feeling down

actually these few weeks havent been feeling happy at all... i don realli feel happy at all... i juz faking in front of u ppl.... till last nite i nearly broke down... i chat wit candy n fabian.... mostly wit fabian... he sae i am strong coz i can hide my feelings so well... i also admit tt i hide it very well... onli when i am alone i will reveal it out.... then todae went out wit fabian n candy.... i was feeling a bit better todae... sorry candy i was late again.... then after we went taka n ltr she left coz got something so left mi n fabian gg to study.... then while we were studying talk abit la.. i left early coz i wan to go home.... then left him alone... he sae thx mi for accompanying him... but it shld be mi instead coz he accompany mi n cheer up my mood... on the way home.. the train broke down for ard half an hr... then reach home ard 6 plus n rest... then watch tv... then on the phone wit may a while ago... then may sae wan to see my smiling face n cheerful look again n told mi to be strong n i will... JUZ GREAT THANKS TO CANDY N FABIAN N MAY... N THANKS RAYNER TOO... U NOE Y.... tt all for todae ba... gg to slp as i am tired le...

everyone feeling so down

while i was juz waking up fiona call mi... n sae got important thing to tell mi.... she ask mi to accompany her... she was feeling so down.... so went over to her hse n chat wit her for a while then ltr went out to walk walk... she was so sad.... haiz.... then we went suntec... on the way saw angela n chat for a while..... then reach home ard 9pm... then watch tv for awhile.. then went to chat wit candy on phone for a few hrs... till now chatting online.... haiz... we were toking abt relationship problems.... we both agree tt relationship is the hardest to pass through... haiz... y is everyone so sad... muz stay happy.... i have to learn to let go although it is very hard... candy sae muz try or we will nvr noe the ans... so now i feeling very confused.... haizzzz..... wish everyone happy n smile....

went out in morning to meet candy... coz she accompany mi ma... but i still late... sorry to make u wait...then on the way noe tt chengguan wont be free... n after some chatting we decide to go without him... so plan as usual..then after tt she left early coz she got something on.... after my things done...then i went home... reach home ard 4pm... then rest ard... went to party world ard 5 plus wit candy, liyan, jason.... then sing till 9 plus.. n we went home separately coz we got our things on... then liyan n mi walk home to0gether... party world not nice one... we somehow regret gg ... at least we enjoy ourselves... we also get a bit high... tt all.. todae is a triring dae....


mi yan candy

mi n yan

mi.....

ltr gg party world wit yan candy n cg.... todae oral was ok la... but a bit sucks... then saw mun ting... she got the exam same sch as mi... then got another one who is co de.... tt all... gg to chat wit fabian le.... shall update more ltr...

juz now went to fiona hse to slack as i am bored staying at home..... stay there chatting wit her... these few dae slack a bit study a bit... juz clear a lot of things in my hse.... my mum is nagging tt i got too much clothes so clear away a lot... still got a lot... need to buy some more drawers to put my clothes... now i starting to clear all the stuff at home tt i don use or don wan... but my room got no more space liao... haiz....

misses

after a few nites of thinkings.... i knew i had to let go coz i am tired le.... i don wan to force myself to give myself anymore excuse.... i have decided to let go of him... coz i noe it is impossible... juz now a chat wit fabian he ask mi how come i always attract the wrong type of guys... my ans is don noe... maybe is fate ba.... i knew i always fall for the wrong person but now decided to make it juz memories in my mind.... not onli fabian sae.. adrain slo sae it... fiona always have no comment coz she knew how i felt always so she always respect n support my decision... thx for being such a great sis.... as for now... i will be calming down on my emotions n tt all.... i will still be the same mi... bring smile n laughter to ppl....




another person i miss dearly is my grandfather juz now saw the photo posted on my cousin blog.... realise time realli pass fast but some things will still in my mind n heart as i knew i wont forget.... n my grandma too....




DEARLY MISS BY MI ON MY MIND N HEART

now cant slp..... ltr gg to do some deep thinking then go to slp.... juz now on phone wit fabian till ard 1am coz don wan to disturb him.. tml he still got sch... haiz.... but we chatted for ard an hrs plus.... he always so nice can ans mi a lot of qns so paitently.... thx to him... got to noe him a bit more.... not bad... these few dae have a bit of mood swings... haiz... don think too much liao... gg to slp...

now blogging where eating my fruit..... todae went out wit my cousin to celebrate her birthdae... bought her a perlini necklace... first we went suntec then went bugis... she bought a shirt n a skirt n 2 watches... mi i bought 2 skirts n gg to change tml coz too tight.... i also bought a bag coz my bag spoil during i was shopping... haiz... coz i juz use it twice.... nvr la... tml gg to change my size of skirts...then we take neoprints... after tt went home....

todae went out wit rayner... juz went shopping ard .... then we had our dinner at ajisah... so glad to see him coz havent seen him for a long time since i bz working...then after tt went home n slack... now juz finish my supper gg to drink my soup liao... here r some of our photo... taken by him...




rayner n mi

it is us again...

shopping

todae went bugis to shop wit fiona... before tt went to get my pay... todae bought a few things...
1) 3 black skirts....
2) a pair of white heels ( black does not look gd on mi...)
3) 2 bags...
- 1 small n 1 medium
then went to eat ajisah....then shop ard again n went home...

todae went to bugis wit kat onli... sad lol juz the 2 of us... ade last min sae she not gg coz she got something on... we went to search for bags... but still not found... then mi n kat each bought a watch... i also bought 2 cd... then reach home ard 8 plus.. kat went to meet another person as she got appointment so i went home n slack... then juz now went to met jerome to get my pay... ltr gg to meet fiona... then thurs will be jianying n fri rayner... so long didnt see them liao...

ltr gg to meet ade n kat liao... we r gg bugis...so long didnt see them... it onli a few mths.. n everyone birtdae is coming... so ltr then update la...

these 2 dae think a lot... then saw some of my friends blog... somehow it make sense.... haiz... i agree tt friendship need time trust n requires a lot of effort to maintain... n true friend wont be bother wit money matter n tt will be a true friend.. then relationship also the same... most of our friends juz come n pass n become part of our memories... n these memories will make us sometime think of n remain in our mind... the most important is nemories is juz part of it... is how we spent it together.... the things i noe the most important in our life regardless of wat it is friendship or wat is TRUST... EVEN THE TRUTH HURT BUT IF WE NOE THE TRUTH IS BETTER THEN LIES... COZ WE WILL RECEIVE A GREATER HURT INSTEAD...

juz finish chatting it him... kinda getting closer n noe a bit more about him.... gg to slp liao... tired.... tml is gg to be a tiring dae...

these 2 dae chat wit fabian my new friend... find out tt we have some things in common... he tell mi a lot of things tt i don noe... thx to him i understand n learn a lot of things... thx for telling mi n teaching mi... then also chat wit adrian... i realise a lot of things ...also went taka these few dae..

todae still feeling sick but still decided to go shopping... realli sick le...my voice totally changed... haiz... muz take care... todae went taka to return card but too late le as they close le... then shop ard there... went taka then go far east n bought some things there... then went centrepoint to buy some skin products n try out... coz working didnt take care of my skin so now muz take care...tt all still feeling tired...as i am still sick...

overall of wat i did these 2 weeks... it is gonna to be a long entry.. juz to update wat i do.. bz working these 2 week coz as a full time promoter... nth much but tired... realised tt taka got a lot of mature n handsome looking guys... then got to noe a few ppl in taka... find them very nice... got a few no from them... haha... got to noe the guy name tt i find not bad one... haha... find him cute... then enjoy my time working there but tired due to the long hrs... then yes reach home ard one plus gg to 2am... so late n tired... coz pack good till ard 12 plus then finish... then mi n jerome went to swesen to eat while the rest head back to factory to put the goods back to warehouse... then he treat mi... thanks... then ard 1 plus le... we head home... he send mi home... so nice of him... thanks for sending mi home... tt all...




todae till 7 plus my dad ask mi something n i wake up after tt went back to slp... till 11 plus my aunt wake mi up ask mi something again... then after tt went to eat n slack till 1 plus went back to slp till 5 plus then wake up coz my dad brought mi dinner... thx... then i realised tt i was not feeling well todae coz i caught a cold last nite... keep sneezing n feeling giddy the whole nite.. then tok on phone wit fiona n she noe tt i am sick due t0 my voice totally change so she ask mi to rest... n i feel asleep after toking to her... ard 10 plus jerome call but i didnt ans n ltr my mum told mi n i call him back... he wan to collect his stuff but it is late le n i am also not feeling well so not meeting him.. sorry... then slp till 11 plus n start using com till now... gg to slp le coz i reallli not feeling well n i am feeling giddy n sneezing now....