these r the photo for irene birthdae celebration...... actually got a lot of photo but i dun noe y they onli send mi these.... haha....

grp photo

cutting the cake....

birthdae boy n gal.....

juz reach home not long ago.... todae went for swimming in the morning wit candy n liyan... then we went for lunch before we headed home.... then when i went home n bath.... i went out to k box at jurong east to celebrate irene n lionel birthdae..... then got mi irene her daughter henry sunny meifang n her husband n lionel.... then after dear off work he went to fetch mi home.... HE IS SO SWEET...... I LOVE HIM LOTS.... N SO MANY DAES NVR SEEN HIM LE... AT LAST SAW HIM LE.... REALLI MISS HIM A LOTS... n after k box.... they went to eat dinner while we headed home as we r tired... then had a lot of fun todae but i was tired la.....



yest went to do tele at angela hse... then after tt went to eat mos burger at amk hub wit candy... then saw seba at mos... after we eat then we head home.... reach home ard 11....



then fri went to shop wit candy.... she accompany mi coz i was in a bad mood n gg to break down... we went novena.... we eat n eat instead of shop.... i bought a clip n a necklace.... then also do my pedicure.... then we went to eat at aijisa n bought cookies.... we slack at mos burger n drink milk tea.... then until 8 plus we went home.... candy is rite.... these few daes we keep drinking all type of water.... don noe y also.....

scare n afraid

i am realli afraid now.... totally afraid.... n scare too.... i told myself not too but i cant.... i have this fear.... i am breaking down..... nearly cry out.... i am afraid to get hurt... in a relationship i always get hurt.... i dun fall in love easily.... once i fall in love i will fall deeply.... the person will be my pillar of support.... n i cannot afford to lose that person.... i hate myself.... i really hate myself.... i am a bad girlfriend.... a totally bad one and failure.... i noe tt i am not gd enough for him.... i rely a lot on him.... in a relationship i will become weaker as i dependent on him..... i realli dun noe how now.... i am useless..... for being such a bad person..... i realise i am a failure..... totally a failure....

i dun noe wat to sae.... things keep cropping out again.... it is all my fault this time.... coz i am emo i dun wan to sae it out n juz keep it to myself.... now let my dear think tt i dun wan him.... is not tt i dun wan him.... now make him so emo le.... i realli dun noe how le.... things keep cropping out one by one.... i cant digest in time.... he sae he wan to be alone to think... so i let him.... my greatest fear is out.... he is not the one who will get hurt.... i am also.... i really love him.... he is a very great bf but i am not a good gf.... totally a failure n bad one.. i am realli afraid.... totally afraid....

yeah... finally over liao....

yeah.... finally everything is over le.... i am so happi.... really happi.... at last we r ok le.... dun need to worry n go crazy le...

I AM TIRED...

i guess i am realli tired be it physically or mentally.... too much stuff to digest n i am not coping well wit it... my close friends all seems to see through it but they dun wan to sae it out onli.... ade candy crystal fiona n kat.... all see through mi... ade juz call and ask wat happen.... candy chat wit mi... crystal n kat n fiona also.... it is not obvious unless u realli noe mi well.... i juz act tt i am ok... juz have a chat wit candy she juz sae endure for 2 mth more then go n have a gd rest n recharge myself... ya it is true la.... so i shall wait until the time... in the mean time try to be strong ba..... like wat candy sae all i need is to be alone... then i will start to be fine ba after some time....

long post

sch started for a week le... n i am so tired.... got a lot of stuff dun understand..... realli dun n wits lots of ?????..... muz start to revise le... if not will not do well.... i wan to do well... so muz study..... reach sch juz on time everydae..... n ya... last thurs overslept for the first lesson..... i woke up at 8.45 n went back to slp.... i thought my lesson was at 10.... then suddenly remember my lesson start at 9.... n i skip my lesson.... coz it is the first lesson for tt modcule of the week....









so many things happened this week..... this week dun realli goes well for mi.... then i broke down n cried on some matters on wed after my class..... i shall not sae it.... but candy n crystal r the ones who noes wat happen tt make mi break down.... n angela for listening to mi for everything.... n gerrad for calling mi to check tt i am ok or not.... thx for chatting wit mi... then sat went to ade hse..... she is super gd... treat mi drink.... haha.... ade noe something happen to mi when i talk to her..... thx for u guys concern....







then lastly but not all my dear who r there for mi always there for mi.... thx a lot.... i noe u r bz n u always try ur best to give mi the time u have.... i realli appreciate..... u muz also rest well....







on wed n thurs went to meet lai.... then tues, fri n sun went to meet my dear..... then sat at ade.... sun also went out wit candy her sis chalton to play badminton.... then after tt we went mac n slack... then liyan came to join us.... n we realli chat a lot.... then dear was doing duty also... then liyan n candy start to ka jiao mi.... was not bad... not a bad session wit them.... then saw mdn tan n her daughter too... she brought her daughter for the event at mac.... then when liyan left we also left.... when i reach home lai sms mi tell mi she broke down... so i bath n went to meet her then ltr candy went to join us.... we talk to her a lot.... then after my dear end work 3 of us talk to her together.... then we decided to stop n end it... then ask lai to go home first.... after a while we went home too.....






like wat gerrad sae.... i have a bunch of best friends wit mi..... a loving bf.... all the gd bosses.... n my ex colleagues who r there for mi.... it is also enough... i noe n i am contented.... life dun always go to the way we wan.... juz go through it...

HAPPY 4TH MTH

todae is mi n my dear 4th mth anniversary..... so fast time has pass..... it is our fourth mth together.... during this mth a lot of things happen.... but we overcome it together... all the obstacles r clear.... i am loving him more n more each dae..... my love for him is getting deeper each dae.... he made mi feel so blessed.... he let mi noe wat is love.... the feeling of being in love.... the feeling of being pampered.... the feeling of being doted.... thx to him a lot..... juz to let him i love him.....

todae went for dinner wit my darling fiona.... we had a lot of fun chatting.... we love each other company.... we agree to go shopping one daes.... we wan to go shopping.... yea.... we havent went shopping together since we r bz wit our own stuff..... so we shall go shopping one dae....

a new sem

tml is the starting of a new sem.... sch start le which mean my life is gonna to be very bz.... haiz.... which is a brand new me... i am gg to work very hard for my studies to get the grades i wan.... i am gg to study hard.... real hard.... as usual i will slack but i will change the habit of studying... i wll listen in lec n tut.... but mostly is lec n lag.... i will not slp anymore.... muz control myself juz for the sake of better..... ok shall stop here.... gg to slp le...

I AM SO HAPPI

i am so happi wit my life now.... i am realli happi.... i feel so bless.... i am contented.... i had a family who cares for mi although there r lots of quarrels n misunderstanding, a wonderful n loving boyfriend n a bunch of best friends who r my buddies.... a person muz learn to be contented.... in this way there will always be happiness ard.... my life is so great now..... i love my life now.... thx to all of you who made my life so wonderful n meaningful......

lost my voice

lost my voice todae due to singing.... haiz... todae went to meet candy n liyan for lunch at yoshinoya.... then i head to ade hse to give ade sis the books while candy n liyan went to party world.... then i went to meet them... we plan to sing at 2 but it open at 3pm... so we slack outside the safra there n chat.... then after tt went to sing... we had a lot of fun even though there is onli 3 of us.... we were high... then after tt we went home having a lot of fun.... then liyan give mi n candy key chain she bought from china.... thx a lot.... i like it..... tt all...

i am so happi.... went shopping todae..... i buy a bag todae.... then bought 2 pairs of ear rings... but i lost it... hope i can find it... blur blur... haiz..... went to meet my dear... so happi to see him... i am sick these few daes....

i fell down again todae.... which worsen the condition of my leg.... it is more painful now.... todae mood not good le... turn worse when i meet the client... piss mi off... but still ok la...

my leg injury came back again....

my leg injury came back again.... haiz... poor thing... so nowadaes i walk my leg will somehow pain... cannot walk too much... due to endless of injuries.... haiz... dun think it will be cure.... i onli hope tt the pain will go away soon.... coz it is realli pain sometime....

settle

i finally calm down n sort out wat to do le.... thanks fernandes for his advise last nite.... sorry to make him chat wit mi when he is sick... but at least i manage to settle.... realli settle it for once n for all.... no need to have sleepless nite anymore.... i am happi tt i have settle.... but at the same time i feel sad n bad also.... haiz....

disappear

i am confused... i dun noe wat to do... realli at a lost.... so now i am playing disappear.... coz i dun wan to see anyone for the time being.... i also dun feel like talking to anyone too... i dun noe how to sae either.... certain things cant sae out one.... last nite think n think n i could not slp till morning.... morning also didnt slp well either.... my mind gg to bao zha le.... i will go crazy de.... coz it keep appearing..... i dun wan to face it... or shld i sae i had been running away from it.... but recently it keep appearing.... i am realli suffering..... i am very tong ku..... so now i juz need to be alone.... realli alone wit no one disturbing mi.... need to think n sort out n overcome everything by myself..... so dun be surprise if u cant find mi.....

ade birthdae celebration....

todae went to meet ade n crystal.... we went to amk hub n eat fish n co.... the food was not up to the standard as it is not nice..... as usual we went to shop.... todae ade n mi not in mood.... ade is coz she lack of slp.... i shld not sae mine.... crystal also not realli in mood.... so we meet up for a while onli... juz randomly walk ard n eat.... then after tt went home..... something very pervert happen on the bus to crystal.... i didnt noe until she sms mi after she alight.... coz in the bus ade was slping n my mind keep running through some stuff.... n all of us sit separately..... haiz....

wed went to meet two new bosses gerrard n lionel.... n angela taught mi telemarketing.... means now i got 4 bosses angela jia hao gerrard lionel.... i find my bosses all very fun n cute... haha....

todae my student gave mi a box of ferrero rocher.... so touched by her.... she is cute.... haha....

tml gg to meet ade n crystal..... finally meeting up again.... so happi.... gg to celebrate ade belated birthdae.... although it is one mth later... haha....

lol.... my stupid timetable is out... everydae end late.... haiz.... gg to spend a lot of time in sch.... means i will be home late.... this also means tt i will have less time wit my friends n dear.... my dear even worse everydae from 8am to 5pm.... haiz.... gg to have less time for each other.... both of us have to work...

so tired

i am so tired... realli so tired.... i need a break.... i need a rest... a good rest.... a place tt i can isolated from all the ppl here.... i juz wan to be alone.... realli alone witout anyone.... duna sk mi y... i am also very fan n frustrated.... i will go crazy soon... so ppl of u cant find mi.... juz leave mi a msg... i will reply u guys... sorry if i had disappear.... i think i have the need.....

sat went to the zoo wit my student... it was fun for both of us... havent go zoo for a long time... todae went dinner went ade her mum n kat... so fun gg wit them.... laugh n laugh... havent seen them for a long time le... so nice to see them again.... n ya crystal came my hse todae... not bad la.... from last nite slp until todae afternoon ard 5..... tired... finally have a gd slp..... recently start to think a lot.... dun noe y.....