i am sick

i am down wit a flu again.... during the change of weather i will always have this problem.... especially during cold weather coz i have sensitive nose...... soon it will be fever n heavy flu which i dun wan.... now is exam period n gg to have my common test soon.... cannot fall sick... if not will be very bad.... i hate to fall sick during this period.... realli hate it.... shall stop here....

明明很爱他可是自己却一直伤害他..... 我不是故意的.... 不知道我为什么会这样..... 我真的很恨我自己... 好恨..... 我真的很痛很痛.... 我是真的痛了.... 我也哭了..... 我不知道应该怎么办.... 真的不知道.....

my leg realli hurt now... it is realli painful when i walk.... old injury is like this.... gg to see chinese doc tml.... a lot of things happen todae.... i screw up my work.... haiz...

i am so tiredddddddddd... todae work whole dae le.... todae i went to a wulu place tt i need to walk from one street to reach a bus stop n it is very long ard a 30 min walk so i took a cab instead.... the funny thing is the cab driver drop mi at the destination tt i went... the moment i step out onto the grass i fell down into the hole... hai... my dear is so bz... haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..... i dun like the feeling now i realli hate it.... i hate myself now coz i am letting my emotions to run over.... my mind seems to go wild tt y i choose to work n not let myself anyhow think.... then my aunts todae call to find my mum n my mum happen not in so they chat a bit wit mi instead n they ask abt my dear... seems tt they r interested to see him... then one of my aunts noe i teach tuition so she sae since i teaching tuition treat her go drink coffee then i sae ok sure... next time i go i treat u... she very cute she told mi buy wat coffee for her le... then fews daes ago my mum ask y nvr heard mi sae meeting him n y he nvr come our hse... she thought wat happen to us so i told her my dear is very bz wit his stuff... she was like oh...





then my darling fiona is too stress up by her stuff until she feel down... i miss her lots... realli lots...



tml is one of my family members who pass away 3 yrs.... actually i realli dun noe how we r related.... i guess is by grandparents related ba.... time realli pass fast... another 7 more mths will be my grandfather...




now i am feeling so confused n lost n helpless... i dun wan to anyhow think le... if not my mind will be full of nonsence again... tt y i realli hate myself now.... so i choose to occupy my mind wit lots of stuff to do... shall stop here... i need to continue to do my stuff....

i am sad coz things happen n i cant cope wit it.... then sun went to meet my dear after his work... actually he meet his friends n he juz meet wit them for a while then cab down to find mi.... he is understanding... he noe i am not right n he nvr throw his temper at mi instead he understands mi... i am realli touched.... then juz now he purposely wake up to listen to my stuff... i noe he is tired n need to rest.... thx for wat he sae.... i will be fine soon... i need time... i noe he feel heartpain n helpless.... i noe... so i muz recover soon... realli soon.... cannot let him worry too much...

todae was out wit shirley to beach then went to bought donut factory home.... not bad but very sweet... then yest meet candy to eat the mudpie from mac... n it was too sweet for both of us... we cant take it.... then yest went to work caught two time in a row for not wearing tag... haiz... yest was not my dae at work... yest totally suck.... i feel better after eating the mudpie but after tt miid totally change.... haiz... ltr gg out wit my mum gg to slp le...

went to meet my dear wit candy todae after his work... he was so tired n he has sore eyes... he nvr tell mi... if i noe i wont meet him... i would wan him to rest.... he arh... this whole week he is working... haiz... cannot meet him le... coz wan him to rest dun wan him to overwork....




todae stay back n help out in lab report but didnt actually help out much... coz a lot of things dun noe.... haiz.... but ok was quite fun....

wat is true friend

WHAT IS TRUE FRIEND....

A TRUE FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO LISTEN TO U N AT THE SAME TIME GIVE U THE RITE ADVISE.... NO TRUE FRIEND CAN TAHAN A PERSON WHO IGNORE ADVISE N KEEP ON WITH THE NONSENCE..... A TRUE FRIEND IS NOT A PERSON WHO WILL TAHAN ALL THE RUBBISH COZ HE OR SHE ALSO HAVE LIMIT.....




IF U DUN LISTEN TO UR FRIENDS FOR THE RITE ADVISE N KEEP ON WIT RUBBISH.... THE FRIEND WILL EVENTUALLY LEAVE U.... DONT EVER LET EMOTION RULE OVER U.... N ESPECAILLY FOR RELATIONSHIP COZ FRIENDS R THERE TO HELP.... IF A RELATIONSHIP HAS NO POINT OF SAVING OR CANT BE SAVED NO POINT HANDING ON..... IF U CONTINUE UR TRUE FRIEND WILL LEAVE U EVENTUALLY....

bad mood

everyone seems to be in a bad mood todae.... mi is one.... then candy is also one.... have a chat wit her.... dun noe la... dun wan to think le... tired.... last nite have a very gd chat wit him... realli gd.... talk a lot....

now in sch doing e learning... but nth to do n bored so do blogging here ba... these week is pretty bz for mi... slp a lot.... mon went home after teaching tuition n slp straight till tues morning.... then tues nite went to meet my dear... we went to eat n he slack at my hse.... then wed went home after tuition coz too tired after playing sports wit my class... didnt went office on wed.... then yest skip the first lesson.... after tt went home after tuition to rest also.... then todae gg to office ltr n after tt gg home to rest... maybe dun meet candy for dinner ba... see how lol... as i am feeling tired.... over exercising make my muscles pain until now.... then tml gg to meet my dear again.... so happi....

these r the photo for irene birthdae celebration...... actually got a lot of photo but i dun noe y they onli send mi these.... haha....

grp photo

cutting the cake....

birthdae boy n gal.....

juz reach home not long ago.... todae went for swimming in the morning wit candy n liyan... then we went for lunch before we headed home.... then when i went home n bath.... i went out to k box at jurong east to celebrate irene n lionel birthdae..... then got mi irene her daughter henry sunny meifang n her husband n lionel.... then after dear off work he went to fetch mi home.... HE IS SO SWEET...... I LOVE HIM LOTS.... N SO MANY DAES NVR SEEN HIM LE... AT LAST SAW HIM LE.... REALLI MISS HIM A LOTS... n after k box.... they went to eat dinner while we headed home as we r tired... then had a lot of fun todae but i was tired la.....



yest went to do tele at angela hse... then after tt went to eat mos burger at amk hub wit candy... then saw seba at mos... after we eat then we head home.... reach home ard 11....



then fri went to shop wit candy.... she accompany mi coz i was in a bad mood n gg to break down... we went novena.... we eat n eat instead of shop.... i bought a clip n a necklace.... then also do my pedicure.... then we went to eat at aijisa n bought cookies.... we slack at mos burger n drink milk tea.... then until 8 plus we went home.... candy is rite.... these few daes we keep drinking all type of water.... don noe y also.....

scare n afraid

i am realli afraid now.... totally afraid.... n scare too.... i told myself not too but i cant.... i have this fear.... i am breaking down..... nearly cry out.... i am afraid to get hurt... in a relationship i always get hurt.... i dun fall in love easily.... once i fall in love i will fall deeply.... the person will be my pillar of support.... n i cannot afford to lose that person.... i hate myself.... i really hate myself.... i am a bad girlfriend.... a totally bad one and failure.... i noe tt i am not gd enough for him.... i rely a lot on him.... in a relationship i will become weaker as i dependent on him..... i realli dun noe how now.... i am useless..... for being such a bad person..... i realise i am a failure..... totally a failure....

i dun noe wat to sae.... things keep cropping out again.... it is all my fault this time.... coz i am emo i dun wan to sae it out n juz keep it to myself.... now let my dear think tt i dun wan him.... is not tt i dun wan him.... now make him so emo le.... i realli dun noe how le.... things keep cropping out one by one.... i cant digest in time.... he sae he wan to be alone to think... so i let him.... my greatest fear is out.... he is not the one who will get hurt.... i am also.... i really love him.... he is a very great bf but i am not a good gf.... totally a failure n bad one.. i am realli afraid.... totally afraid....

yeah... finally over liao....

yeah.... finally everything is over le.... i am so happi.... really happi.... at last we r ok le.... dun need to worry n go crazy le...

I AM TIRED...

i guess i am realli tired be it physically or mentally.... too much stuff to digest n i am not coping well wit it... my close friends all seems to see through it but they dun wan to sae it out onli.... ade candy crystal fiona n kat.... all see through mi... ade juz call and ask wat happen.... candy chat wit mi... crystal n kat n fiona also.... it is not obvious unless u realli noe mi well.... i juz act tt i am ok... juz have a chat wit candy she juz sae endure for 2 mth more then go n have a gd rest n recharge myself... ya it is true la.... so i shall wait until the time... in the mean time try to be strong ba..... like wat candy sae all i need is to be alone... then i will start to be fine ba after some time....

long post

sch started for a week le... n i am so tired.... got a lot of stuff dun understand..... realli dun n wits lots of ?????..... muz start to revise le... if not will not do well.... i wan to do well... so muz study..... reach sch juz on time everydae..... n ya... last thurs overslept for the first lesson..... i woke up at 8.45 n went back to slp.... i thought my lesson was at 10.... then suddenly remember my lesson start at 9.... n i skip my lesson.... coz it is the first lesson for tt modcule of the week....









so many things happened this week..... this week dun realli goes well for mi.... then i broke down n cried on some matters on wed after my class..... i shall not sae it.... but candy n crystal r the ones who noes wat happen tt make mi break down.... n angela for listening to mi for everything.... n gerrad for calling mi to check tt i am ok or not.... thx for chatting wit mi... then sat went to ade hse..... she is super gd... treat mi drink.... haha.... ade noe something happen to mi when i talk to her..... thx for u guys concern....







then lastly but not all my dear who r there for mi always there for mi.... thx a lot.... i noe u r bz n u always try ur best to give mi the time u have.... i realli appreciate..... u muz also rest well....







on wed n thurs went to meet lai.... then tues, fri n sun went to meet my dear..... then sat at ade.... sun also went out wit candy her sis chalton to play badminton.... then after tt we went mac n slack... then liyan came to join us.... n we realli chat a lot.... then dear was doing duty also... then liyan n candy start to ka jiao mi.... was not bad... not a bad session wit them.... then saw mdn tan n her daughter too... she brought her daughter for the event at mac.... then when liyan left we also left.... when i reach home lai sms mi tell mi she broke down... so i bath n went to meet her then ltr candy went to join us.... we talk to her a lot.... then after my dear end work 3 of us talk to her together.... then we decided to stop n end it... then ask lai to go home first.... after a while we went home too.....






like wat gerrad sae.... i have a bunch of best friends wit mi..... a loving bf.... all the gd bosses.... n my ex colleagues who r there for mi.... it is also enough... i noe n i am contented.... life dun always go to the way we wan.... juz go through it...

HAPPY 4TH MTH

todae is mi n my dear 4th mth anniversary..... so fast time has pass..... it is our fourth mth together.... during this mth a lot of things happen.... but we overcome it together... all the obstacles r clear.... i am loving him more n more each dae..... my love for him is getting deeper each dae.... he made mi feel so blessed.... he let mi noe wat is love.... the feeling of being in love.... the feeling of being pampered.... the feeling of being doted.... thx to him a lot..... juz to let him i love him.....

todae went for dinner wit my darling fiona.... we had a lot of fun chatting.... we love each other company.... we agree to go shopping one daes.... we wan to go shopping.... yea.... we havent went shopping together since we r bz wit our own stuff..... so we shall go shopping one dae....

a new sem

tml is the starting of a new sem.... sch start le which mean my life is gonna to be very bz.... haiz.... which is a brand new me... i am gg to work very hard for my studies to get the grades i wan.... i am gg to study hard.... real hard.... as usual i will slack but i will change the habit of studying... i wll listen in lec n tut.... but mostly is lec n lag.... i will not slp anymore.... muz control myself juz for the sake of better..... ok shall stop here.... gg to slp le...

I AM SO HAPPI

i am so happi wit my life now.... i am realli happi.... i feel so bless.... i am contented.... i had a family who cares for mi although there r lots of quarrels n misunderstanding, a wonderful n loving boyfriend n a bunch of best friends who r my buddies.... a person muz learn to be contented.... in this way there will always be happiness ard.... my life is so great now..... i love my life now.... thx to all of you who made my life so wonderful n meaningful......

lost my voice

lost my voice todae due to singing.... haiz... todae went to meet candy n liyan for lunch at yoshinoya.... then i head to ade hse to give ade sis the books while candy n liyan went to party world.... then i went to meet them... we plan to sing at 2 but it open at 3pm... so we slack outside the safra there n chat.... then after tt went to sing... we had a lot of fun even though there is onli 3 of us.... we were high... then after tt we went home having a lot of fun.... then liyan give mi n candy key chain she bought from china.... thx a lot.... i like it..... tt all...

i am so happi.... went shopping todae..... i buy a bag todae.... then bought 2 pairs of ear rings... but i lost it... hope i can find it... blur blur... haiz..... went to meet my dear... so happi to see him... i am sick these few daes....

i fell down again todae.... which worsen the condition of my leg.... it is more painful now.... todae mood not good le... turn worse when i meet the client... piss mi off... but still ok la...

my leg injury came back again....

my leg injury came back again.... haiz... poor thing... so nowadaes i walk my leg will somehow pain... cannot walk too much... due to endless of injuries.... haiz... dun think it will be cure.... i onli hope tt the pain will go away soon.... coz it is realli pain sometime....

settle

i finally calm down n sort out wat to do le.... thanks fernandes for his advise last nite.... sorry to make him chat wit mi when he is sick... but at least i manage to settle.... realli settle it for once n for all.... no need to have sleepless nite anymore.... i am happi tt i have settle.... but at the same time i feel sad n bad also.... haiz....

disappear

i am confused... i dun noe wat to do... realli at a lost.... so now i am playing disappear.... coz i dun wan to see anyone for the time being.... i also dun feel like talking to anyone too... i dun noe how to sae either.... certain things cant sae out one.... last nite think n think n i could not slp till morning.... morning also didnt slp well either.... my mind gg to bao zha le.... i will go crazy de.... coz it keep appearing..... i dun wan to face it... or shld i sae i had been running away from it.... but recently it keep appearing.... i am realli suffering..... i am very tong ku..... so now i juz need to be alone.... realli alone wit no one disturbing mi.... need to think n sort out n overcome everything by myself..... so dun be surprise if u cant find mi.....

ade birthdae celebration....

todae went to meet ade n crystal.... we went to amk hub n eat fish n co.... the food was not up to the standard as it is not nice..... as usual we went to shop.... todae ade n mi not in mood.... ade is coz she lack of slp.... i shld not sae mine.... crystal also not realli in mood.... so we meet up for a while onli... juz randomly walk ard n eat.... then after tt went home..... something very pervert happen on the bus to crystal.... i didnt noe until she sms mi after she alight.... coz in the bus ade was slping n my mind keep running through some stuff.... n all of us sit separately..... haiz....

wed went to meet two new bosses gerrard n lionel.... n angela taught mi telemarketing.... means now i got 4 bosses angela jia hao gerrard lionel.... i find my bosses all very fun n cute... haha....

todae my student gave mi a box of ferrero rocher.... so touched by her.... she is cute.... haha....

tml gg to meet ade n crystal..... finally meeting up again.... so happi.... gg to celebrate ade belated birthdae.... although it is one mth later... haha....

lol.... my stupid timetable is out... everydae end late.... haiz.... gg to spend a lot of time in sch.... means i will be home late.... this also means tt i will have less time wit my friends n dear.... my dear even worse everydae from 8am to 5pm.... haiz.... gg to have less time for each other.... both of us have to work...

so tired

i am so tired... realli so tired.... i need a break.... i need a rest... a good rest.... a place tt i can isolated from all the ppl here.... i juz wan to be alone.... realli alone witout anyone.... duna sk mi y... i am also very fan n frustrated.... i will go crazy soon... so ppl of u cant find mi.... juz leave mi a msg... i will reply u guys... sorry if i had disappear.... i think i have the need.....

sat went to the zoo wit my student... it was fun for both of us... havent go zoo for a long time... todae went dinner went ade her mum n kat... so fun gg wit them.... laugh n laugh... havent seen them for a long time le... so nice to see them again.... n ya crystal came my hse todae... not bad la.... from last nite slp until todae afternoon ard 5..... tired... finally have a gd slp..... recently start to think a lot.... dun noe y.....

TIRED

i am so tired.... realli very tired.... so many things to digest.... i dun noe wat to do... very fan n confused now.... now i hope mi or my dear dun collapse at this time.... although we r tired... we will go through this together as we promise...... we will overcome it.... we r strong.... we will be strong.... i realli gg to collapse but i still hang on until everything is over....




todae went shopping wit fiona... we didnt realli shop as both of us r trouble..... juz randomly walk ard.... too tired also... both of us r tired due to our own problems..... too fan until we went to arcade to vent out our troubles.... even we vent out we r juz onli a bit better.... we r realli emo n troubled....

i hate ppl who has no manners....

i am so angry now.... i hate ppl who has no manners.... i realli hate... be it adults or children... especially those parents who DONT TEACH their children..... some parents have the time to idle n slp why not spend the time to teach...... the most at least muz have the basic manner... if they dont have then plz stay away from mi.... if not u will definitely get it from mi.... trust mi i realli hate ppl who no manner....

HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO ANTHONY N HUI QING

todae is my darling cousin birthdae celebration.... we celebrate todae.... then my dear came after work... meet him at the mrt.... quite fun n alot of things happen... thx him for making the effort to come down after his work.... he made balloon for the kids n myself too.... thx him....



todae is my classmate anthony birthdae n my friend hui qing birthdae.... wish them all their dreams n wishes come true....

nightmare

a nightmare is a nightmare.... there will be times tt u wake up.... for mi even though the nightmare i had waken up but i nvr realli get over it.... i am trying my best to get over.... so bother to ask mi i wont sae it out.... i believe everyone has its secrets n the nightmare i am having is my secret.... i am realli trying my best to get over even though it is hard...i had to overcome it.... no matter how tough i will get over even it needs a lot of times..... as long as i dun get over i will be trap... i dun wan to be trap.... realli dun wan.... a fact is a fact n it cant be change so we have to face it... realli have to face it.... running away wont solve the problem..... facing n overcome it then it will be solved....

i am so easily emo these few daes... dun noe y... last nite made my dear worried n he nearly went crazy... dun noe y suddenly dun feel like ans his call.... then he kept calling n i juz threw my phone to aside... dun ask mi y.... even i noe the reason very well... but i didnt sae it out.... last nite chat wit him a lot but still didnt tell him the main reason.... he can sense it but he has no choice to accept my explaination.... as u noe mi well if i dun wan to sae i wont sae no matter wat method u used... i noe he is realli worried.... i noe i shldnt ignore him i shld tell him wat happen.... but i noe i need to think.... i need to sort out my messy mind first... i dun wan to be in the mess....

last nite went to celebrate anthony birthdae.... got anthony mi michelle junjie yingying n nya oo.... it was quite fun wit them... talk a lot... we went to eat steamboat.... then we went to play bowling after tt.... it was quite late le so we went home.... reach home ard 12 plus... cab home from yishun... since it is quite late le.... then my dear wait for mi until he felt asleep... haiz....



juz now went to meet my ex colleagues for lunch at jp... then after tt went home... as usual chat a lot... got to noe a lot of news.... haha... laugh a lot... crap a lot... quite fun la... gg to go le...

i pass my results.... but it is very bad.... due to my lazyness plus playfulness.... i pass so badly n thanks god tt i pass my cp..... realli thanks god.... next sem muz study le...

everyone is so emo

dun noe wat happen recently... a lot of my close friends seem to be so emo.... a lot of them r facing problems especially bgr... i also dun noe how to help... i can onli help by listening to them... haiz... then dun noe wat happen to my dear also.... realli wan to help him but i dun noe how.... feeling so helpless.... i hate the feeling of feeling helpless... dear i am sorry tt i cant help u in anything but i will give up my support.... no matter wat happens i will be there for u.... feeling so worried for him... can anyone tell mi how... I JUZ HOPE TT EVERYONE ARD MI WILL BE HAPPI....

presents from him for every mth n it is still continuing......

all the presents from 1st mth to now the 3rd mth n is still continue.....



all the presents for 3rd mth.....

3rd mth present.... puzzle done by my dear....

soft toy by him.....

2nd mth winne the pooh by him.....

1st mth present from him.... a pair of rings wit our names on each ....

todae is a bz dae for mi... also very tiring... todae went to work again... was so tiring... then went to meet candy... shop for a while then went to eat mos n head back home.... then rest for a while... go n meet dear for a while then went to meet my darling fiona.... crap n chat a lot wit her.... n i finally see her liao... after so long..... noe wat she is gg through now... mi support u till the end... jia you n stay happi..... then juz now chatted wit my dear for a while n he slp le... gg to slp soon... tired liao.... gg to post my pic....

I AM GETTER FATTER...

i am putting on weight.... too much of late nite supper n chips n ice cream n chocolate is seducing mi... cant control... so muz learn to control.... if not later become fatter n fatter... my dear also sae i put on a LOT of weight le.... haiz.... this show muz exercise more... dun be lazy le.... holi even worse slp n eat.... ok...

happy 3rd mth

todae is the 3rd mth.... he bought mi a soft toy n do mi a puzzle... thanks a lot for ur effort.... i realli appreciate.... now i noe tt our minds think alike.... this one is secret... haha.... tt all ba for now...

todae went out wit crystal to shop.... shop for a while... then noe wat happen to her..... feel very heart pain n sad for her.... i noe wat she is gg through... i noe she is having a hard time.... hope tt she can get over soon.... hope tt she will be fine..... hope tt she will be strong.... she is strong i believe.... chat a lot wit her....

tml was a tiring dae for mi... went to work then went to tuition then went to work again... it was so rush n tiring.... haizz.... reach home ard 9 plus.... haiz.... so many things happen recently..... so sick n tired of it... y cant have a break n let mi rest..... i realli need rest n a lot of PEACE..... i am thinking how to cope..... realli.... although i have a shoulder but i dun wan to add on burden to him.... he will be more tired n exhausted.... there r times to rely n times not to rely.... been thinking these few nights as i cant slp.... tt y slp until late afternoon..... haiz...... gg to slp le todae have a tiring dae.....

to my dear...
i am so sorry tt i am given u so many problems... juz to tell u.... u did nth wrong is juz all the fault lie is mi.... it is my fault.... i dun wan to give u so many problems but i seems to add on.... i dun noe wat is happening to mi... i realli dun noe.... sorry to u... beside sorry is also sorry.... is juz tt i am not a gd gf la.... i am realli a bad gf....








my pressure is getting bigger n bigger..... n i dun seems to be coping wit it..... my limit is gg to be up.... i am in the stage of breaking down wit all this stuff..... starting to get tired n sick of it.... wat can i do.... dun even noe now.... losing my temper often n recently.... cant control my temper well.... shows tt my limit is realli up..... breaking down so often.....then started to think am i a failure..... or shld i sae i am always a failure...... my smiles is starting to disappear... mood gets so bad easily...

LOVE

love is not rational.... if it is then it is not love.... love will make a person lose all the emotions.... loving a person will give him watever u have..... u wont wan him to pay u back unless he loves u.... loving a person will wan to see him being happi..... loving a person need not the person to love u back if he dont.... loving a person will make u give up watever u have juz in order to see the person happi... u juz wan to see the person happi n u will be contented.... juz by staying quietly by his side is enough for u.... when he need u, u r there for him..... when he is down, u cheer him up.... when he is sad u make him happi......

HAIZ.... RELATIONSHIP R SO FRAGILE.....

HAIZ.... JUZ REALISE TT RELATIONSHIP R SO FRAGILE.... juz got a shocking news.... dun noe wat to sae either... juz feel so sad n emo... things r not getting rite again... maybe it is time to reflect on myself.... wat had i done this time again... i admit tt i am not getting rite wit words again.... WHAT IS WRONG WIT MI.... Y I KEEP SAYING N DOING THE WRONG THINGS...
AM I REALLI A FAILURE... SO TIRED N SICK OF HEARING A LOT OF THINGS... HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.............. NOW IS SAD N EMO AGAIN.....

todae went to watch ratatouille wit my dear.... but my dear got sore eyes..... all along his eyes is in pain... hope tt he is fine... my dear coz dun wan to broke his promise tt y he tahan all the way... it is hard on u... juz to make mi happi.... thx a lot... i am realli happi.... but heart pain coz his eyes is pain... seeing him suffer although he sae no juz not to make mi worry... now make my dear sad again.... realli sorry.... i didnt mean it... i noe u r sad.... realli sad.... dear plz dun get angry.... plz dun misunderstand.... juz to let u noe.... IN MY HEART THERE IS ONLI U.... I CANT PUT OTHER GUYS IN.... NO MATTER WAT THEY DO.... I WILL NOT BE TOUCHED BY THEM.... ONLI U HAVE TOUCHED MI....I JUZ WAN TO TELL U I HAVE GIVEN U MY WHOLE HEART.... U R THE ONE FOR MI.... I REALLY LOVE U A LOTS... DEEP FROM MY HEART.... tt all la.....







after movie went home... on the way home saw my ex nss.... saw wee yuan on the train... then while walking back to interchange saw my pri friend.... dun noe he remember mi ma... then saw kevin when talking bus... so we chat on the bus.... talk abt recently how is us doing...

I AM SO PISS OFF.... I DUN NOE WHICH IDOIT GIVE MY OLD NO TO A UNKNOWN GUY.... TT GUY IS A PLAYBOY.... ASK HIM GO N DIE... HE WAN TO CHEAT GALS GO FAR AWAY... I WILL LET U NOE HOW TO DIE.... I HATE GUYS WHO CHEAT N PLAY GALS... GALS R NOT MEANT TO BE PLAY.....

todae finally get to see my dear... he accompany mi to go n buy my cousin birthdae cake at causeway... then headed home... got a lot of misunderstanding between us.... it pays a high price for it.... my heart break n shattered... now is amending it... he is amending it.... i treat it as a obstacle.... after this will be better... which relationship dun have obstacle.... wont be smooth always... due to my character unless i calm down or else i wont listen or talk to the person....




todae is my cousin birthdae...... my aunt cook a lot of food for us.... it was nice.... my aunt also spend quite a lot... one of my cousins requst my dear to hug him when he left.... kenna shock... this show he is popular among the kids...

erm suppose to meet my dear todae but he cant make it.. nvr... shall go n find him.... then these few daes my net siao... so todae chinyong n candy came my hse.... then after tt went out wit candy.... candy was feeling realli down... try to console her but didnt manage la.... then hope she will be better...



thurs my student give mi my first present.... so sweet of her.... it is for teacher dae....

fri went back to sch for teacher dae.... meet liyan for breakfast at mac.... then we went to meet kimbert.... chat wit potato mdn ho mdm how mrs goh n mdn xue..... then got hi to a few teachers as they were bz... then went to meet shirley... she wait for mi for 2 hrs... realli sorry... didnt mange to do her stuff....

yest went to escape wit shirley.. she got free tickets.... was very fun.... both of us play until siao... then after tt went to cut my hair... tt all... wit shirley got a lot of fun.... thx to her....






I MISS MY DEAR DEAR... HAVENT SEEN HIM FOR 12 DAES LE.... REALLI MISS HIM A LOT.... HAIZ.....

yest i went for my class chalet.... didnt stay overnight.... juz went there for a while onli.... went for the bbq... as for how i felt abt the bbq onli my dear noes.... i onli tell him... lol.... zul n eddy very bad arh... keep saeing mi eat eat eat.... go there got nth to do ma so eat la..... then slack there as usual... sms wit my dear.... all of them noe was asking mi but i didnt admit la..... it is quite obvious.... haha... then after tt went home... my mentor send mi home.... not onli mi n a few classmate too.... this gathering don have much laughter as a lot of them seems to be facing problems..... n my class come out my couple le.... one sem got one..





i miss my dear dear a lots... havent see him for a week plus le..... onli chat wit him on phone... DEAR DEAR I MISS U..... the dae tt we nvr meet up.... time realli pass very slow.... the time we spend seems to pass very fast.... i realli love u a lots.... nvr we r meeing up soon.... we r meeting on sundae.... yeah... counting down....

EXAMS FINALLY FINISH LIAO.... YEA.... FINALLY FINISH... GOING TO ENJOY MY HOLI... WORKING N PLAYING... todae ppr is a killer a lot of ppl don noe how to do.... i screw up a lot of ppr on the sem exam.... don noe wat happen.... juz don get the mood to study but i did force myself to study la... juz a pass for all the ppr....

todae my dear dear is sick... don noe wat happen to him also.... juz hope tt he will take care of himself when i am not ard wit him... this week onli see him on tues.... mon n thurs i have exam.... wed working.... fri he working... sat also... todae suppose to meet him but he is sick so we cancel...






i made him cry again on fri nite.... i noe i am a bad gf la... it show tt he realli care n love mi a lot.... i am realli sorry dear... it wont happen again.... i promise.... i noe i shldnt think tt way.... i will not think tt way anymore....





yest went out wit shirley to bugis... went to shop for a while then we head home as we were tired.... then todae suppose to meet rayner but somethings crop out.... so sorry to him... last min ps him but i don mean to... tml last ppr le....

SICK

I AM SICK TODAY..... OMG.... SOMEMORE DURING EXAM PERIOD..... FAINT LE LA.... MUZ TAKE CARE OF MY HEALTH LE... TODAE PPL DIDNT DO WELL..... NOT FEELING WELL THEN CANNOT CONCENTRATE WELL... MIND WAS TIRED.... MUZ GET WELL BEFORE MY LAST PPR.... IF NOT WILL END UP LIKE TODAE.... OK.... GG TO REST LE...

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzz............... don noe wat to do.... recently had been thinking a lot..... BUT ONE GD NEWS IS I FINALLY SORT OUT MY MIND LE... haha... ermm..... wat i think n sort out is secret... hehe... after sorting out i am not so emo.... at least i noe wat i wan.... tml 1 more paper... then last ppr on mon.... then after tt is working n working le.... gg to mug le...

todae went to my uncle hse.... then went to meet my dear... then we went to meet suvit for a while.... they two were playing intial D then i was there seeing la.. then went to get a drink n shop for a while before heading back to meet him.... then shop for a while n head back home... now reach home le... ltr gg to study le... tml having exams....


todae dear give mi the a winne the pooh bear for our second mth.... i realli love it very much... thanks a lot... didnt expect it...

todae went to see fireworks la... not bad la.... quite nice... went wit my family n candy... then we went home... mi n candy took bus while they took train...we took one hr of bus 70... then at yio chu kang took bus home... candy was bored until she started singing... then starting to entertain ourselves... went mac before headed home as candy havent eat... then went home... on the way home saw mohan n shanker.... then saw kevin on bus.... mi n candy chatted wit kevin... now at home... gg to slp le...

todae went to talk to my mentor abt some stuff.... he give mi a lot of advise n i understand.... noe wat to do la... at least have a clear idea le... also starting to get over some things tt happen recently which make mi realli depresses for some time.... thanks to my friends n dear by my side to encourage mi.... through this i noe who r true to mi.... who will help mi when i need help... who will be there for mi...... thanks for helping mi to get over..... then learn a lot from my mentor todae...




todae went to meet my dear juz now for a while.... he accompany mi to do my stuff..... then after tt i went home.... dear sae he is celebrating 2 mth... don noe wat he is on his mind... so secret... shld noe when tt dae come.... tt all ba

happi 2nd mth

TODAE IS MY 2 MTH TOGETHER WIT MY DEAR.... SO FAST 2 MTHS LE.... THESE 2 MTHS NOE A LOT OF THINGS FROM MY DEAR... ALSO LEARN A LOT FROM MY DEAR.... HE REALLI TAUGHT MI A LOT OF STUFF..... THANKS FOR TEACHING MI.... REGARDING STUDIES OR WAT.... REALLI THANKS TO YOU FOR LETTING MI TO LEARN SO MUCH STUFF....



WHEN I ALREADY GIVE UP ON RELATIONSHIP...
U CAME IN N MAKE MI DON GIVE UP....
WHEN I LOST FAITH IN RELATIONSHIP.....
U CAME IN N TEACH MI TRUST.....
WHEN I WAS FEELING DOWN....
U R THERE FOR MI....
WHEN I SAD....
U CHEER MI UP...
WHEN I AM ANGRY....
U CALM MI DOWN....
WHEN I LOST HOPE.....
U GIVE MI HOPE....
WHEN EVERYONE GIVE UP ON MI...
U DIDNT GIVE UP ON MI...
WHEN I LOST MY SMILE.....
U RETURN BACK THE SMILE TT IS FROM MY HEART....
WHEN I SEAL MY HEART....
U OPEN IT N SHOW MI LOVE......
WHEN I THOUGHT I HAD LOST MY HAPPINESS......
U BROUGHT IT BACK TO MI......






JUZ TO TELL U TT I REALLI LOVE U A LOT.... MY LOVE FOR U IS GETTING DEEPER N DEEPER EACH DAE..... I REALLI TREAUSRE U FROM MY HEART.... NO MATTER WAT HAPPEN I WONT LET U GO.... LIKE U SAE NOE A PERSON MUZ USE HEART.... SO I ALSO USES MY HEART TO NOE N UNDERSTAND U... EACH DAE I DONT SEE U OR TALK TO U I REALLI MISS U A LOT... ALTHOUGH I DON SAE IT OUT.... BUT I DON NOE U CAN SENSE IT OR NOT.... I AM NOT GOOD AT EXPRESSING MY WORDS.... THE DAES WIT U... I CAN REALLI FEEL HAPPINESS WIT U..... ZHEN DE ZHEN DE HAO XIN FU.....

THESE FEW DAES I DIDNT SLEEP WELL.... I BROKE DOWN N CRY... AS FOR WAT HAPPEN TO MI U GUYS NOE LA.... WHEN I CALL MY DEAR THE MOMENT I START TALKING TO HIM... I CRY N BROKE DOWN... THEN IN FRONT OF CANDY I ALSO CRY... MY FRIENDS FEEL PAIN FOR MI SEEING MI SO SAD.... SORRY TO MAKE U ALL WORRY ESPECIALLY MY DEAR..... HE IS VERY WORRY ABOUT MI..... ALL THE TIME TO MAKE SURE I AM FINE... HE KEEP CALLING N SMS MI... SORRY TT I DIDNT REPLY U.... THERE R TIMES I THINK I WAN TO BE ALONE..... COZ I DON NOE WAT TO DO.... I WILL BE STRONG ONE.... LIKE KAT SAE I AM A STRONG GAL SO I WILL BE STRONG...






THANKS DEAR FOR BEING THERE WIT MI WHEN I NEED U....
THANKS DEAR FOR BEING THERE FOR MI WHEN I AM DOWN.....
THANKS DEAR FOR MAKING SURE TT I AM FINE....
THANKS DEAR FOR WORRYING FOR MI....
THANKS DEAR FOR SHOWING MI SO MUCH LOVE.....
THANKS DEAR FOR SHOWING MI SO MUCH CARE....
THANKS DEAR FOR NOT LEAVING MI....
THANKS DEAR FOR LETTING MI NOE WAT IS LOVE......
THANKS FOR SUPPORTING MI TILL THE END....






THIS ONE IS TO MU FRIENDS.....
THANKS YOU GUYS FOR SUPPPORTING MI TILL THE END.... THANKS FOR CARING FOR MI.... THANKS FOR CHATTING WIT MI WHEN I CANT SLEEP.... THANKS FOR MAKING SURE TT I AM FINE... THANKS FOR HELPING MI.... THANKS TO MY BESTI FOR BEING THERE FOR MI.....

wedding dinner

last nite was the wedding dinner of my cousin.... everyone dress until so nice... we the cousins share one table... then it was ok la.... took a few photos.... upload now....
ah yun n mi


yi fang n mi

us again

ting fang n mi

my little nephew n mi

may fang n mi

ah hui n mi

2 juans.... siew juan n gui juan

may fang yi fang n mi

last nite didnt slp at all.... was out the whole nite doing my project.... after tuition went to meet my project mate n we start to do n chat.... until tis morning... n we were so tired.... we ask a lot of help from our friends.... then todae the lec noe it is not done by us... i am sorry that the data was lost... didnt mean it.... then went home at ard 3 plus n out of hse at 4 plus.... after tt rush to meet dear le... then was piss off by a lot of things todae... shall not sae here....





todae went to np to find my dear as he need to do somethings.... then he help mi out wit my cp.... after he finish helping mi he do his stuff until 8 plus.... then we went home... he send mi home.... then until my doorstep my little cousin talk to him.... she don wan to let him go.... she like this kor kor le.... then ask him to go home rest as last nite he didnt slp well...

I AM SO SORRY DEAR....

I AM REALLY SO SORRY TO MY DEAR.... I AM REALLY SORRY THAT I HAD HURT YOU LAST NIGHT.... I DIDNT MEANT TO.... I KNOW I SHOULDNT SAY THOSE THINGS TO YOU... AND I PROMISE YOU I WONT SAY IT ANYMORE..... I KNOW I HAD REALLY HURT YOU LAST NIGHT.... REALLY HURT YOU DEEP..... MY TEARS WAS ROLLING DOWN FROM MY EYES AS I SAYING IT TO YOU... I KNOW HOW HURT IT IS TO BE.... ALTHOUGH WE ARE TOGETHER FOR NOT LONG BUT OUR RELATIONSHIP FOR EACH OTHER IS VERY DEEP.... I KNOW YOU REALLY LOVE ME A LOT... I REALLY KNOW... I ALSO KNOW YOU REALLY SACRIFIC A LOT FOR ME... AND GIVE UP ON A LOT OF THINGS FOR ME.... LIKE YOU SAY YOU USE YOUR HEART TO UNDERSTAND ME... I ALSO USE MY HEART TO UNDERSTAND YOU.... THAT WHY OUR FEELING FOR EACH OTHER IS VERY DEEP.... JUST TO TELL YOU THAT I REALLY LOVE YOU.... I WILL NEVER LET YOU GO..... I WILL STAY BY YOUR SIDE FOREVER.... I PROMISE.... I WONT LEAVE YOU ANYMORE..... ANYTHING BOTH OF US WILL SOLVE AND FACE IT TOGETHER...

still cant slp so go online to blog... yest was quite a gd dae for mi.... went to ade hse n do my project... she help mi a lot.... thx... then after tt went to meet dear n slack at his hse for a while.... after tt he came to my hse todae to celebrate my ah ma birthdae.... he is gd at making the kids like him la.... can tell tt the kids like him a lot... haha... erm i guess overall it is not bad ba.... then we went to play pool wit my cousin la... then we head to northpoint to get some stuff.... after tt went to my grandma hse for a while n he went to do his stuff.... then ltr is my cousin wedding...

last fri got no comm skills class so didnt went sch.... if i went sch juz go for the one hr of e learning it is so tired... n i was so tired on thurs so fri slp late n went to work... after tt went to teach my new student... this one is not bad... like to sing n play.... then sat slack as usual at home... sun went to tam to wait for my dear for him to off work... then went to have dinner together.... while waiting for him do my shopping.... shop for a long time to find the heels i like.... i admit i am fussy when it come to scandals n heels.... coz i wan to wear comfortable ma if not my leg will suffer... then also bought 2 formal shirts both r white.... then went to have our dinner n headed home.... dear send mi home n help mi to carry my stuff... thx for him... on the way home was lying on his shoulders n this came to my mind tt whenever i need a shoulder he is there to give mi... ya during shopping A call mi.... he was feeling down.... sorry that i cant accompany u.... coz my dear is MORE IMPORTANT.... hope tt he is fine.... then mon gives tuition again.... this student i am giving tution is on monday, thursday and friday.... she is quite a nice gal... have a lot of fun wit her.... entertain mi a lot.... then tues skip cp coz too tired n overslept.... so i went for the lesson on analogues... after tt got personal development presentation.... it was ok la... wed after lesson went home n slp.... then yest after class straight away headed to give tuition... then todae was my com skills presentation.... it was not bad as the lec sae gd....





yest bf was sick... was so worry abt him... last nite didnt slp well... todae also worry.... but juz now call him le... he went to see a doc n take medicine n he is ok le... got a bit relieved....





yest was my friend from a company i work before... we became gd friends during tt time now back into contact again... wish her happi birthdae..... happi birthdae shirley.... wish u all ur dreams come true....





then tml is celebrating my ah ma birthdae... dear is coming.... haha... a lot of us r bringing our partner...

todae sucks

todae was not my day.... went to sch n halfway my slippers broke... faint... thx to my cp mate tt she help mi... nice to noe her.... chat wit her a lot n it let mi get to noe her more... we share some stuff... then my brain not working due to too much stress... until i feel very giddy n cannot study.... then didnt force myself anymore coz if i still force i will faint... feel so miserable during tt time n i told dear.... dear was worry abt mi n keep telling mi to rest more... so went home n rest straight after my exam.... todae got com skills exams... it was so tough... slp until juz now then wake up.... tired... now still tired but got a lot work undone.. gg to do my stuff le...

thanks for loving mi.....
thanks for letting mi know what is love.....
thanks for doting mi....
thanks for worrying about mi always....
thanks for caring for mi....
thanks for being there for mi.....
thanks for the things you done....
thanks for making mi smile....
thanks for cheering mi up......
i remember the promise that you gave mi....
i remember the promise i gave you...
i remember what we agreed and said....
i wont let you go...
thanks for the everything u do i really appreciate....
i love you dear.... really love you a lot.... my love for you getting deeper and deeper each day.... my misses for you will only increased..... i really miss you a lot....

now in sch doing cp... totally have no mood to do n sian lol.... so slack la... coz my lec had finish teaching so he let us use this time to do our project.... tml having my communication skills test.... tonite gg to chiong for my studies.... i wan to do well n it had got a lot to study... although is 5 topics but it got a lot of sub topics.... haiz....





yest nite didnt chat wit my dear dear coz he knock off le.... he slp from last nite till this morning.... i go n disturb him juz now...... wake him up coz i am bored... haha... although i am naughty la.... juz to let him noe tt i really MISS him a lot n i realli LOVE him a lot too... he is my EVERYTHING... HE IS MY ONLY ONE.... i havent seen him for a few daes le...




yest on the way home saw lai n crap wit her for a while.... we took the same bus back home... we were talking abt our class n our bf... she is so xin fu... so obvious it is all over her face.... gd for her... recently ppl surround mi started to get attached le... so happi tt they had found their xin fu.... for mi i have got mine.... shall stop here.....

yest was a bz n tiring dae for mi... but still fun la... went to do my stuff first then went to find my dear n have our rings carved.... when having ur rings carved we went to shop ard... after tt went to do my stuff again n dear accompany mi to take train.... then i went to do my stuff n dear went to do his stuff.... after i finish my stuff i went to meet meifang they all to celebrate sharon last dae.... sharon leave the comapny le then next week is ken... as usal we crap a lot.... we went k box... then after tt went to have our dinner at a very nice place... the food was good n the service too... n it is not very ex... then we went to help sunny to shop for clothes.... he wan to change his image.... so he bought a shirt n we teach him how to wear.... it was very fun to hang out wit them..... don noe next meeting is when le... even k box onli got mi sharon sunny meifang n her hubby it was fun.... then we talk abt regina.... then sunny keep saeing don push to him.... it is juz a joke la.... heard tt regina offended a lot of ppl.... i don realli like her.... coz she had offended mi a lot of time regard to work or personal.... she is the type tt don noe wat can sae n wat cannot sae....




this is to indicate to my dear..... dear 你说过的我们要一起分享我们的喜怒哀乐.... 不可以只是分享快乐..... but i am still happi when u told mi in the end... i don wan to have anymore next time of this case le....

todae went to meet up wit my dear sis fiona... it was a last min decision.... coz i was gg to erupt soon le.... i was so angry due to some things but i don wan to sae it here if wan to noe ask mi personally... as usual we crap a lot... she too stress by sch work le... she slim down coz too stress... she muz take care woa.... as usual we chat a lot.... then after went home after shopping at northpoint for a while as both of us r exhausted.... i love to hang out wit her.... she always brighter my dae.... she make mi laugh.... then on my way home in bus saw my junior christina... become chio le... tml is gg to be a tiring n bz dae for mi....




todae made my dear worry again... sorry dear... i didnt mean it... i was too bz working... coz got a lot of things to do n i onli manage to finish 1/4 onli... this mth is gg to be lots of work coz my boss sae one... then nvr sms or reply him.... dear was so worry until he call then i realise tt i had neglected him.... sorry dear...




I LOVE HANGING WIT MY DEAR N MY JIE MEIS... THEY ALWAYS MAKE MI SO HAPPI... CHANGE MY DAE....

todae went to celebrate my one mth wit my dear... we went to watch harry potter.... the show is onli ok ba but got a bit funny.... dear buy a pair of rings for mi n him todae... for our one mth he bought a pait of rings while i bought a pair of necklace.... after tt went for dinner n head back home.... as i request he to send mi home..... he send mi home till my doorstep.... coz he havent send mi home for sometime le... miss his company for sending mi back home... i noe he is very bz n tired la but he make the effort.... i realli appreciate it.... thx dear.....

todae was tired...

todae was a tiring dae for mi.... dear came to fetch mi after sch as he sae.... but he is late so meet him at mrt... then went to his hse to meet his mum... he already met my mum n dad le... all the comments abt my side to him r all gd... wonder how his mum feel abt mi.... then slack together at his hse... cannot always come my hse ma... haha... overall was not bad la...

erm... next week got math quiz... hai.... headache... todae my mum went to my cousin hse... kenna ask abt mi... they ask i got bf or not... my mum was so shock... she act blur coz she don noe how to ans... they when she went home she ask mi... haha... the other thing is my classmate all saw the photo of my bf le... all of them noe le... tt all ba... todae is another bz dae....

happi 1st mth

so fast one mth le... time seems to pass so fast for us... these daes make mi feel so blessed... let mi have the feeling of in love... he doted mi a lot.. make mi feel like a princess.... n a lot more....

todae went to meet crystal for lunch in sch.... so happi to see her again... as usual chat a lot la... she also become chio le... haha... these few daes nth much... was bz tt all... rushing for project n hw.... stress arh... but these few daes become happi woa.... smile a lot.... don noe y also... haha....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY KOR KOR HENRY... WISH U ALL UR DREAMS COME TRUE N FIND UR PRINCESS SOON.... THEN MUZ TELL MI THE GOOD NEWS WOA... UR XIAO MEI HERE WAITING FOR UR WEDDING DINNER.... WHEN WILL GIVE MI.....

todae went for the wedding dinner of my neighbour... it was quite fun... the food was not bad.... then my family crack a lot of jokes... the one who is helping the couple all drunk.... overall is laughing n laughing.... i also drink a bit... tackle them a bit.... tt all la...







THIS IS TO INDICATE TO MY DEAR.... DEAR SORRY THAT I HAD NEGLECTED U THESE TWO DAES... I WAS BUZY.... SORRY TO TO MAKE U FEEL THAT WAY.... U R MY ONLI ONE FOR NOW N FOREVER.... I ONLI WAN U.... U MAKE MY LIFE SO COMPLETE WIT U.... U BRING MI BACK THE OLD CHEERFUL MI.... U R THE ONE WHO LET MI NOE TT IT IS SO WONDERFUL TO BE LOVED BY U.... U R THE ONE WHO MAKE MI SMILES.... U R THE ONE WHO SHOW MI LOTS N LOTS OF CARE N CONCERN.... U R THE ONE WHO IS THERE FOR MI WHEN I NEEDED U.... U R MY EVERYTHING.... U R THE ONE WHO SHOWER MI WIT LOTS N LOTS OF LOVE.... U R THE ONE WHO NOE MI THE BEST... SORRY THAT I HAD LET U THINK TT WAY.... PLEASE FORGIVE MI HAO MA.... I NOE TT U FEEL BAD COZ U THINK U HAD NOT DONE ENOUGH FOR MI N U DON HAVE THE TIME FOR MI.... BUT TO MI, I FEEL TT U HAVE DONE A LOT N DONE UR BEST.... U SPEND EVERY MOMENT TT U HAVE JUZ FOR MI.... NO MATTER HOW BZ, U STILL GIVE MI UR TIME... NO MATTER HOW TIRED U R, U STILL MAKE THE EFFORT TO CHAT N MEET UP WIT MI.... EVEN THE TIME IS VERY SHORT U STILL GIVE MI.... DEAR I REALLI APPRECIATE FOR WAT U HAVE DONE JUZ FOR MI.... U MAKE MI FEEL SO BLISSFUL.... I JUZ WAN TO TELL U THAT I LOVE U A LOT... MY LOVE FOR U GET DEEPER N DEEPER EACH DAE..... LIKE U SAE I HAVE BECAME PART OF UR LIFE.... U HAVE ALSO BECAME PART OF MY LIFE.... I WILL NVR LET U GO.... I LOVE U DEAR.....

these few daes gg to slp late due to projects n hw... i have less then 3 weeks to complete 4.... then also need to study n understand wat tt lec teach... so stress... then face gg to have more pimples again... arh.... sch was fine la... juz too much work onli...



then wed was out wit candy to shop for her stuff... her sch one.... went to orchard to check the prices... then she also plan wat to buy n how much she need to buy.... then after tt went to amk hub to eat mos n shop for a while then i go home as she was catching a movie wit her friend.... last nite didnt went for coffee wit candy n chin yong... too tired...



dear sae i have no smile nowadaes.... he thought something happen to mi... is no la... juz too stress onli.. sch start is like this... after a while i will change back.... don worry too much dear... i am fine... i will give u the cheerful n smiling mi back again.... todae went to cck to meet him for a while... he is too tired... not having enough sleep these few daes.... he was bz doing project n working... this weekend he is not gg to have enough rest also... he wanted to help mi out wit mine but i sae no... coz i noe he is too tired n bz le.... then he also wan to teach mi.... so rejected him... dear when i need i will tell u... sorry i rejected u coz i wan u to rest more.... thx for showing mi so much care n concern... thx for doting mi so much.... thx for making mi smile always... thx for loving mi... thx for all the things u did n wat u sae... i am realli touched n realli appreciate....



tml gg to ade hse to slack... havent seen her for a long time liao... so happi... wit ade i wont stop laughing one.... then meeting crystal next week for lunch in sch...todae jio her but she didnt bring her phone... so next week lol... tt all gg to rest le...

these few daes is gg to be bz n gg to have a lot of late nites... as i need to rush out my projects n hw... got a lot of things to do... then i was tired too.... at last i adjuz back liao... not in holi mood... is realli serious mood.... coz stress la..... i have ard 3 weeks or less to finish 4 projects... haiz...









dear sae i had no smile in my face le... face always black black one... no la is juz too much stress liao... don worry i am fine one... i will not stress myself too much... then will be much happi.... todae went to meet up wit him for a while... he is tired la... not having enough rest.... rushing for projects n working... dear muz take care woa...







was out wit candy on wed... accompany her go orchard to shop... then







lastly have been thinking a lot.... things happen too much also.... don wan to think le... juz let it be natural.... tt all...

todae went out wit dear to watch transformer... dear treated mi movie... the show not bad... it was a nice movie... todae we were so coincidence... wear the same colour of shirt.... then last sun went to meet dear n we took a few photos... got my photos liao.... wit him i will nvr fail to laugh... he sae tt i don laugh... is not i don laugh... i guess is lack of sleep plus stress tt y no smile.... but i will return back wit my smile one... yest start sch... sch was alrite... gg to be bz liao... got a lot of work plus project to do..... gg to die... will lack of slp... tt all gg to slp le.... ya... these weekend gg to ade hse... havent been to her hse for some time.. then can slack n crap together.... but crystal cant... she got to work....





yest was lai n eugene chan 19th birthdae... wish them all their dreams n wishes come true... then lai will not be sad anymore... haha... happi belated birthdae to them.....

todae didnt went for my chalet coz my parents don allow mi to go... so i didnt go.... then todae was not a bad dae... he came to my hse n my parents meet him... not bad la the overall feedback... then slack the dae wit him... chatted a lot....

todae screw up my pprs again... serious need to jia you... muz get all my doubts clear.... if not i will fail those modcule... so from this week onwards i am gg to study wit my friends... dear sae he is gg to find time to teach mi... hope he can find the time ba.... as for my dear friend candy who is sick please realli take care.... i havent seen dear for abt a week le ba... miss him a lot... he is so bz.... as for all my friends jia you woa.... tml gg for chalet....

yest screw up my math ppr... don noe how to do... my mind went blank... too stress le... muz jia you woa.... the rest of the ppr muz jia yo.... i wan to do well for my studies n everything... so i will push myself....

thurs nite was bbq... it was not bad... quite fun... enjoy myself a lot but nvr take photo... totally forget... haha... bbq got candy , chin yong, fernandes, rayner, wei woon, wan ting, james, felicia, suvit, tommy n mi.... not many ppl but we enjoy... then tommy mi n suvit stay overnight... chat a lot ba.. somethign did happen... then yest came back... slp all the way till todae morning.... todae morning went out wit my mum... after tt slack at home then go n give tution....

todae slack another dae.... suppose to meet him but he is tired so we cancel.... then he can rest at home... ltr gg to work... n i have taken up another student... thurs bbq.... looking so forward to it... n fri dinner wit crystal n ade... havent crap wit them for some time le... remember the last time was my crystal birthdae which was a few mths ago.... wit ade ard there will always be laughter... i am looking forward to thurs n fri...

haiz... 1 week past le... i havent start doing things... faint.... todae went to study wit alexa.... this week past so fast... it was fun.... feel so bless to be with him.... thx for her help.....

todae went to jk to eat wit helen lg regina sunny henry n li ying... wonder y i go eat wit them again... coz i went to see helen ma... then saw fangpeng ivan ah chua kim boon eddie talk a while wit them then also talk to andy too... then went back to crap wit them... after tt headed to give tution.... ok la... these few daes was not bad la... feel so bless coz of someone special... i think i had met him le.... also coz of my friends surrounded by mi.... they give mi support all the while... thx to everyone... my ex colleagues n jie meis.... the main reason is him... he always make mi laugh... make my dae so happy..... shld not sae here who is the him.... he noe it can le....

todae morning went to eat qq noodles wit henry, meifang, sunny, liyin n sharon..... it was fun... kenna shoot until quiet.... then after tt went to meet my friend tommy... then went to eat dinner n walk ard... after tt he send mi home... thx for sending mi home.....

todae went to play meet suvit to play pool..... then he introduce another friend to mi call tommy.... after tt went to chat.... then suvit left.... left mi n tommy n his god sister n their friends.... then not long we leave n i head hm.... todae quite fun as i laugh a lot... haha... but i miss my class bbq.... tt all... todae was quite a fun dae....

阿公逝世三周年

今天是我的阿公逝世三周年... 很快三年就这样过去了.... 虽然阿公过逝世了但是他永远活在我心 里... 他是一位很凶的老人但是他很疼我们.... 他很关心我们 大家.... 他是一位很慈祥的爷爷.... 我很想念他.....

我讨厌两头蛇的人.... 见人说人话, 见鬼说鬼话..... if u like to kpo n gossip so much.... then go away from mi... don nth to do find something to do.....




now here doing my personal development project.... these few daes although i having break but i am bz..... meet up wit ppl, working n doing hw... tml gg to get my pay le... so happi.... thinking of getting another student.... gg t do my work le....



crap a bit here... i realise tt henry is a very fun n cute kor... but he don like to reply to sms one... he is quite a nice guy.... ok shall stop here... sae more another time.....

yest went to see huang yida.... he is so handsome.... then todae slp the whole dae... the photos r here... upload here.... last sat at k box n shopping.....


mi n irene daughter

irene n mi

irene n mei fang

darren n irene

as usual i fail 2 out of 3 lab test.... one is analogues n the other is computer programming... analogues i have to study realhard for my theory... so i am gg to mug for my this theory in order to pass formy common test as this is combined... lab test + theory ppr..... then the computer programming have to based on my project n the next theory common test which fall during the school start as each contain 30%... my lab test of 20% is gone as i fail.... when my lec show mi the results i already noe..... then the other lab test i pass but it will combined wit my lab book... then it will combined again wit my theory ppr.... this theory ppr is hard.... as not many ppl will pass.... so muz mug hard.... after tml is 2 weeks of breaks... it is study break after tt it will be my theory ppr common test.... 3 pprs altogether- engineering maths, electical circuits n principles n lastly analogues... so these 2 weeks will be mugging n mugging... haiz.........

I HATE BEING ACCUSE

I HATE BEING ACCUSE FOR THE THINGS I DIDNT DO N WIT NO EVIDENCE.... SO KEEP UR MOUTH SHUT WHEN U DON NOE ANYTHING.... DON JUMP INTO ANY CONCLUSION WHEN U DON NOE A SINGLE THING... if u so free got nth to do go n work la.... don idle ard.... i noe u got nth to do at home so plz go n find things to do n don juz sit down n chat n accuse mi for nth when u don noe anythings.... my bills juz used more so wat need to be sae by u meh... n somemore sae mi wat..... 出去乱来..... u noe mi so much meh.... wat i do outside u noe is it... don sae mi until i am so indecent when i am not this type of ppl.... BILLS HIGH CAN SAE BY U ALLLIKE THIS MEH.... MY BILL IS JUZ AVERAGE OF WAT NORMAL PPL USAGE OK... n somemore I PAY FOR MY OWN BILLS.... I WORK TO PAY FOR MY BILLS.... NOT LIKE U ALL PAY FOR UR CHILDREN... u all noe wat ur children do outside ma... don noe rite then why u have the right to sae mi..... if u all don noe wat ur child do outside then jolly keep ur mouth shut.... when u noe wat ur child did outside then sae mi..... AT LEAST MY PARENTS NOE..... DON LET MI SCOLD BAD WORDS TO U... I NOE THIS IS NOT RESPECTING BUT PLEASE GET THE FACTS CLEAR FIRST..... IF NOT DON BLAME MI FOR BEING RUDE N NASTY TO U...

todae i don noe how to do my cp... gg to fail ..... i guess coz i also nvr finish.... haiz....

was out wit irene meifang n irene family.... not bad la... we went shopping but we don see wat we like so we went to sing k box... from 5 plus till 9 plus then darren came to join us... after tt went to yishun to eat... then went back home... but realli a lot of fun hanging wit them also chat a lot...

HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO CHENG GUAN

happi 19th birthdae to cheng guan... wish u all the best n good luck....