last dae liao

todae last dae work at ego liao... finally can have a gd rest... gg to slp liao....

2 more dae

2 more dae to work end... haha... can rest liao... can go shopping... can meet up wit friend... can do a lot of things...

hurt

todae my hand was hurt n till now apply the cream still feeling pain... haiz... hurt myself during working... hate this coz i was so not careful...

why...

why... why has it become like this... i don wan... i am feeling confuse now... wat shld i do... i also don noe.... i think i am falling into the same trap again...i have been trying to control my feeling for him coz i don wan to let him noe.... i think the best solution now is to keep quiet n control my feeling... coz i don wan to end up hurting ppl....

confuse

i don noe y these few daes feeling so confuse ... don ask mi y... i don noe... is there something wrong wit mi or wat... i guess i roughly noe y.... i hope is my senses telling mi wrong... i had the feeling tt i fall for him liao n i noe it is impossible for us... i hope tt this will not be the case coz i still don noe how i feel.... i believe in fate... if we r meant to be together we will be together... if not no matter how i wish we still wont be together... saw a few not bad looking guys working at taka... haha.... sorry to u if i throw my temper at u todae... i didnt mean it...


getting moody nowadae coz very tired during working... lack of slp will let mi throw my temper somehow...5 more dae to go n it will be over.... i got panda eyes liao... my ankle is having rashes... maybe gg to see doc ba.... tired liao... off to slp le...

todae sabrina they all came to have dinner wit mi.. so many ppl got may, eugene toh n eugene chen, shirley n many more... so happy to see them... n tok a lot wit them after tt all accompany mi back to work n half walk wit mi till work place onli half staying in the centre waiting for the rest.. thx guys i realli enjoy... those feedback i got who saw jerome sae he is handsome.. ok... working wit him at taka till next week... he always bully mi ask mi to do a lot of things... his mouth very sweet lol can persuade a lot of ppl to buy but still the sales not gd as not many ppl buying... working wit him make mi feel tired as need to do a lot things...


i realise i cannot work in the same place for too long coz i will started to get bored n less engentic to do... i cannot stay in the same place for too long la... this is the logic... blog another time.. gg to slp liao.. very tired...


gg to meet up wit rayner soon.. havent seen him for a few mth seems like very long time.. after working gg to spend mi time wit mi friend liao...

todae was so screw up.... meet a few unreasonable customers... n taka was darm strict lol.. this cannot tt cannot... nvr still got another week to go onli... haiz... so tired working there n need to do a lot of things... todae was thinking of asking rayner out n todae he tag mi board.. so qiao... coz we realli havent seen each other for a few weeks ba... kinda wan to meet up wit my friends.. not onli rayner... i feel tt i have neglected my friends due to working nvr after next week i shall meet up wit them.... n go out wit all of them... a few at a time or one by one ba... my working still ok... but i somehow don like to work at taka... coz of the pay... n sorry these few dae i am tired so if i didnt reply ur sms or ur phone... please forgive mi.. i realli tired.... i will compensate u all... i will meet up wit u all soon... or u can find mi at taka basement 2 de food there.. it is at the end lol... i working there till next week sun... then i will meet up wit all my friends... hope to see u all soon... anything juz call or sms mi... more birthdae r coming.... n o level is also coming le... off to sleep liao...

so tired

start on my new job yest... nth la... but i too blur liao... haiz... tt all.. nth much... wont be updating lately ba till my job end this mth...

todae was my last dae... then nth much lol... then saw the guy.. he is so handsome....ok... like his smile... those who saw him before noe y i like him...i realli wan to be friend wit him but YOU YUAN WU FEN... my grandma sae i getting fat le... i muz start to lose weight n exercise more....haha...

todae was great

after working went for service... n it was great n i enjoy it... onli mi , shirley n may.... thanks shirley for waiting for mi even i was late.... then after service saw fiona n her friends... haha.. don noe tt one of her friend was in the same pri n sec wit mi... now then noe it.. after service went to find angela.. chat wit her for a while... havent seen for for a long time... tml gg to train nanother person n is my last dae of weok... then i change job le... tt guy i didnt saw him todae... reach home at 10 plus... todae was a great dae n i enjoy it...

shld be working till todae but i extend till sundae coz they cant find help... n tml n sun got 2 trainees... each per dae... mi n my friend quit on the same time then our boss thought we sae together... haha... no la... tt mac cafe guy onli rest on wed... the rest of this week till fri saw him everytime.. haah... but no chance... till sun if still no chance then forget it le ba... then todae fiona came to find mi but i went home le... coz tired ma so went home.. then while working chat wit eugene toh.. he give mi a lot of advise.. second time can noe him so well n gd.... then at nite chat wit another eugene coz feel like chatting wit him... he is a great pal of mine... he kinda of understand mi n noe mi.. haha.. maybe like we sae can become close friend... we sae give each other a yr starting from 23 of june 2006... hope tt e can do it... wed went to sent her off... haha.. she was so gd wait for mi... thanks sabina n sorry tt i was late... these few dae was kinda tired ... ya my uncle bought durians for us on tues n i love eating it... my dad was also so gd bought us cans of bird nest... i love eating durains n haven eaten for a long time le.. now de durains r the best... now gg to slp le.. already 12 plus le...

shld be working till todae but i extend till sundae coz they cant find help... n tml n sun got 2 trainees... each per dae... mi n my friend quit on the same time then our boss thought we sae together... haha... no la... tt mac cafe guy onli rest on wed... the rest of this week till fri saw him everytime.. haah... but no chance... till sun if still no chance then forget it le ba... then todae fiona came to find mi but i went home le... coz tired ma so went home.. then while working chat wit eugene toh.. he give mi a lot of advise.. second time can noe him so well n gd.... then at nite chat wit another eugene coz feel like chatting wit him... he is a great pal of mine... he kinda of understand mi n noe mi.. haha.. maybe like we sae can become close friend... we sae give each other a yr starting from 23 of june 2006... hope tt e can do it... wed went to sent her off... haha.. she was so gd wait for mi... thanks sabina n sorry tt i was late... these few dae was kinda tired ... ya my uncle bought durians for us on tues n i love eating it... my dad was also so gd bought us cans of bird nest... i love eating durains n haven eaten for a long time le.. now de durains r the best... now gg to slp le.. already 12 plus le...

yes got my pay... ok la... but yes work whole so was feeling tired todae... todae don wan to work full la.. i will be too tired de.....todae sabrina came to find mi... not bad la... chat wit mi... then ask her wat time she leave tml... tml i gg to send her off... she is leaving or taiwan tml... wish her a gd n nice trip... hope tt she will learn as much as she could.... ya... then these two dae i saw tt guy... he work early but got no chance coz he didnt came out... haiz... i will wait till this fri... if still no chance then i will forget it ba... i realli wan to be friend wit him... have to give up n admit tt we wont have the chance... i working till this fri... sat rest.. then sun i will start working till end of this mth for full dae... gg to be tired so need to rest la... after tt not working le... i will be studying at home till o level end... todae went to buy 3 hairbands n 2 pair of ears studs... spend ard 16... coz i lost all my hairbands... don noe where i put it... i got 4 or 5 but now onli left one... so need to buy... then i accidentally throw all my ear studs away... coz i put it in a box n the box is spoil so nvr check whether got things inside or not then throw away... n now then realise... haiz... i throw ard 10 pair of ear studs.. all very nice de n i like it lol... now gg to buy more again... i got a lot of ear rings n all r dangling wan... i realise tt i am very careless... haiz.. off to slp le... tml still need to wake up to send sabrina off...

todae was fun... got service n prayer meeting.... realli enjoy it.. during prayer meeting saw mao shen, jia yong n joshua... they were surprise to see mi... haha... after went to tampines then stay at coffee bean n chat... after tt went home to meet my parents n have dinner... sabrina n shuting r gg to left for mission trip this week for taiwan... god will bless them n give them power... god bless you.... yesterdae work whole dae still didnt see tt guy.. haiz.. no fate.... gg to watch tv n slp soon le.. i am tired... yesterdae reach home ard 12 plus n slp at1am... todae wake up at 7.45am to got for church todae... so muz rest as the past few dae slp at 2am... need to rest....

finally get to see tt guy le... haiz... but i was gg home... no chance or fate... todae sales was ok... jerome left for malaysia on sundae n will be back on sundae... hope he enjoy himself n have fun...nth much.. these few dae onli slp at 2am.. don noe y so late... feel so tired this few dae....gg to slp soon.. ltr got work n it i whole dae...

todae was a great dae... sabrina came to find mi... she came n brought mi a pack of biscuits for mi... so nice of her... then after work went to find shu ting as she sae wan to see mi.. then went shopping n after tt went to eat n went home... nth much... the guy off todae... haiz...

MOOD SWING

these few dae like this... i don noe y... sometime happy... sometime sad... n the worse of all my double character is out again... i realli don wan to show it to anyone.... my the other character is out means nth gd will happen... i realli try my best not to show it... but in the end still fail... due to my mood swings... i muz realli control my mood well la... i muz control... if i lose control... something bad n wat i cant expect will happen... or the thing i fear the most will happen... i don wan n don wish... if i had scare anyone of u... then here i sae sorry... i don mean to... if i throw my temper at anyone... i am also sry.. i didnt mean..juz tt my mood realli sucks...

i realli need someone to confide to.... someone who can calm mi down... emotionally n my heart.... i am faking smile in front of mi nowadae... n i am realli tired of faking... i juz wan to be truthful to myself... i realli don wan to keep on pretending i am fine when i am not.... i don noe y i feel so hurt n tired suddenly... i don noe y i feel like running away from all this... perhaps i need a break ba... i need to go to a place where i can rest n no one can find mi...

gg to quit my job next mon... don realli like this job...




lol when i finally wan to pluck up my courage.. he is always off lol... fate... haiz...




i think a lot this few dae... i guess i still blur... i still don noe wat i wan... i hate myself this way... i realli don wan to be like this... i guess i will noe it soon ba... haha... fiona tok to mi n i still the same... nvr... slowly ba...

WAT IS LOVE

TODAE STILL GOT NO COURAGE TO ASK THE GUY FOR HIS NO... MISS SO MANY CHANCE LE... I DON NOE WAT HAPPEN LA...




till todae i realise tt i am afraid to go into relationship..... i have the fear n no confident... don noe y feeling like this.... i hate myself this way... i realli wan to love someone but i am afraid to get hurt....

todae was a great dae as the sales was gd... even fiona also realise tt the mac cafe guy also stare at mi sometime.. haha.. didnt manage to get his no.. coz thur n fri he off... sat i on mc... sun bz working... maybe go to fate ba... let fate decide... happy birthdae to eugene.... haha..