so tired....

these few daes were pretty bz... i guess throughout the holi i will be bz ba.... work is bz for mi this mth... then sch stuff i havent started doing yet... so i guess my holi will be bz wit these n out wit friends... recently have been meeting tracey n lai often... last nite juz meet tracey n chatted wit her for a while... thx babe.... we r simliar in some ways... n ya i meet up wit darling fiona on sun... so great to see her.... miss her lots.... shall meet up wit my friends during the holi to do some catch up... yest chiong my work until morning 2 plus then slp... then wake up at 10 plus... then chiong finish my data first.... then now left wit christmas cards... i am so tired.... todae back to office to work... at least manage to finish the office one.. left wit christmas cards n birthdae cards n my receipts... on my way home nearly faint todae.... suddenly very giddy... low blood pressure i guess ba... recently not feeling very well... dun noe wat happen to my health also.... seems to be deteriorating ba... seriously facing health problems again... my health is getting worse each dae.... but i nvr realli care..... n i hate to go for check up coz i am afraid to noe the results.... tt y till now nvr go.... i have seen through a lot of things.... juz let it be natural... juz now was sms wit chalton n we talk abt relationship stuff.... told him tt if relationship can be sae in words it wont be so complicated le... i noe he havent got over his ex... i also dun noe how to help him either... this one is onli he can help himself.... as for mi i am also the same... i havent let go totally..... but i have move on... although occassionally i will think of him... but i will tell myself tt is in the past le... i shall move on... the wonderful memories he give is enough already.... it will be kept deep inside my heart.... i will change the habit tt i used to have wit him.... slowly changing... slowly to be independent... ya... meeting christina for dinner wit her next fri nite... she jio mi one... haha... got a few pa n ca going but i dun noe who... the christina is from my current company one... she is a very nice n sweet n cheerful gal...