emotional

a lot of thoughts have been passing through my mind... is it tt i am too sensitive or wat... i dun noe.... trying my best not to think too much.... think too much will make mi sleepless again... fear started to comemake m again... then i am sad n emo.... maybe i realli dun have tt much of confident in myself... isnt it the case.....

finally done wit the stupid project.... left one to be done next week... anyway i figure out le... hehe... it is not tt hard... thx to jj n marie help if not i am still stuck...

morning out to do project... manage to finish all except for the html part.... after tt headed hm n change... went to meet bf hehe... slack wit him... todae he nvr send mi hm coz he is tired as he slept quite late last nite n woke up early n he is very cute coz he sae he cannot send mi back so he insisted mi taking cab hm n gave mi cab fare.... he is sweet..... love him lots.... then now finish the project le... going to slp le.... tired....

morning went to collect my stuff... and slp for a while before gg out to meet friends... meet alex loke as he teach mi some stuff then candy for a chat coz havent see her for a long time....

in life we will meet all kinds of ppl... some is the type over time still the same i guess.... juz saw a comment.... abt mi.... sae tt i put on braces is copying them.... in life who dun wan to be pretty.... so i copy from a lot of ppl coz i put braces.... isnt it this way....

finally my dear is back on tues nite..... nth much happen these week.... it is all abt sch coz i was rushing project.... it is either sch or hm... as i nvr went out... wed stay back to do project.... tired is wat i can sae.... anyway my dear is so gd.... he went to my sch juz to fetch mi n send mi hm todae.... these few daes without him i realli miss him a lot.... then he pass mi the bag that he bought from his trip..... then when i open the bag inside there is a tortoise.... it surprise mi.... thx a lot dear... i love the present.... afterall it is thoughts tt count....

the present from my dear....

photo of tracy birthdae.....

HAPPI BIRTHDAE AH MA....

yest my family celebrate my ah birthdae.... nothing much.. as usual gathering....
then eat onli... ah ma dun wan cake so no birthdae cake... juz a buffet wit some of my dad friends....

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING TRACY

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING TRACY... juz came back from her birthdae celebration not long ago.... so HAPPI FOR HER... it was not bad... quite fun.... she is a gd host.... she talk to everyone who came to her birthdae celebrations... she is also very SEXY N PRETTY.... had fun also... took some pic wit her.... shall upload when i got the photos...

thx alex for helping mi in the make up n hair... it realli look great n i like it... thx for being my best friend also.... hehe... thx a lot man....

i am stress n unhappi...

i am stress n unhappi... projects due in 2 weeks time one havent start the other one half done... then common test on the following week... after tt is sem exam again... nth much happen these few daes... is sch or tuition or hm.... tired... then bf fly to hongkong todae.... miss him badly.... coz nvr seen him for a week le.. can onli meet him next week after his trip... nvr shall endure since it is onli 5 daes... he will be back on tues.... n i am having a bz weekend n weekdaes... had a chat wit my students parents... talk abt them... they seems to change especially the sister... she is no longer cheerful n happi as she used to be.... now she is tired n stress..... dun noe wat cause her to be like this.... hope tt she can be better.... as for the younger one too... hope they can be better... coz they r so young... they shld be cheerful n happi but not tired n stress..... i will do my best to change them back to their ownself back..... i wan to see them happi n cheerful..... jia you jia you.... so many things need to be done....

nth much during the daes... yest went to help tracy relieve n headed hm after tt... then todae went facial wit tracy.... it is so pain when they r poking the pimple n balck heads out using the needle... i totally forget abt the feeling.... although it is pain but worth it... at least our face look better after the facial... bought a tube dress cum cardigan... nth much... another week is coming... counting down to exam n project due time...

i love my class... they simply rocks... juz sit there n listen to the jokes is enough for the dae.... todae laugh n laugh like siao again... but it is so great to laugh everydae isnt it... i love them as they nvr fail to brighten up my dae n i am always a happi gal too... nth much happen this week other then mon meet boyfriend n wed meet liyan to chat for a while.... other then tt is hm....
pic from thurs to fri...
anthony pic taken by jj during todae e learning... hehe...
eddy n janice... taken by dee on thurs...

lastly mi... taken by dee also... both pic taken outside the lab while we r waiting for our lec..

results

my results r out.... died meh... pass 3 fail 3... half half....

Cost Accounting- B
Qc Fail...
Engineering Mechanics- F
Engineering Math- D
Mechanical Design- D
Robotic- F

i need to study n buck up le... haiz.... realli need.... jia you jane.... muz start studying liao... dun play so much anymore... muz sit down n revise.... dun slack nor didnt study le.... jia you jia you...

my results sucks...

omg... all my results for common test r out except cost accounting.... my results sucks... almost faint coz those i study one fail n those i nvr study one pass.... funny.... think something is wrong wit my brain... hehe... boyfriend is gg to hongkong next thurs n will be back on the following week tues... my schedule is pack until next weekend... haiz... BUSY N BUSY.... PROJECT N PROJECT..... gg to die sooner.... thx boyfriend for listening to my grumble... :)

i am happi

i am so happi... realli happi n feeling very blessed... i finally have the feeling of being love... my dear show it to mi... no matter how bz he wont neglected or forgot mi totally... hehe... went out wit dear on mon after class... went for shopping n he sent mi hm shortly after tt coz he sae i look tired... he is a nice guy... hehe... thx dear for being there for mi all these well... from friends to lover... u tolerated all my unreasonable n bad temper... listen to mi.... being there for mi.... when i am feeling very down u r there for mi... realli thx... gt to slp le... shall update more soon... hehe...

this week nth much happen... is either sch or hm... yest went to buy phone onli... then todae meet up wit meifang.... went bugis n then shaw tower for dinner... the food is nice n the environment is gd too... i love the environment there... shall go there soon... then went to marina n suntec to search for phone wit meifang... end up all the phone out of stock so meifang plan to get it another dae.. headed hm after tt as both of us r tired... i juz love the feeling of being wit my buddies... it is great to catch up n meet... love her lots....

happi

i am so happi... coz i buy a new phone... my phone spoil...

relieved...

i feel so relieved after i ended this r/s....

done wit cost accounting

finally finish my cost accounting report... haha... at last... gg to slp le... thx god... left wit sem project to do finish onli.... off to slp le...i am tired...

i have hurt him

i noe i have hurt a guy who loves mi a lot n deeply again... i also feel very painful to come up wit this decision... i noe u dun wan to break so i suggest we go into a cooling period.... coz i realli dun noe at to do...i have a lot of doubts in myself... i ws realli touched when u told mi u no matter wat decision i made i muz be happier can le... i guess let us give each other some period to cool down ba... then at the same time give each other time to think abt this relationship.... both of us r having a hard time now... i noe u need my support... but i do need support n it doesnt came out from u... it came out from my friends instead.. i realli dun noe... let us think wat shld we do next ba...

erm... i have decided to end this relationship.... coz wat is the point of having a bf like dun have... i dun like the feeling of being neglected totally.... sometime he dun even sms mi... i believe no matter how bz a person is he still have time for a simple sms.... tt is how i feel... i guess we r not suitable ba... maybe he deserve a better gal i guess.... dun noe.... tired of all the guessing games of all the ignoring...

nth much happen this week as i stay at home most of the time slacking except from thurs onwards.... todae meet anthony n do our cost accounting project then after tt went for my neighbour wedding dinner.... sian tml start sch le.... tired.....

mi at the toilet of the restuarant...
the drinks....