FATE N DESTINY

so my overall conclusions is who is the person u meet n made.. no who is it.. be it ur boyfriends or girlfriends or friends it is all predestined n fate... fate brings ppl to meet up n light out ppl life n add colours to ppl life... so it is all destiny n predestined.. who will be wit u.. who will accompany u... who r ur friends...it is all FATE...

FRIENDS

friends also depend on fate too... coz in this world u meet n make friends based on fate too.. if no fate how u two r gg to meet.. how u two r gg to be friends... coz of fate u two meet up n noe each other... if both of u r destiny to be friends no matter where u go wat u do both of u will still meet up... in a person life how much friends u noe.. how much friends u made.. how much friends will be wit u for long time or short period... they will still bring u lots of memories n make u understand a lot... friends r the ones who can share woes n happiness wit u other then family...

CoZ oF ThE wOrD LOVE

i juz saw another person blog... then i realise tt if u love a person u will sacifice a lot for this person n the main thing is does he or her noe n see how much u sacrifice for him or her or not.. n will he or she appreciate it if they noe...to wat i see is... normally after couples broke up n if one partly still loves the other n tt person is willling to sacrifice the other wont be able to see n feel tt.. n the other wont noe how much tt partly had sacrifice for him or her.. n tt person who do all this juz wan the him or her to be happy n juz staying beside him or her they will be happy le... n another type is they like tt person but dare not sae it out.. they juz wan to stay by their side to help n do things for him or her.. n they will feel happy in this way...
all this is coz of the word love...
if u love a person deep in ur heart u r willing to sacrifice no matter wat is it... n u will feel tt it is worth it coz it is the person u love...
love can be sweet it can also be painfull depends on u n tt person n how is it...
to mi if i love a person.. i am willing to sacrifice a lot for him n wont let him noe coz i think no need... n i hope tt he is happy all the times n when he find someone he likes wishes him all the best from deep in my heart n when he is happy feel happy for him... when he is sad or trouble stay beside him to help him solve his problem n show care n concern for him... tt is how i love a person... coz it is all fate.. if both of u r fate to be together no mater wat both of u will still be together if not no matter how much u try both of u still cant be together... it is all fate...

i pass my portfolio interview in nafa but i need to go for a drawing test...haiz...don noe need to be happy or sad.. haiz...nvr.. juz go n do my best.. may god bless mi....

THINKING OF HIM

it been so long since he left but i still thinking of him n still missing him a lot... after he left then i realise a lot... how much i missed him... how much i love him... although my misses r getting more n more each dae i noe he wont return to mi... sry if i had hurt u n cause u more misery... i noe no matter wat happens it wont change the fact... i noe u will be there for mi no matter wat happens n i realli appreciate n thanks to u...

why i tend to be easily contented coz i grew up in big families... all of them have high expections of themselves n r very competitive... n they r BIASED tt y i learn to be contended wit things i had n not ask for more.... they wan to compare this n compare tt n after a long time u will grow sick n tired of it... n no point fighting like this coz u will not be happy in the end... n no point like this fighting n comparing.... to mi simple is enough for mi... i am sick n tired of this type of life le... i had been leading this for 18 yrs le... i realli had enough of it... plz leave mi out of this... plz...plz... i juz wan to lead a simple n peaceful life...

WoRlD Of DaRkNeSs

now in the world of mine belong to darkness n it is fill wit emptiness..... all these belong to mi... y i become like this??? coz i lost my heart n hopes in everythings ard mi.... n i noe y onli JOLYN can noe n understand mi so well coz we r similar.. tt y my ex director sae we can become close n gd friends... we can noe n understand each other without sae out how we feel... we both look happy n ok ouside but deep inside our hearts we r fill wit lots of emptiness n r very fragile....some ppl sae i got attiude problem but i muz admit sometimes i did coz i hate to be force to do the things i don like.. if u were force to do the things u don like will u be happy??? n if r willing to listen then is u not everyone will be the same... NO ONE IS PERFECT IN THIS WORLD.. EVERYONE WILL HAVE A FLAW N DO MISTAKE DE.... TT Y I SAE NO ONE CAN REALLY UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL....if u really understand mi then u will noe tt i really don like to be force to do the things i don like... n i am also a person who is easily contented... DONT YOU AGREE???

HAIZ

don noe wat happen... so many things recently mi... concerning mi n everythings... first is family don noe wat wrong wit my mum.. second my friendship... i lost hope on two of my guys friends le.. maybe it is like tt.. but who noe how it is turn... don noe wat will happen in the future.. cant predict n noe.. juz follow the fate...

HoPiNg FoR A MiRaClE

still waiting for my appeal results... getting very tired of it but no choice heve to... coz this is the onli hope i have... i am forcing myself to do the things i don like and i don have a choice... i realli hope a miracle will happen n i am praying for it.... hope so it will go as i wish if not then don noe wat le.... n i believe tt a miracle will happen as long as u believe... AS LONG AS YOU BELIEVE THERE IS MIRACLE IN THIS WORLD, A MIRACLE WILL HAPPEN...

Sorry

so sorry to you...( u noe who u r) sry for hurting u... i didnt mean it... i don noe it became so serious tt u have to see the doctor... hope u will get well soon... realli sry for hurting u... beside this i noe i have hurt u a lot... realli sry... not purposely de....

So BoReD

these few days very bored.. nth to do... so tired coz nth to do... watch tv n online seems bored too... maybe listening to music maybe better... my mood not so good that why... these few daes also having mood swings... seems to be very unhappy also... don noe why i cant be happy mi myself also don noe why... cant be in good mood.... i hate this... i don wan to be like this... this is not mi....haizzzzzzzzzzz........

So BoReD

these few days very bored.. nth to do... so tired coz nth to do... watch tv n online seems bored too... maybe listening to music maybe better... my mood not so good that why... these few daes also having mood swings... seems to be very unhappy also... don noe why i cant be happy mi myself also don noe why... cant be in good mood.... i hate this... i don wan to be like this... this is not mi....haizzzzzzzzzzz........

So FuN n BoReD

Todae a lot of ppl birthdae...is eddy ,lay hua n a lot more....(cant remember who le coz too many)..... went to celebrate wit lay hua... 1st we go causeway pt coz she wan so go wit her then ltr went back yishun to eat sakae sushi coz she wan to eat there as she sae there better... as we didnt bought her a present so we treat her la... she very funny coz we treat her as it is her birthdae ma... then ltr she go buy mi n ade a handphone hanger... tt y sae her funny n cute... n happy 18 birthday to both of you...happy birthdae... don noe y after eating sushi mi n ade feel tired so we headed home.. actually wan to go n ply pool de coz tired so went home... n mi also funny end up in ade hse watching vcd together..then chat a while wit ade sis kat... after tt went home n rest... i don noe when i hurt my toe again n it bleed again n i didnt realise til i reach home... todae was so fun wit ade n lay hua and we tok a lot n noe each other better.... 3 of us realise tt when one person didnt contact another person for some time n see each other again... they will feel like stranger n have the feeling too... n i also have the same feeling too....

haizzzzz.........don noe wat happen to me lately...keep having mood swings...then throw my temper a lots...sorry of mi throwing temper at u all...realli sorry...don noe y i am feeling like this...wat is happening to miiiiiiiiiiii.....cant be like these anymore or ppl ard mi is gg to suffer....i realli don noe how... seems that my problems are always nvr ending...finish one another comes.... y cant i lead a peaceful life n be a ordinary person...tt is wat i always wan...but i noe very well it is not gg to happen to mi....y juz i cant be an ordinary person tt can lead a ordinary life...yyyyyyy.....please give mi a break or at least let mi recharge myself 1st be4 gg on.... i realli cant take it anymore... i am gg break down...haizzzzzzzz..................
lemon sours

TIRED

finally finished my porfolio liao.... so tired got it wit the help of fiona.....hope tt things will turn out better for todae coz i already try my best....now resting le...

sweet lemon

Todae was so fun at sentosa.... but i got sunburn.... As for nafa interview , the person call mi to go again as he ask mi to draw more.... Todae have a lots of thought n feelings... feel happy n sad n moody.... don noe y i am behaving like this.... hope this wil end soon as this is not the real mi.....

dreams and wishes

Finally have my own blog le....these few days feel moody n not gd but not better le.. didnt do well for my o level... so now hope for the best...