finally most of the things r settled... todae overslept.. due to the gd nite sleep last nite..... i think i saw u juz now on the train.... but i am not sure either... but my sense tell mi is u... u avoid mi when u see mi... todae went to ey... then after tt went out wit kat to town.... havent seen her for a long time... glad to see her as we catch up a lot.... it was fun wit her... then after tt went to meet candy for coffee... we ate n chat a lot.... havent seen her for quite sometime as she is bz wit her work... i bought 2 bags on fri n 2 clips todae...

this is gg to be a emo post

recently too much things had happen... i thought i will be strong but in the end i think of u... in my mind there r lots of fond memories but it is all in the past... shall be keep inside my heart.... time to put u behind as i had started my new life... i noe my life is a bit empty coz i havent found tt special person.... but i believe i will find it somedae.... it will appear..

stupid

i am stupid.... realli stupid... go n tell someone bf abt her..... u lied to mi so tt u can get information of her.... i treat u as my close friend n yet u do this to mi.... u sae if u dun lied how will i sae... but in the first place u shld tell mi... if not i will feel like u treat mi like an idiot... u make mi feel like an idiot... i dun noe wat to sae... i can onli blame myself... i dun noe how to trust u anymore... once u broke it... it is hard for mi to trust u again.... i feellike an idiot... darm stupid... forget it... i dun wish to sae le... i also dun noe wat to sae.....



u noe one thing i hate liars... tt y i flar up when i found the truth.... if u dun lied i wont be so angry... i will still tell u.... but when u lied... u broke the trust.... i already got things tt piss mi le... u juz add on...

SERIOUSLY I HAD ENOUGH OF U... WTF... I HAD ALREADY RETURN HIM BACK TO U LE... WAT MORE U WAN... R U CRAZY OR MAD... KEEP ON DISTURBING MY LIFE... UR CRAZY ACTS JUZ CONTINUE EVEN THROUGH I HECK CARE.... WAT IS IN UR MIND... DUN THINK THE THINGS U DONE U CAN JUZ JOLLY WELL ACT BLUR N GET OVER WIT IT... DUN MAKE MI EXPOSE U.... BITCH.... I REALLI HAD ENOUGH... PLZ STOP DISTURBING MI.... DUN FORCE MI TO PAY U BACK....

juz now went to celebrate marie birthdae... it was quite fun.... havent see them for so long... nice to see them as they make mi laugh... havent been gg to work for a few daes... haha... due to some reasons.... jane muz jia you... gambatte.....

yup... shall upload a bit.... haiz... i fail one of my modcule... have to retake... but nvr... work hard for it... as for yest i went to watch step up two wit my friends elaine liyan yuan min chris yong seng clara sharon sok kin wan teng zhiming fred kenneth n augstine.... before tt we went to eat ichiban sushi.... n our dm zhiming help us pay 100bucks.... it was so gd for him.... he noe wat we r thinking... thx zhiming a lot.... it was realli fun hanging out wit them.... so much fun n laughter..... shld upload some of the pic..... i also miss a lot of my friends..... i wan to meet u all.... too much le cannot name it out.... i am putting on braces next wed.... but now i had already put on the back of my teeth.... i cant eat but i can drink... so let us meet up for a drink ok.....



mi not smiling coz of the braces on the back of my teeth... pain....
mi n yan after eating....

I HATE YOU PPL.... MONEY MINDED.....

sorry tt i am gg to vent out here.... i realli hate those ppl who see money until eyes drop.... dun try to cheat or lied.... i am not gg to take it.... mind ur own business..... this is not the first time ok... i have had enough.... if u like money so much go n earn it urself..... y ask for ppl.... y take ppl as ur atm.... y break ppl bond... u realli have nth to do meh.... sae u have no money..... if u have no money ur daughter can buy a 500 plus handphone a 500 digital camera can go for oversea trip.... come on dun lied.... i tell u wat u do u will get ur retribution.... i hope it comes faster.... plz la... if u have the time go n do the things u shld do instead of kpo into other ppl business.... n plz stop eyeing on ppl money.... i am not like u eyeing for ppl money n accuse others.... n sae wat.... my parents r earning money y muz i work.... i cannot go out earn more experience..... i wan to put braces then u sae dun need one.... if it is ur daughter u will definitely come up wit the money one.... my parents pamper mi cannot.... at least i am better.... i go n earn money to pay for my bills.... not like urs stay at home n ask for money.... wan branded stuff when cant afford.... at least i got my limits.... it is my business not ur..... dun poke into other ppl affair...... to mi u r juz a f*** bitch..... U DUN DESERVE MY RESPECT AT ALL.... JUZ MIND UR OWN BUSINESS.... those who noe mi well noe wat happen....

have been pretty bz working... but not realli working.... life is pretty fun... got to noe a lot of friends... got some close friends like fred chris n david.... chat a lot... haha... it was quite fun.... but anyway.... tt all... i also wan to meet up wit my friends....

exam over

finally exams r over liao..... yea.... so happi.... yest went out wit my classmate for a while... it was quite fun... a lot of laughter n jokes.... hope to see them during the holi.... take care everyone....

this week is tests.... i nearly forgot the test on wed until fred remind mi something then i realise.... but heng still got go... last ppr on mon n it is offically over.... this week a lot of things happen also.... quarrel wit parents.... but it is all over... there r still some issues not settle... slaloy ba..... n i have found a new job... i love this job.... there r a lot of nice ppl i meet n noe.... i enjoy it a lot.... i am happi now..... then had a chat wit jie wei some time ago.... thx for consoling n chat wit mi... then these few daes keep chatting wit fred... almost every nite i guess... he is a gd n patient listener.... thx for listening to mi.... i realli appreciate... todae u r not feeling well... hope tt u will recover soon... take care....

now i am a better n happier person.... coz everydae laugh n laugh.... there r so much fun n laughter everydae from my surrounding.... i realli enjoy sch nowadaes..... be it my friens or classmate.... i realli enjoy the time spend wit them..... they sure cheer up my dae n make my dae better.... the smile is coming back le.... the crazy mi also.... i am enjoying my life now....


for u i dun care whether now u r happi or not... coz it is none of my business anymore.... anyway... i wont care or bother.... we r juz strangers.... i juz wan to tell u one things... i am happi n i am enjoying my life.... i will find a better one then u... n i believe i will....

todae went to neo hse for new year... wit liyan candy n kimbert.... it was quite fun..... then after tt liane jearlene carman angel junhao xinrong wenbin went there shortly after we reach.... neo order pizza for us....then after a while we left.... on the way home we took some pic....

then yest went to job interview.... it was not bad.... noe quite a few ppl.... some from my school... ok la....

then on the valentine day... i spend it wit my classmates they r janice marie pearlene eddy jj anthony dee hoi fai nya oo n teck soon( if i not wrong) jj friend.... janice bought each of us a packet of chocalate then marie give us a small hanphone accessories... we went to watch cj7 then after tt went to play pool n i headed home first coz i need to go dentist....




yan mi n candy

mi n candy

yan n mi

marie small gift....

janice chocolate

i am so tired... i feel like giving up everything.... i am realli tired of my life... i am tired of hanging on... realli tired.... i dun wan to hang on anymore... realli dun wan... everywhere is having problems.... is there anywhere tt belong to mi.... is there anyone tt i can realli rely on... i am losing hope each dae.... realli losing.... does the world happiness belong to mi... i wonder... realli....

fri went to work then went for training... sat n sun stay at home n do my stuff... then mon went to work at woodlands but nvr work in the end... it was like hell meh... it been a long time since i last do sales.... but still ok la... then todae went to meet him at yishun mrt to get back my things.... erm... as yest he call mi to confirm the time n place for meeting him... then we agree to meet at 11.30am but at ard 10.30am he call whether i can meet early at 11am or not... he call n he noe i was sleeping at tt time... sry i am realli tired n finally i had some rest so dun wan to meet u early.... then before i reach candy already reach there... n y candy was there is coz she help mi out wit my new year stuff tt y meet at the same place... i dun noe wat happen between them... but from wat candy sae she shoot him until he black face... i am sorry for wat had happen.... i feel so sorry... i feel so heartpain for u... seeing u so exhausted n tired.... plz take gd care of urself when i am not there for u anymore ok... i noe there is no one to nag at u or no one there to be angry wit u when u overwork or over tired... but as ur friend i still care for u... we r still friends... if there is any problem or someone u need to talk can find mi... plz dun think tt i will laugh at u or wat... i am sincerely caring for u... i will be there for u as i promised like u promised u will be there for mi... u r still the most special n impt person in my heart even though we r no longer... we r juz not suitable... friends maybe better for us.... i noe there r a lot of things u kept in ur heart i can sense tt... if can i am willing to lend u my ear to listening... i wonder how u spend ur birthdae this year... does it go as wat u wish... i did bought a birthdae present for u but i throw it away coz of some reason... r u realli xin fu.... i hope u r... i choose to left coz i wan u to be xin fu... tt all ba... tml is gg to be new year eve.... gg back sec sch to visit teacher...

nth much pretty... test on wed n todae we had our presentation.... met tracy yest after my test n we went to shop... we bought a pair of heels each.... shld post pic instead of words as tracy sae they r no pic... this r the pic tt i wore todae for my presentation..... the rest r taken sometime ago....

nth much ba.... wed went for movie wit kim kai... we went to watch body 19 as he has 2 free tickets n i happen to be free... then watch together.... thurs had autocat test n i didnt do well for my section side as i cant do.... so i focus on other parst... then meet alexa at nite to study... ya i did manage to study.... then todae went for training then after tt eat wit shenwu kimkai yue hua n the other guy dun noe wat name.... then after tt long bang shen wu car home as he near at admiratly.... quite near to yishun.... training was tough but gd... i manage to learn a lot this week...




a lot of things happens... n i am not sure of wat is gg on at times.... i think i screw up my life again... it is in a mess.... there r so many problems everywhere to be solved... n i juz ignoring it... coz i dun noe how to solve.... or i am tired of everything liao..... i dun noe either.....

went to find ade on fri.... then saw him but i feel very calm n no feeling..... we act like strangers... since this is the case n decision u made.... i respect u.... so we will be strangers in future.... then sat n sun slack at home.... nth much.... todae went to meet weiboon ade friend... he teach mi la... thx a lot... he also treat mi dinner so i treat him drink back... then we chat until 8 n went home.... nice chatting wit him... he is a nice guy... he listen to my grumble... haha... but i bad la keep grumbling... he is patient.... thx a lot my friend...


my life had been pretty gd i guess.... without u i feel more relax.... i feel more happier.... i love my life now... studying working family n friends..... n i need to thx my classmates for the help n support they given during tt period of time.... especially marie janice pearlene eddy darren dee... thx for staying by my side.... thx... n not forgetting my family besties n buddies n friends n bosses.... i have get over le... n starting my new life now... i am leading a brand new life... i love my life.... thx for making my life complete.... i loved all of u....

i wont turn back

i wont turn back anymore.... i had enough of ur lies... u tell mi the lies n then a few daes ltr it is being exposed.... wat the hell r u playing... u wan to play plz leave mi out of it... plz.. it is not fun at all... i realli had enough of it... i wont tolerate anymore... coz i wont believe u anymore... now u realli piss mi off... i am not tired of all this n i had given up... totally given up n disappointed... tt is all wat i can sae now...

I AM SORRY

i am realli sorry for not doing my part well... i am realli sorry... i noe u all might be angry or disappoint wit mi... n i am realli sry... i realli dun noe wat to sae expect apologise... realli sry guys to make u all disappointed again....

some songs tt describe how i feel....

here r some songs tt describe how i feel...

Cry on my shoulder

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do




平常心

街道静的刺耳
夜被路灯染色
趁感伤醒来前
先上车不会不舍
承认我是弱者
不敢再对爱假设
我真的累得不想再拉扯

我寻找的平静
是我将来看电影
带着一颗平常心
不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛
我需要的平静
是敢回头看曾经
那些为爱患得患失的情景
我选择忘记

我不懂得取舍
才让心痛堆着
找得到前些年
的快乐只是偶尔
回忆是个诱饵
是来叫我回去的
要伤能愈合
我非走不可




我不想忘记你 by Claire

我在向前走 却像在退后
我在用想念 狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会追梦
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄
我努力想起你 笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你 再学会放弃
我不想忘记你 就算可以 我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你 哭也没关系
用祝福和感激 勇敢失去你
爱你 这个决定
虽然艰辛 我不说 对不起
一个人不懂 什么是拥有
俩个人不懂 怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会追梦
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄
我努力想起你 笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你 再学会放弃
我不想忘记你 就算可以 我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你 哭也没关系
用祝福和感激 勇敢失去你
爱你 这个决定
虽然艰辛 我不说 对不起



没有你的每一天

回家的路总是很远 花哨的恨可怜
一个人的晚餐 都是孤单的滋味

看见身边重复上演 属于我们的画面
选择逃避的眼 怎么还是会流泪

爱着你的每一天 你就是我的世界
那时候还以为 我 就爱这一遍
没有你的每一天 快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了 还能用什么感觉

我舍不得睁开眼睛 害怕身边没有你
也许在梦境里 是我们最近的距离

想念你温热的手心 冷风里把我握紧
当冬天又来临 这温度该怎么延续

谢谢你曾经爱过我 给我最美的经过
但生命最爱被剥夺 未来的路该怎么走

爱着你的每一天 你就是我的世界
那时候还以为 我 就爱这一遍
没有你的每一天 快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了 还能用什么感觉





never let you go

The rain just never seems to bring the joy I feel the same
Everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart can't seem to learn to part
The hold you left your mark
All that I dreamed of now it seem so stark

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath
A part of me was dyin
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
And you know I'd never let you go

The way you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything of that day
I can't believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance
To share the sunset
Our one last romance

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath
A part of me was dying
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
And you know I'd never let you go

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
And you know I'd never let you go




分開以後

想喊你　卻沒敢開口
最後只有　留著淚看你走
我想問我　是否只願意就這樣放手
既然無法挽留　只好接受

從今以後　你要寂寞多久
誰能給予你　我這般的溫柔
也許是多慮了　你離開我會過得更快樂
可對於軟弱的我　回憶就足夠

分開以後　每當想到你　就會低下頭
緊握的手　不知過了多久
我相信你　也會有一樣的辛酸難受
都曾經深愛過誰　有誰能捨得

在離開你之後　想快樂也只是一種強求
一個人　怎麼過都是愁
懂得擁有　卻未必能讓你為我停留
最後只剩遺憾　拉住我不放手

OH~~~~YA~~~~~

分開以後　每當想到你　就會低下頭
緊握的手　不知過了多久
我相信你　也會有一樣的辛酸難受
都曾經深愛過誰　有真的捨得

在離開你之後　想快樂也只是一種強求
一個人　怎麼過都是愁
懂得擁有　卻未必能讓你為我停留
最後只剩遺憾　拉住我不放手




最愛還是你

没开口的话 怎样才能懂
我好想把画面倒带回头
你留在我心里 熟悉的表情
每个温暖纯白的回忆 穿越了距离
拥挤的人潮 没有人知道
我偷偷想你 嘴角就会笑
不要说对不起 也不要问原因
就让世界不停的向前 别忘记从前
最爱还是你 这是我的决定(没有人能代替)
像宇宙相对的星 互相吸引 慢慢就会靠近
还是要爱你 时间会证明 我爱你的勇气(没有人能代替)
牵著你的手 才知道是永久
拥挤的人潮 没有人知道
我偷偷想你 嘴角就会笑
不要说对不起 也不要问原因
就让世界不停的向前 别忘记从前

最爱还是你 这是我的决定(没有人能代替)
像宇宙相对的星 互相吸引 慢慢就会靠近
还是要爱你 时间会证明 我爱你的勇气(没有人能代替)
牵著你的手 才知道是永久

这一次我放弃了所有 只为能再与你相遇
最爱还是你 这是我的决定(没有人能代替)
像宇宙相对的星 互相吸引 慢慢就会靠近
还是要爱你 时间会证明 我爱你的勇气(没有人能代替)
牵著你的手 才知道是永久 一辈子不放手

at last i have done finish my report.... but my report sucks.... words getting lesser n lesser... dun even noe wat i am doing... hope tt i can pass this modcule... i fail 4 modcule for my common test... i onli pass materials tec n got a C... then autocat maufacturing tech engineering mechanics n math i got a fail.... haiz... sob sob... muz buck up le... then left wit the presentation n lab report for my sem project...


last wed went shopping wit shirley n i realli shop... i bought a lot of clothes home... spend ard 100 plus... i still havent found my desire heels yet so i shall go n slowly find.... i admit i am very fussy when i come to selection of heels.... then mon went to meet lai wit tracey.... chat wit her for some time... erm... shall not sae wat it is about... yest i skip the first lesson coz of my giddyness.... then yest spend the whole nite finish my report... n i finish in the morning 5.30am then went to spend for 2 hrs n late for sch todae... todae plan to work but i am extremely tired then fell asleep....




i dun noe whether u will be reading this blog or not coz i changed my blog link again.... actually i dun wan u to read but now to mi it does not matter anymore.... then sun nite u call mi n we chatted for a while.... U TOLD MI THAT U WAN MI TO BELIEVE THAT U N HER R NOT TOGETHER BUT THE WAY U DO THINGS IS SO DIFFERENT FROM THE WAY U SAE.... 你说的和你做不一样... then how u wan mi to believe u... i realli dun noe... not tt i dun wan to trust u but u DISAPPOINTED mi again n again... so how u wan mi to believe u.... if u wan mi to believe u then prove it to mi through ur action.... action speak louder then words....


i juz wan to tell u something... my health is not getting better in fact it is gettting worse so i hope tt u dun come n affect mi anymore... i realli dun wan to be affected by u anymore.... coz of u my giddyness got worse.... coz of u my chest pain got worse.... coz of u my health condition worsen instead of becoming better..... if u realli wan to be friend... then be friends onli no need to explain to mi so much n care whether i have bf or not... whether i am attached or not... u jolly well noe the reason y.... friends is friends plz dun go over tt line... my health suffer a lot n became worsen during tt period of time when we went into cooling period n the broke up period.... watever u sae r juz empty promises.... u have hurt mi deep enough so plz stop it.... plz dun hurt mi anymore... u can ask candy or fiona abt my health condition if u dun believe.... they r the ones who realli noe how worse my health condition is.... till now it is still the same so plz dun worsen my condition anymore.... if not i will end up in hospital sooner or later...


i noe my health is gg worse n worse each dae coz i nvr take gd care of myself.... i nvr rest properly eat properly.... i wan to rest but i cant coz of the workload.... yest morning i skip sch is coz of my giddyness.... i nearly faint when i woke up n started to walk.... my pain n giddyness is back everydae n almost everydae will happen once... at least once... i hope tt my health can be better instead of worse....




i wan to thanks kim kai for listening to my problems... i realli thanks him a lot even though we dun noe each other very long... he is willing to lend mi his ears to listen... sorry to make u listen to my grumble n all this... but i realli appreaciate tt u r willing to listen to mi.... i am realli grateful to u.... n thanks u for being my friend..... i hope tt our friendship will lasts....