i cant slp tonite again.... my mind is full of him again.... keeping having him on my mnd especially when i am alone.... i will start thinking abt him... i realli need to sort out or else i wont be able to concertrate fully on my studies.... think i will sort out soon ba.... yest slp at 6 in the morning woke up at 7 n went back slp woke uo again in 11 plus then went back slp till 1 plus then wake up... till now still not slp coz i cant slp.... suppose to study at this time but cant concetrate.... but got do a bit of study... starting to chiong for my studies le..... gg to mug for a while more then go to slp......




so fast it been a year since my grandma pass away.... time realli flies.... still can remember how my grandma use to dote mi.... she realli dote mi a lot.... she also like to call mi baby baby... i also don noe y..... she save some gd food or the food i like for mi n ask my mum to bing home for mi whenever my mum visit her...... but i fail to visit her regulary.... i am a real failure.... i realli regret a lot for not spending more time wit her but now wat is the use of regretting when she is gone..... she died of cancer.... after fighting it for abt 1 yr or more..... till now i didnt forgot tt few time tt my grandma nearly didnt make it... but she is strong... n somemore she is from china..... but i had nvr seen my china relatives before..... i heard tt my grandma n grandpa came all the way from china n settle down here.... got heard a bit of stories from my mum abt my grandparents.... ALTHOUGH THE PAIN OF LOSING THE LOVE ONE WILL SLOWLY GET OVER BUT THE PAIN IS NVR TO BE FORGOTTEN... it is like a hole in my heart tt will nvr be mend.... i do agree to wat alex sae live life to the fullest coz u will nvr noe when u will die..... by the way MY GRANDMA IS THE BEST N STRONG ONE TT I HAD EVER SEEN.... I MISSED U GRANDMA.... I REALLI MISS U A LOT....