overdue n zilain photos....

my zilian pic again.. ^^

there r so much pictures to be load but i am darm lazy.... haha...
here r the overdue one...

irene tay birthday celebrations at cini....

christmas eve steamboat dinner.. :)

my overdue 21st birthday pic...

my overdue 21st birthday pic... ^^

the birthday celebration on my actual dae at ion orchard... irene tay irene how meifang n sunny irene tay friend n meifang hubby.. :)

mi wit joanne on the second dae after my birthday... our birthday celebrations... :)

mi n koh... :)

victor n mi n tidus n his friends.. :)

my poli sch mates... michelle xiao qing eddy darren pearlene marie nya oo anthony :)

my sec sch friends.... candy liyan fiona ivan zhi yu denny jin long kat hazel adeline chee hau eddission mao mao...:)

my pri sch friend cheryl... :)

my birthday cake...

wan ee my dance senior... :)

my advanced birthday celebrations wit henry zhi qiang simin meifang n her hubby...:)

my fyp friends photos..

here my my fyp friends photos which consist of the A1 n A2 n A3....



my A1 friends who r in the same class as mi for sem pro... 2 nice guys.... jonathan n silas... :)

she is my previous sem pro friend n another sem of themo classmates.... a nice n friendly gal peiling... A1 also...

calvin from A3 n sunder from A1... my fyp friends in the same lab...

my A1 friends wang qi.... who sit beside mi for 1 mth n always make my dae started wit a smile... :)

my fyp friends consist of A1 n A3.... it was very fun wit them ard... they nvr fail to make mi laugh every day... :)

my friends at the robotics games is rp... mi ah zhen chuck n dee... all r A2 except mi... :)

mi n katrina... one of my gd friends in fyp lab... :)

mi n jing ni... :)

bz n fruity

last week mark the end of my fyp... now having break before my iap start.... it was a bz n fruity week.... meet ade to have steamboat at bugis on fri... the steamboat tt mi n I n H try tt time... then we have lot of funny jokes n laughter while eating n waiting for her sis... her sis last min wan to join... then the person thought we cant eat coz we order more... he sae later u all cant finish.. end up he saw tt we can eat so the portion tt he give us is bigger n bigger each time....so funny wit the waiter... but it was a nice catch up too... then sat nite meet nana for dinner n have a chat too... this week was slacking ba... shld be rushing my report.... anyway... chinese new year is coming.... need to start to clean up n buy new yr goods le.... :)

new hairstyle my bangs...

my new hairstyle which make mi look nerds coz of bangs... think i am not suitable for bangs..:)

fun n slacking

this post is not gonna to be emo...
last sun went shopping wit nana for my chinese new year clothes... ya i bought 3 dresses n a pair of scandals coz my current one spoil... not bad it was fun... then tues my presentation screw up again... nvr it is over le.... then went hm to see doc... ya the doc was darm funny but the medicine she gave n cream apply is heal it very fast.... nth much for this week as it is busy... then fri nite went for song leng birthday chalet... had a lot of fun there... his friends r so funny... ya n i believe he had a wonderful 21st too... he is begaining to feel like a brother instead of gd friend to mi... he is a nice guy who noe how to take care of gals ba... noe how to give gd advise too... :) then sat afternoon went hm after eating.... then slp n sun spend rotting too...
this week gonna be the last week of fyp but it is bz due to robotics games n report to be submit....
then i trim my hair again n cut bangs... it make mi look nerd.... haha... :)

emotion

在看到海派甜心第五集的时候,我脑海出现许多回忆.... 他把我内心深处的某个秘密和情感都挖出来... 让我感到很无奈... 那都是我不想面对的... 因为我不知道该怎么办该怎么做才是最好...
i love the song 爱不单行......

nth much

nth much for the week ba.... end up didnt meet meifang but met up wit some other ppl n had a talk.... it was quite fruity.... then sat went back sch to help up in the open hse.... after tt went hm.. was sick n sun was realli very sick as i could not get out of my bed.... then todae went to sch n start to do my stuff... n next week is the final presentation le... ppl wish mi gd luck.... got to start to prepare for the ppt n do finish the stuff n report.... anyway a lot of things had happen n it make mi feel drain out n tired..... but i will hang on.... pay is not out yet... sad as i cant go shopping... this fri is meeting ade to eat... then next fri is song leng 21st birthday... life is getting bz n bz... but i love it... my i touch is low batt todae as i forgot to charge n turn it off on sat as it play until no batt...

confused n bz

sat n sun was working..... meet an unreasonable customer each dae.... but it is over.... n i met a lot of nice customers too.... haha...

then talk to ben on sun nite.... he told mi not to bother so much coz he is juz a passer by.... talk to him abt someone.... he sae he is juz a passer by.... he ask mi not to tell him so much in future n it is so true.... n i noe the ans is he is juz using mi..  so from now on i shall treat u back the same way.... nana will noe who i am talking abt coz u r the one who told mi dun mix wit him... ya u r rite... then cheryl also sae the same thing... so i shall do it the way... since u r using mi... then i shall not be true to u anymore coz u dun deserve mi to care n concern for u... watever u do now is useless...


then todae my lec ask mi abt the progress... i shall not be in holiday mood again... i need to be serious n complete my stuff by tml.... n i will complete everything by tml...

juz now was talking to Irene how abt some stuff n discussing abt her wedding dae... i am gg to help her out... hehe... then had a talk to sunny too.... this is btw the 3 of us onli... haha...

might be meeting meifang tml for a gal talk... she noe wat i wanna talk abt... is all abt mi... ask her for advice too abt some stuff.... :)

learn to be contented wit wat u have n not greedy... if not when u lose it then regret it is no use anymore... no pt regret when u lost it... learn to treasure now when he or she is now wit u.... he or she tt is loving u so much.... when he or she now is showering u wit so much love, care n concern.... dont make a decision tt will make u regret forever....^^

a gd new start of 2010

2 more new yr resolutions in case i forgot... i noe i am a bit greedy but i will make it happen coz tt is mi... wat i set i will do n fulfil it....

13) i wan to be able to earn more money...

14) i wan to be able to save more money.....

countdown was spent staying at hm but it was well spend.... spend it wit my parents as i cook a simple dinner for them.... they like it.... haha... coz tt time when my dad went to kl... i cook for mum n my mum like it... but this time i cook it for my parents n my parents feel so happi after eating... it make mi feel happi too.... then after tt supper wit my parents too... tt y it was well spent coz it been a long time since i accompany my parents for a meal n had a chat wit them... :)

todae went working n it is a new start.... although customers were not a lot but there is still sales n the customers r so nice todae especially the last min the last customer who bought a lot of stuff one... he is very gentleman... then todae my boss sae tt i had done a great job... haha... this is the first time he praise mi... haha... had a talk wit him abt the products n feedback...

overall todae is great... it is gg to be a gd yr ahead.... although life is full of ups n downs but as long as we can overcome it.... the road in front of us will be happiness n blessing.... i believe.... i am feeling very happi n contented now...

New Yr New Resolutions for 2010

these r my new yr resolutions for the yr 2010

1) my parents, my friends especially those close one like my sis n buddies n my family members will be healthy n happi....

2) i wan my health will be better n my migraine will be under control n not act up easily n at the same time be happi.....

3) i can graudate from poli....

4) i can either go NIE or go work n study part time acca....

5) i wan to do well in my current part time job....

6) i can get gd results....

7) i wan my tolernaces n my control of temper to be better....

8) i hope to meet my mr right or be with him....

9) i wan a new handphone...

10) i wan to change my character for the better....

11) i wan to have more freedom....

12) i wan to pamper myself n treat my parents gd food....

Summarise of the yr 2009

summarise of the year 2009... it was a happening yr which make mi grow up n learn a lot of stuff... at the same time also see through a lot of stuff.... becoming more mature too.... i also enter adulthood this yr as i turn 21..... a lot of things had happen be it friends or families.... although my r/s is blank.... seen through a lot also....

i am contented n happi wit wat i have... i was feel happi all the time..... i was feeling bless coz i got friends n family.... i thx them for being there for mi.... being supportive n showing lots of care n concern... i was a happi gal in 2009 n i shall be a happi gal forever coz i learnt to be contented wit wat i have n not keep on asking for more....

lazy n bz

the previous week was nth much as i went hm after sch... suppose to meet candy on her birthday but some things crop up so cancel it... then sat is my first dae of work.... not bad but tired... then after tt went to meet candy to pass her her present..... chat for a while n head hm.... sun also working....

then last week nth much.... juz meet ben on tues after sch n we had a catch up n talk quite a lot.... after tt he sent mi hm... then thurs nite went to eat steamboat at bugis wit meifang irene how darren vincent henry n tony.... then after tt went to pub at boat quay for a drink wit meifang her hubby n vincent as vincent friends is there.... it was quite fun hanging out n noe his friends... thx meifang for the steamboat n vincent for the drink... then christmas n sat was working full shift n sun half dae.... dead tired....

as usual lab is fun sometimes....

this week dunnoe who to join as there was quite a few plus i need to work on new year n sat full shift... thinking now.... later gg to celebrate irene tay birthday le.... yea.... happi....

last week was a bz week i guess... haha... finally got things to do... then everydae went hm after sch due to pms.. wed went to vincent there to check some things out... then thurs went to meet candy for a while... then fri went to do my nails... sat went for interview at tam mall... sun went to zhixin birthday chalet...

todae is the start of another bz dae... but the test sucks coz it is tough... dunnoe how to do... haiz.. :(

nth much ba... talk to ben last nite abt some stuff n he gave mi his advise.... n i made him worry for mi again... sorry.... but i will take care of myself.. dun worry i will be happi... i will let u see the happi mi.... :)

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slacking

last week was quite a ok week.... nth much to do... slack for a week in lab.... but it was fun at nite... mon went out wit irene how irene tay meifang sunny n irene how friend... they went to celebrate my birthday n they gave mi presents... haha.. thx a lot...

tues went to meet joanne n celebrate our birthday... we went to a restauarnt at arab street... the food was nice n a lot... then we went tcc for dessert... as usual we have a great chat n catch up...

wed n thurs went hm after fyp...

then fri went out wit nana for dinner at tcc.... yea... one down... next one is dome on christmas eve... :)

this week is gg be a bz week too...

happy 21st to mi

happi 21st to mi...

a new phrase of life... the beginning of adulthood...

everydae was a blink

this week was a fast week i guess... everydae pass so fast... this week was the last week of the A1 students in sch... ya i took lots of photos wit them... nth much happen also but this week was full of laughter... was kinda sad coz they left... but i thx them for the wonderful memories they gave mi for the past 6 weeks...

then tues presentation sucks coz of the assessors... but nvr it is over...
then fri went to do my nails n sat to pray at temple.... after tt head hm to prepare for my birthday party... it was a successful one... a lot of ppl came n it was full of fun n laughter... thx you for coming n ur presents... then todae slack at hm coz i was so tired n my cousin ah boy came to pass mi my present...

tml is the start of the new sch for A2... new friends again...

bz n tired

i celebrate my advance 21st birthday on 15 nov wit henry meifang her hubby xiao qiang n simin... as usual we went ktv... they brought mi a necklace from citigems.... thx for the celebrations n gift... i like the gift very much...

then last week was my last week of tuition n now i declare i am off for holiday... i guess both the students n mi r tired of everydae tuition from mon to fri... we need a break so i request for it.... then last thurs went town wit my cousin ah hui n yi fang... we went to eat sakae sushi n ah hui got piss by the person there.... as usual gals talk then we went shopping at far east n i brought 2 dresses n a vest... thx ah hui for paying as she brought mi as my birthday gift... fri went to find cheryl to talk for a while n head to shop... ya i bought stuff again... yest went for facial n ended up didnt do due to mi late... after tt headed to collect my stuff n went to find alex loke to chat... todae went out wit nana but something happen so end up i shop alone....

nana hope u recover soon... take good care n rest well... :)

fyp was fun n full of laughter...

upset

i am very upset due to certain things tt happen todae... so i dun wish to sae much abt wat happen todae...

although i was very upset but someone make the effort to cheer mi up by making mi smile... i thx him for the little things tt he had done after noe wat happen n he noe tt i am upset... thx a lot...

then i reject A on sun nite... i am sorry.... realli sorry... not tt i nvr consider or wat... i did... i realli do a lot of deep thought thinking... n after each time i think i feel very miserable n i realise we r juz not suitable for many reasons n u do noe the reasons y... so let juz be friends wont it be better.... tt is how i felt...

fun n tiring daes...

last fri was a pretty well dae i guess.. coz i told my dd tt i havent finish reading... so he ask mi to continue to read.... then after tt went to collect my stuff at bukit merah.... fyp was fun tt dae coz i kept laughing n laughing... the person opposite mi keep entertaining mi n wang qi wit lots of jokes... then sat went out for interview... after tt went to meet dad to eat at chinatown... then after tt i went off to meet ben to chat for a while n i bump into one of my sch mate... then sun stay at hm the whole dae to slack n read my report.... n i pack my hse during the evening... i clean up my room coz i find it messy n tidy up all my stuff... then gave away all the unwanted stuff.... n i realised tt i have a lot of pairs of shoes... too much heels le...

todae was pretty alrite as i spend almost the whole dae downloading the software n finally download the correct one n off i went to connect my circuit... circuit was halfway done... todae is realli fun coz it is full of laughter although it is tiring... i love the daes where i can laugh n laugh...

fate

nth much this week ba... but fyp was fun i guess... although i am busy but i still find it fun n lot of laughter... nth much for the week except tuition n fyp...

fri after fyp went to meet nana for dinner at np... n i brought 1 pair of scandals and a 1 inch heels.... then sat went to meet nana n headed for a swim... at nite was chatting wit ben.. chat a lot... n we chat until 2 plus in the morning... then todae meet nana for dinner n she shop for a present while i shop for a mp3... it is darm freaking sad for both of us as we had our dinner at delifrance n we r still not full... the worse is the waiting time for food is darm long...

omg... i brought 1 pair of slippers, 1 pair of cover shoes, 1 scandals, 1 pair of 3 inch heels n 1 pair of 1 inch heels this mth... thx god 2 of the pairs r sponsor by my dad as he brought for mi when we went to shop for my birthday present....
tml start sch again... :)

a lot of things had happen last week... n i broke down n cry coz i was scared.... but i got my friends encouragement especially nana... during tt time i think a lot n a lot... n i realised a lot of things... thx you ppl for listening to mi... finally now the things r finally over... things r gg better n it will be better....

last fri went to yuki yaki to celebrate meifang n irene how birthday.... n juz nice tt dae was irene how rom... double celebration for her... all the best to u...
last sat was out wit victor for a gd catch up...

this week nth much as sch have started... now doing fyp... my job is to do report n report... wed was quite fun helping the lec out... a lot of jokes n laughter... got to noe my fyp mates better.... sch was pretty fun...
yest went to mac to slack the whole dae wit candy... i bought books again... then meet fred for a while to chat... candy n mi was talking abt students nowadaes r full of patterns...
todae met nana for dinner n a catch up... gals talk again... it was fun...

thx you everyone for ur concern... i am fine already... shall update tml...

EMOTIONALLY BREAKDOWN

WHY DO I HAVE TO ENDURE THIS AGAIN N AGAIN... IT SIMPLY SUCKS WHEN MY TEARS R LIKE TAP WATER KEEP ROLLING DOWN...

i will be fine alone...

pic of the dinner at shang ri la...

the drinks.. onli 3 belong to mi... 1 belong to my dad.... :)

mi at the hotel toilet...

mi while waiting for the food...

happi n tired...

nth much for last week except last thurs went to meet weiliang n his boss... he intro his boss to mi n had a chat wit them...

then mon went for my neighbour wedding dinner.... omg... it is so grand n romantic... dinner at shang ri wit a live band n singer from dunnoe which cafe n a live photo studio where u can take the photo there n develop instantly.... n they show a video of their wedding shoot taken in paris ..... it realli envy the ppl there... reach hm ard 12 plus as it ended late...overall it was a nice n pleasant dinner......
then wed went to meet cheryl n we went for waxing together.... then after tt we went to eat tarts at the nearby area coz i noe tt the area there got sell nice n delicious tarts..... i also pass her her belated birthday gift...
todae was my cousin birthday n had a small party at hm..... it was fun n great... as usual is a gathering too...

there r a lot of things gg on recently..... n it make mi feel so tired mentally.... but the fact is always a fact... we cannot run away but to accept it....n i had already accept it n face it...

1 happi thing is tt i clear all my modules for this sem... thx god.... n i left wit 1 more n fyp to go.... i am happi... realli happi even my grades r not gd coz i am lazy n i didnt study.... i am happi tt i pass.... my grades r bad coz i didnt put in effort....

sick

thurs was a nice catch up wit weiliang.... thx for treating mi foods n drinks everytime when we meet up.... it is the thoughts tt count although everytime u sae nvr... it was a very gd catch up indeed... talk a lot wit him.. we chatted for abt 2 hrs plus before we headed hm... then fri was sick coz of food posioning... still dunnoe which food did i ate wrong.... was very sick n dad brought mi to doc during the afternoon.... then cancel all my outings wit friends n tuition for my students as i was too sick n weak.... sorry alex loke n victor... have been slp since fri due to the medication..... then todae went for tuition n back hm... thx victor for sms to ask whether i am feeling better or not.... thx candy for asking too....

i am still sick n not feeling well after taking the medicine.... my throat is feeling pain after taking the medicine too.... i drink lots of honey water but it is onli temporaily.... shall see another doc soon if i still dun recover.... ya i took the wrong medicine yest morning... n i onli realised at nite tt i took the wrong tablets.... i think no one will be as blur as mi to take the wrong medicine... off to slp le as i am tired....

bz n bz

last week was a slacking week... last wed went out wit pearlene for a while... went walking ard at bugis... we also have a gd catch up.... then after tt was tuition... things hasnt been well for my student.... haiz... headache.... then sat went for liyan 21st birthday n had a gd catch up wit her n candy.... talk until 11pm.. gals talk again... :)

this week was a bz week too... mon went out to have dinner wit ade n meifang to celebrate ade brithday... it was her 21st birthday... brought then had a gd catch up wit them... i love talking to them... thx ade gave for the treat... then yest went out to meet chris wit alex loke.... had a chat wit chris.... coz he is gg to army later.... haha... all the best my friend... as usual full of craps n jokes..... he sae meet up soon again... haha... we shall see coz 3 of us r very bz... then after tt went to meet nana.... we went jurong pt.... another gal talk session.... then todae also meet her up last min at amk hub.... n i went wrong place... she sae meet at yishun but i blur blur heard it at amk... so end up she went amk to look for mi... tml gonna meet weiliang for coffee again... then fri is alex loke.... sat i meeting victor.... sun will be resting at hm....

my dad told mi on sat tt he is leaving for kl for a holiday trip on sun n will be back on tues.... he bought some tibits for us n cute pencils for mi...

i cook dinner for my mum on mon... coz she dun wanna eat out so i went to market n buy.... she was surprised as she always thought tt i cant cook... but not tt i cant cook.... is i am lazy to cook....

off to slp le... gg to update again tml...

exam over... happi.... holi is here...

mao 21st at downtown... us... the sec sch peeps...
1st pic...

us took this first while waiting for Mao

wit the birthday boy but too dark..

it was a bz weekend... sat was my cousin birthday.. the cake was nice n yummy.. best of all not so creamy but exp... haha... then sun was a bz dae to pray also... for the seventh mth.. todae had the test n wat come out was so different... no tips at all.. all the qns is totally different... manage to do but..

tml last ppr n holi here i come....

n A HAPPY TEACHER DAY TO ALL THE TEACHERS....

then after tt is Mao 21st birthday at downtown...

ppl r slowly getting over the fact tt my friend had pass away... she is in a better place now... rest in peace...

nth much happen for the past 3 weeks as i have been bz wit sch reports n projects n exams....
on 10 aug was my ah ma birthday... has a small celebration in her hse.... nth much expect eating n the usual manjiong session.... haha not bad i still won some money in the end...
the following dae was sem pro ppt...
then thurs went to meet zhiming at my hse downstair for a while n chatted quite a bit... as usual he keep on shooting mi...
then 15 aug sun went for mao shen 21st birthday celebrations... it was fun as usual a gathering wit lots of catch up n chatting...
the last mon went to meet weiliang for a good catch up... chat a lot too.... talk from work to relationship... jia you my friend...
yest went to meet candy n we went to eat bakerzin n chat a lot... it was a wonderful dinner...
nth much for these few daes as it was exam.... 3 pprs down.. left 2 more... jia you....

quite a lot of things had happen during these 3 weeks... but i have sort it out le... some things r not meant to be sae.... i am juz waiting to see the truth as time will tell as time pass...

teacher dae is coming...
liyan 21st next sat...
ade one soon too...

life is so unpredictable

life is so unpredictable... u will nvr noe wat is gg to be happen... todae got a shocking news from my friend chris.. he told mi one of our friend had commit suicide with her boyfriend and pass away.... it is so sudden... no one actually noes wat happen... everyone is shock... i told jolyn, bernard, fred, joanne, cheryl and liyan... all of us r feeling upset... it is all over the news...

i dunnoe y after the news i cant calm down... i cant... i wanted to go n see her for the last time... she is a nice gal... a cheerful gal... rest in peace my friend clara...

on mc todae again due to migrain.... since last thurs i have been suffering from it.... have been on medication.... but todae i ran out or medication so went to the doc.. n the doc is so kind tt he gave mi 60 tablets.... he told mi if the medication is too strong n i cant go sch tml go find him for another mc... he is cute isnt it...

戴爱玲 - 沸腾
作词：武雄 / 作曲：薛忠铭 / 编曲：薛忠铭
不要急着 向我索吻
不要这样 紧迫盯人
请你缓一缓 等一等
滚烫的爱情 会留下伤痕
不要露出 那种眼神
不要变得 如此冰冷
让我想一想 问一问
怎样的拥抱 才叫做永恒
爱与恨 找不到恒温
热与冷 全都让我沸腾
一场梦还在心里翻滚
你却装作不承认 故意不承认
像个不曾认识的人
忽远忽近忽热忽冷
爱与恨 我一样认真
热与冷 碰了心都会疼
两个人何苦争强斗狠
你看夜已那麽深 梦已那麽深
我也身不由己 爱你爱你爱你
我爱到沸腾 爱到沸腾
我爱到沸腾
我爱到沸腾 爱到沸腾 我痛到沸腾

currently is listen to this song.... n other songs of this singer....

nth much these few daes as i am bz.... student is having exams n i am also having exam soon... so it is gg to be very bz for mi... plus reports n lab test n all these r gg on... n i also have to go n coach my little cousin as it is exam time... juz met up wit nana for a dinner.... finally we met up after so long... as both of us r very bz... have a gd catch up wit her juz now... shall have one soon coz it is not enough as we have so much to chat abt....
dunnoe wat is wrong wit this blogger... cant post out my caption on top of the pic... shall figure it out when i am free...

the pink dress is the one tt i try for fun last sat while shopping wit cheryl... the black dress is the dress i bought at central for my com skill ppt 1... then white one i wore it for com skill ppt 2....

mi wit the pink dress...
mi n cheryl trying the dresses for fun coz we find it nice....

com skill ppt 2...

com skill ppt 1...

the black dress bought at central wit cheryl...

nth much ba for the previous week as it was bz as usual... then last week also nth much... was bz... sat went out wit cheryl as she went for facial n i went to walk ard.... then we shop... we bought some stuff... i bought a dress and a short... i also bought 3 bags at one go... haha... think i siao already... this week also nth much ba... gg to be bz again... coz next week got to hand up my slides n report for sem pro.... havent start yet... test is coming... muz study....

pearlene n janice i miss both of u lots...
pearlene is out of the sch for attachment so cant see her... then janice although in sch but our life are so bz n our time does not fit... haiz...
although now i always mix ard wit ppl... i can click well n talk wit them but i still miss pearlene n janice a lot a lot.... even though eddy n darren are in sch but i dun get to see them too coz they got their click too.... haiz... but life is not tt bad coz i mix ard n still get my laughter... :P

i wan to meet my dear sis nana... it been a long time since i met u.... ")

although there r a lot of ppl i wanna n need to meet.... (:

shall upload the overdue pic...
cheryl n mi at ndp....
mi sharon meifang irene n doreen...the grp photo...

it is gonna to be a long post since it been weeks since i last update..
start from the week 27 june ba... meet up wit my ex colleagues n have a gathering n henry n sunny birthday celebrations... as usual the clique... this time got quite a lot of ppl.. sharon n doreen came... it been ages since we last met... haha... then had fun wit them... after tt hm for a gathering... then didnt went for eugene birthdae... i am sorry... tt dae schedule was very tight... so have to cancel one... anyway happy 21st birthday to him... then sun went to meet zy abt the drawing... ask him for help... n he did help a lot... thx friend... then the following week is e learning week.... n nth much happen.... juz tuition n tuition ba... then sat went for ndp rehersal... it been ages since i last went... this yr ndp is great n nice to watch... then sun met candy for a while as she sae she havent met mi for a long time... she sae i was so bz.... sorry gal... then mon went out wit cheryl for her job interview n walk ard clark quay for a while.... then this whole week is common test.... it sucks meh... juz hope tt i can pass tt all... black out this time... then thurs finally met up wit ade le... it is so great to talk to her... love her lots...haiz... then nth much on weekend... slp the whole dae as i was tired... till now still feel tired...

to cheryl...
gal i noe u r sad n emo... but stay strong... i am always there for u.... cheer up... i noe u r feeling pain... dun worry time will let everything pass...

this 3 weeks i have been thinking a lot... n i have sort out my thinking too... have a clearer view... noe wat i am gg to do...

some things r running through my mind again... haiz... i think of u again... but i noe clearly tt i shld give up.... if else i will be hurt deeper... i dun wan to get hurt n into trouble coz of u... so i choose to protect myself before i realli got very deep hurt...

i have a funny n close buddy...
i have noe him for abt 4 yrs plus le... he is a gd friend... realli indeed one... although he is a player.... but he noes clearly wat he is doing n he doesnt hurt innocent ppl.... he is a player but he onli play wit gals who r player... if a gal is not player he will not play wit her coz he doesnt wan to hurt the gal... but he doesnt get close to them either coz he doesnt wanna to hurt them... so they r juz normal friends la... to mi he is a very important friend... coz we r best friend... he share wit mi his stuff n i share wit him my stuff.. but most of the time i am a listener... we enjoy each other company as we always juz find a place to sit down n start to chat... he always tell mi a lot of stuff... wat he do n how he think... in all the aspects which realli make mi understand him... we do heart to heart talk... tt y we r best friend.... we trust each other n have very gd n mutual understanding... we understand each other very well n noe how each other thinks... i do noe a lot of private stuff abt him... coz he realli open up to mi... he realli trust mi a lot n tt y he tell... we call n sms each other frequently to update abt each other progress... he tell mi 1 thing tt is he is always there for mi n he nvr left mi at all... so whenever i am down or wat juz tell him n he will be there to listen... juz like wat i always do... we have accompany each other through the dark period of each other life... tt y our friendship foundation is strong n we r maintaining it so it is gg stronger as the days go... there r times tt he is realli tired n he still talk or sms to mi until he cant take it..... i realli appreciate this friendship... it is not easy for us to maintain such a strong foundation friendship when he is a player... n he is very protective towards mi... he will try his best to protect mi from getting hurt but end up each time i am hurt all over n make him worried for mi... sorry my friend... i wont make u very worried for mi again... i will be learn to protect myself well coz i got u to be there for mi... thx for lending mi ur shoulders to lean on... thx for being such a wonderful friend... (:

i have been studying wit alex loke on tuesday n wednesday.. later gg to study again wit him... studying have been productive n i am seriously concentrating... tt is gd but math made mi mad coz i dun understand a lot of things... a lot of qns got jam halfway... i need help...

lots of thoughts are running through my mind yest... but now i am fine already.. got a harsh scolding from alex loke... he is rite... i shld wake up le... then cheryl also sae the same thing... nana sae tt long ago... yes... n i have woken up le...
i already lost this game long ago... n i shld end long ago too... u r juz playing mi.... u r a player... so wat i am ur gf... u dun love mi... u r juz using mi... wat i wan is ur love but it will nvr happen... coz u wont love mi... no matter wat u sae is not gonna change the fact... if u realli love mi... u will prove it to mi but u didnt... i did love u... n i realli love u... it is a fact... but u choose to play it instead of treasuring it... so juz leave mi alone... i will be happier without u...

nth much for mon n tues as i slack at hm... wed went to study wit alex loke n meet nana too... but end up talking session... it was fun.. after tt aj call mi n ask mi to meet him up to chat... when he call mi he is at my hse downstairs le... so went down to chat.. then thurs meet alex loke to help him do his report n to our surprise aj join us... then aj piss mi off... then fri alex loke accompany mi to cheryl son birthdae... thx for accompany... i enjoy myself... then sat went to meet cheryl for a while... sun nth much as is father day n my great grandpa death anni... so having a gathering n manjiong session wit my family... n a mini celebration of father day..

early in the morning at 9 plus my classmate call n ask mi... then end up i too lazy n tired so went back to slp until 12 plus when alex loke call mi... then chatted until 3 plus n went to my ah ma to eat n teach my cousin since i am waiting for alex to wake up...after tt i went back to rest...
suppose to meet alex but he overslept so cancel in the end... we had some conflicts... i dunnoe wat is wrong wit both of us... we seems to have conflicts often.. i have been thinking since juz now... wat is wrong n i cant figure out.... i am SORRY for giving u attitude... i dun mean to... it is time for mi to do reflections again....

later gg to study wit alex loke.... realli study n buck up... is another bz week again... fully pack of things again...

to zy... seriously no pt asking mi whether i got bf or not... coz i whether i got or not... u dun stand a chance at all... i meant wat i sae.... i told u striaght le we r impossible meant we r not... no pt waiting for mi.... coz u r not wat..

nth much this week ba.... mon went out wti alex n tiff after sch for a catch up.. then tues went out wit alex for a gd chat either... then wed went to meet cheryl to study... n thurs cheryl went to my sch to find mi... n after tt wenxing cheryl bf came to find out.... after tt went to do my hands... then fri i went hm to slp after my class... then sat went to meet cheryl to walk walk for a while.... as usual we chat a lot... then todae slp the whole dae coz i was so tired.... not enough slp for the past few daes... then at nite went for a dinner wit my dad as to celebrate father day... juz chatted wit alex not long ago...
supper this few daes wit my dad... thurs nite went for supper wit my dad... fri nite my dad brought supper back... n sat nite went for supper wit my dad again.. tonite my dad brought supper back again... oh no... getting fat in this way...
dad thx for showering mi wit lots of love n care.... whenever i am sick... thx for calling hm to see tt whether i got see doc... sometimes my dad would ask my aunt to bring mi go see doc coz he is worried... thx for buying all the food tt i want to eat everytime n buy my fav food for mi... thx for pampering mi so much... thx for sharing wit mi ur stuff... no matter wat happen i will be there for u... happy father day to u...

i wan to meet fiona.... seriously i need to have a gd catch up wit u... sorry for being so bz...
liyan i wanna meet u up also... for a gd chat...
candy i need to meet u up also.. sorry for being so bz...
tracy i need to meet u up also...

i hate to be taken be taken for granted n make use of... dun ever think tt when u r making use of mi i dun noe... not i dunnoe is i dun wan to sae... i will tolerate it instead... then when it hit my limit i will explod tt all...

ya... nth much ba.. except from thurs onwards.... thurs meet up wit alex loke n we skip math class coz we were counselling aj... he was feeling emo... n he got a lot of doubts n qns... so help him to analysis... we chatted n rot at grassroot club until 9pm... then fri meet during the break n talk for 3 hrs n the same thing.. then i got a bit piss off as i keep on scolding him stupid... then at nite he sae wanna meet mi at my hse downstairs... so meet him for a while n chat... nearly halfway through i wan to throw him alone n go hm coz he keep trying his luck... he wan to see whether he can bump into her as she live next blk to mi.... then sat met him again coz he ask mi out... haha... this time wit alex loke again... he thought he onli meeting mi... who noes i ask alex loke again.. then his face change immediately when he saw him... he also talk very little words... then we decided to headed to pub... this time alex loke told him off in a very harsh words n tone... n i gave him a big scolding coz i realli angry le.... he is too persistant... then he become more emo after both of us take turns to talk to him... then something funny happen... after tt i shoot him again.. so from sat nite until now he is avoiding mi... haiz.. we told u off is for ur own gd... do u think we realli like to told u off meh... coz u cant wake up... as a friend we feel heartpain to see u like this... we wan u to stand up... so we told u off... anyway now i push the job back to alex loke since he is avoiding mi...

then fri went out wit cheryl to bugis for a while to walk walk n chat..

todae ppt sucks meh...

tml is a better dae...

a happening dae

todae is a happening dae...
in lab todae suddenly the lec sae got lab test... haiz.. he nvr give us time to prepare... sae test mean test... haiz.. do half of it as i onli noe half...

then went to meet cheryl at bugis for a while... sorry gal... didnt meant it... next time we gg meet for a long time n long gals talk... then after tt rush to meet fer... accompany fer as i chat wit him... he sms mi suddenly juz now while i was on my way meeting cheryl... he sae he need someone to accompany as he is feeling emo n down.. so went to meet him... then went for a drink instead... he drank quite a lot... then we sang some songs together like 你最珍贵, 窗外, 侯鸟.. then he sang 开不了口 while i sang 爱我的资格.... we can sing songs together coz we got the chemistry.... i realised we got gd chemistry... then he talk a lot of things la...

i noe u realli need mi now during this period of time... i can promise u tt i will nvr leave u alone.. instead i will accompany u to walk through this period of hard times... i will be there for u always.... like u r always there for mi...

nth much ba.. n i meet cheryl again on fri to chill for a while... as usual chat a lot... so fun wit her...

then yest went to meet candy for a while and we went sembawang shopping centre... then walk back to yishun... haha... had gals talk again.. talk a lot too.. haha... then she told mi no matter wat choice i made the person muz be able to give mi happiness...

thx cheryl n candy... thx for telling mi tt u will support my decision... thx for ur advise... thx for telling mi to be happi n to fight for my happiness...

had a talk wit fer last nite... but it wasnt long.. coz he was very exhausted.. thx for making the effort to talk to mi despite tt u r so tired...i noe u realli care n loved mi a lot... if not u wont do so much for mi... i realli appreciate all the things u had done for mi... be there for mi no matter wat happen... be there for mi whenever i am down or stress or upset... thx for cheering mi up always.. thx for being so supportive towards mi..

had a talk wit alex juz now too... sort things up n clear up most of the misunderstanding le... thx you... i am happi tt most of things r clear n sort out... but there r still some things tt i havent tell u... nvr tt r not impt anymore... as long as u r happi can le... i juz hope tt u can be happi n not emo le....

finally most of the stuff r done for this week... wed ppt died badly... kenna shoot until very bad.. haiz.. then todae one was not bad.. lec quite like it... haha.. yest went up to meet up wit cheryl n we had a gd catching up session... but it seems like we have endless topics to talk n to share.. got to noe more personal things abt each other... yea we r gg to meet up soon when i have settle more or my stuff.. nafa still havent go.. sian... gg to train up this week before i go.. haha..

a lot of things to be done this weekend... hope tt i can have enough rest ba.. hope so...
1) the cover n resume letter for com skills coz deaddue is mon...
2) ppt for 3271 muz be done n hand in on mon
3) the info n confirmation of concept of Eg 3266 by this week...
4) a few quizes to be done...

as i mention in the previous post tt i am piss off by some ppl... reasons is i had enough of their excuses... bz is not a excuse... does it mean tt bz dun need to get things done... seriously it is all abt time management... to mi bz is bz but it is nvr been an excuse... i realise tt they r selfish ppl... haiz.. y i have such team mates.. seriously i am starting to get piss off... coz i have realli heard enough of bz.. does it mean bz so cant do... n somemore all the work is allocated liao... always sae muz do end up... haiz.. dun wan to sae anymore liao...

after the chatting session wit cheryl noe more things n hear from her pt of view... similar to mine... haha.. same thinking..
for alex i hope things will go back to normal soon... things r gg back to normal soon i guess... at least i am happi coz he is not angry or piss off.. :)

help pearlene to take pic todae n have lot of fun.. recently had lot of fun... leslie, eddy they all cheer mi up... they make my dae man.. love them lots... wit them ard i wont feel bored...

nth much from last week till this week... though a lot of things happen n made mi think... first is alex.... i dunnoe wat to sae... second is fer... for fer i am lost of words coz he make mi emo... by the way thx for assuring n telling mi tt u will nvr leave mi n always be my best friend... thx a lot...

went out wit victor to explore arab street haji lane n holland village... then we learn a lot of stuff n noe more n we went into the malay heritage centre n the museum too... had a talk wit my friend leslie on sat nite... n it was very comfortable to chat wit him... then sun went to my pri sch friend chun jin 21st birthdae... mon was a fun dae coz got leslie to cheer mi up... haha... he is joker... then todae went out wit pearlene to bugis n then back to sch.. then celebrated pearlene birthdae in sch... she like it can le...

then piss off wit some people again...

happy birthday to pearlene

happy birthday to pearlene... may all ur dreams n wishes come true... hope tt u r happi everydae... may u find ur beloved soon... stay happi n take care always... love ya... :)

thx for being such a gd friend all these while... thx for listening to mi... :P

I HATE UR LIES... I HAD ENOUGH....
爱上你是一个错.... was listening to this song send by pearlene... then understood the meaning n this is how i feel now... loving u seems to be mistake... but i dun regret... i dun regret for the things i do.. i will take it as a lesson learnt n part of parcel of life...

a funny conversations wit one of my classmate on the way hm... i forgot his name.. i forgot how it is start but i can onli part of it...
A: the gal is pretty arh...
Mi: she got name one ok.. she is esther...
then i dunnoe how he can change the topic to mi...
A: jane u r pretty...
Mi: haha... no la...
A: then u r cute.. coz not pretty is cute....
Mi: i am not cute or pretty la... haha...
then ivan wanted to laugh coz of the funny chat...
then another coversation also funny but cannot sae here.. wan to noe ask mi....

nth much this few daes la...

flowers

shall keep it a secret who gave to mi.. haha... hehe.. thx for the rose... :)

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funny conversations

a funny conversation wit my lec..
mi: cher... my mentor call mi n sae i didnt go for ur class...
mi: but i dun remember i got skip ur class coz i came for all ur lessons..
my lec: oh yai forgot to inform the module coordinater... alrite i will inform him later...
mi: ok thx cher...
i got a cute n funny lec rite.. i agree too..

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this week

nth much this week as i am on mc for 3 daes... for tues i overslept.. but wed i am realli sick n thurs i went back sch for some lessons due to checking of some stuff n back hm to rest for the last lesson since my mc is until thurs.... then rest at hm n fri nite went out to partyworld wit eddy n darren to celebrate janice marie n pearlene birthday... it was realli fun and we got very high... i guess all of us realli enjoy the nite... then the clusmy mi accidentally spill a cup of bubble tea... but overall it was fun.. we promised to go there again when we r free... haha.. i realli miss u guys a lot.. even though we r in sch but we dun get to see each other as often as we used to hang out together coz of the specialisation n some r doing fyp n attachemnt.. then sat went to meet zhiyong to pass him his present.... then after tt went out wit someone... but this person disppointed mi again n again... shall not sae wat happen here... after tt went to meet nana n we got crazy coz she cry n i laugh like nobody business.. ppl thought we r siao... then went to my friend place for a while n headed to meet candy... then reach hm ard 4 plus... n halfeway through i realised I FORGOT TO BRING MY KEYS OUT... end up call my mum to wake up n open the door... n slp almost the whole dae until juz now went to meet candy for dinner... as usual we chat a lot...

u might be wonder why i let u go last night... the answer is very simple... if ur heart is not there for mi... wat for.. if i make u stay it will make both of us miserable... so i choose to let go.... but i dun denied tt the things u do realli touched mi .... i am not the type of gal who dun let go... no pt to hold on to a person whose heart is not there... i can tell u straight i am very disappointed last nite tt y i choose to kept my mouth shut..
3 yrs ago i become emo n sad coz of u.. 3 yrs later it is happening again.. i hate myself for letting history to be repeating it again...
i am juz s simple gal who long to be loved n care by the person who i loved...

i havent do finish my assignments n projects... arh... i hate them man... it is like nvr ending.. it is dueing soon.. woa pang... fainting soon.. STRESS.. i wan a break soon..

another week has past.... it was a bz week for mi... but it was a happi week for mi too... life is sch n work every dae... but it was full of laughter by my clique... wed i celebrate birthdae wit alex loke... fri skip math lec n went hm to slp coz thurs i stay up late to do fer present until 3am as i am meeting him on fri... finally i met my best buddy fer on fri nite to advance celebrate his birthdae..... anyway it was very fun for both of us n i guess we did realli have a lot of fun n enjoy it... both of us were smiling all the way throughout.. he was very touch n he like the present very much... then sat is tuition n todae went for facial wit nana... the person sae i got outbreak of pimples... expected... then shop wit nana for a while n we chatted a lot again.. :) shall see her soon... this week is gg to be bz as my students n cousins r having exam... fri i am meeting my clique to celebrate pearlene janice n marie birthdae... hope this coming weekend i can have a gd rest...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST BUDDY FER, JANICE KHO, CHRISTINA CHIN N JUN LONG...

thx fer for being there for mi through the bad times... thx for being there for mi whenever i need someone... thx for cheering mi up always... i am realli happi to have u as my best buddy...

i am so tired.... so drain out by sch... project n project.. nvr ending one... i am so tired n i need a break... :(

nth much this week ba... as usual bz... mon skip sch n went to see doc coz was not feeling well... doc told mi to rest n not tired myself more.. thurs skip math lec.... fri went malaysia wit my parents for the one dae tour.. it was not bad... the food is quite gd la... n i get to see a lot of fruits but there r still disappointment coz there r quite a no of fruits i didnt get to seen... overall not bad but very tired... then sat went to meet esther to do project... yea we finally settle most of it... then went to meet pearlene after tt for walk walk... get to talk a bit more wit her n get to see things more differently... then todae nth much ba... tuition n after tt went to teach my cousin... tml suppose to meet eddy to buy present but i cant make it...coz i totally forgot tt my student is having oral tml n english n chinese composition on tues n wed.... haiz.. this week gonna be a bz week i guess... i am off to slp le... tired....

stress

stress... i am stress... i got projects n project... lot n lots of them... it seems like nvr ending.. it is tougher then it seems... i muz realli study hard... life is bored... beside sch is tuition.. n now wed n fri have to go to my little cousin hse to teach her after my tuition... life is fun in sch n tuition... i got friends to cheer mi up n my students too... my students exam r coming in ard 2 weeks time... i am stress... this is the final yr.. jia you n everything is over soon... i am lacking so slp... i wan to slp... so tired... everydae reach hm ard 9 plus 10... everydae didnt get enough slp...

sometime i long to have the someone to be there for mi but it seems very hard... n i am used to it le... waiting... fate will decide ba..

todae is the first dae of sch n i already feeling tired... is due to the workload ba.. it is increasing as time goes... haiz... i wan to faint for the sem pro... it is so tough n someone is individual... it is STRESS.... this sem muz do well... muz work hard... my communication skills lec is very funny n interesting... she is fun i guess... tt is my first dae... starting to get use of the bz life again...

i am gg to malaysia next fri wit my family for a one dae tour... yea it is to take a break n recharge mi from the stressful life...

i guess i will be lazy n bz to update my blog ba... due to the bz life i am leading... off to bed le...

nth much this week ba... went to sch on wed for timetable.. n a lot of things screw up so went on thurs n finally solve... thx to tt lec mr tham for helping mi so much n pearlene also... thx for her help n accompany these 2 daes... then fri went to collect stuff n back to sch to buy books.. todae tuition n went out wit dad to suntec to see the tour thing... my dad tell mi a lot of stuff n i got to learn n noe more... my dad got so many things to tell n i can learn... :D

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i had a fun dae wit my parents..... they r so funny...

like is like...
love is love..
like is not love...

nth much these few daes except tuition... brought my little cousin out to enjoy herself... it been sometime since i brought her out.... haha... it is gd to see her enjoying herself... weekend will be rotting at hm again...

sch is starting in a week time... sian... gg to lead a super bz lifestyle again... :D

thx to all my friends for accepting mi... thx for the forgivness n tolerances u gave... like wat kat n hazel n mao shen sae... wat r friends for... thx for ur encouragement.... thx my sec sch friends for being there for mi always since sec sch life... especially nana kat ade n many more... not forgeting some of my poli friends too.. n the special someone too... :)

nth much these week i guess... haha... was a slacking week i guess.... yest meet up up song leng n liyan for a nice catch up n a gd breakfast... crap n lots of jokes... talk quite a lot too... then meet nana for a gd catch up at nite.... we did a gd catch up... thx a lot for listening to mi n ur advise... n tml gg for swimming wit nana n after tt belated dinner for hazel 21st wit the rest.... :)

slacking at home now... sat was a wonderful dae.... went to shop for a while before going ard to explore places.. walk a lot n get to noe a lot too..... this is one of the place tt i mange to explore.... after tt went to boat quay to enjoy the nite view... more to come when i continuing to explore... coz i didnt bring camera so didnt manage lots of pic... isnt it nice... haha... shld let u guys guess...

life is getting bz as usual but i am enjoying it... was bz working... i like the new environment tt i am working.. wit my new bosses r pleasant too... they r satisfied wit my work... i am happi too... enjoying the new environment tt i am in... they r nice bosses... they realli treat mi very gd... :) nth much beside working n working..... meeting victor on sat... :)

havent been updating my blog... getting lazier n lazier.... nth much from last week until this week... as it is onli tuition n home... last week i met candy for dinner on thurs... then fri i went for yida birthdae n sat went out wit nana... n todae i went for my job interview... :D

finally i told damian alvin n yong sheng tt i dun wanna work wit them anymore... it is finally settle...

finally had time to changed into a new blog skin... i love my new blog skins.. thx to nana...

this week is a bz week i guess... had tuition all the way until wed... then thurs n fri last min cancel...

mon went out wit liyan to buy denny present n we had lot of fun.... then thurs went for denny birthdae... not bad la... he keep serving us food until we cant eat... then went for a walk at the beach.... had a talk wit liyan... then todae went for ivan one... he also serve mi food... haha... i noe i bad la... overall both r fun coz there r so much funny things happening there... i enjoy myself...

first B ignore mi for 2 weeks n he is back to sms mi for a few daes n back to ignoring mi again... seriously i dunnoe wat he is thinking... his hot n cold attitude to mi make mi feel loss at times... haiz..

friendship r so fragile... it is very very fragile.... from best friends become strangers is the worst pain tt i had ever felt... it is so painful... it bleeds... i dunnoe wat is wrong... n i dun have the chance to even ask... haiz.. i have been wondering is it my pro... is it i dunnoe how to treasure u or i dunnoe how to maintain it... seriously i dunnoe coz u nvr gave us a chance to talk nor speak... i admit i got a lot of friends n i try to be there for everyone... there r quite a handful tt i always hang out wit... n i realli treasure the time spent... i am trying to treasure n maintain... i am trying my best le... but y still like this... i dunnoe but it is time for mi to do some thinking again... i realli thx those friends who r always there for mi n accept mi for who i am... thx you guys n gals... u all noe who u r... :-)

放了爱 by guo mei mei

你指向远方 爱情很晴朗
笑问不如今后就我们俩
怕泪会反光 钻进你的胸膛
但那不是感动 是 泪无法储藏

把美梦锁上 以为是天堂
羽翼折起在你身边静静躺
却只能用目光在空中翱翔
还得乔装安份 靠在你肩膀

放了爱 为了爱
这不是我 该怎么生活
放了爱

你说你喜欢 我笑得开朗
你越温柔 我越不想撒谎
我已办不到你想要的那样
客气地配合你 我感觉更勉强

别人的幸福 何必要模仿
心不在何苦 留躯壳在身旁
加满自由 我要无重量飞翔
就算以分离收场

放了爱 为了爱
这不是我 该怎么生活
放了爱 会明白
有种拥有 叫做放手

我的心 为爱流离失所
紧握最后回家的线索
等到寻获真正的我
证明我决定没有错

放了爱 为了爱
这不是我 想要的生活
放了爱 你会明白
有种拥有 叫做放手
放了爱

finally i bought a new printer n finish installing it... i am happi... but i am so stress n tired now... later is gg to be a long dae.... haiz.... juz now i teach 6 hrs of tuition n later still got another 6 hrs... it makes mi feel so tired.... i also feel very stress coz i scared she cannot do well.. she has so much to catch up...

out of sudden a lot of things began to happen one by one... first start wit B ignoring mi... which i guess i noe the reason... this shld be a cooling period for both of us... i guess time is the key to let things fade... second is my students... third is i told damian i will give him n alvin n yong sheng an ans... coz i already had the ans in my heart le... haiz...

i am stress n emo.... trying to solve one by one.. though it is draining mi out... i believe i can do it... :D