i am realli hurt by his way of things..... it pains so much.... my heart bleeds.... realli bleeds.... heart scattered n broken into pierces.... i dun noe how the future is gg to be.... now i cant sleep at nites coz of the nightmare i am having n i am gg to collapse soon wit the amt of medicine increasing... haha.... one dae i will juz heck care n dun eat anymore.... i have lost my hope n dreams totally.... i dun noe wat will last.... i wonder do relationship realli last..... maybe for mi it doesnt exist... or i dont deserve happiness at last.... i realise happiness dont belong to mi.... onli darkness belong to mi....



i realli miss him a lot.... realli lot.... i still love him a lot but i will wait for him quietly..... be his guardian angel... stay by his side quietly.... the rest i will let fate decide.... but from now i will control myself n move on wit my life...



i dun understand y we always end up hurting each other.... maybe we r not mature enough ba... we will end up let each other bleeds n pains a lot... disappoint each other then we will give up.... we r like mirror... too much reflection.... hope tt he will be happi n lead a better life....