my mind is in a mess

i am realli full of doubts.... i dun understand how u thinks abt us.... i may noe u well for others but as for our relationship i dun noe... i realli dun noe.... y is it so complicated for u n mi.... i had been trying to solve but it seems so hard..... it is so complicated.... i am tired n i had enough le.... i dun wan to care le.... u disappointed mi again n again.... i realli have no confidence in us.... be it relationship or friendship... i am realli to my max le... we have been trapped in this stupid complicated relationship for 2 yrs plus.... n fate had been playing on us.... always let us walked past each other..... i dun wan to care le coz i am tired of waiting.... waiting for so long make mi feel so exhausted.... 2 yrs plus cannot sae too long or short.... but i have been waiting.... now i dun wan to put u in my mind le.... i dun wan my emotions to be affected by u.... i am gg to put u deep in my heart n nvr be brought up again... it is gg to be buried deep inside n will not be open again....