur at times... agree la.. but most of the time i am blur coz i dun wan to be smart... i will onli use my brain at certain times onli..... those who noes mi well noe when i use my brain n when i dun.... most of the times i dun use my brain....

these few nites a lot of thoughts had been running through my mind... think n think until i am so tired... tt i dun wan to think anymore coz it strain so much.... it makes mi feel more n more tired onli...

this r the rest of the photos tt i get from meifang... hehe ...

i hate mon... juz realise got so many things to be handed up on mon... tutorials.. project report n many more.... still doing... havent finish... haiz...

todae was a fun dae... was late in meeting cheryl n i made her waited for half an hr... sorry gal... but it was fun as we talk a lot... thx gal... hehe... we had a lot of jokes n laughter... it was a nice chilling session wit her... she had left that company too... we were previously from the same company... :) nice to noe her... a nice n fun friend to be wit.... she listen to mi n i listen to her... talk a lot... she told mi to gave up on him n it is time to wake up le... it is true as she sae he is not worth waiting anymore... n somemore i am progressing well wit tt special some also... bought 2 2009 diary todae... one to put at hm n the other one is to bring out... coz the current one is too heavy for my bag le... i also bought 3 cards for 3 persons... onli cheryl noe who i am gg to give.. n i bought a new pendant which is 2 hearts linking together.... as for y i change pendant ask mi n i will tell u... reach hm ard 8pm...

strong

i need to be strong even though i am on the edge of breaking down... i cant break down... i simply cant... coz i had no one to be dependent on... it is so tired tt i keep on forcing myself to be strong... coz i am tired le... very tired... n things r keep on happening... i have no place to breath... i havent finish solving one n another came... i am simply too tired...

another thing is i miss him... i realli wan him back but it is not gg to be possible anymore... do u noe how much i need u... i guess u will nvr noe... hanging on hurts so much... it hurts a lot.... heart bleeds...

irene n meifang birthdae celebrate

todae after tuition i rush down to celebrate irene how n meifang birthdae at the ktv.... as usual it was very fun n we took lots of photos... a lot of laughter there... simply love them lots... i am so happi to see them once again... wonder when will get to see them again... coz it will took a long time to see them... :) the rest of the photos shall wait for meifang to send mi coz it is in her camera...

wit irene
wit henry wit irene the birthdae gal wit zhi qiang

wit simin wit my kor henry

wit sunny