my parents scream at mi last nite coz of my job.... they sae a lot of nasty things especially my mum....which made mi cry again.... i realli dun understand y she like to use this type of words... it is very hurting... i noe they disapprove... they r negative... but i am already 20 doesnt i have a choice to choose wat i wan....this is the first job tt i found my passion in.... of all the jobs i work before it nvr last coz i dun have the passion.... tt y i didnt persist till the end... but this job is different.... it realli change mi... it made mi persist till the end.... it tell mi no matter wat happen dun give up... i noe this is the job tt will last mi... i realli like this job... i enjoy working there.... this job is the job tt brought mi out of darkness.... that made mi smile once again but also a lot of obstacles.... i wan to persist till the end... i will nvr give up no matter wat happen.... i will prove to them tt i will success in this line.... i realli like this job n i will nvr give up.... i will find ways to continuing working n prove to them tt i will succeed.... n i will.... like zhiming sae one... not onli zhiming n others... i will not disappoint n let u all down n most importantly is myself....


this morning everyone blame mi for working at this job.... tt is y i wan to move out coz i cannot tahan my mum temper is one... the other one is my family... they onli noe how to blame n see faults especially mi... they nvr like mi coz of my dad.... so i find it no pt.... i wan a quiet n peaceful life when i go home.... but this home nvr gave mi.... so i decided to move out.... although living alone is tough but at least i can rest n have a peaceful environment... go home late also no need to worry abt neighbours mouth as my family includes my mum like face... they cannot tahan ppl sae them especially my mum... my mum temper is the worse... everyone has to follow her wish if not the whole hse is havock again.... I NVR FIND THE PEACE N QUIET TT I REALLI NEED FROM THIS FAMILY.... THIS REALLI DRAIN MI OUT TOTALLY... TT Y I DUN LIKE TO GO HOME.... COZ I DRAG HOME... TO MI HOME IS A MISERABLE PLACE.... for others home may be a heaven for mi is like HELL..... i realli wan peaceful n quiet life.....

I NOE MY LIFE IS NVR GG TO BE EASY... WAT OTHER FACE I WILL FACE DOUBLE OR MORE OF WAT THEY HAD... N ALL THIS IS FATE... THIS DO MAKE MI FEEL VERY TIRED N EXHAUSTED AT TIMES... BUT WAT CAN I DO THIS IS MY LIFE... THIS IS MY FATE.... DUN ASK MI Y I NOE... EVER SINCE I NOE I AM DIFFERENT FROM NORMAL PPL... I ALREADY NOE ALL THIS IS GG TO BE MY FATE.... IMAGAINE WAT U FACE IS JUZ ONLI HALF OF MINE N A LOT OF U ALREADY CANT TAKE IT... WAT ABT MI... I JUZ HANG ON TO IT NO MATTER HOW HARD THE SITUATION OR OBSTACLES IT IS... IN LIFE THERE R BONDS TO BE UPS N DOWNS N LOTS OF OBSTACLES.... SO DUN BE SAD COZ WAT I BEEN THROUGH IS TWICE OR MORE WAT U GUYS WENT THROUGH.... I REALLI WENT THROUGH A LOT IF U GUYS NOE WAT HAPPEN U WILL UNDERSTAND... TT Y MY THINKING IS MATURE... IS DUE TO ALL THIS TT MADE MI....


morning went o meet alex n have a nice chat wit him... thx friends... thx after meet candy n chat... she came my hse n we chatted a lot until abt 12 n she went home... thx gal for the chat... actually is we pour out each other woes... our lifes r similar when we were born... we noe our fate but we juz wont give up..... yest had a chat wit fiona... at last she call i am so happi to chat wit her once again.... she is my best sis.... then morning did have a chat wit zhiming also..... yest went out wit candy to novena n then ang mio kio... guess wat happen... i saw jerome at novena... i didnt saw him until he came over to sae hi to mi... he realli change a lot... he had became more mature n handsome liao.... he was shopping wit his gf... then saw my classmate xue yu also... then candy bought ear rings at amk hub then we headed home as we need to rest... tired after shopping...


zhiming seems to understand n noe mi very well... i guess... from the way he speaks... my six sense tell mi tt he seems to noe mi quite well... i wonder how he noe mi so well one... curious... coz i nvr realli had a talk wit him before until todae morning.... so i am wondering.... i seems to understands him too... noe how he feels at times... maybe i am too boyish... or i can easily understand how guys feel.... maybe.... to mi i juz feel tt zhiming is faking smile all along... he dun wan ppl to see his inner weak side.... so he always joke ard... he is also a very gd person at sweet talk coz his honey words can make u feel high... he is a nice guy... he is a loner too.... i hope tt he can find his special someone soon.... to share wit him everything n he can share too... so that he can realli smile from the bottom of his heart.... u r a gd guy.... realli a gd one...


anyway tt is all for todae... i am tired need to go n slp le... ltr got to go for class bbq at east coast park... feel very excited n happi...

i am feeling very bad n miserable now.... not coz of my family.... is coz of someone.... i realli dun wish to lost tt person.... i feel like crying.... he is a person who is very gd to mi... always help mi... i noe nth can change the situation back anymore.... i juz hope tt u will be happi.... coz i noe u nvr been realli happi before.... if times could change i hope tt i can prevent all this... but it seems to be fate..... now i juz hope the best for u.... i will respect ur decision n promise wat i promise to do... take care.... all the best to u....

long post

this is one of the testi i took from one of my friends testi... saw it n it is very true...
Guys drink to forget about the girl... Girls drink to think back about the guy... When guys are in love, they become poor. When girls are in love, they become pretty... Guys can forget, but cannot forgive... Girls can forgive, but cannot forget.. Guys care the most about the quantity of love... Girls care the most about the quality of love.. Guys break-up when they feel love from another girl... Girls break-up when they feel the feeling of separation from her man... Guys feel curiosity towards all girls... Girls feel curiosity towards guys who are interested in her.. When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl... When girls are heartbroken, they try to find his characteristics from another guy... Guys wish to be her first love.... Girls wish to be his last love... "Women are nothing but trouble, And Men are nothing but trouble seekers

shall update abt recently ba... i was bz wit my sch work... projects n tutorials n reports... at last i did my work le... i did my tutorials all by myself... even i dun noe i will try to figure out unless i dun understand then i ask.... coz i noe tt if i dun read up n learn n do i wun noe.... coz i noe tt there r times i will lost concentration in lec so i need to go home n study if not i wun understand.... todae tut for mechanics i ask the lec my doubts n he taught mi... the lec ask y i repeat n i juz told him in the past i dun understand n now he can see tt i understand... at last i can understand coz i did it wit my own n some help from the lec n friends... i noe very well unless i do it yself or else i wun understand my stuff... my mechanics tut classmates seems to be funny... they somehow is passing some rumours abt mi n one of this guy classmates in the class... thus making him feel a bit embarrassed... i am fine wit it coz i am clear wit my conscience... we r juz purly classmates onli... this story start like this... last tues was my first tut class n this is the first time i step into the yr 1 students n it juz happen tt there is a seat tt is blank at the back so i sitted there... n this guy start to talk to mi after i ask him abt the attendance stuff... but we juz purely talk abt mechanics coz i dun understand so ask him to teach n this start the rumour... funny rite... then on thurs he saw mi on the way to koufu to eat n he call mi ooi... not bad woa still can recongise mi.. by the way i was very tired n slp on tt dae so didnt notice until he call mi... the reason he call mi ooi is very simple coz he dun noe my name n i dun noe his name too... haha... but overall he is a very nice n friendly n helpful guy... nice to noe him la... nth much realli happen as i am very bz wit my sch n work... i realise the past 2 weeks i cab to sch twice per wk n todae i cab to sch again coz i was late.... i hate lesson on tues coz i always overslept n i skip 3 of tues e learning lesson... cannot skip anymore... muz wake up n not be late for sch le....


shall blog a bit abt sundae as liyan sae in her blog... if u happen to sit in sport car nvr sit in the middle.... the reason u will have to see liyan blog le... she got sae.... ya after the seminar guan xiong give mi n liyan a lift back to the company n this is the first time i sit in a sports car.... not onli it was fast n the feeling is very great... thx guan xiong for the ride... then had dinner n left for home as i was tired... then yest meet alex aka siji in sch as he help mi to design the present for fer birthdae... thx alex for the design... thx for the help.... thx wen xing for leading the way coz i lost my way... blur rite... anyway i fulfil my promise n i did intro my friends to u le... it was nice talking to u....

i am really veyr sorry to tracey coz i juz sms her tt i gave her no to zhiming n nvr wait for her reply.... I AM REALLY SORRY... i dun dare to talk to her coz i feel guilty n bad... i am a bad friend.... i hope tt this will not affect our relationship a lot coz i realli treasure her.... i love to talk n shop wit her... i juz love her company..... she is a very nice n great friend.... she can be trust n she make a best shopping partner too..... I AM SORRY....

company seminar on 27/4/08

sundae was my company seminar... was quite high on tt dae... manage to took some pic still got a lot not done taken... nvr shall wait for next time... this seminar is at dbs auditorim... thx the friends who come n support mi... thx... n lasty my grp members too... thx for coming n bring ur friends especially yan n victor... grp members let jia you... next time is our turn le.... we shall work hard togther....

yan n mi in front wit my manager zhiming n fred behind... how come zhiming small is so smile n fred dun smile... haha....


no need to sae who... is my darling yan...

wit my grp of gals... yan wan ting n xu xuan....

us wit our cheerful n funny senior manager yuan da... who always cheer n encourage mi one... who always joke wit mi too...

last pic wit another cute manager yong zhi... who loves to smile a lot.. nvr fail to see him smile...

at last after such a long time i manage to upload the photos tt r edited by liyan... thx gals...


the emo side of mi

all the happi n different side of mi from the past until now... the happi to the recovering n back to the happi mi...

the make over mi...

n lastly my friends... my babe liyan n tracey n candy...

i cant upload the edited photos into my blog.... dun noe y.... those photos r edited by liyan... thx gal... as for sch is getting stress wit the workload increasing... meet fred todae for breakfast..... mondae celebrate my dad birthdae... bought him a cake... sch is buz n buz... shall upload when i have time...

my life

sch is stress but i relax a lot... coz i keep on going out... mon went down to bugis to meet liyan for dinner... coz my watch spoil so i went down to bugis to buy 2 watches 1 handphone pouch 1 bear... then we head down to mac to meet victor n fred as fred sae got somethings to talk to us n after tt all of us headed home... tues went down to work n i cab home wit liyan coz it was very late le.... then wed suppose to go for work end up i meet weiboon at lot 1 for late lunch... we suppose to go sakae but it havent open yet so we ate pasta mania instead... it is realli fun n nice catching up wit him... we chat a lot... after tt headed home n meet tracy to slack at northpoint for a while... as usual we chat a lot... talk a lot... i am glad tt she feel comfortable wit mi as she feel tt she can pour out to mi... thx gals for ur trust... i agree wit u not to trust ppl easily but i always trust easily n end up getting hurt... to mi i may be a gd listener but i cant give gd advise... then todae class end early n went to shop wit my classmates pearlene marie janice eddy n darren.... been wit them always very fun n so much laughter.... we went ntuc n then eat mos burger....



someone declared to mi tt he wan to go after mi last nite... i am thinking of how to reject him... coz presently i dun wan to be in a relationship... i wan to focus on my studies as i cannot afford to fail anymore.... i dun wan it to affect my studies... my previous relationship affect my studies a lot.... so i dun wan it to happen again... another reason is i dun wan to get hurt again... i am realli afraid... the other reason is my sense tell mi i am not the one for u n u r not the one for mi.... i juz wan us to be friends ba....

for relationship wise i juz leave it to fate... let fate decide... when the feeling is rite i will meet tt special person... for now juz let mi enjoy my single life... i am enjoying my life now... meeting up wit my friends frequently n doing wat i wan.... i am still very confused abt my relationship stuff now but i juz leave it to fate let fate decide.... by tt time my heart will have the ans n i will juz follow my heart when the times come... time tell mi everything... so for now juz continue to enjoy life is the best...



wen xing complain tt i nvr talk to him when i was in office.... he sae tt i am shy... he sae when he wan to talk to mi i also disappear although he saw mi in office... not tt i dun wan to talk to u or disappear is i am juz too bz.... i juz promise u tt when i see u in my office i will talk to u n intro u my friends.... so dun complain liao.... ltr u dun find mi noisy jiu hao.... nvr u sae if i noisy u also dun mind so dun regret hor...

chris sae i have been ignoring or avoiding him when i see him in office.... in fact i am even though i lied to u tt i am not.... like i sae in the previous post u accuse mi... i am very angry n disappointed wit u... somemore whenever u r down or wat u always call mi n which time did i ignore u... not even one... no matter how tired i still stay up to listen to u.... even sometimes i was busy i also listen to u or when i cant get away i quickly finish my stuff n get back to u.... n u still accuse mi for finding u.... i am not the one tt find u is u r the one who find mi... in order not to be accuse again n let mi calm down i decided not to talk to u until i calm down... tt time u n ah boon so bad... call mi up n play on mi... i juz wan u to noe i can play n kid wit u anything but when it comes to relationship or friend i am very serious coz i treasure all my friends n my relationship a lot.... u r juz getting worse so i decided tt u r juz a hi bye friend after work... in office we r colleagues onli tt all... so dun ask mi y i dun tell u my stuff coz u betray mi once... so i will nvr trust u again... tt is so simple...

time is the key

i realise a lot of things as time pass some things u will forget n some things u wont forget.... it is all depending on how u think... i already sort out how i feel... how i think... i noe wat i wan... i will work for it... i wont care so much le... as for those ppl who intend to mess up wit mi.... i will jolly well heck care n concentrate on wat i wan to do instead... i dun have time for those bo liao ppl especially tt bitch.... those who noe mi well noe who i am referring to.... i can clearly tell u one thing i have full let go le.... now i am leading my own new life which i am very happi wit it... so juz leave mi alone.... sch start n everything start to come in liao... sian.... gg to be buz again.... haiz... sry gals n guys if i cant meet u all frequently coz i have to juggle between my sch n work n i will not neglected u all one... i will try my best to meet u all....

at last i can upload all my pic... lots of pic... drink at boat quay to celebrate farewell wit paul a guy who henry they all noe during their thailand trip.... then on the way to work wit liyan n wan ting...

todae is the start of a new term... not bad la... but it is gg to be bz...





mi yan n ting...


we r bored....


wit my braces on...

at boat quay... nice view behind...

paul wit us...

meifang n mi

fang mi vincent henry

fang mi irene henry

i dun noe wat happen to mi... there r times tt i hope i can find tt i can find tt special someone but y it seems so hard for mi... i am realli tired.. i need someone to lend on... to be there... i also hoped to be loved... but it seems very far..... these few daes feeling sick... then on my mind was like if there is someone to look after mi it would be gd.... too bad...

yest was kinda bad for mi ba... but not bad... iht is a course which is very powerful... i will work very hard to go for it... todae bought a watch... still feeling so tired... thx marc for sharing wit mi a lot of stuff n make mi feel better.... i did feel better.... things r starting to get better for mi for my work...


sch is starting soon... haiz... sian...

erm..... liyan is rite y shld i think n care so much abt him... he is not my who.... i will not be bother by him anymore.... so plz dun sae find u when u r the one who find mi first....

last nite went for a bit of drink... suddenly saw meifang they all n left after a while... will upload when i got the pic...


i think i am lost again... i dun noe y... seems to be lost.... coz i dun noe wat am i doing... i havent find myself back yet... so now muz find myself back...

confused

ya... yest i offically putting on braces for both my upper n lower of my teeth.... the week before was my upper teeth n yest was lower... my teeth is getting used to it...


everything was quite ok for mi ba... until last nite... something happen tt make mi think a lot again... haiz... i dun noe wat am i thinking also... i already told myself le...

finally most of the things r settled... todae overslept.. due to the gd nite sleep last nite..... i think i saw u juz now on the train.... but i am not sure either... but my sense tell mi is u... u avoid mi when u see mi... todae went to ey... then after tt went out wit kat to town.... havent seen her for a long time... glad to see her as we catch up a lot.... it was fun wit her... then after tt went to meet candy for coffee... we ate n chat a lot.... havent seen her for quite sometime as she is bz wit her work... i bought 2 bags on fri n 2 clips todae...

this is gg to be a emo post

recently too much things had happen... i thought i will be strong but in the end i think of u... in my mind there r lots of fond memories but it is all in the past... shall be keep inside my heart.... time to put u behind as i had started my new life... i noe my life is a bit empty coz i havent found tt special person.... but i believe i will find it somedae.... it will appear..

stupid

i am stupid.... realli stupid... go n tell someone bf abt her..... u lied to mi so tt u can get information of her.... i treat u as my close friend n yet u do this to mi.... u sae if u dun lied how will i sae... but in the first place u shld tell mi... if not i will feel like u treat mi like an idiot... u make mi feel like an idiot... i dun noe wat to sae... i can onli blame myself... i dun noe how to trust u anymore... once u broke it... it is hard for mi to trust u again.... i feellike an idiot... darm stupid... forget it... i dun wish to sae le... i also dun noe wat to sae.....



u noe one thing i hate liars... tt y i flar up when i found the truth.... if u dun lied i wont be so angry... i will still tell u.... but when u lied... u broke the trust.... i already got things tt piss mi le... u juz add on...

SERIOUSLY I HAD ENOUGH OF U... WTF... I HAD ALREADY RETURN HIM BACK TO U LE... WAT MORE U WAN... R U CRAZY OR MAD... KEEP ON DISTURBING MY LIFE... UR CRAZY ACTS JUZ CONTINUE EVEN THROUGH I HECK CARE.... WAT IS IN UR MIND... DUN THINK THE THINGS U DONE U CAN JUZ JOLLY WELL ACT BLUR N GET OVER WIT IT... DUN MAKE MI EXPOSE U.... BITCH.... I REALLI HAD ENOUGH... PLZ STOP DISTURBING MI.... DUN FORCE MI TO PAY U BACK....

juz now went to celebrate marie birthdae... it was quite fun.... havent see them for so long... nice to see them as they make mi laugh... havent been gg to work for a few daes... haha... due to some reasons.... jane muz jia you... gambatte.....

yup... shall upload a bit.... haiz... i fail one of my modcule... have to retake... but nvr... work hard for it... as for yest i went to watch step up two wit my friends elaine liyan yuan min chris yong seng clara sharon sok kin wan teng zhiming fred kenneth n augstine.... before tt we went to eat ichiban sushi.... n our dm zhiming help us pay 100bucks.... it was so gd for him.... he noe wat we r thinking... thx zhiming a lot.... it was realli fun hanging out wit them.... so much fun n laughter..... shld upload some of the pic..... i also miss a lot of my friends..... i wan to meet u all.... too much le cannot name it out.... i am putting on braces next wed.... but now i had already put on the back of my teeth.... i cant eat but i can drink... so let us meet up for a drink ok.....



mi not smiling coz of the braces on the back of my teeth... pain....
mi n yan after eating....

I HATE YOU PPL.... MONEY MINDED.....

sorry tt i am gg to vent out here.... i realli hate those ppl who see money until eyes drop.... dun try to cheat or lied.... i am not gg to take it.... mind ur own business..... this is not the first time ok... i have had enough.... if u like money so much go n earn it urself..... y ask for ppl.... y take ppl as ur atm.... y break ppl bond... u realli have nth to do meh.... sae u have no money..... if u have no money ur daughter can buy a 500 plus handphone a 500 digital camera can go for oversea trip.... come on dun lied.... i tell u wat u do u will get ur retribution.... i hope it comes faster.... plz la... if u have the time go n do the things u shld do instead of kpo into other ppl business.... n plz stop eyeing on ppl money.... i am not like u eyeing for ppl money n accuse others.... n sae wat.... my parents r earning money y muz i work.... i cannot go out earn more experience..... i wan to put braces then u sae dun need one.... if it is ur daughter u will definitely come up wit the money one.... my parents pamper mi cannot.... at least i am better.... i go n earn money to pay for my bills.... not like urs stay at home n ask for money.... wan branded stuff when cant afford.... at least i got my limits.... it is my business not ur..... dun poke into other ppl affair...... to mi u r juz a f*** bitch..... U DUN DESERVE MY RESPECT AT ALL.... JUZ MIND UR OWN BUSINESS.... those who noe mi well noe wat happen....

have been pretty bz working... but not realli working.... life is pretty fun... got to noe a lot of friends... got some close friends like fred chris n david.... chat a lot... haha... it was quite fun.... but anyway.... tt all... i also wan to meet up wit my friends....

exam over

finally exams r over liao..... yea.... so happi.... yest went out wit my classmate for a while... it was quite fun... a lot of laughter n jokes.... hope to see them during the holi.... take care everyone....

this week is tests.... i nearly forgot the test on wed until fred remind mi something then i realise.... but heng still got go... last ppr on mon n it is offically over.... this week a lot of things happen also.... quarrel wit parents.... but it is all over... there r still some issues not settle... slaloy ba..... n i have found a new job... i love this job.... there r a lot of nice ppl i meet n noe.... i enjoy it a lot.... i am happi now..... then had a chat wit jie wei some time ago.... thx for consoling n chat wit mi... then these few daes keep chatting wit fred... almost every nite i guess... he is a gd n patient listener.... thx for listening to mi.... i realli appreciate... todae u r not feeling well... hope tt u will recover soon... take care....

now i am a better n happier person.... coz everydae laugh n laugh.... there r so much fun n laughter everydae from my surrounding.... i realli enjoy sch nowadaes..... be it my friens or classmate.... i realli enjoy the time spend wit them..... they sure cheer up my dae n make my dae better.... the smile is coming back le.... the crazy mi also.... i am enjoying my life now....


for u i dun care whether now u r happi or not... coz it is none of my business anymore.... anyway... i wont care or bother.... we r juz strangers.... i juz wan to tell u one things... i am happi n i am enjoying my life.... i will find a better one then u... n i believe i will....

todae went to neo hse for new year... wit liyan candy n kimbert.... it was quite fun..... then after tt liane jearlene carman angel junhao xinrong wenbin went there shortly after we reach.... neo order pizza for us....then after a while we left.... on the way home we took some pic....

then yest went to job interview.... it was not bad.... noe quite a few ppl.... some from my school... ok la....

then on the valentine day... i spend it wit my classmates they r janice marie pearlene eddy jj anthony dee hoi fai nya oo n teck soon( if i not wrong) jj friend.... janice bought each of us a packet of chocalate then marie give us a small hanphone accessories... we went to watch cj7 then after tt went to play pool n i headed home first coz i need to go dentist....




yan mi n candy

mi n candy

yan n mi

marie small gift....

janice chocolate

i am so tired... i feel like giving up everything.... i am realli tired of my life... i am tired of hanging on... realli tired.... i dun wan to hang on anymore... realli dun wan... everywhere is having problems.... is there anywhere tt belong to mi.... is there anyone tt i can realli rely on... i am losing hope each dae.... realli losing.... does the world happiness belong to mi... i wonder... realli....

fri went to work then went for training... sat n sun stay at home n do my stuff... then mon went to work at woodlands but nvr work in the end... it was like hell meh... it been a long time since i last do sales.... but still ok la... then todae went to meet him at yishun mrt to get back my things.... erm... as yest he call mi to confirm the time n place for meeting him... then we agree to meet at 11.30am but at ard 10.30am he call whether i can meet early at 11am or not... he call n he noe i was sleeping at tt time... sry i am realli tired n finally i had some rest so dun wan to meet u early.... then before i reach candy already reach there... n y candy was there is coz she help mi out wit my new year stuff tt y meet at the same place... i dun noe wat happen between them... but from wat candy sae she shoot him until he black face... i am sorry for wat had happen.... i feel so sorry... i feel so heartpain for u... seeing u so exhausted n tired.... plz take gd care of urself when i am not there for u anymore ok... i noe there is no one to nag at u or no one there to be angry wit u when u overwork or over tired... but as ur friend i still care for u... we r still friends... if there is any problem or someone u need to talk can find mi... plz dun think tt i will laugh at u or wat... i am sincerely caring for u... i will be there for u as i promised like u promised u will be there for mi... u r still the most special n impt person in my heart even though we r no longer... we r juz not suitable... friends maybe better for us.... i noe there r a lot of things u kept in ur heart i can sense tt... if can i am willing to lend u my ear to listening... i wonder how u spend ur birthdae this year... does it go as wat u wish... i did bought a birthdae present for u but i throw it away coz of some reason... r u realli xin fu.... i hope u r... i choose to left coz i wan u to be xin fu... tt all ba... tml is gg to be new year eve.... gg back sec sch to visit teacher...

nth much pretty... test on wed n todae we had our presentation.... met tracy yest after my test n we went to shop... we bought a pair of heels each.... shld post pic instead of words as tracy sae they r no pic... this r the pic tt i wore todae for my presentation..... the rest r taken sometime ago....

nth much ba.... wed went for movie wit kim kai... we went to watch body 19 as he has 2 free tickets n i happen to be free... then watch together.... thurs had autocat test n i didnt do well for my section side as i cant do.... so i focus on other parst... then meet alexa at nite to study... ya i did manage to study.... then todae went for training then after tt eat wit shenwu kimkai yue hua n the other guy dun noe wat name.... then after tt long bang shen wu car home as he near at admiratly.... quite near to yishun.... training was tough but gd... i manage to learn a lot this week...




a lot of things happens... n i am not sure of wat is gg on at times.... i think i screw up my life again... it is in a mess.... there r so many problems everywhere to be solved... n i juz ignoring it... coz i dun noe how to solve.... or i am tired of everything liao..... i dun noe either.....

went to find ade on fri.... then saw him but i feel very calm n no feeling..... we act like strangers... since this is the case n decision u made.... i respect u.... so we will be strangers in future.... then sat n sun slack at home.... nth much.... todae went to meet weiboon ade friend... he teach mi la... thx a lot... he also treat mi dinner so i treat him drink back... then we chat until 8 n went home.... nice chatting wit him... he is a nice guy... he listen to my grumble... haha... but i bad la keep grumbling... he is patient.... thx a lot my friend...


my life had been pretty gd i guess.... without u i feel more relax.... i feel more happier.... i love my life now... studying working family n friends..... n i need to thx my classmates for the help n support they given during tt period of time.... especially marie janice pearlene eddy darren dee... thx for staying by my side.... thx... n not forgetting my family besties n buddies n friends n bosses.... i have get over le... n starting my new life now... i am leading a brand new life... i love my life.... thx for making my life complete.... i loved all of u....

i wont turn back

i wont turn back anymore.... i had enough of ur lies... u tell mi the lies n then a few daes ltr it is being exposed.... wat the hell r u playing... u wan to play plz leave mi out of it... plz.. it is not fun at all... i realli had enough of it... i wont tolerate anymore... coz i wont believe u anymore... now u realli piss mi off... i am not tired of all this n i had given up... totally given up n disappointed... tt is all wat i can sae now...

I AM SORRY

i am realli sorry for not doing my part well... i am realli sorry... i noe u all might be angry or disappoint wit mi... n i am realli sry... i realli dun noe wat to sae expect apologise... realli sry guys to make u all disappointed again....

some songs tt describe how i feel....

here r some songs tt describe how i feel...

Cry on my shoulder

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do




平常心

街道静的刺耳
夜被路灯染色
趁感伤醒来前
先上车不会不舍
承认我是弱者
不敢再对爱假设
我真的累得不想再拉扯

我寻找的平静
是我将来看电影
带着一颗平常心
不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛
我需要的平静
是敢回头看曾经
那些为爱患得患失的情景
我选择忘记

我不懂得取舍
才让心痛堆着
找得到前些年
的快乐只是偶尔
回忆是个诱饵
是来叫我回去的
要伤能愈合
我非走不可




我不想忘记你 by Claire

我在向前走 却像在退后
我在用想念 狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会追梦
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄
我努力想起你 笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你 再学会放弃
我不想忘记你 就算可以 我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你 哭也没关系
用祝福和感激 勇敢失去你
爱你 这个决定
虽然艰辛 我不说 对不起
一个人不懂 什么是拥有
俩个人不懂 怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会追梦
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄
我努力想起你 笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你 再学会放弃
我不想忘记你 就算可以 我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你 哭也没关系
用祝福和感激 勇敢失去你
爱你 这个决定
虽然艰辛 我不说 对不起



没有你的每一天

回家的路总是很远 花哨的恨可怜
一个人的晚餐 都是孤单的滋味

看见身边重复上演 属于我们的画面
选择逃避的眼 怎么还是会流泪

爱着你的每一天 你就是我的世界
那时候还以为 我 就爱这一遍
没有你的每一天 快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了 还能用什么感觉

我舍不得睁开眼睛 害怕身边没有你
也许在梦境里 是我们最近的距离

想念你温热的手心 冷风里把我握紧
当冬天又来临 这温度该怎么延续

谢谢你曾经爱过我 给我最美的经过
但生命最爱被剥夺 未来的路该怎么走

爱着你的每一天 你就是我的世界
那时候还以为 我 就爱这一遍
没有你的每一天 快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了 还能用什么感觉





never let you go

The rain just never seems to bring the joy I feel the same
Everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart can't seem to learn to part
The hold you left your mark
All that I dreamed of now it seem so stark

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath
A part of me was dyin
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
And you know I'd never let you go

The way you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything of that day
I can't believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance
To share the sunset
Our one last romance

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath
A part of me was dying
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
And you know I'd never let you go

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
And you know I'd never let you go




分開以後

想喊你　卻沒敢開口
最後只有　留著淚看你走
我想問我　是否只願意就這樣放手
既然無法挽留　只好接受

從今以後　你要寂寞多久
誰能給予你　我這般的溫柔
也許是多慮了　你離開我會過得更快樂
可對於軟弱的我　回憶就足夠

分開以後　每當想到你　就會低下頭
緊握的手　不知過了多久
我相信你　也會有一樣的辛酸難受
都曾經深愛過誰　有誰能捨得

在離開你之後　想快樂也只是一種強求
一個人　怎麼過都是愁
懂得擁有　卻未必能讓你為我停留
最後只剩遺憾　拉住我不放手

OH~~~~YA~~~~~

分開以後　每當想到你　就會低下頭
緊握的手　不知過了多久
我相信你　也會有一樣的辛酸難受
都曾經深愛過誰　有真的捨得

在離開你之後　想快樂也只是一種強求
一個人　怎麼過都是愁
懂得擁有　卻未必能讓你為我停留
最後只剩遺憾　拉住我不放手




最愛還是你

没开口的话 怎样才能懂
我好想把画面倒带回头
你留在我心里 熟悉的表情
每个温暖纯白的回忆 穿越了距离
拥挤的人潮 没有人知道
我偷偷想你 嘴角就会笑
不要说对不起 也不要问原因
就让世界不停的向前 别忘记从前
最爱还是你 这是我的决定(没有人能代替)
像宇宙相对的星 互相吸引 慢慢就会靠近
还是要爱你 时间会证明 我爱你的勇气(没有人能代替)
牵著你的手 才知道是永久
拥挤的人潮 没有人知道
我偷偷想你 嘴角就会笑
不要说对不起 也不要问原因
就让世界不停的向前 别忘记从前

最爱还是你 这是我的决定(没有人能代替)
像宇宙相对的星 互相吸引 慢慢就会靠近
还是要爱你 时间会证明 我爱你的勇气(没有人能代替)
牵著你的手 才知道是永久

这一次我放弃了所有 只为能再与你相遇
最爱还是你 这是我的决定(没有人能代替)
像宇宙相对的星 互相吸引 慢慢就会靠近
还是要爱你 时间会证明 我爱你的勇气(没有人能代替)
牵著你的手 才知道是永久 一辈子不放手

at last i have done finish my report.... but my report sucks.... words getting lesser n lesser... dun even noe wat i am doing... hope tt i can pass this modcule... i fail 4 modcule for my common test... i onli pass materials tec n got a C... then autocat maufacturing tech engineering mechanics n math i got a fail.... haiz... sob sob... muz buck up le... then left wit the presentation n lab report for my sem project...


last wed went shopping wit shirley n i realli shop... i bought a lot of clothes home... spend ard 100 plus... i still havent found my desire heels yet so i shall go n slowly find.... i admit i am very fussy when i come to selection of heels.... then mon went to meet lai wit tracey.... chat wit her for some time... erm... shall not sae wat it is about... yest i skip the first lesson coz of my giddyness.... then yest spend the whole nite finish my report... n i finish in the morning 5.30am then went to spend for 2 hrs n late for sch todae... todae plan to work but i am extremely tired then fell asleep....




i dun noe whether u will be reading this blog or not coz i changed my blog link again.... actually i dun wan u to read but now to mi it does not matter anymore.... then sun nite u call mi n we chatted for a while.... U TOLD MI THAT U WAN MI TO BELIEVE THAT U N HER R NOT TOGETHER BUT THE WAY U DO THINGS IS SO DIFFERENT FROM THE WAY U SAE.... 你说的和你做不一样... then how u wan mi to believe u... i realli dun noe... not tt i dun wan to trust u but u DISAPPOINTED mi again n again... so how u wan mi to believe u.... if u wan mi to believe u then prove it to mi through ur action.... action speak louder then words....


i juz wan to tell u something... my health is not getting better in fact it is gettting worse so i hope tt u dun come n affect mi anymore... i realli dun wan to be affected by u anymore.... coz of u my giddyness got worse.... coz of u my chest pain got worse.... coz of u my health condition worsen instead of becoming better..... if u realli wan to be friend... then be friends onli no need to explain to mi so much n care whether i have bf or not... whether i am attached or not... u jolly well noe the reason y.... friends is friends plz dun go over tt line... my health suffer a lot n became worsen during tt period of time when we went into cooling period n the broke up period.... watever u sae r juz empty promises.... u have hurt mi deep enough so plz stop it.... plz dun hurt mi anymore... u can ask candy or fiona abt my health condition if u dun believe.... they r the ones who realli noe how worse my health condition is.... till now it is still the same so plz dun worsen my condition anymore.... if not i will end up in hospital sooner or later...


i noe my health is gg worse n worse each dae coz i nvr take gd care of myself.... i nvr rest properly eat properly.... i wan to rest but i cant coz of the workload.... yest morning i skip sch is coz of my giddyness.... i nearly faint when i woke up n started to walk.... my pain n giddyness is back everydae n almost everydae will happen once... at least once... i hope tt my health can be better instead of worse....




i wan to thanks kim kai for listening to my problems... i realli thanks him a lot even though we dun noe each other very long... he is willing to lend mi his ears to listen... sorry to make u listen to my grumble n all this... but i realli appreaciate tt u r willing to listen to mi.... i am realli grateful to u.... n thanks u for being my friend..... i hope tt our friendship will lasts....

at last the photo r here....





us again my best buddy wit mi

mi on town during christma

pa dinner at vivo....

yest i join a cca n tt is takwando.... it was the first lesson... n i make a lot new friends... all r so friendly... the training was realli scary but it was also fun.... they do a lot of stretching n running.... after the training i was so tired coz very long nvr like this le.... i muz go n train n build up my stamina.... it realli require a lot of stamina... i very long nvr run le....





n i join takwando is not coz of him... is coz it was my interest... before i knew him i already had the interest but i am lazy... n now i have the time also...





i had already move on... i am also leading my own life now... n now i am used of not having u by my side anymore... i had learn to be independent.... i had been enjoying my life..... i admit tt i still loved u but my love for u have started to fade as the time pass..... eventually i will forget my love for u n wat will be left is the wonderful memories tt we had....

reflection of the year 2007 n resolution for 2008

2007 is coming to the end... shall do my reflections.... erm.... it was not a realli great nor bad year for mi.... a lot of things happen.... i noe very gd colleagues n bosses from the current compay i working now n the previous one... from solectron i noe irene meifang henry sunny helen meifang hubby liying ivan fangpeng ronnie kong sharon n many more... we still got contact wit each other although we r very bz.... we still go out once in a while... then currently prudential i noe my bosses jia hao angela gerrard n lionel... they r very gd to mi listen to my problems n be there for mi through my down n not forgetting my colleagues christina jasly verlyn 2 vivan serena huili n many more... they r also great friends... then i went into the poli but not into the course i wan to but i still like it... it was fun... then i noe n met my wonderful classmates.... after so much then i realise they care a lot for mi... n they realli touched mi... they celebrate my birthdae for mi which i didnt expected... then i got into a relationship which lasted for 5 mth n 13 daes.... although not very long or short but i am still greatful for the wonderful memories tt he gave.... thanks a lot... it started on 13 june n end on 28 nov.... i will remember in my hearts always for the wonderful memories u give... i had move on wit my life now n leading my own life.... n he did give mi a memoriable birthdae... 2 daes before my birthdae he broke up wit mi but i still manage to celebrate wit my friends... it didnt ended well but it was still wonderful as they made the effort to celebrate for mi.... thx gals n everyone who wish n celebrate wit mi.... then i realise who r the one who is there for mi always... who will nvr left mi... n most important my guardian angel.... i noe who r the ones who cares for mi... i am realli blessed... i feel so blessed to have my parents my cousins my friends my buddies adeline crystal kat candy fiona to be by my side.... i love all of them... i cant name all out... too much already.... but u guys noe it can le.... n i did spend the time wit my friends... but i feel tt i nvr realli spend enough wit them.... overall i am happi....





my resolution for 2008 is to be wit the special him.... to do well in studies n career... to spend more time wit my friends... to continue the happi life i am leading... to lead my life to the fullest... to be happi always....

fri nite was great wit the gals christina jaslyn verlyn vivan sah vivan tan huili n serena... we went to mussels guys at vivo to eat.... we celebrate christina last dae as a full time pa... then also vivan sah birthdae... had a great time wit them.... nice chatting n crapping wit them.... then todae went to meet henry n meifang as they pass mi the small gift they bought from thailand trip... thx... sry to make henry to wait for mi for 1 n half hr for lunch... kor sorry.... then went to crap at mac n lot one wit the rest before i came home... ok... shall let the photo do the talking....


mi n vivan tan

mi n verlyn again

mi n vivan the birthdae gal

mi n huili

serena n mi

verlyn n mi not clear one...

christina n mi

since a week i didnt update... last week was pretty bz wit work... at last i manage to finish all the cards n sent out by fri... last week was so bz wit my work... thx candy for the help she give.... i realli appreciate if not i will die.... then fri went to office to settle some stuff then went off n meet candy for dinner at novena... shop ard as usual... sat went to do tele for a while... sun went to meet my client n candy came my hse to chill out... after tt we went for dinner as my mum treat us... thx mum i love u... then yest was christmas eve plan to stay at home after the dinner wit candy... yest went to the office to hand some stuff in the end end up slacking in the office while waiting for my boss gerrard to drive mi to woodlands as he had roadshow in woodlands.... then went to woodlands to do some last min shopping... i bought 4 gifts... one for my darling fiona... onc for candy n one for myself... the other one plan to give it to alexa todae but i didnt meet her todae coz got something on... slack at home for a while before gg out to meet candy for dinner then after tt meet fiona to pass her the gift n then wait for lai... then accompany lai to his ex hse to wait for him as she wan to sort everything out wit him... so wait at cck until 11 plus n headed to her hse.... then accompany her to chat at her hse until 5 in the morning then i went home.... slp until 1 then wake up to meet crystal n headed to town wit her.... it was so fun chit chatting wit her... we laugh n laugh.... then we also took a lot of pic... then we headed home after she finish taking the pic... reach home ard 9 plus.... pic shld upload when i got from her... sorry alexa tt i cant meet u todae for movie... i meet u another dae n candy also.... sry yest nite cant accompany u... meet up wit u gals soon... i got lots of ppl to meet but i havent meet finish... i havent start doing my report n project... haiz... i also wan my sleep...i havent slp enough for last week n this week... onli slp 3 to 5 hrs per dae onli... gg to my lala land le...

like candy sae there is a lose n a gain in everythings.... been through too much le.... last nite nvr slp coz saw the shocking news.... like this will collapse sooner or ltr... had a chat wit candy.... she is rite.... i noe tt i had move on... cannot hang on le... it is time to move on.... i realise a lot of things.... n wat the word love means to u.... different ppl have different perpection... does anyone realli noe the realli meaning of it... i doubt... still finding.... but anyway.... i had found out who is tt special person in my life le... we have miss a lot of chances.... i wont miss the chance again.... he is there for mi no matter wat happen... he is there supporting n care a lot for mi until now... so quietly wit out sae.... my real guardian angel.... sry so late then realise... thx a lot to u... i will not name u out... it is gg to be a secret.... thx chalton for being there for mi always n the gals n guys u noe i cant name it out all... i realise i gain a lot... i nvr realise tt my classmate care so much for mi until recently... thx to them a lot for cheering up my life... i realli love them lots... i realise i have wonderful classmate ard.... although they dun sae it out but they prove it out....

so tired....

these few daes were pretty bz... i guess throughout the holi i will be bz ba.... work is bz for mi this mth... then sch stuff i havent started doing yet... so i guess my holi will be bz wit these n out wit friends... recently have been meeting tracey n lai often... last nite juz meet tracey n chatted wit her for a while... thx babe.... we r simliar in some ways... n ya i meet up wit darling fiona on sun... so great to see her.... miss her lots.... shall meet up wit my friends during the holi to do some catch up... yest chiong my work until morning 2 plus then slp... then wake up at 10 plus... then chiong finish my data first.... then now left wit christmas cards... i am so tired.... todae back to office to work... at least manage to finish the office one.. left wit christmas cards n birthdae cards n my receipts... on my way home nearly faint todae.... suddenly very giddy... low blood pressure i guess ba... recently not feeling very well... dun noe wat happen to my health also.... seems to be deteriorating ba... seriously facing health problems again... my health is getting worse each dae.... but i nvr realli care..... n i hate to go for check up coz i am afraid to noe the results.... tt y till now nvr go.... i have seen through a lot of things.... juz let it be natural... juz now was sms wit chalton n we talk abt relationship stuff.... told him tt if relationship can be sae in words it wont be so complicated le... i noe he havent got over his ex... i also dun noe how to help him either... this one is onli he can help himself.... as for mi i am also the same... i havent let go totally..... but i have move on... although occassionally i will think of him... but i will tell myself tt is in the past le... i shall move on... the wonderful memories he give is enough already.... it will be kept deep inside my heart.... i will change the habit tt i used to have wit him.... slowly changing... slowly to be independent... ya... meeting christina for dinner wit her next fri nite... she jio mi one... haha... got a few pa n ca going but i dun noe who... the christina is from my current company one... she is a very nice n sweet n cheerful gal...

BRAND NEW MI

from now on.... i will start a brand new life.... after i have seen n been through so much.... i noe who is true n good to mi.... n i will not hang on anymore.... i will move on wit my life... from now onwards my life will be colourful.... i will enjoy my life n live it to the fullest... a happi n cheerful mi will be back... smile will be back....

i am realli hurt by his way of things..... it pains so much.... my heart bleeds.... realli bleeds.... heart scattered n broken into pierces.... i dun noe how the future is gg to be.... now i cant sleep at nites coz of the nightmare i am having n i am gg to collapse soon wit the amt of medicine increasing... haha.... one dae i will juz heck care n dun eat anymore.... i have lost my hope n dreams totally.... i dun noe wat will last.... i wonder do relationship realli last..... maybe for mi it doesnt exist... or i dont deserve happiness at last.... i realise happiness dont belong to mi.... onli darkness belong to mi....



i realli miss him a lot.... realli lot.... i still love him a lot but i will wait for him quietly..... be his guardian angel... stay by his side quietly.... the rest i will let fate decide.... but from now i will control myself n move on wit my life...



i dun understand y we always end up hurting each other.... maybe we r not mature enough ba... we will end up let each other bleeds n pains a lot... disappoint each other then we will give up.... we r like mirror... too much reflection.... hope tt he will be happi n lead a better life....

yest pic for my birthdae wit my ex colleagues they all..... thx u guys.... sry tt i couldnt be happi.... thx for ur understanding.....




mi trying to smile wit my cake
meifang irene mi n sharon

meifang hubby meifag irene mi sharon n sunny

tired.... realli tired.... went to see doctor juz now.... doc sae tt if still cannot recover muz go for blood test n check up.... haiz.... i hate medicine..... got a lot to eat.... my body is not functioning well ba.... health getting worse n weaker each dae... have the feeling my time is gg to be up soon le ba.... dun noe leave to god ba.... onli god noe how long will i leave.... if my condition is not getting better i will give up le ba... i will juz leave it to be like this..... let it be weaker n weaker each dae.... realli tired le....





i realli miss u a lot..... but i had to tell myself to give up... forcing myself... i hate the feeling... dun dare to sleep coz of nightmare.... haiz...

thx ppl for ur birthdae wishes.... yest my classmates celebrate wit mi in sch wit another of mine... happen to be on the same dae.... both of us were so touched.... feel like crying.... then after tt went to meet ade kat n crystal to celebrate.... we went to eat new york new york n it turns out to be funny..... then meet candy for a drink... we went to her ex workplace there to drink.... then we finish a bottle of red wine wit alcohol of 17%.... she end up drink 2/3 of the wine.... then her ex asistant manager treat mi a hard liqur wit acohol of 30 plus %... specially for mi as it is my birthdae... we nvr drink so much for such a long time le.... then end up getting drunk... after i drunk i started to go funny things... then back home n knock off.... i hate the effect after drinking.... my skin will start to itch a lot.... which i realli hate a lot n stomach started not to feel well.... then now gg to celebrate wit meifang they all.... thx you guys for ur birthdae wishes....
in sch got my mentor marie janice eddy dee pearlene darren justin joseph hui qi xue yu wenqi xiao qing zul hoi fai ken jj anthony zhi hua
then sms got kat jia hao zul meifang henry candy alexa yi fang xiu hui
friendster got anthony crystal dee marie shirley anu jolyn kai li pearlene christina lai n christina from my workplace one...

HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO MI

todae is my birthdae..... i wish mi happi birthdae..... thanks to chalton to be the first one to wish mi happi birthdae.... this is a secret between us... haha... i am so touched n happi..... n he keep on wishing mi.... thanks to him... brighten mi up.... then kat is the first one to sms mi.... then on friendster got anthony marie dee crystal..... the rest shall update....

everything ended

everything ended peacefully.... tt is all i can sae.... thx u guys for ur concern.... i am ok... will be recovering soon.....

i juz realise tt my tears seems to be like running tap... it wont stop flowing.... last nite i cry until i fall asleep then woke up in the nite n cry again..... keep on crying the whole nite.... this morning woke up tears started to flow again.... last nite vomit out again..... this morning also.... stomach not feeling well.... i noe the ans already.... i will respect the decision.... like i sae in the first place... i hate myself.... realli hate..... emotions cant stop.... juz have tears keep on coming down.....

哭

哭的定义是什么？
哭了又如何？就可以改变些什么吗？
哭了以后可以让某个人为你而变吗?
哭了以后可以让坏事变好事吗？
哭了以后可以让痛变得不痛吗？
哭了就能让一切变得不一样了吗?
为什么要哭呢？
哭也不过是如此而已。。
哭也不能补救些什么，反而很累。。
不哭了。。尽可能地不哭了。。
saw this post from one of friend friend blog.... it is so true...... this is how i am feeling now... so helpless..... same as this person.... true n facts tt cannot be change.... once done cannot be change....

i dun noe wat happen to mi.... i seems to screw up things again.... i realli dun noe wat to do... feeling very bad now.... blame myself y like this.... y... my life will nvr be smooth y... maybe i shld juz admit it is my life n accept it ba..... recently alot of ppl seems not to be doing things well.... haizzzzzzzzzzz............... y like this... dun noe... feel like drinking recently.... but muz control.... hope tt things will turn well for mi ba.... todae went to my aunt hse for a while then reach home my dad treat mi dinner for my birthdae.... thx dad... but i juz cant smile..... my birthdae wish is to be wit him forever n hope tt he have a smooth sailing path ahead of him n wish tt he is happi always n he dun overwork himself n get enough rest.... hope it will be fulfil... realli hope.... last nite was talking to candy abt life.... i was like sae life is unpredictable.... u will nvr noe when is ur turn...... when ur turn come cant run away..... when it is not ur turn how u wan it u also could not get.... it is very true.... as candy sae she dun wan to work until die n no one wan it also.... then she sae things need solution but we onli see a temporally one we never realli see the permant one.... is coz we dun wan to face it.... tt y we dun wan the permant one as we noe the ans as it hurts..... i guess ba... candy sae her the other side might come out n no one will wan to see it... i sae it is fine wit mi.... she was like so shock..... been through so much so learn to see n accept it le... in life there is a lot of things u wont wan to see but it will not be bad if it is seen.... things dun look at the bad point of view... muz look from different angles.... juz do things in life tt dun make mi regret... but i realli regret to make things turn up like this.... i hate myself.... sae dun be like this n end up in the situation i dun wan.... i feel tt my life seems to get shorter n shorter when my health getting weaker n weaker...... dun noe la... dun wan to see doctor.... hate to see doctor.... tt all ba... the post seems to get longer le....

running nose got slightly better.... yest plan to work but in the end coz down wit flu.... todae plan to do tele but giddy.... i have been feeling giddy for almost 3 weeks le..... like once everydae.... i dun noe wat happen that cause my giddyness.... then stomach not feeling well either.... juz now went to ade hse to ask her for help in my drawing.... omg.... gg to faint.... muz draw 3d view.... muz hand up next week.... next week got test..... things r not gg well for mi these few daes keep falling sick... lol... another things is my mum sis is asking when can see him... n my mum keep asking y he nvr come nowadaes..... i dun noe how to ans them.... realli dun noe so i juz sae he is bz....

i am sick

i am down wit a flu again.... during the change of weather i will always have this problem.... especially during cold weather coz i have sensitive nose...... soon it will be fever n heavy flu which i dun wan.... now is exam period n gg to have my common test soon.... cannot fall sick... if not will be very bad.... i hate to fall sick during this period.... realli hate it.... shall stop here....

明明很爱他可是自己却一直伤害他..... 我不是故意的.... 不知道我为什么会这样..... 我真的很恨我自己... 好恨..... 我真的很痛很痛.... 我是真的痛了.... 我也哭了..... 我不知道应该怎么办.... 真的不知道.....

my leg realli hurt now... it is realli painful when i walk.... old injury is like this.... gg to see chinese doc tml.... a lot of things happen todae.... i screw up my work.... haiz...

i am so tiredddddddddd... todae work whole dae le.... todae i went to a wulu place tt i need to walk from one street to reach a bus stop n it is very long ard a 30 min walk so i took a cab instead.... the funny thing is the cab driver drop mi at the destination tt i went... the moment i step out onto the grass i fell down into the hole... hai... my dear is so bz... haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..... i dun like the feeling now i realli hate it.... i hate myself now coz i am letting my emotions to run over.... my mind seems to go wild tt y i choose to work n not let myself anyhow think.... then my aunts todae call to find my mum n my mum happen not in so they chat a bit wit mi instead n they ask abt my dear... seems tt they r interested to see him... then one of my aunts noe i teach tuition so she sae since i teaching tuition treat her go drink coffee then i sae ok sure... next time i go i treat u... she very cute she told mi buy wat coffee for her le... then fews daes ago my mum ask y nvr heard mi sae meeting him n y he nvr come our hse... she thought wat happen to us so i told her my dear is very bz wit his stuff... she was like oh...





then my darling fiona is too stress up by her stuff until she feel down... i miss her lots... realli lots...



tml is one of my family members who pass away 3 yrs.... actually i realli dun noe how we r related.... i guess is by grandparents related ba.... time realli pass fast... another 7 more mths will be my grandfather...




now i am feeling so confused n lost n helpless... i dun wan to anyhow think le... if not my mind will be full of nonsence again... tt y i realli hate myself now.... so i choose to occupy my mind wit lots of stuff to do... shall stop here... i need to continue to do my stuff....

i am sad coz things happen n i cant cope wit it.... then sun went to meet my dear after his work... actually he meet his friends n he juz meet wit them for a while then cab down to find mi.... he is understanding... he noe i am not right n he nvr throw his temper at mi instead he understands mi... i am realli touched.... then juz now he purposely wake up to listen to my stuff... i noe he is tired n need to rest.... thx for wat he sae.... i will be fine soon... i need time... i noe he feel heartpain n helpless.... i noe... so i muz recover soon... realli soon.... cannot let him worry too much...

todae was out wit shirley to beach then went to bought donut factory home.... not bad but very sweet... then yest meet candy to eat the mudpie from mac... n it was too sweet for both of us... we cant take it.... then yest went to work caught two time in a row for not wearing tag... haiz... yest was not my dae at work... yest totally suck.... i feel better after eating the mudpie but after tt miid totally change.... haiz... ltr gg out wit my mum gg to slp le...

went to meet my dear wit candy todae after his work... he was so tired n he has sore eyes... he nvr tell mi... if i noe i wont meet him... i would wan him to rest.... he arh... this whole week he is working... haiz... cannot meet him le... coz wan him to rest dun wan him to overwork....




todae stay back n help out in lab report but didnt actually help out much... coz a lot of things dun noe.... haiz.... but ok was quite fun....

wat is true friend

WHAT IS TRUE FRIEND....

A TRUE FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO LISTEN TO U N AT THE SAME TIME GIVE U THE RITE ADVISE.... NO TRUE FRIEND CAN TAHAN A PERSON WHO IGNORE ADVISE N KEEP ON WITH THE NONSENCE..... A TRUE FRIEND IS NOT A PERSON WHO WILL TAHAN ALL THE RUBBISH COZ HE OR SHE ALSO HAVE LIMIT.....




IF U DUN LISTEN TO UR FRIENDS FOR THE RITE ADVISE N KEEP ON WIT RUBBISH.... THE FRIEND WILL EVENTUALLY LEAVE U.... DONT EVER LET EMOTION RULE OVER U.... N ESPECAILLY FOR RELATIONSHIP COZ FRIENDS R THERE TO HELP.... IF A RELATIONSHIP HAS NO POINT OF SAVING OR CANT BE SAVED NO POINT HANDING ON..... IF U CONTINUE UR TRUE FRIEND WILL LEAVE U EVENTUALLY....

bad mood

everyone seems to be in a bad mood todae.... mi is one.... then candy is also one.... have a chat wit her.... dun noe la... dun wan to think le... tired.... last nite have a very gd chat wit him... realli gd.... talk a lot....

now in sch doing e learning... but nth to do n bored so do blogging here ba... these week is pretty bz for mi... slp a lot.... mon went home after teaching tuition n slp straight till tues morning.... then tues nite went to meet my dear... we went to eat n he slack at my hse.... then wed went home after tuition coz too tired after playing sports wit my class... didnt went office on wed.... then yest skip the first lesson.... after tt went home after tuition to rest also.... then todae gg to office ltr n after tt gg home to rest... maybe dun meet candy for dinner ba... see how lol... as i am feeling tired.... over exercising make my muscles pain until now.... then tml gg to meet my dear again.... so happi....