here r the photo tt r taken during the k box outing to celebrate meifang last dae... finally get le... upload le...


mi n brian

sunny n henry

sunny n meifang

sunny n mi

sunny slp

retake again

sunny stoping sharon

sharon bashing sunny

sharon n mi

sharon n brian

meifang hubby meifang regina doreen

mi n henry

mi n helen

mi n meifang

mi n doreen

henry n helen

grp photo

meifang n sunny

meifang n regina

meifang n henry

doreen n regina

cheers

brian n sunny

brian n meifang

last sat was not a very gd dae for mi... wake up in the afternoon to wait for the singnet person to check my network... then after tt went to collect stuff from the ppl i need to.... then went home after tt... got a scolding for nth... coz the person juz wan to vent out anger so i am tt unlucky person la... then got piss off... coz i had a tired dae... travel from yishun all the way to bedok then to boon lay then to take then back to yishun... was so tired as i lack of slp due to fri nite...





then yest went gym wit candy sawmy pri sch friend... in the same poli now as mi... bung into him some time but nvr talk to him until yest... funny lol... yest was not bad... spend the whole dae slacking....




then todae sucks meh... the first ppr i don noe how to do... is lab test for analogues... i saw the ppr already stun... coz i realli don understand la... but i will try my best to do these module coz i don wan to repeat.... so now onwards muz jia you... then todae make up lesson change to lab test... got shock... after the analogues i already a bit depress but i shall not let it affect mi... then do correctly... but the lec mistook mi for another person wit mistake cause mi to nervous... then in the end the last part of the qns all wrong... haiz.... feeling so depress n sad todae... thx sunny for his encouraging last nite n todae... then after the first test message brian n talk to him... then after tt talk to him again... thx for his console... thx for lending mi ur listening ears.... i feel better after talking to u... tt all ba...

HAPPY BIRTHDAE

HAPPI 18TH BIRTHDAE TO PEARLENE....
HAPPI 20TH BIRTHDAE TO WAN TING....
WISH THEM ALL THEIR WISHES COME TRUE N EXCEL IN THEIR STUDIES....

juz reach home not long ago... was out singing wit my ex-colleagues to celebrate mei fang last dae... todae got meifang, her hubby, sharon, helen, henry, regina, doreen, sunny, brian n lastly mi.... was so high... everyone had a lot of fun..... it is long time since all of us meet.... took lots of photos..... all wit mei fang... shld be uploading soon as long as i receive... haha.... gg to slp le... i am tired....

this is gg to be an emo post... have been feeling very emo these few daes... have been thinking a lot... things do change over time.. this one i agree... a lot of things have change... once things have change it is not gg to be able to change back to wat it is.... even it is able the feeling is so different.. then i hope tt i will be able to adjuz... even how flexible a person is... so many changes how can it be accept... but muz still learn... tt is life...




gg to meet them on fri again for k box... this fri is meifang last dae... celebrating for her... so happy for her... then it is gg to be fun again... yea... i miss them... realli... this time got a lot if ppl go... haha... counting down to fri...

now having my computer programming lesson... but here updating my blog... dont noe how to do... don realli understand... it shows tt my foundation is not strong... still very shaky.... muz brush up arh.... exams coming soon then everything still don understand... like half pail water... haiz... muz chiong le la.... if not like this wont make it.. ah lol... haizzzzzzzzzzz.............

toda was great

juz reach home not long ago... was out wit my ex-colleagues sharon meifang n regina... then they bring along 2 new friends to mi... sunny n brian.... sunny is the new guy in IT dep... then brian is also in IT too... joke a lot wit them... was so happi la even though all were not present as we had a lot of fun todae... meet them up for dinner and then went to the cafe call AI QING HAI at marina square there..... go there listen to songs... was quite a nice place la... ermmm... then also took pic wit them... ya forgot to took wit meifang... haiz... then shld see them again next week at ktv to celebrate meifang last dae... cya...

sharon n mi

brian n mi

regina n mi

sunny n mi

these few daes have been thinking a lot... got a lot of things on my mind.. i still thinking n sorting... i havent got all the solutions also... i guess as time pass i will get it ba... these few daes didnt manage to slp also... an average of 2 hrs to 4 hrs per dae.. like this how to survive... haiz... i amso tired...

then saw this photo taken before harry foo tut... eddy the joker....

the other one during lec hall...

todae i got emo again... i noe wat happen this time... is coz of him.... i noe i love him n i shldnt... i noe i love him n it is not easy to give him up but i believe i will do it... i noe i gone step wrong le n i shldnt go anymore.... no matter how hard i will give him up... noe it is impossible for us...






todae got math test n it is onli 2 qns...i didnt study... don realli understand... but i noe how to do... the 2nd qns saw wrongly.. shld be 3 dp but i give 3 sg... coz spend too much time thinking... next time muz faster up the time....







我开始失去自己, 失去我人生的方向.... 我不知道该怎么办.. 心里很乱... 我也不知道为什么会变成着样子.... 我感到很害怕.... 我已经开始不了解自己.... 不懂得自己... 我也不知道我要什么...

janice birthdae celebration

fri we went to celebrate janice birthdae wit her... we went to eat seoul garden and then went to play pool... it was quite fun.... then i was late when i go n do my laptop so eddy they all eat first... so gd tt they bbq the food for mi.. thx... then take a lot of pic n a video.... then went to play pool.... forgot how to play liao... coz long time nvr touch le... then zul n justin teach mi a bit la... but dee is the best... he guide n teach mi patiently... thxs... then we enjoy a lot.. after tt went cini for a while n we went home... pearlene hui qi n joseph u miss out the fun again... ya we bought her an addiass jacket... tt all... here r the pic she took...









janice n mi

yingying n janice

birthdae gal n marie

marie n janice again...

ken n janice

janice n michelle

janice n junjie

janice n zul

janice n eddy

janice n anthony

hoifai n janice

darren n janice

HAPPY MOTHER DAY

todae is mother dae... bought my mum a cake... hope she like it... thx my mum for wat she had done...

HAPPI BIRTHDAE TO JANICE, CHRISTINA AND FERNANDES

todae 3 of the people i noe birthdae. one is my new classmate janice she is turn 17 todae. the other one is my former sec sch junior christina she is also turn 17 todae. last is my friend fernandes turn 20. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THEM. WISH THEM ALL DO WELL IN THEIR STUDIES AND EVERYTHING THEY DO.

I FELL DOWN FROM THE STAIRS TODAE

todae i feel down from the stairs. on my way to lec. don noe wat happen. at first it was ok but now feeling pain. it is my bones. tml muz see doc. if not ltr will get worse old injury plus new injury can cause mi lots of pro. poor mi. first time nearly slip will walking at amk hub. went for lunch there todae. then feel from the stairs is the second time. third while walking on the stairs in the bus. nearly trip.




my mood is ok le. i getting over slowly. my mood is picking up although i am still lost. at least i am returning back to the happi mi. something is not rite when he call mi n ask mi the things it make mi feel so weird. tt y i sense something is wrong.but nvr i am sick for daes le. hae been losting my voice n coughing badly. tt all i gg to do my work le.

I AM LOST

i am lost.... i don noe where i am heading to... don noe wat i wan... n most importantly don noe wat i am doing..... i don noe wat is in my life.... juz live dae by dae.... i am changing also.... beginning to lose myself too... i don noe wat is happening to mi....

I NOE THIS IS GG TO OFFEND SOME PPL WHO READ IT.... IF U FEEL OFFENDED THEN SORRY HERE....




I HATE THOSE WHO ACT ACT N ONLI CARE ABT THEMSELVES ONLI... those ppl who don treat siblings like ppl.. treat their own siblings like dirt like this..... need them then treat them gd if not juz kick them away.... go outside act very gd to them but at home is different.... i hate this type of ppl..... when their siblings need help don help or juz help provided they r free n onli help a bit.... cant even spare some time to teach them.... rather go out wit friends..... very gd to friends but treat family very bad.... N ONLI CARE FOR THEMSELVES NVR N SPARE A THOUGHT FOR THEIR FAMILY ONE.... I HATE THIS TYPE OF PPL..... SRY IF I HAD OFFENDED ANYONE.......






I DON SAE AS IF I AM VERY GD BUT AT LEAST I TREAT MY FAMILY AS HUMAN NOT DIRT.... I DO THROW TEMPERS BUT AT LEAST I RESPECT MY FAMILY..... I NOE I AM NOT A VERY GD PERSON BUT AT LEAST I NOE HOW TO TREAT MY FAMILY.... THE MINMUM GIVE THEM RESPECT.....






SRY IF I HAD OFFENDED ANYONE ABT THIS.... I APOLOGISE HERE... SORRY.....

todae no lec as the lec is on mc... so gd... actually todae got 1 lesson but i skip it... it is E learning... go there also no use coz go there use com to chat... then find it no point to go so skip it.... then wake up at 11 plus... slack at home... in afternoon went to meet rayner... we went to chat la.... talk abt sch life lol.... then we went sim lim square as he need to get a portable hard disc as he need it.... i went to look ard as i am thinking to get one also.... then after tt went to buy a pair of slippers... went home after tt....




most of my slippers all are strip r broken onli left wit one pair left... gg to buy a few more pairs.... i am looking a a pair of heels n a few pairs of slippers... one pair is charles n keith one gg to get it... the rest is still seeing... havent sae the one tt i like.....





n wed my slippers strip broke on my way home so went home limping..... i also skip the lec on wed since this is the last 2 lessons.....this is the third time tt my slippers strip broke...... first time was on my way home n some1 step on it tt y spoil...... second time is during the last 2nd dae of work broke suddenly... third is this.... n my favourite heels strips also broke too... tt y now looking for a pair of heels....




a lot of work n pro havent start yet..... haiz....... don noe wat to do...





i am still very emo.... my mood is still not very gd.... still very moody..... muz get better soon... return to the happi mi... i am still very sad n trying my best to cover it up.... i guess wat i realli need is a lot of time.... rayner sae my life is full of challenges n it is true..... i always face alot of challenges.... nw i am facing a few rite now... trying to overcome it n get over.... after each challenge i will get stronger n stronger.... i also don noe y my life have so many challenges..... it seems tt this is part if my life.... my challenges are nvr ending.... i realli hope it can end but it wont as it is part of my life... from students to working life n back to student..... also had a lot of setsbacks.... but i believe i will overcome it... coz i am a very cheerful n positive person.... n happi go lucky also..... although i very blur n forgetful la..... MOODY N EMO....

todae went to watch spiderman 3 wit my classamates marie janice eddy zul darren ken anthony n nya oo..... it was a ok show but it is too long... kinda of more romance then action... it is quite touching la.... janice cried n marie nearly cry too.... then went to eat after tt... then shop for a while lol... bought things again... bought 2 shirts n a watch n 2 pair of ear rings..... then also bought fer present... n todae i am late again cause the whole grp to wait for mi realli SORRY coz something crop out.... tt all for todae ba....





then these few daes still the same... not getting any better... still very moody n it is getting obvious n more obvious.... hope tt i can get over it soon.... realli hope there is someone by my side.....

todae went out to meet up wit kat... ask her for help on my maths... she is forever so helpful towards mi... always help mi in studies when i approach her.... thanks a lot gal.. i realli appreciate...




todae is a bit better le..... then fri got candy n chin yong accompany.... aga aga got sort out a bit la.... mi gg to be bz soon...got to jaggle between work n studies..... next week got 2 interview...






N ONE LAST THING TODAE IS MY DAD BIRTHDAE... my mum give him a treat then i gg to buy present for him... havent buy... gg to buy next week...

PLEASE LEAVE MI ALONE

this is a realli gg to be a very emo post.... i realli need to be alone this time.... coz i am sad n confused n fan now.... i realli need to think of wat i wan n wat i need.... i don noe wat i am doing also... muz really sort out my thinking... some things need to face one muz face cannot avoid.... no point avoiding.... i will face up wat i need to face.... i may look strong n cheerful but actually i am not.... i juz don wan to show it... i hope tt i will be strong... n i believe i will be strong... wit u guys by my side.... i noe some of u can tell.... so thx for u all concern....

this is a summary of wat i did.... every dae slack a lot.. then beside sch is home.... last thurs went town wit marie eddy n zul... went home early as i was tired.... so didnt realli shop la.. then sat n sun stay at home n slack... last nite start to do my sch stuff.... then slp late... todae went for a movie wit fer n candy... while waiting for candy we chat a lot... sch life is fun but very bz... got a lot of stuff coming n project.. gg to be bz soon..... tt all le... gg to slp soon...

SCHOOL LIFE IS FUN

mon start sch le... got a lot of lectures n tutorials... also got worshop n labs.... ok ba.... sch life was fun n busy.... starting to get projects le.... everydae meet up wit my classamtes n go sch tog.... my classmates were so fun n nice.... every dae is full of laughter.... n todae is one of my classmate birthdae.... we bought him a cake.... n he kenna sabo.... poor things.... birthdae is like this one.... now nobody wan to tell when is each one birthdae coz afraid of kenna.... haha.... HAPPI BITHDAE ZUL.... HOPE U ENJOY N LIKE IT... everydae of my sch life is full of laughter n fun... so enjoy of my sch life but is tired lol.... tt is all ba.... shall update when i am free.....

havent been ale to update for a long time... my network is having problems.... now ok le... these 2 weesk have been slp n slp like a pig.... i am bored....





WORK ENDED ON MAR.... THEN WAS MISSING THEM A LOT... HAD A LOT OF FUN WIT THEM N THEY TAUGHT MI A LOT OF THINGS ESPECIALLY HELEN N MEIFANG WHO GUIDE MI ALONG... AH CHUA ALSO HELP MI A LOT... N THOSE PLE... THANKS.... THEN THURS N FRI WAS FAREWELL LUNCH BY THEM.. THURS WAS AT CRYSTAL JADE BY HELEN LG MEIFANG SHARON AH CHUA LAWERENCE REGINA N 3 PLE IVAN FANGPENG KL NGO N HENRY.... THANKS TO THEM... N FRI WAS BY ANOTHER PLE HH YEO.... THEN WE LOBANG HOWARD CAR TO JP... ON THE WAY TO JP N BACK TO COMPANY HAD A LOT OF FUN WIT THEM... HOWARD WAS WIT MENG HWEE N RONNIE KONG... THESE GUYS R REALLI FUNNY... THEN LAST DAE ALSO TOOK A LOT OF PIC... REALLI MISS THEM... N YA DORAIRA BOUGHT PIZZA HUT FOR MI TOO ON FRI... THANKS FOR ALL UR THOUGHTFULNESS... I WILL REMEMBER... I REALLI MISS MY WORKING DAE... IT WAS SO FUN N A LOT OF LAUGHTER.... THAT ALL.. IT HAD ENDED BUT WE R STILL FRIENDS EVEN WE R NOT COLLEAGUES ANYMORE....


then a few daes ago went for my orientation... noe my classmates la... not bad ba... then tt all.... we r meeting up on mon to go sch together... tt all...



recently had been sorting out my thinking.. i already noe wat to do le... i had choosen my path.... hope i don regret... tt all.. gg to slp le...

i am not happy at all

don noe y... i seem to screw up some things again... so as usual i am very quiet... very emo also.... plan to sort out everything but still didnt manage.... leave it ba... tml shall be out for a movie wit fiona... then todae bought a lot of things... next week is gg to be bz le.... coz got a lot things.... shall see how ba.. then keep on got teasing n sae by someone... so notice mi... sae i wear until so short n revealing.... n sae this n sae tt..... don even wan to sae anything... she wan to sae let her sae... it is her mouth.... shld not bother....




my mind is fill up by a lot of things.... but still got ppl understand mi can le.... have someone to chat... so glad... then a lot of ppl also emo also.... don noe y..... recently is doing a lot of things.....



i admit tt i realli fell for him... a person i shldnt.... getting emo over him.... he is making my life upside down..... realli wan him to be by my side.... but noe he wont... so don noe how... i don noe how to talk to u.... coz i noe i will give myself away... so i choose to keep quiet.... don noe how to deal... shall leave it to fate ba.... let fate decide.... so shall end here......

these week had been ok ba.... not realli happi..... don noe y also.... it is a bz week... was sick on wed... on high fever since tues nite... so mc on wed.... ya... i gg to nyp.... then was out last nite wit my dear friends crystal n ade to celebrate her birthdae... hey gal sorry didnt get u any thing.... as usual we crap alot la... was realli happi and fun last nite... then saw kat yest while i was on my way to give tutionin the morning.... n everyone is so bz wit their things... so long nvr meet a lot of friends le...




then had been doing a lot of thinkings recently.... wanting to sort out but in the end didnt manage.... don noe y also... but i realli need to sort out..... also don noe wat am i doing also... gettig involved wit a lot of stupid things tt i also don noe y i shld involve in.... realli need a lot of time to sort out ba as it is still very messy.... my life also in a mess.... shall stop here....

these few had been pretty bz.... but was still ok.... this week also had a lot of fun.... tues nite went to party world to celebrate helen birthdae... took a lot of pic... was darm fun n i got teased too... also got the nickname small irene.... then wed helen treat us lunch at crystal jade.... it cost a lot.... so thanks to helen for giving us a treat.... thurs was my boss.... had dinner wit someone.... ( this one is a secret....) then went out todae wit my dear fiona... as usual we crap alot.... tt all ba.... cant upoad the photo... don noe y... another time ba...





GOT EMO AGAIN... DUE TO MANY REASON.... N PPL PLEASE STOP HURTING MI CAN.... PLZ.... DON WISH TO SAE... IF WAN TO NOE ASK MI I WILL TELL U.....










i am tired... havent been able to rest enough... will slp early todae...

update a bit ba.... mon nite play manjiong... tues n wed nite play cards.... then mon nite went to drink a bit... this time went highlanders.... then wed went to work.... thurs on mc.... todae also work... wed onli have ard 10 ppl woking including... then todae got a bit more.... these few daes office was so quiet... not very used...





I REALLY FELL FOR HIM THIS TIME.... THESE FEW DAES DIDNT SEE HIM..... I REALLY MISS HIM.... REALLY WAN TO SEE HIM... FALL INTO A TRAP TT IS NOT POSSIBLE AGAIN.... HAIZ....






tml gg to ng n neo hse... maybe gg for a drink after tt.... then sun gg to mrs chong n mdm tan hse.... then gg to spend my weekend rotting n resting..... i am very tired... not enough slp....

I HATE MY SKIN... IT IS ITCHY AGAIN... FROM YEST TILL NOW... NOT GETTING BETTER.... APPLY THE CREAM.... TRY A LOT OF METHODS STILL THE SAME.... DON NOW WAT TO DO.... IT JUZ WONT STOP... N I REALLY STRETCHED UNTIL IT IS WOUND LE.... CANNOT STRETCHED ANYMORE... HOW TO GO OUT LIKE THIS WHEN IT IS NOT GETTING BETTER.... I DON NOE WAT HAPPEN TO MY SKIN RECENTLY... KEEP ON LIKE THIS.... I ALWAYS EAT UNTIL PLAIN LE.... STILL LIKE THIS... I THINK BETTER GO TO SEE A SKIN DOC... SEE WAT HAPPEN .... Y LIKE THIS... KEEP ON INJECTIONS IS NOT A SOLUTION N IT SEEMS NOT TO TAKE EFFECT ANYMORE....




DO ANYONE NOE ANY MEHTOD TO STOP ITCHYNESS... IF GOT PLEASE TELL MI.....

yest went back to sch for new year... have a chat wit mr neo mrs goh mr gan mdn ho mr yong n mrs chong... mrs chong went back for new year... then rush back to work... manage to reach on time but i spend ard 20 plus on cab fare... then end work at 2pm... waste of mt cab fare... my boss send mi to mrt... n during the hrs there was chatting wit janice.... have a pleasent chat wit her.... then went home to slack a while before meeting wit candy... ya.. MDM HO GIVE MI THE FIRST ANGBAO.... she past to candy then ask her to pass to mi... then went shopping wit candy on bugis n bishan... on thurs we went novena... saw a very nice pair of heels n aim to buy it... then todae stay at home anlack the whole dae.... afternoon ear reunion lunch at my grandma hse... then at nite at mi hse... todae mum did all the cooking....




ARD MORE HALF AN HR TO CHINESE NEW YEAR.... COUNTING DOWN...

todae is totally a bad dae until at nite it change.... actually it is not bad until i give someone the valentine dae present then it spoil totally.... juz for a friend onli.... don wan to sae anymore... getting angry if i sae it... WAN TO NOE COME N ASK MI..... DON FEEL LIKE TYPING OUT....
at nite meet up wit ade n kat to eat... also bought fiona present... n ya TODAE IS FIONA BIRTHDAE... pass her her present le.... todae food was not bad... mi n ade treat kat as this is birthdae present for her since we didnt get anything for her.... yest was on mc... actually was sick for the past few dae... muz take gd care of myself le.... gg to rest le.. have a tired dae...

SO HAPPY

I AM SO HAPPY NOW..... I PASS MY O LEVEL BUT I AM NOT SATISFIED WIT MY RESULTS... XIE XIE NI MEN DE ZHU FU.... THANKS FOR ALL THE PPL WHO CARE N CONCERN ABT MI... I REALLY APPRECIATE ALL OF U ALL.... I WILL REMEMBER.....


recently have been feeling very stress n nervous... but now over le... then work load is still a lot... still thinking wan to take leave on mon or not.... see how it go ba....


he is back on mon le... can see him le.... erm... so happy.... nth to write ba... tt all...

SO HAPPY

I AM SO HAPPY NOW..... I PASS MY O LEVEL BUT I AM NOT SATISFIED WIT MY RESULTS... XIE XIE NI MEN DE ZHU FU.... THANKS FOR ALL THE PPL WHO CARE N CONCERN ABT MI... I REALLY APPRECIATE ALL OF U ALL.... I WILL REMEMBER.....


recently have been feeling very stress n nervous... but now over le... then work load is still a lot... still thinking wan to take leave on mon or not.... see how it go ba....


he is back on mon le... can see him le.... erm... so happy.... nth to write ba... tt all...

HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO KAT

todae is one of my best friend birthdae... she is kat.... have noe her since sec one... she is a very nice n great friend... so wish u get wat she wan n wat seh wish n most important stay happy....

have been very bz lately... this week got a lot of work load n my work i havent finish... n i am realli VERY TIRED... so don piss mi or else don blame mi for throwing my temper at u... went to gym todae wit candy... had a great workout... and also very tired havent exercise for so long le... shall make it an effort to go at least once a week... realli muz start to have a balabce diet n exercise... i gg to slim down by exercising... as i am getting fat le... n ya my appetite drop le... nowadaes i don eat much le... i cut down by half of wat i eat usually.... recently i havent been thinking a lot n sorting my mind le... i have sort out my things le...


yest was chong last dae.... so was kinda getting emo... cant bear him to leave but i still wish him all the best.... he had work there around 10 yrs le... he is a very funny guy... always make mi laugh... then sharon also last dae but she is coming back 2 weeks ltr... they hired her le...




I HAVE REALISED A LOT OF THINGS... CAN BECOME COLLEAGUES OR FRIENDS IS YUAN FEN... SO TREASURE THE TIMES U HAVE TOGETHER... LEARN TO TREASURE THE PPL AROUND U BEFORE U LOSE THEM... DON REGRET OR SAD WHEN THEY LEAVE... N DON TAKE THING FOR GRANTED... MUZ PROVE N NOT JUZ BY SAE... SAE EVERYONE ALSO NOE... PROVE IT WIT ACTION.... AND PPL MUZ ALSO LEARN HOW TO FORGIVE N FORGET.... I NOE IT IS HARD TO DO BUT MUZ STILL TRY...





RECENTLY A LOT OF THINGS HAPPEN... NOW I NOE WHO REALLI CARE FOR MI N BE THERE FOR MI.... THX FOR THOSE ARE WIT MI ALL ALONG...

i am so exhausted n tired... this week had been working n there r a lot of workload to be done.... went to meet ade on tues nite n her mum treat mi dinner... thx to her mum after tt went to her hse n slack for a while then went home... borrow a book from her to read... then sat n sun went out... yest went out wit fiona for nafa open hse... it was not bad... this yr i didnt went for poli open hse... too tired n bz working... then after tt we went to teenage cafe n eat then went shopping... then todae also meet fiona... as we plan to shop orchard todae.... then bought a jumper n jeans todae... yest bought a shirt n bag n boots n ear rings... then yest n todae fiona also buy some clothes too... she also bought a jumper as both of us had been looking for a long time... then last week also bought a lot of clothes... now broke le... i finish shopping for my new years clothes le now onli left wit a necklace n braclet.... ya when we went to into one of ths shop far east and we were trying out on the hair condition as she apply to my hair... she was so envy of my hair as she sae it out tt my hair is so soft.... n tt remind mi of of how long i havent been taking care of my hair... tt all for todae... gg to slp le....

i am BAD

i am getting bad... my playful character is out again... i make ppl jealous.... at first is not purposely de but someone make mi not happy... tt y now is purposely... now working seems to get fun n be careful... fun is realli a lot of laughter.... then careful is to be careful wit those 2 face ppl n those who love to sabo ppl one... i am also be careful wit my words.. they noe tt...

tml gg out to shop for clothes... gg to buy clothes... havent go shopping for a long time le.... always bz wit working...

i still no voice... n my throat is still very pain... so i don realli speak.... haiz...



recently had been thinking a lot of things... n it is in my mind....got a lots things still unsure... i am still finding out.... n i am also finding out wat is happening to mi nowadaes.... nowadaes i seems not the usual mi...

SICK N SICK......

these few was sick.... fri didnt went to work took mc.... i don noe wat happen i seems to get worse instead of better.... past few daes have diarrooa n headache... now still taking medicine le... a bit better le... but now i keep coughing n my throat hurts a lot... think eat too much oily n spicy food... since last nite when i had running rose i keep coughing... my running nose recover le but my throat n my cough didnt... till now still coughing.. then now my skin is recovering.... i finally noe wat happen to my skin... it is sensitive to weather n if i am in a very cold or hot place my skin will allergy n dusty place too... these few daes went home straight after work n spend my weekend at home to an xin yang bing.... tml still need to work... i realli hope tt i will recover soon... muz take good care of myself.... gg to slp le....

shall do a bit of blogging todae... past few daes was alright.... then yest our boss treat us cakes... then yest breakfast have mac.... havent eat mac breakfast for a long time... then todae lunch went out eat... get to noe more things n more stuff.... work load was alright as i manage to finish.... n my com keep on hanging.... don noe wat happen.... n ya finally my hair is long again.... don noe wat happen y get so emo nowadaes... but there r still a lot of laughter la.... tt all le... gg to slp... shall update more ltr....

SO PISS OFF N MOODY

I AM SO PISSED OFF TODAE BY A LOT OF STUFFS BUT I DON REALLI WAN TO SAE OUT ALL... SO PLEASE LEAVE MI ALONE... ALL I NEED IS TIME TO CALM DOWN... SORRY TO MY FRIENDS COZ I CANCEL OUT ALL THE DATES TODAE... NOT PURPOSELY I JUZ DON WAN TO AFFECT U ALL COZ OF MI....





i hate this person... EDMUND TEO.... a proud n arrogant n hao se guy... he don realli help ppl in the same department as him.... he onli help his sub n some others onli... the rest he heck care.... n things don get it clear also any how sae.... i dare to write means i dare to let him noe.... i don like him means i don like him but doesnt mean i hate him.... i wont sae things tt please him.... this is my character... i don like a person so i wont force myself to please tt person... as long as i got do my things can le ma... y bother so much.... like i didnt do my things like this.... i did do my things.... then cause my sup to be unhappi coz of this... i am realli sorry to u helen as i don mean it.... i noe u r very gd to mi... as long as my conscience is clear will do.... he is darm f***.... see chio bu eyes wan to drop out like tt... like nvr see before.... by the way he is also not handsome.... like to sae ppl.... still got many more... but don wish to sae it out.... n thx mei fang for ur concern...





the other one is personal stuff.... shall not sae it here.... those who noe mi knew it as i got tell u... these 2 daes i am realli unhappi.... it is all written on my face.... i realli feel so moody tt y i get piss off easily... as u all can saw tt i didnt smile.... i also didnt talk much.... i try to smile yest while out wit candy n fernandes.... i do la but after a while i turn bad into bad mood again... anyways thx for all the concern u all give.... shall not sae anymore or esle when u all read will get moody.... i will get over soon... all i need is to calm down.... then i will be fine....





gg to see another doc soon.... my skin is not getting better.... already had the injection n taken the antibodies le.... still the same.... there r more syptoms r getting more.... tt all ba for now... shall not gg to sae more...

erm... life had been not too gd for mi these few daes... n ya went to doc todae wit fiona company... took half dae leave.... then doc sae muz kenna injection or else i will not fully recovered so had one n took medicine home n doc sae at least 5 dae muz take med... ok la... n doc sae i have sensitive skin.... so muz take care.... as for allerty to wat shall not sae here... so no seafood n chilli for mi for this period in order for my skin to recover.... catch up a lot wit her todae... it was so fun.... things happen n it was so funny... so happi todae... then juz now chat wit crystal todae... also talk a lot.... tt all ba... nth much... juz another fruitful dae wit my friend... shall meet up wit ronald as havent seen him for a long time liao.... then we shall crap.... erm... tt all ba.. shall slowly meet up wit my friends... especially wit ade n crystal... juz now were talking abt when shld meet up...tt all ba... gg to slp soon... tml working... then my com n phone siao le... cant load pic into com... shall repair one dae.... gg to my dream land soon...

yest went out n had a lot of fun.... meet up wit candy n rayner to go out countdown.... then we went to a pub n drink.... then after tt meet rayner friend fernandes n we go countown at boat quay... then we went to candy bar to drink... then after tt went to walk ard n slack n cinelesiure as rayner n fernandes ply x box... then mi n candy crap a lot... then went to starbucks n slack... then mi n candy n fernandes chatn crap a lot n rayner was slp.... then we went to take train home.... reach home ard 7 plus... n i noe a new friend... nice meeting u fernandes... n ya something happen at the candy pub yest... onli mi n candy noe wat happen as we tok abt it.... shall not sae it here... wan come n ask mi..... n ya saw lucify last nite... some of the members n he was so handsome.... i onli saw them on tv.... now saw them face to face.... n ya i saw angela too... she was ard boat quay tt area wit her friends to count down.. she become so pretty le... tt all ba....




i forgot tt i have sensitive skin.... i am allergy to dirt n dust... now my body had a lot of red patches... coz yest went to the toilets there r all very dirty.... n due to my workplace the aircon is not gd.... muz take care of myself.... now getting better le....




new year le... mean a new begginning... got a lot things to complete n wishes..... muz finish my target for the yr 2007 tt i set.... i wan to be stronger.... be more cheerful n stay happi always.... jia you jane....




erm... reflect wat happen in 2006.... nth much as i was bz working... n retaking o level... n also slack a new.... got to noe more friends.... then also noe who r my true friends.... got a lot of things happens.... good n bad... shall not sae anymore since it has pass... gd memories will be kept in my heart n bad memories shall take it as a lesson learnt....

BORED

this week i am reallli bored.... i realise tt when i work the time realli pass very fast... now i am not working then realise tt time pass very slow... spend most of my time slacking n slp at home this week.... i noe i am a pig.... i am also getting fat as i am puting on weight... muz go n do exercise.... but i am also resting... suppose to go gym for this whole week but i didnt although i am off.... nth much.... then yest went to bugis to give my time sheet to my agent n then went to fiona hse.... i am happi for her.... she enter to her course tt she desire... so good luck n continue to jia you for ur studies.... i will be there to support u... then didnt went for the chalet tt may organise... sry.... but i am realli tired to go.... then to jianying also.... didnt help u in the end.... coz i didnt went for ur job....




now talk abt friendship.... friendship need to be maintain... friends shld be forgiving towards one another.... friends shld help one another n also be there for one another... friends shld also be tolerance n tell others when they r wrong... help one another to walk out to the correct path... tt is real friends....


now abt love..... in a relationship they muz learn to treasure one another.... indivdiual muz also hav their own space n freedom... they muz also learn how to endure each other weak points as no one is perfect in this world.... n also don lie n cheat ur partner... muz be faithful...




tt all for todae... a few more daes to 2007.... gg to count down wit my friends.... n my new yr wish is sercet.... shall update again... I AM BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDD........

this year i feel tt my christmas is very bored... haiz... on christmas eve we went clark quay... we went tcc n eat.... then candy ex collagues very gd give us extra 2 slice of cakes but we could not finish coz we were full le.... then we went to a japenese pub to drink.... then after a while we were tired so we go home n slp... not coz we r drunk is we r realli very bored... the bar was not bad... then went safra but it was all book so we went home... then slack from yest n todae.... tt all ba... mi n candy gg pub on new year eve anyone wan to go wit us....

ya... had a chat wit jerome todae... then suddenly remember yest went out for lunch wit julia sharon jingxian at jurong point.... then we wait for 45 min for a cab... the cab queue is darm long.... so i reach office at 2pm... we left office at 11.45pm... then miss the bus so had to wait for 15 min.... then when we reach we saw meifang ah chua regina n helen... we very naughty call the cab driver to horn so tt they can see us... coz they tok a bus back n were earlier then us... we were fighting to see who reach first... then all of us reach ard the same time.... then ah chua keeping making fun of us saeing us very rich... coz 4 of us take cab n bus the price is ard the same ma... then all of us were laughing all the way back walking to the office.... ya... many ppl tease n joke wit mi... so fun... they realli make mi laugh...

finally... i got a week break.... gg to rest... a lot of things good things happen recently.... i am realli so happi.... yest went out wit my colleagues to k box... so reach home late at ard 12 plus... lucky got pppl to send mi home... thx to mei fang bf... then todae overslept... nearly miss my company bus.... or else i am late for work... it was realli fun... had a great time.... everyone was so high.... sing n sing... todae throat was not feeling well due to yest.... wed was not feeling well too coz caught a cold... then work was fine but bz for mi.... but had a lot great time working wit them... now thinking how to spend my week off.... now i still noe ppl from my company.... my company is ealli big got a lot of staff.. muz noe the ppl that i need pass them things.... sometime still give ppl the blur look coz i don noe them.... some funny things happen a few daes.... if u wan to noe ask mi... i wont sae it here... helen n regina sae the same something todae when ah chua sae something.......erm... this shall be a secret between us... tt all i remember.... here is a photo of us at k box last nite.... the rest mei fang delete away le...

mi julia regina henry

erm this week nth much ba... as usual bz wit my work.... then also slag a lot... then also tired... plan to meet shu ting to support her todae but i was not feeling well so didnt went.... but anyways wish her do well... then tml gg to meet my colleagues to go out... don noe i will be able to meet may they all to celebrate christmas ot not.... todae slag n rest ba.... ya yest i won a present from my company.... it is a watch... that was juz pour luck.... the alphbat juz happen to stick under the chair i am seating... then yest celebrate christmas in advance... yest was fun... n ya nearly forgot... last week razif saw mi but i didnt saw him until he sae hi to mi.... then i sae hi n smile back.... can see that he change a lot... then also saw daniel last week... was surprised tt he still remember mi... so sae hi n left coz i think i was in rush..... shall catch up wit them soon...


finally get over him le... now i am very happy wit my life n my smile is back.... n lol my company got a lot of romance n rumours.... haha... hope tt i will experience once also coz don have before so don noe how it is like.... haha.... a lot of the ppl in my company r either married ot attached....

buz

have been very busy wit work lately... my workload is a lot.... trying my very hard to finish... i havent finish my doing the data n they need it by next week... i havent even finsh half coz tt is realli a lot... i juz receive like 1 or 2 hrs before i knock off so spend ard 2 daes n a bit more to do..... if cant finish then see how they sae lol.... this week is starting not to get easy as i learn more things which mean my workload will be more.... so after i knock off each dae i am very tired.... so lazy to blog.... gg to spend my weekend resting.... if not how to deal wit more challenges coming next week.... tt all ba... blog ltr... gg to slp le.... very tired.....

my indigestion is back... i am suffering from serious indigestion.... i keep feeling bloated n cant eat.... haiz... i also don noe how.... always sae wan to see doc but in the end nvr...


n ya rayner give mi a testi wishing mi happi birthdae n wish mi in msn... he too bz liao forgot my birthdae.... so forgive him... haha... then alan also wish mi but he still owe mi a testi.... he sae will give mi de...

fri nite went to meet kat n we went out... we walk from bugis to suntec... then we chat a lot... she keep consoling mi n tap my shoulders.... so i told her i will be strong de... then she sae i grow up le... i told her i been through so many things le... so learn a lot le ma n also muz stay stronger... if not i will break down easily... n ya.. i got a bit piss off by candy while i was smsing her... so when i got a bit irritated i stop smsing her or else it gonna affect my mood when i am working.... tt all for fri ba... gg to trim n dye my hair soon...then then last nite anu wish mi in msn happi birthdae too... don noe she will wish mi coz classmate for 5 yrs she nvr wish mi... then todae got a testi from alex wishing mi belated happi birthdae... coz i thought u forgot my birthdae... thx... i was so tired so from last nite slp till todae afternoon then went back slp again.... ya i wan to go clubbing n pubbinbg.... who wan to go... ask mi along.... working was fine wit mi coz it was fun... my colleagues n supervisior always joke especially my supervisior... there are a lot of laughter but there are serious time too.... got to noe a lot of ppl from my work.... my work place is big... still not realli very familiar wit the place.... onli familair wit the things n place on the floor i work... the rest still a bit blur...work load is getting more n more each dae... n i get to learn more new stuff... n ya i am getting fat coz i keep on eating n eating.... so muz do more exercise..... shall go gym when i am free.... then shall start doing some exercise at home... good news n bad news.... christmas tt week my department off.... tt mean from christmas till new year i will be very free..... haha.... but i got no income tt week coz i didnt work.... haiz... n ya... i wont be online so frequently but weekends i will definitely online... nowadaes i slp very early as i need to wake up very early.... my cousin told mi she miss my grandma.... i also miss her very much.... told her don think too much coz she had pass away... juz put her in my heart will do....




ya shall talk abt friendship todae..... coz got tok wit kat a bit.... i have got lots of friends... but i am glad tt i got a few nery gd buddies n best friends who accompany mi through my bad times in my life n share my happi times wit mi.... they r ade crystal kat n fiona... realli thxs a lot to them i don noe how to sae it out but they understand how much i appreciate for wat they did...then got a few gd friends... they r alex rayner fabian jerome candy jolyn shuting... then the rest r ok type....




then a bit abt relationship....
love required both parties to give n take.... no pt onli one party give.... n if u the one party who give... don expect the other party for anything...

my birthdae

todae is my 18th birthdae.... i don feel happi at all... until the moment i were wit ade n crystal..... ade always make mi smile n laugh.... don noe y... celebrate wit ade n crystal tonite.... we went to eat.... ade n crystal spend a lot... then now ade broke le... we went bugis to eat steamboat n it was exp... n ya crystal brought mi a necklace... then i bought a jacket coz my work place is very cold.... n poor thing lol... i got work todae n it is my birthdae... the first person who send mi wishes is kat.... thx kat yan ling lai candy angeline eugene toh may shirley crystal wei woon mei fang (my work place de) hui qing ade yin yin fiona n my colleagues.... thx for ur wishes... thx for ur sms or testi or wish mi personally... realli thx...then still got 2 person from friendster wish mi but i don noe them... anyways thx to them too... i realli appreciate... still waiting for tt special person to wish mi... till now he didnt.... i guess he don remember ba.... yar todae my colleague mei fang treat mi kfc coz is my birthdae... coz i didnt went out for lunch so call her to buy for mi... so i spend the 1 hr slp in the office... thx...


mi n crystal.... best friends for 4 yrs.....

mi n ade.... best friend for 5 yrs....

mi n ade... this one crystal took it wit out ade realising it...

this was yest celebration wit my family.... i celebrate wit them last nite...... didnt realli feel so happy... don ask mi y i don noe...

angel n mi

jolin mi n angel

my cake

first birthdae present

this is the first present i receive for my birthdae.... it is from my little cousin... she made it for mi.... i am so touched as i didnt expected it.... i like it alot.... she draw the card all by herself....

isnt she cute....

havent been blogging for some time... mon was my last ppr.... after my last ppr.... so went home n rest for a while.... then went to have my 2 interviews before meeting ade.... then on the way crystal call n join us... then i went for the job interview n i got one of the jobs immediately.... n ya sorry to ade for waiting for mi for more then 3 hrs... i am realli sorry... n crystal also wait for mi for sometime too... sorry... then went to meet them at chinatown so we decided to eat there.... after eating we went home... 3 of us were tired... then discuss abt my birthdae plan.. this one shall not sae... then tues morning while i was slp fiona sms mi to go out... so we meet up n went vivo city... it is very big n gots lots of things to shop... then saw mdm tan there n chat wit her for a while... then fiona cousins meet up wit us as they were there so we went for dinner tog... dinner was at pepper lunch at taka coz fiona wan to try how is the food like as she works there.... she havent eat before at her workplace... then wake up early n went to work.... then i realise tt it is not the job tt i wan... it is outdoor sales so i quit immediately n rush for another interview.... actually plan to give up tt job but in the end i still go for it... coz i am havent got a job so went to try my luck lor.... then thurs morning a guy call mi n ask mi to go for a job interview... so i went n got the job immediately.... i was wondering who is tt guy... so i call up n ask... so it was marcus friend.... funny lol... went for the job interview without knowing who recommend mi.... n i onli realised after my interview... then todae went bugis to settle some stuff.... after settling my stuff ... i went to suntec to see my friends... then chat a bit wit them.... n my 2 boss had gone separate ways le... they each set up their own shop... n ya i saw tt cute guy again... he is working todae... actually was trying my luck.... coz havent gone there to see them for a long time... then i feel tired so i went home.... n ya mon 26/11 i am starting work.... i am working as a admin assist in one of the shipping factories... i am feeling so tired... havent been able to get enough slp.... gg to slp soon.... next week is my birthdae... still planning how to celebrate.... haha... gg to turn 18 soon.... had been feeling very down recently....but now i am ok le... i had see n take things stridly le... noe when it is time to let go muz let go... no pt forcing... it will make all of us miserable n suffer tog... don worry abt mi anymore... i noe how to take care of myself le... n i will... thx ade crystal kat fiona candy marcus n a few more for ur concern... i am fine... thx for all ur support especially kat ade crystal fiona n candy.... thx ade n crystal n fiona for accompanying mi... thxs... i realli appreciate.... tt all ba....

my hearts scatter... my heart breaks... i lose hopes... i don noe wat is hope... my life now onli have emptiness now.... sad........... depress........

i am feeling down again.... i feel like giving everything up.... i don wan anything.... ithere r so many times i wan to give up everything n juz disappear n all of u cant find mi.... i have many unhappy memories then happy... tt y i don even when was th last time i was happi... it been a long time since i felt happi.... i wan to give up coz i already lost all the hope in my life.... there r so many time i ask myself wat i realli wan... y i live for... my ans is i don noe wat to do... realli don noe....

todae is my grandma 1 yr anniveray... so fast it been a yr since she pass away... but i am not gg coz my mum don wan mi to go... so next time go ba.... actually till now i don noe where her ashes is put coz i had nvr been to tt place before... i shld realli go one dae to pray to her when i am free... or else i will feel tt i am a realli bad granddaughter...i realli miss her a lot.... she is one of the best person who dote mi a lot n treat mi very nice.... she cares a lot for mi... whenever i need help she will be there to help mi as much as she could... she taught mi a lot of things....n i will nvr forget... but i had let her down coz i didnt do well for my studies.... till she die she still told mi to study n do well....


y i keep bumping into u recently where i go... n i have no courage to sae hi to u... we r juz like strangers... when i start to forget u or already forget u... u will appear.... maybe fate is making fun of mi ba.... u r the onli guy who knew mi the best n noe wat i am thinking... coz u r the one who walk into my heart.... i also walk into ur heart n noe a lot of things abt u.... still remember tt when i am feeling down or have probelms u r there for mi.... n when ur encouragements r there i will do extremely well for my papers.... till now no other guys could realli understand mi even they did also a bit onli... u brought mi a lot of happiness too.... now i wan to put u down n onli remember those wonderful memories onli.... tt is one of the happiest time in my life.... i realli spend abt 2 yts to slowly forget u... n now i am still doing it... but onli once a while will think of u... as long as u don appear... this is already the best for mi le....


do nth much recently expect studying at home... fri went to toa payoh to meet marcus... havent went there for a long time... like a yr le ba... after my grandma pass away i stopped gg there... then saw him in the train... then i went to shop in ntuc while waiting for marcus as he is late.... then saw my cousin n chat wit her for a while... went to meet marcus n we went to eat... after tt stay in the library for sometime as both of us r reading books.... i realli enjoy reading... i will onli read it in the library ba coz i will find it trouble to borrow a book n stay at home to read... so i think i will be gg to the library more often to read books... this will at least improve a bit on my el.... then tml meeting candy to go out... oh ya... i realised tt after my exams i will feel extremely tired n need a lot of slp to recover back my energy.... n i don noe wat happen... y i become like this also... tt all le... nth much to blog also.... gg to meet my friends soon.... n 17 more daes to my 18th birthdae......


I MISS MY GRANDMA..... I LOVE U TOO GRANDMA.... EVEN U R NOT WIT MI ANYMORE BUT U WILL STAY IN MY HEART FOREVER..... I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER U.... I BELIEVE UR JING SHEN IS ALWAYS WIT MI FOREVER....

happi 17th birthdae to yi lok

happi 17th birthdae to yi lok... my dance junior in sec sch.... i still remember i was the one who got u in... n it was a great time we spend together.... wish u all ur wishes come true n continue to do well....

haiz... i don noe wat happen recently.... somethings seem to be gg rite but some seems gg wrong.... i don noe wat happen when i start doing my exams my mind will suddenly went blank... shall not sae anymore since it is over.... hope tt i will do wll ba... at least clear my main pprs le...
i don noe wat wrong wit mi... after my ppr i will feel very exhausted n tired.... maybe using too much energy n thinking le ba.... after my exam i will straight headed home n slp... coz i realli cant take it anymore...

a lot things happen recently..... so i got a lot things unsettle n clear but i will start solvint until my exams is over... if not i might get distracted... i hope tt it can wait till after my exams... tt all ba.... tonite my little cousin is staying in my hse... finally she can... she had been nagging it for a few weeks le... tt all ba... shall gg to slp soon...

tml is the starting of my paper.... haiz.... stress... tml will be having chem.... then wed will be english n physics.... shall carry on studying le....

i realised a lot of things.... i am feeling so confuesed.... i don noe wat to do.... haiz.... wan to noe ask mi....

now here blogging.... 5 more daes to O level.... i am getting more n more stress everydae pass as it drew nearer.... now start staying out late to study n chiong....


n 28 more daes to birthdae too..... haha.... my birthdae is coming.... my wish is to do well n spend tt nite wit my friends.... i wonder how many ppl will celebrate n remember my birthdae...... hmmmm.......


i realise a lot of things.... after i let go a lot of good things came n happen to mi... haha..... this one shall not write here.... i am realli happy le.... getting back to the usual mi....


tt all...... i am STRESSSSSSS....... BACK TO MUGGING......