nth much happen this week as i stay at home most of the time slacking except from thurs onwards.... todae meet anthony n do our cost accounting project then after tt went for my neighbour wedding dinner.... sian tml start sch le.... tired.....

mi at the toilet of the restuarant...
the drinks....

ktv on 28/6/08

ktv on 28/6/08 to celebrate henry n sunny birthdae.... got irene tay irene how irene how bf meifang n her hubby n vincent... it was very fun n we r very high...... here r the photos of the ktv session....

birthdae boys wit the gals...
sunny irene n henry....

them again...
sunny n henry wit mi...
mi wit vincent...

mi wit meifang....

wit meifang hubby...
meifang n irene how...
mi wit sunny....
us acting cute...
mi wit irene how....

irene tay wit mi...
henry n irene tay...
irene tay n vincent....
them again...
henry meifang sunny....

birthdae boys...

they making their wishes...
they cutting the cake...
the gals...

grp photos...
grp photo again...
the guys...
the guys again...
2 irene...

2 irene again...
the birthdae cake...

i am very happi todae...

i am very happi todae... coz finally all the tests r over le.... but i noe i screw up all the pprs... anyway it is over n dun think too much le... juz pray tt juz pass can le.... after my last ppr todae i went to cityhall to meet weiliang.... accompany him to take his stuff first then we headed to ps for lunch.... he treated mi ajisen then after tt plan to go starbucks for coffee but too many ppl so end up at tcc instead... as usual i order my favourite orea milkshake n he order a black sesame drink.... he treated mi again... thx for treating mi.... n we chatted a lot.... he make mi laugh n laugh.... then headed home after coffee...

unhappi

too many things r happening at the same time.... n it is still happening... i cant take it anymore... i am breaking down... i hate all this.... realli hate.... it always happen when i started to feel happi n blessed... y muz all this happen at this time... i dun understand... when my life is ok n i am happi a lot of shitting things will happen.... it sucks totally.... i juz wan to be simple n happi tt all.... y it seems so hard to mi... n y all this is nvr ending.... i am tired le.... be it mentally or physically.... i wan to run away or mia...

as for boyfriend.... i feel tt whether i have or not don make a different..... todae he juz send a sms apologising.... he call juz now.... he noe i am feeling moody so he try to cheer mi up but i juz cant.... he wanted to noe but i refused to sae.... in this relationship i dun noe wat he is thinking or how he think.... even i ask he refuse to tell.... i hate guessing games... i can be understanding but if i dun noe how u think how u wan mi to understand.... i feel so insecure... even u r not gd looking but u r very gd at sweet talking to gals... i dun noe wat u wan.... seriously dun noe n dun expect mi to noe when u dun even tell mi when i ask u... when i am having a lot of problems he isnt there.... i noe he is bz so i juz kept quiet.... there is a lot of problems n i juz list out some... too much for mi tt i dun wan to take it anymore.. i juz feel tt single will be better ba.... so juz leave it like this n i will settle it soon... i need to think how to tell n chat wit him ba... dun wan to make it worse...

todae went to make my ic coz i had lost it.... thx victor for accompanying mi... thx for listening to mi... thx a lot my friend.... i hope tt u can find ur special someone.... dun worry....

3 ppr down n left 2.... 2 out of 3 r killers.... haiz... pray tt i c an pass tt all.... realli hope tt gods bless mi....

i have decided to take in another student.... reasons ask mi personally... i dun wish to sae here....

recently there r a lot of problems n i nvr tell anyone abt it... have been talking to weiliang these few daes... learn a lot from him.... then yest had a chat wit him again n he comfort n console mi a lot... thx friend... then juz told liyan n victor too... thx guys n gals for being there for mi always.... without u i realli dun noe how.... haiz....

i finally noe who i love le.... i guess i noe wat to do... as for boyfriend he nvr sms mi if i dun sms him first.... nvr... he also nvr reply nor call... he nvr let mi talk... he nvr tell mi how he feels even i ask him... i am tryin to be understanding but i hope tt when i face anything he is there for mi.... but seems tt this is not the case... he is bz n tired so i shld juz keep quiet ba... i guess so... since i have my friends.... shld not care of think so much since i already had the ans... will think n solve after my test r over.... no mood to think....

为何命运一直捉弄我们...

为何命运一直捉弄我们... 让我们一直察间而过... 我们已经错过好几次了... 难道这是我们的命运... i dun wan us to be like this... i dun wan us to be forever stuck in this type of relationship... like lovers not lovers.... like very close friends also dun look like.... i hate this type... this make us feel very painful n miserable isnt it..... i noe how u feels... i am also feeling the same way isnt it.... i guess we have to talk n sort everything out one dae... it might be better for us... shall see how...

common test is tml n yet i havent start studying yet... i noe i am funny.... coz now everyone is studying n i am here blogging... need to go study le as i wan to do well from this sem onwards...

emo n unreasonable

todae i am so emo n unreasonable.... boyfriend sms mi n i dun reply.... end up he call n i also dun ans.... until he nearly angry le then i reply.... i noe i am bad to make him angry.... i dun mean it... realli dun... i am also in a very bad mood n lost... then he call mi up the second time n i got no choice but to pick up his call coz i noe he is gg to get angry... ok... told him wat happen.... he call mi silly... i did feel a bit better but still emotional not very stable....

cant slp

last nite had a very bad nightmare n i feel so tired after waking up... still tired n sleepy.... drag myself out of the bed n went to give tuition.... the reason i gave in the afternoon is coz i am helping my friend to relieve at night so i change my tuition to afternoon todae..... then plan to slp but i cant slp.... have a sense tt something very bad is gg to happen.... coz i am experiencing it all over again.... n i am simply too tired... i juz wan to slp but when i close my eyes... i cant...


to those gals.... i am juz a simple gal.... i nvr provoke u all n y u keep on harming mi n not letting mi off.... y cant u gals let mi off.... i nvr fight wit u all for anything... cant u gals juz stop it.... i am sick n tired le....juz leave mi alone wont u.... if u push mi to my limit i also dun noe wat i will do... but 1 thing i am sure is i wont let u gals harms anyone tt is close to mi.... i will do anything juz to protect them from any harm....

feeling so lost

i dun noe wat happen to mi either.... i feel so lost.... realli lost... i dun noe y i am feeling this way either... i had been asking myself a lot of qns.... do i love or do i like my boyfriend.... if i love how much love..... then i wonder is he true to mi... no doubt he did for mi a lot of things.... but things can be juz covering up... he is there for mi everytime to cheer mi to make mi happi.... he is there to help mi so my problems too....i realli dun noe... haiz....



dear i promise u to be a happi gal n i am realli sorry.... i fail to do it coz i realli think a lot... many thought had been running through my mind these few daes n i had been thinking too...

i am a blessed gal...

i juz realise a lot of things.... the most impt thing is a relationship is whether the guy love u or not... for the future i may not noe but for now i noe... i am a blessed gal... my boyfriend shower mi wit lots of love care n concern.... went to boyfriend hse again todae n he cook for mi again then we headed to courts n giant to shop for a while... i juz love the feeling of being wit him....

at home zilian again...
at quailty hotel.... my cousin wedding... my light make up....

i loved u all....

after talking to tracy n dear i feel better.... i realli feel great to have my dear n my beloved friends wit mi to share my everything from happiness to sad.... tracy was happi for mi tt i found my happiness.... to mi not onli i am happi is enough.... i wan all my friends to be happi especially the close one.... so tracy muz be happi ok... i believe u will find ur one eventually.... u r a gd gal be it a friend or gf... so u will be rewarded wit happiness eventually.... everything will be over n u will be once happi again....

yest went to meet my dear in the morning n he cook breakfast for mi coz i dun noe how to cook.... he is very sweet... i love him.... then went to meet darling fiona ard evening... i noe tt she is sad n unhappi.... i wish tt she will be able to get over soon... it is hard but time is the key.... gal i noe a lot of things had happen recently for u n u cant cope wit it... u r on the edge of breaking down... i noe this scar is gg to take a long time to recover tt u choose to MIA for a period of time.... dun worry everything is gg to be fine...

todae went for my cousin wedding n it is so funny.... lots of jokes... ya... finally i put make up myself le... n ah hui sae my make up is very nice...

tues went to meet liyan n we went to eat sakae... then wed meet tracy n then thurs meet david... n fri meet candy n calvin....slacking n crapping is wat we did la.... quite fun wit them also....

TO ALL MY FRIENDS I HOPE TT U GUYS N GALS WILL BE HAPPI FOREVER ESPECIALLY FIONA TRACY LIYAN TIFFANY CANDY.... REMEMBER NO MATTER WAT HAPPEN I WILL BE THERE FOR U ALL... I WILL NVR LEAVE MY FRIENDS WHEN THEY NEED MI....

I LOVED ALL MY FRIENDS ESPECIALLY MY DEAR N MY DARLING... thx dear for showering mi wit so much love.... thx for ur bao rong n care n concern.... i muz also thx my friends for bao rong mi also....

todae juz screw up...

i juz dun understand certain things... maybe i forever dun understand... realli... shld juz go n bang my wall... i screw up my dae again....

January 14th - Diary Day
日记情人节关键词：日记本新的一年的开始，对自己喜欢的人要有表白和计划，写在自己的日记本里，在心中撒下爱的种子。

February 14th - Valentine’s Day
传统情人节关键词：巧克力根据西方的传统，喜欢他就快送 他巧克力，要赶快，因为他不一定只收到你的那块巧克力。

March 14th - White Day
白色情人节关键词：白色糖果终于等到这一天了！他也喜欢你吗？还是他喜欢吃巧克力？今天就会知道了！在送出巧克力的一个月后，女生就能收到同样喜欢自己的男生送的白色糖果。吃颗糖，感觉真甜蜜！

April 14th - Black Day
黑色情人节关键词：杂酱面这个黑色可不是“黑色星期五”的黑色,而是杂酱面是黑色的。他吃了你送的巧克力，你尝了他送的糖，那么一起去吃杂酱面吧！在传统好味道里，两个人的心也可以连在
一起。

May 14th - Yellow & Rose Day
玫瑰情人节关键词：玫瑰在一起也有一段时间了，他是真的喜欢你吗？他真的是你要找寻的那一半吗？应该表白一下啦！不好意思？没关系，你只要在今天买玫瑰给对方就OK啦！白色：一般朋友，黄色：知己，红色：爱人。你一定会送红色的。

June 14th - Kiss Day
亲亲情人节关键词：KISS你也收到他的红玫瑰了？ 我闪人。因为你们马上要kiss了！今天看见别人在kiss，不用回避，因为今天是Kiss Day。

July 14th - Green Day
绿色情人节关键词：郊游相爱的人们成双成对地去郊游，爬山游水感受自然，就像他们要携手走过爱情一样。

August 14th - Silver Day
银色情人节关键词：银戒传统习俗是用银戒订婚，所以今天你们也去买一对，戴在手上，作为甜蜜心情的见证。

September 14th - Music & Photo Day
相片情人节关键词：相片练了好久的情歌今天终于登场了，虽然五音不全，但是用去听就有会新的笑容！拿出相机， 拍下这灿烂、充满甜蜜的笑容。

October 14th - Wine Day
葡萄酒情人节关键词：葡萄酒烛光下晃动着深红的葡萄酒，爱情 一样要用心慢慢的品味。

November 14th - Orange & Movie Day
电影情人节关键词：电影今晚有空吗？一起去看电影吧!手牵手一起去电影院，记得买橙汁！

December 14th - Hug Day
拥抱情人节关键词：拥抱一年了，你们仍然相爱，你看天空飘着雪花，而你们相拥在一起，永远也不知道寒冷！

做你的公主

或许你没看出来

周围的人都在猜

有种感觉正在我们之间展开

喜欢你偶而作怪　

不经意流露的坏

其实体贴实在　

孩子气的胸怀

曾经有过的恋爱　

彷佛一片空白直到遇见你我才真的存在

我只想做你的公主　

拥有那平凡的幸福

华丽的珍珠　

不如眼底的专注

对我深深呵护　

我想我是你的公主

终结这多年的追逐

当你抱着我　

地球也暂停脚步

我剎那间清楚
　
你是我的幸福

沉潜太久的孤独　

这一刻获得救赎

我忽然好想哭
　
感激你这一路

陪我笑　陪着我辛苦

无悔的付出

i have solve the problem but it didnt ended well coz he is a bad guy.... u juz go n die.... asshole.... he couldnt get my love so he end up from love to hate.... worse is he ask mi to watch out n remember.... then the next moment he sms liyan.... if u dare to hurt her u see.... i tell u no one will let u off.... the way he love is juz forcing ppl to be wit him.... he juz wan to have a gf to stop his lonelyness... he dun noe wat is love.... if ppl cant be wit him he will curse n hate tt person.... ask him to n die ba...


finally i am attached.... thx for being my angel all these well... thx for making mi happi... thx for wanting to make mi happi always... thx for being there for mi always.... thx for telling mi how to love n teaching mi how to love... thx for everything u did..... thx for ur unconditional love...

HAIZ.... DUN NOE WAT TO DO....

HAIZ.... I DUN NOE WAT TO DO OR SAE NOW.... I AM FEELING SO FAN... i realli dun noe wat to do now... watever i do need to be careful n think properly.... i realise one thing in relationship be it a lady or man... if their thinking is not mature enough they will end up hurting the ppl they loved the most n themselves will be the worst.... loving a person need not to be wit tt person... is to see tt person happi n he or she will be happi to see the person they love happi... they will feel contented n enough.... if they dun let go or persist on... they r juz making the situation worse n everyone life miserable...

i am stuck in a stupid n complicated situation which i dun noe wat to do... i noe david like mi some time ago... so when i sense it i kept a distance from him... the on wed nite he sms mi ask mi how i was doing so we sms through the nite... we chat a lot... i feel tt my sms reply give him hope... then i think it would be better if i make clear to him so he ask mi yest n i met him... then i indirectly told him i got a guy i like so tt he can give mi up... then i ask him abt the guy i like wat is his character since he sae who i like n i told him.... he sae they r gd friends.... he sae he will wish mi... so i trust tt he wont make things worse.... when he tell mi to do it myself i sae ok... coz i wan to ask the guy out so ask him to help mi.... but in the end i think it would be better for mi to ask... after i board the bus he sms mi tt he help mi ask liao then i ask him u tell mi to ask myself then y u help mi.... then end up he tell mi he like mi i was like shock... n he told mi he was a bit angry when i reject him... then i ask him y he help he sae he love mi so he help mi.... then he sae ltr in the phone he dun care wat will happen he juz wan to help mi even my dm or sdm noe it so wat.... to mi i realli feel scare.... i dun noe wat he is thinking... i have a very bad feeling... so i called up calvin n he also dun noe wat to do... he has a bad feeling too.... then i call adrian.... adrian told mi to calm down and then he tell mi to tell him wat happen... i told him the whole story... he teaches mi wat to do n gives mi a lot of precious advise..... he analaysis the whole situation from the guy pt of view... thx friends for ur advise.... i realli appreciate....


i am realli fan now... i dun noe how to solve it... even adrian so pro also sae muz meet the guy then noe wat to do next... it is like a guessing game... i realli hate this type of guessing game... adrian is rite he sae david is playing games coz he cannot accept the fact tt he lost.... i realli dun noe wat david is thinking.... i am so scare of him now... i dun noe how to face him... in relationship everyone is free to choose... if juz happen the person u like dun like u... u can onli give them ur blessing or help them to get their happiness... when u see them happi u will be happi.... tt is the way of loved... not to break up or hurt the person u loved the most by thinking since she dun love mi i dun let her get the love she wan... in this way u will end up getting the most hurt....loving a person is to let the person go if they dun love u..... david is one of this type of ppl i guess.... tt y he always end up getting hurt... he dun noe wat is love.... i hope tt he wont hurt mi so tt he wont end up hurting himself the most in the end....

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

Ans: breakup....

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?

Ans: i wan to be happi....

#3. What will your dream wedding to be like?

Ans: very simple n yet nice wedding..

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

Ans: no...

#5. what's your ideal lover like?

Ans: understanding, show care n concern, wont neglect mi n give mi lots of love...

#6. What is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?both?

Ans: both.. love must be mutual coz if i love someone & he dun love me.. very saddening one.. if someone love me & i dun love him.. very irritating one..

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

Ans: erm... not sure until the dae when i am tired n someone had come along...

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

Ans: be his guardian angel....

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?

Ans: ya.... someone who noe who i love n try to make mi n the guy i love cant be together....

#10. Is being tagged fun?

Ans: ok la...

#11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?

Ans: a career woman n a wife of my hubby...

#12. Who are currently the most important people to you?

Ans: buddies, sisters, friends, familes, n him....

#13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?

Ans: my friend who wan to noe how i ans....

#14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?

Ans: rich n married...

#15. What's the first thing you do every morning?

Ans: stop the alarm in my phone...

16. Would you give all in a relationship?

Ans: yes.... i will sacrific juz for the person....

#17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?

Ans: the one who i love more...

#18. What type of friends do you like?

Ans: trust, be there always, like mi who who am i, straight forward one....

#19. What type of friends do you dislike?

Ans: fake.. backstabbers.. act act....

TAGGED BY : VERLYN

whom i tagged: TRACY CANDY JOLYN JIAN YING HENRY TIFFANY SHIRLEY LIYAN

photos of sun tanning at sentosa at 9/6/08

mon went sun tanning wit tiff in sentosa.... it was fun... we took lots of photos n talk a lot... after tt went to lot one to eat n headed home.... we talk from the guys tt we noe n to the guys tt go after us... in our heart we r onli waiting for the special one onli... her one has appear but where is mine...