i am so exhausted n tired... this week had been working n there r a lot of workload to be done.... went to meet ade on tues nite n her mum treat mi dinner... thx to her mum after tt went to her hse n slack for a while then went home... borrow a book from her to read... then sat n sun went out... yest went out wit fiona for nafa open hse... it was not bad... this yr i didnt went for poli open hse... too tired n bz working... then after tt we went to teenage cafe n eat then went shopping... then todae also meet fiona... as we plan to shop orchard todae.... then bought a jumper n jeans todae... yest bought a shirt n bag n boots n ear rings... then yest n todae fiona also buy some clothes too... she also bought a jumper as both of us had been looking for a long time... then last week also bought a lot of clothes... now broke le... i finish shopping for my new years clothes le now onli left wit a necklace n braclet.... ya when we went to into one of ths shop far east and we were trying out on the hair condition as she apply to my hair... she was so envy of my hair as she sae it out tt my hair is so soft.... n tt remind mi of of how long i havent been taking care of my hair... tt all for todae... gg to slp le....

i am BAD

i am getting bad... my playful character is out again... i make ppl jealous.... at first is not purposely de but someone make mi not happy... tt y now is purposely... now working seems to get fun n be careful... fun is realli a lot of laughter.... then careful is to be careful wit those 2 face ppl n those who love to sabo ppl one... i am also be careful wit my words.. they noe tt...

tml gg out to shop for clothes... gg to buy clothes... havent go shopping for a long time le.... always bz wit working...

i still no voice... n my throat is still very pain... so i don realli speak.... haiz...



recently had been thinking a lot of things... n it is in my mind....got a lots things still unsure... i am still finding out.... n i am also finding out wat is happening to mi nowadaes.... nowadaes i seems not the usual mi...

SICK N SICK......

these few was sick.... fri didnt went to work took mc.... i don noe wat happen i seems to get worse instead of better.... past few daes have diarrooa n headache... now still taking medicine le... a bit better le... but now i keep coughing n my throat hurts a lot... think eat too much oily n spicy food... since last nite when i had running rose i keep coughing... my running nose recover le but my throat n my cough didnt... till now still coughing.. then now my skin is recovering.... i finally noe wat happen to my skin... it is sensitive to weather n if i am in a very cold or hot place my skin will allergy n dusty place too... these few daes went home straight after work n spend my weekend at home to an xin yang bing.... tml still need to work... i realli hope tt i will recover soon... muz take good care of myself.... gg to slp le....

shall do a bit of blogging todae... past few daes was alright.... then yest our boss treat us cakes... then yest breakfast have mac.... havent eat mac breakfast for a long time... then todae lunch went out eat... get to noe more things n more stuff.... work load was alright as i manage to finish.... n my com keep on hanging.... don noe wat happen.... n ya finally my hair is long again.... don noe wat happen y get so emo nowadaes... but there r still a lot of laughter la.... tt all le... gg to slp... shall update more ltr....

SO PISS OFF N MOODY

I AM SO PISSED OFF TODAE BY A LOT OF STUFFS BUT I DON REALLI WAN TO SAE OUT ALL... SO PLEASE LEAVE MI ALONE... ALL I NEED IS TIME TO CALM DOWN... SORRY TO MY FRIENDS COZ I CANCEL OUT ALL THE DATES TODAE... NOT PURPOSELY I JUZ DON WAN TO AFFECT U ALL COZ OF MI....





i hate this person... EDMUND TEO.... a proud n arrogant n hao se guy... he don realli help ppl in the same department as him.... he onli help his sub n some others onli... the rest he heck care.... n things don get it clear also any how sae.... i dare to write means i dare to let him noe.... i don like him means i don like him but doesnt mean i hate him.... i wont sae things tt please him.... this is my character... i don like a person so i wont force myself to please tt person... as long as i got do my things can le ma... y bother so much.... like i didnt do my things like this.... i did do my things.... then cause my sup to be unhappi coz of this... i am realli sorry to u helen as i don mean it.... i noe u r very gd to mi... as long as my conscience is clear will do.... he is darm f***.... see chio bu eyes wan to drop out like tt... like nvr see before.... by the way he is also not handsome.... like to sae ppl.... still got many more... but don wish to sae it out.... n thx mei fang for ur concern...





the other one is personal stuff.... shall not sae it here.... those who noe mi knew it as i got tell u... these 2 daes i am realli unhappi.... it is all written on my face.... i realli feel so moody tt y i get piss off easily... as u all can saw tt i didnt smile.... i also didnt talk much.... i try to smile yest while out wit candy n fernandes.... i do la but after a while i turn bad into bad mood again... anyways thx for all the concern u all give.... shall not sae anymore or esle when u all read will get moody.... i will get over soon... all i need is to calm down.... then i will be fine....





gg to see another doc soon.... my skin is not getting better.... already had the injection n taken the antibodies le.... still the same.... there r more syptoms r getting more.... tt all ba for now... shall not gg to sae more...

erm... life had been not too gd for mi these few daes... n ya went to doc todae wit fiona company... took half dae leave.... then doc sae muz kenna injection or else i will not fully recovered so had one n took medicine home n doc sae at least 5 dae muz take med... ok la... n doc sae i have sensitive skin.... so muz take care.... as for allerty to wat shall not sae here... so no seafood n chilli for mi for this period in order for my skin to recover.... catch up a lot wit her todae... it was so fun.... things happen n it was so funny... so happi todae... then juz now chat wit crystal todae... also talk a lot.... tt all ba... nth much... juz another fruitful dae wit my friend... shall meet up wit ronald as havent seen him for a long time liao.... then we shall crap.... erm... tt all ba.. shall slowly meet up wit my friends... especially wit ade n crystal... juz now were talking abt when shld meet up...tt all ba... gg to slp soon... tml working... then my com n phone siao le... cant load pic into com... shall repair one dae.... gg to my dream land soon...

yest went out n had a lot of fun.... meet up wit candy n rayner to go out countdown.... then we went to a pub n drink.... then after tt meet rayner friend fernandes n we go countown at boat quay... then we went to candy bar to drink... then after tt went to walk ard n slack n cinelesiure as rayner n fernandes ply x box... then mi n candy crap a lot... then went to starbucks n slack... then mi n candy n fernandes chatn crap a lot n rayner was slp.... then we went to take train home.... reach home ard 7 plus... n i noe a new friend... nice meeting u fernandes... n ya something happen at the candy pub yest... onli mi n candy noe wat happen as we tok abt it.... shall not sae it here... wan come n ask mi..... n ya saw lucify last nite... some of the members n he was so handsome.... i onli saw them on tv.... now saw them face to face.... n ya i saw angela too... she was ard boat quay tt area wit her friends to count down.. she become so pretty le... tt all ba....




i forgot tt i have sensitive skin.... i am allergy to dirt n dust... now my body had a lot of red patches... coz yest went to the toilets there r all very dirty.... n due to my workplace the aircon is not gd.... muz take care of myself.... now getting better le....




new year le... mean a new begginning... got a lot things to complete n wishes..... muz finish my target for the yr 2007 tt i set.... i wan to be stronger.... be more cheerful n stay happi always.... jia you jane....




erm... reflect wat happen in 2006.... nth much as i was bz working... n retaking o level... n also slack a new.... got to noe more friends.... then also noe who r my true friends.... got a lot of things happens.... good n bad... shall not sae anymore since it has pass... gd memories will be kept in my heart n bad memories shall take it as a lesson learnt....

BORED

this week i am reallli bored.... i realise tt when i work the time realli pass very fast... now i am not working then realise tt time pass very slow... spend most of my time slacking n slp at home this week.... i noe i am a pig.... i am also getting fat as i am puting on weight... muz go n do exercise.... but i am also resting... suppose to go gym for this whole week but i didnt although i am off.... nth much.... then yest went to bugis to give my time sheet to my agent n then went to fiona hse.... i am happi for her.... she enter to her course tt she desire... so good luck n continue to jia you for ur studies.... i will be there to support u... then didnt went for the chalet tt may organise... sry.... but i am realli tired to go.... then to jianying also.... didnt help u in the end.... coz i didnt went for ur job....




now talk abt friendship.... friendship need to be maintain... friends shld be forgiving towards one another.... friends shld help one another n also be there for one another... friends shld also be tolerance n tell others when they r wrong... help one another to walk out to the correct path... tt is real friends....


now abt love..... in a relationship they muz learn to treasure one another.... indivdiual muz also hav their own space n freedom... they muz also learn how to endure each other weak points as no one is perfect in this world.... n also don lie n cheat ur partner... muz be faithful...




tt all for todae... a few more daes to 2007.... gg to count down wit my friends.... n my new yr wish is sercet.... shall update again... I AM BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDD........

this year i feel tt my christmas is very bored... haiz... on christmas eve we went clark quay... we went tcc n eat.... then candy ex collagues very gd give us extra 2 slice of cakes but we could not finish coz we were full le.... then we went to a japenese pub to drink.... then after a while we were tired so we go home n slp... not coz we r drunk is we r realli very bored... the bar was not bad... then went safra but it was all book so we went home... then slack from yest n todae.... tt all ba... mi n candy gg pub on new year eve anyone wan to go wit us....

ya... had a chat wit jerome todae... then suddenly remember yest went out for lunch wit julia sharon jingxian at jurong point.... then we wait for 45 min for a cab... the cab queue is darm long.... so i reach office at 2pm... we left office at 11.45pm... then miss the bus so had to wait for 15 min.... then when we reach we saw meifang ah chua regina n helen... we very naughty call the cab driver to horn so tt they can see us... coz they tok a bus back n were earlier then us... we were fighting to see who reach first... then all of us reach ard the same time.... then ah chua keeping making fun of us saeing us very rich... coz 4 of us take cab n bus the price is ard the same ma... then all of us were laughing all the way back walking to the office.... ya... many ppl tease n joke wit mi... so fun... they realli make mi laugh...

finally... i got a week break.... gg to rest... a lot of things good things happen recently.... i am realli so happi.... yest went out wit my colleagues to k box... so reach home late at ard 12 plus... lucky got pppl to send mi home... thx to mei fang bf... then todae overslept... nearly miss my company bus.... or else i am late for work... it was realli fun... had a great time.... everyone was so high.... sing n sing... todae throat was not feeling well due to yest.... wed was not feeling well too coz caught a cold... then work was fine but bz for mi.... but had a lot great time working wit them... now thinking how to spend my week off.... now i still noe ppl from my company.... my company is ealli big got a lot of staff.. muz noe the ppl that i need pass them things.... sometime still give ppl the blur look coz i don noe them.... some funny things happen a few daes.... if u wan to noe ask mi... i wont sae it here... helen n regina sae the same something todae when ah chua sae something.......erm... this shall be a secret between us... tt all i remember.... here is a photo of us at k box last nite.... the rest mei fang delete away le...

mi julia regina henry

erm this week nth much ba... as usual bz wit my work.... then also slag a lot... then also tired... plan to meet shu ting to support her todae but i was not feeling well so didnt went.... but anyways wish her do well... then tml gg to meet my colleagues to go out... don noe i will be able to meet may they all to celebrate christmas ot not.... todae slag n rest ba.... ya yest i won a present from my company.... it is a watch... that was juz pour luck.... the alphbat juz happen to stick under the chair i am seating... then yest celebrate christmas in advance... yest was fun... n ya nearly forgot... last week razif saw mi but i didnt saw him until he sae hi to mi.... then i sae hi n smile back.... can see that he change a lot... then also saw daniel last week... was surprised tt he still remember mi... so sae hi n left coz i think i was in rush..... shall catch up wit them soon...


finally get over him le... now i am very happy wit my life n my smile is back.... n lol my company got a lot of romance n rumours.... haha... hope tt i will experience once also coz don have before so don noe how it is like.... haha.... a lot of the ppl in my company r either married ot attached....

buz

have been very busy wit work lately... my workload is a lot.... trying my very hard to finish... i havent finish my doing the data n they need it by next week... i havent even finsh half coz tt is realli a lot... i juz receive like 1 or 2 hrs before i knock off so spend ard 2 daes n a bit more to do..... if cant finish then see how they sae lol.... this week is starting not to get easy as i learn more things which mean my workload will be more.... so after i knock off each dae i am very tired.... so lazy to blog.... gg to spend my weekend resting.... if not how to deal wit more challenges coming next week.... tt all ba... blog ltr... gg to slp le.... very tired.....

my indigestion is back... i am suffering from serious indigestion.... i keep feeling bloated n cant eat.... haiz... i also don noe how.... always sae wan to see doc but in the end nvr...


n ya rayner give mi a testi wishing mi happi birthdae n wish mi in msn... he too bz liao forgot my birthdae.... so forgive him... haha... then alan also wish mi but he still owe mi a testi.... he sae will give mi de...

fri nite went to meet kat n we went out... we walk from bugis to suntec... then we chat a lot... she keep consoling mi n tap my shoulders.... so i told her i will be strong de... then she sae i grow up le... i told her i been through so many things le... so learn a lot le ma n also muz stay stronger... if not i will break down easily... n ya.. i got a bit piss off by candy while i was smsing her... so when i got a bit irritated i stop smsing her or else it gonna affect my mood when i am working.... tt all for fri ba... gg to trim n dye my hair soon...then then last nite anu wish mi in msn happi birthdae too... don noe she will wish mi coz classmate for 5 yrs she nvr wish mi... then todae got a testi from alex wishing mi belated happi birthdae... coz i thought u forgot my birthdae... thx... i was so tired so from last nite slp till todae afternoon then went back slp again.... ya i wan to go clubbing n pubbinbg.... who wan to go... ask mi along.... working was fine wit mi coz it was fun... my colleagues n supervisior always joke especially my supervisior... there are a lot of laughter but there are serious time too.... got to noe a lot of ppl from my work.... my work place is big... still not realli very familiar wit the place.... onli familair wit the things n place on the floor i work... the rest still a bit blur...work load is getting more n more each dae... n i get to learn more new stuff... n ya i am getting fat coz i keep on eating n eating.... so muz do more exercise..... shall go gym when i am free.... then shall start doing some exercise at home... good news n bad news.... christmas tt week my department off.... tt mean from christmas till new year i will be very free..... haha.... but i got no income tt week coz i didnt work.... haiz... n ya... i wont be online so frequently but weekends i will definitely online... nowadaes i slp very early as i need to wake up very early.... my cousin told mi she miss my grandma.... i also miss her very much.... told her don think too much coz she had pass away... juz put her in my heart will do....




ya shall talk abt friendship todae..... coz got tok wit kat a bit.... i have got lots of friends... but i am glad tt i got a few nery gd buddies n best friends who accompany mi through my bad times in my life n share my happi times wit mi.... they r ade crystal kat n fiona... realli thxs a lot to them i don noe how to sae it out but they understand how much i appreciate for wat they did...then got a few gd friends... they r alex rayner fabian jerome candy jolyn shuting... then the rest r ok type....




then a bit abt relationship....
love required both parties to give n take.... no pt onli one party give.... n if u the one party who give... don expect the other party for anything...

my birthdae

todae is my 18th birthdae.... i don feel happi at all... until the moment i were wit ade n crystal..... ade always make mi smile n laugh.... don noe y... celebrate wit ade n crystal tonite.... we went to eat.... ade n crystal spend a lot... then now ade broke le... we went bugis to eat steamboat n it was exp... n ya crystal brought mi a necklace... then i bought a jacket coz my work place is very cold.... n poor thing lol... i got work todae n it is my birthdae... the first person who send mi wishes is kat.... thx kat yan ling lai candy angeline eugene toh may shirley crystal wei woon mei fang (my work place de) hui qing ade yin yin fiona n my colleagues.... thx for ur wishes... thx for ur sms or testi or wish mi personally... realli thx...then still got 2 person from friendster wish mi but i don noe them... anyways thx to them too... i realli appreciate... still waiting for tt special person to wish mi... till now he didnt.... i guess he don remember ba.... yar todae my colleague mei fang treat mi kfc coz is my birthdae... coz i didnt went out for lunch so call her to buy for mi... so i spend the 1 hr slp in the office... thx...


mi n crystal.... best friends for 4 yrs.....

mi n ade.... best friend for 5 yrs....

mi n ade... this one crystal took it wit out ade realising it...

this was yest celebration wit my family.... i celebrate wit them last nite...... didnt realli feel so happy... don ask mi y i don noe...

angel n mi

jolin mi n angel

my cake

first birthdae present

this is the first present i receive for my birthdae.... it is from my little cousin... she made it for mi.... i am so touched as i didnt expected it.... i like it alot.... she draw the card all by herself....

isnt she cute....

havent been blogging for some time... mon was my last ppr.... after my last ppr.... so went home n rest for a while.... then went to have my 2 interviews before meeting ade.... then on the way crystal call n join us... then i went for the job interview n i got one of the jobs immediately.... n ya sorry to ade for waiting for mi for more then 3 hrs... i am realli sorry... n crystal also wait for mi for sometime too... sorry... then went to meet them at chinatown so we decided to eat there.... after eating we went home... 3 of us were tired... then discuss abt my birthdae plan.. this one shall not sae... then tues morning while i was slp fiona sms mi to go out... so we meet up n went vivo city... it is very big n gots lots of things to shop... then saw mdm tan there n chat wit her for a while... then fiona cousins meet up wit us as they were there so we went for dinner tog... dinner was at pepper lunch at taka coz fiona wan to try how is the food like as she works there.... she havent eat before at her workplace... then wake up early n went to work.... then i realise tt it is not the job tt i wan... it is outdoor sales so i quit immediately n rush for another interview.... actually plan to give up tt job but in the end i still go for it... coz i am havent got a job so went to try my luck lor.... then thurs morning a guy call mi n ask mi to go for a job interview... so i went n got the job immediately.... i was wondering who is tt guy... so i call up n ask... so it was marcus friend.... funny lol... went for the job interview without knowing who recommend mi.... n i onli realised after my interview... then todae went bugis to settle some stuff.... after settling my stuff ... i went to suntec to see my friends... then chat a bit wit them.... n my 2 boss had gone separate ways le... they each set up their own shop... n ya i saw tt cute guy again... he is working todae... actually was trying my luck.... coz havent gone there to see them for a long time... then i feel tired so i went home.... n ya mon 26/11 i am starting work.... i am working as a admin assist in one of the shipping factories... i am feeling so tired... havent been able to get enough slp.... gg to slp soon.... next week is my birthdae... still planning how to celebrate.... haha... gg to turn 18 soon.... had been feeling very down recently....but now i am ok le... i had see n take things stridly le... noe when it is time to let go muz let go... no pt forcing... it will make all of us miserable n suffer tog... don worry abt mi anymore... i noe how to take care of myself le... n i will... thx ade crystal kat fiona candy marcus n a few more for ur concern... i am fine... thx for all ur support especially kat ade crystal fiona n candy.... thx ade n crystal n fiona for accompanying mi... thxs... i realli appreciate.... tt all ba....

my hearts scatter... my heart breaks... i lose hopes... i don noe wat is hope... my life now onli have emptiness now.... sad........... depress........

i am feeling down again.... i feel like giving everything up.... i don wan anything.... ithere r so many times i wan to give up everything n juz disappear n all of u cant find mi.... i have many unhappy memories then happy... tt y i don even when was th last time i was happi... it been a long time since i felt happi.... i wan to give up coz i already lost all the hope in my life.... there r so many time i ask myself wat i realli wan... y i live for... my ans is i don noe wat to do... realli don noe....