realli sick

these few daes down wit a heavy flu n fever... drag till juz now then went to see doctor... then rfeel very terrible.. now a bit better after taking medicine.. wan to go slp n rest le... tml off coz doc give mi mc... need to rest these few daes... need to get better... muz get well soon...

todae is sick

todae is sick again wit fever n sore throat n cough.... drink a lot of water todae.... now gg to slp... as tired ma... think le... tml go ask the guy at mac for no to be friends.... haha... don think too much... juz find him cute n onli wan to be friend wit him... he seem to be a nice guy ba.... haha.. be friend wit him le then noe how he is like lol... tt all.. off to slp...

I MISS ESTHER N AUNTIE CAT.... I AM DARM BORED WORKING ALONE.... NO ONE TO CHAT WIT ESPESIALLY ESTHER LEFT... IT WAS GREAT NOE HER... WE HAD A LOT OF FUN N GREAT TIME EVEN IT IS ONLI A FEW WEEKS... THANKS FOR GIVING MI SO MANY SUCH WONDERFUL MEMORIES... I WILL REMEMBER DE... i hope she will do well in shatec n her life will be great.... it is a new beginning for her... wish her all the best n a new gd start.. to mi work start to get boring without a company...




these few dae chat wit eugene find out tt he is a nice guy... he had a lot of thinking n very mature sometime also playful... he always make mi laugh.. he can cheer up my dae.... he is also gd at counselling ppl too... i can sense tt he wan to understand mi n trying to... but i don wan... coz my heart don wish to open yet ( ONLI HAPPEN ON GUYS )... don ask mi y coz i also don noe.... he sae if i have any qns can find him.... he will try his best to teach mi... he will also try to help mi... thanks lot....




havent get to chat to jerome for a few daes... he is leaving for malaysia soon for his holi... wish u enjoy...




i am happi these few daes... my daes r so gd n great.... todae sabrina came to find mi... glad u help mi to pass a bit of my time thx... she sae if i need help in poa n find her she is willing to teach mi... thx...




i am so happi n satisfied wit my life now... my life is filled wit colours... staying single is great.... i wont go into relatioship until i am confident.... i wan to stay single for the time being.... so sorry guys if i reject u... i am gd at anything but when it come to a relatioship i am a failure... i noe how to sae n tell others to do but i cant do it for mi... at my workplace mac there is a guy who is not bad looking working there.... haha... juz feel onli... don anyhow think... for mi now... i wan to focus on my studies onli... i juz wan to widen my social of friends by noe more friends....

sorry to those who i nearly throw my temper

last sundae was great... i went for service then after tt saw shuting n a few la... so happy to see them.. after tt went suntec to ply games... it was fun but tired.... i realli entoy... n ltr when i went working i start to throw my temper.... SORRY TO U ALL HOPE U ALL WILL FORGIVE MI... i didnt mean it but i still control... so onli throw a bit la... nearly lost control of my temper... don sae anymore la...

todae till sat i working full shift... was so tired.. poor mi... onli rest dae is sundae... my boss told mi to work on sun but i too tired le.. cant take it... sundae i gg to shiopping n rest... n i finish stock taking todae... haha.. i redo...


always not every friend will be lasting but they give mi great memories.... i do believe in forever friend.... todae fiona sae something tt i don wish to hear... she noe i am running away la...


TO GUYS WHO REALLI TRY UR BEST N WAN TO UNDERSTAND MI DE... I AM SORRY TT I DON WAN TO LET U ALL UNDERSTAND... SORRY.... ALTHOUGH I UNDERSTAND U ALL MORE.... I AM SORRY...

haha... todae so happy noe more friends.... went for church todae... then the service was so fun n i enjoy it...

gg to be lonely

esther n auntie cat is gg to work till this sun n they r not gg to be here anymore..... haiz.... SAD SAD SAD... i am gg to be alone.. nobody to tok to mi... slack wit mi... actually i wan to noe more abt esther then fate make fun lol... don let mi be close to her n noe this friend.... haiz.... i realli wan to be friend wit her n noe her more.... i am so lonely... so lonely...

lonely n shopping again

todae was so lonely coz esther was not working so feel very bored... n juz one dae n i cant stand it... don noe wat happen when she leave at this mth... haiz... i realli like this friend a lot from my heart as i like her comapny wit mi.... i like toking to this friend n noe more abt her... i wan to be best friend wit her.... hope tt there is chance... we r similar in some ways n characters tt y we can tok a lot from heart to heart... so happy to noe this friend...




then went shopping again... bought 2 pair of shoes... like it very much... one of the pair don have the colour i wan so choose another colour...



i am so sleepy as juz now slp at 8pm till 11pm then wake up... both of my fingers on my hand had a cut.. don noe when cut de... todae sales was not bad for mi...


off to slp as tired le...

shopping

went to get myself a pair of heels tt i have been eyeing.... n bought it le n also bought a pair for my cousin... then went to give my dad a treat... he was so happy... n bought ice-cream for desserts... todae still don have enough slp still feel very tired.. off to slp le...

happy belated father dae... ltr gg give my dad a treat but before tt i gg to get myself a pair of heels n slippers... realli very tired work 5 daes full time.... didnt have a rest lol.... have to chiong for sales... so very tired.. meet a lot of weird customers n ppl... haha... heard tt i am not stupid 3 has a show at suntec... heard from my friend de... haha.. gg to be out soon i think... nowadaes starting to get close to esther le.... noe her better n lots too... we r chatty at times n when we r free... we also help each other to buy food if either one is bz or don feel like gg.... also discuss abt the food at the foodcourt n fastfood near to out store... haha... now getting close to her as we walk to mrt together if i working nite shift lol... starting to think after this month we won get to see each other so often will somehow miss her ba... i now can understand how she is like... we r like close friend or sisters.... hope we have more chance.... guess ltr have to ade along if possible.... or go alone....

have been working from 12 to 10 from wed to sat... tml also.. i am feeling so tired... i need a rest to recharge... haha tml gg to get my overtime pay le.. can treat my parents go eat to celebrate father dae coz i cant tml.. i am working... so pay them back on mon... nowadae getting close to esther... become chatty as tok to her alot.. either i find her or she find mi... we can get close.. haha... noe a new friend.. so great n happy... i am realli happy wit my life noe...

so tired... yesterdae my boss call mi in the morning to work whole dae but i reject coz my skin is having problems the nite before.. so todae another one call... although i don feel like gg but i still agree in the end...coz i noe they r bz wit the other store... todae till fri i working full dae... gg to be tired coz sun is definitely full dae de then follow by mon off dae.... so tired... off to slp le.. tml still need to wake up to work....

went out wit kat n ade todae... nth lol juz usual meeting up n shop n tok lol... not bad lol todae stll ok la... ade nvr fail to entertain us.... she is forever so nice n cute... first we went tampines n shop ard then went to eat n went to causeway... then ade went for her thing n mi n kat went yishun n kat went np while i head home... chat up a lot wit them... they juz make my dae very happy...



these few daes havent been toking to him wonder how is he... it has become a habit ba i think... have the sense tt he is avoiding mi.... but don wan to think too much coz he wan if he will find mi de...



these few dae have been thinking abt him after i saw him at suntec..... we realli wan to be friends but we noe we cant... we have try for a few times le but we fail in the end... we try to control our feelings but he still fail in the end... so now we r like strangers... this shld be the best way ba... at least we wont be so miserable.... this time we realli put all the things to an end le... hope tt he is happy... hope he is doing well... THANKS FOR ALL THE THINGS U DID FOR MI.. I REALLI APPRECIATE... NOW IT IS TIME TO REALLI END IT LE... I HAVE MADE UP MY MIND LE.... i noe tt u wont be reading coz we have lost contact le... but i juz wan to write out how i feel... tt all.. is is so simple...



i may be strong at times but it comes to handling relationship n friendship i am very weak.... i will get hurt in the end..
i will lost all my emotions...
i will lost my rational...
i will lost my control...
tt is coz i realli treasure them a lot....
i have learn different type of friends to treat differently...for those who don deserve i wont care for them n give it a darm to them... i noe this is a bit selfish but this is the way to protect myself from getting hurt.... for those who deserve to be treat gd i will use my heart to treat u n care for u... i will prove to u tt u worth it... coz u all treat mi very gd also n i shld also show my sincerity to u to prove tt u worth it...

these few dae keep toking to esther... let both of us to get to noe each other much... haha tues i forgot to bring my key todae is her... funny lol... she told mi some things abt her n let mi get to noe her better.... haiz... did stock taking todae manage to finish as it is a lot of stuff lol.... haiz.. tml meeting kat n ade to go out since mi n ade didnt see kat for a long time... ya... look forward tml... off to slp le...

then next week i am working nite shift... n fri n sun is full dae.... is gg to be tired i think.. see how ba...

LACK OF SLEEP....

todae was so tired coz this few daes wake up early n slp late.... todae got to noe a friend more ... her name is esther hope tt i didnt spell wrongly... chat wit her for abt an hr after i knock off... noe more abt her.... she is onli 1 yr younger n she already plan for her future.. she noe wat her future will be like as she had already choosen her path... she made mi very impress by the way she talk... she is gg to shatec in july... she noe wat she wan in her life n acheive it... her toking n thinking are very mature... she is a nice gal... she is also very cheerful n happy go lucky.... wish her all the best for her future n succeed soon.. so tired tis few daes so off to slp after finishing burning disc for my aunt......

wat shld i do

i don noe wat happen after i toking to lai... i will get depress... i noe she is always using mi... n i always believe tt she will change till now i have given up hope on her... coz i am tired of this friendship... i don wan to get hurt anymore... i noe i am selfish this way but i am afraid to get hurt.... sorry i have given up on u... I NOE LONG AGO SHE IS USING MI BUT I DON WAN TO FACE THE REALITY... I JUZ DON WAN TO FACE IT.... WHEN IT COME TO FRIENDSHIP I AM ALSO AFRAID TO FACE THE REALITY EVEN I NOE IT.... I WILL HURT TILL VERY DEEP... BUT LUCKILY I GOT A LOT OF GOOD N GREAT FRIENDS ARD MI... THANKS FOR THERE FOR MI... I REALLY APPRECIATE IT....

NEED A BREAK

todae was so tired.... todae working saw a person... saw my first stead.... feeling so confuses now... he still the same... never lack of gals... he is always so popular wit gals... ltr after work went to meet rayner for a while to pass him the book he wan... then went home... nth much...

WHY WE ARE LIKE THIS....
WHY FATE MAKE US NOE EACH OTHER....
WHY WE SOMETIME TIME SO CLOSE....
WHY WE LIKE STRANGERS AGAIN...
WHY U DO THIS TO MI...
WHY CANT JUZ REMAIN AS ONLY FRIENDS....
WHYYYYYYY?????????
HAIZ>>>>

SO TIRED N HAPPY N SLEEPY

todae work up at 9 n slp at 3 in the morning... haiz so tired n todae do stock taking from opening til 9pm so tired of countong... manage to finish but onli finish putting price tag for 1/8 of the products... tml still muz continue but i gg another place to help out as tml opening dae... sms alex n tok to candy on the way home... tok to fiona on the way to work... noe wat shld i do le... thx for giving mi the advise... TODAE SALES WAS GD AS MY BOSS IS HAPPY WIT MI... off to slp le...

todae was feeling down again coz i ps lai.... SORRY I DIDNT MEAN IT... guess she is angry wit mi ba... so this made my mood feeling down... i promise if i have the time surely go out wit u de... then keep thinking wat r friends for.... if friends cant be a bit more tolerance n forgiving... wat is the point of being friends... haiz... then fiona cheer up up n my dae is juz great... went working todae wit my boss after mon i will be alone.... coz she gonli guiding mi ma...